#brainweird blogging

[femmeduskwight]

man. i'm sorry to be this but i am having an Atrocious day mentally so if anyone has like. funny horse pictures. wols being pretty. idfc. anything. pls.

[bubonickitten]

Goblin.Tools

So, yesterday a friend told me about Goblin.Tools, which uses AI to break down tasks (intended for neurodivergent folks whose executives like to dysfunction). (Admittedly, right now it does use OpenAI's models, but the About page expresses an intention to eventually move to more ethical options.)

ANYWAY, I wanted to play around with it and the first thing that popped into my head was "break kneecaps." I expected it to give a snarky "I can't tell you how to do that" response, but... well, here are some of the breakdowns it gave me:

Does it have any useful advice regarding late-stage capitalism?

What if I want to multitask?

I can't decide which of these is funnier:

I'm supposed to be doing an assignment about AI right now, but this is my serotonin for the foreseeable future.

[curiouscarnifex]

ADHD/Memory Issues/ND/Ect Life Life Tip:

If you constantly forget things between rooms or when going out get two bags, one for going out and one for inside. Bonus if they're both easily visible and distinguishable at a distance.

Anything you need goes in the appropriate bag, if possible when you'd need something indoors and out have one for each bag. And I do mean anything you'd need

I've got deodorant, an umbrella, a snacks and a water bottle, tylenol, multiple allergy meds, chapstick, an extra mask, an a variety of other things I might need during the day in my going out bag.

And in the inside bag I've got my journal, charger, phone, chapstick, another water bottle, pencil case, and anything else I'll need that day.

If you aren't using it, it goes in the bag. As soon as you realize you need to take something anywhere put it into the appropriate bag

Its a lot easier to remember everything you need when its located in one or two places. And things are significantly less stressful when you know you'll have a back up plan together if you forgot something or something comes up unexpected.

[metapianycist]

i ordered a drop spindle and some roving wool from the internet last week because my brain tells me that when my second kid is about to be born is the perfect time to start a new hobby 🙃

i mean, i also wanted to use a spindle to ply one of my yarns that's too thin so i can finally finish a project that's been stalled for almost a year

also spinning is a quiet activity that’s compatible with being in the same room as a sleeping baby

[butchattano]

honestly sometimes i absolutely adore being autistic and having adhd because when i love something i adore it and there’s nothing so great as being able to watch or do something you know will comfort and entertain you because it has been a special interest/comfort item for years

[charlemane]

is, like... lack of emotional object permanence a thing?

I’m not talking about lack of relationship object permanence. I mean, like... every single time I experience an extreme emotion (it seems like it particularly applies to negative emotions) I feel like it’s my first time ever experiencing that emotion. 

When my friends talk about emotions they’re currently experiencing, I have trouble connecting to them, because unless I happen to be feeling the same emotion as they are at that moment, I feel like I’ve never felt that emotion at all. (I also have low empathy sometimes, so that’s probably tangled up in it.)

On a cognitive level, I can look back through my life and label things: oh, that’s a time when I was very happy; oh, that’s a time when I was breaking down. On an emotional level, though, every time I break down, it feels like it’s the first breakdown I’ve ever had. Earlier today I caught myself thinking “this is the only breakdown I have ever had in my life,” and that’s just... patently not true. But it sure felt true in the moment.

Anyone else have this? Is this within the ranges of normal experience? Any tips for working through / with it?

[bubonickitten]

love how sometimes i’m like “oh, i should put this somewhere safe so i don’t lose it and know exactly where to find it later!” and about a month later i’m standing in my ransacked room trying to get into past me’s mindset like some kinda amateur historian on one of those history channel treasure hunting shows trying to get into the mind of a nineteenth century pirate to figure out where they hid some possibly nonexistent apocryphal loot

[bubonickitten]

so who else does that ADHD thing where you’re stuck in a vicious “things to do” feedback loop except miraculously it’s mostly stuff you actually WANT to do???

anyways i’m just sitting here staring at the computer screen cycling wildly between “write?? take dog for walk?? take CAT for walk?? go to garden center and browse for more succulents that i definitely don’t need?? play vidya game??” 

like it’s all stuff i wanna do today but bc i can’t decide which i wanna do first i’m just like. “let me sit here for an hour and reduce the chances i’ll get all of these things done bc garden center closes at 5pm. oh yeah i still have that succulent care youtube video open in one of these many many tabs. let’s watch that again”