Twihard. No shame.
I said goodbye to the Twilight Saga today. I know, that sounds just a tad pathetic but I have a lot to be thankful for when it comes to the series. The first time I heard of Twilight, I was laying on my bed watching some T.V. show when a T.V. spot came on for it. I thought it looked preposterous, ridiculous, stupidest thing I'd ever seen; I even went around talking about it to random people about how dumb it sounded. I mean, a vampire falling in love with a human? What kind of story is that? Still, there was something about it that stuck and for some reason I couldn't stop thinking about it. So out of blatant curiosity, I ventured on YouTube where I watched the trailer for it and the hit music video "Decode" which was written and performed by Paramore for the Twilight soundtrack. I became intrigued, interested and now desperate to see the movie. Soon came almost the end of December and I told my mom, you HAVE to take me to see this movie. She agreed and after inviting my friend Jaymin, the three of us headed off to a movie theater near us. I could hardly sit still waiting for the movie to start; I was so excited. Then, it happened. I fell in love. It's as simple as that. I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.. I mean, it. On the way home from the movie theater, I begged my mom to stop at Wal-Mart which was on the way home and pick me up the first book. Now, to give you a little bit of a background about my reading history, well... I had none. For a short period of my childhood I read A Series of Unfortunate Events, but even then I never completed the series. You can imagine my mother was a little reluctant to spend money on a book that I would most likely never read. However, she's an avid reader herself and she had hoped that maybe this series would kindle a fire in me for literature. And it did. I remember flying, quite literally, flying through the first book and demanding the second, the third and the final fourth book. I couldn't get enough of Edward and Bella's relationship, of Jacob and his impressive half naked-ness, of the Cullen's and their compassion; it made me happy. Really happy. I slowly realized that I was a romantic inside. A big, cheesy, romantic. I also discovered my passion for reading, my passion for romance novels galore. Once I finished the series, which by the way, I never thought four books were enough, I began to follow the making of the movie New Moon; the next movie in the series. I found a website named newmoonmovie.org. This website gave me everything; all the details going into the film and details about the actors and actresses in general. Of course, I began following it religiously. Then the release came; the release of New Moon. I was still a little young at that time and my mom wouldn't allow me to attend midnights, but I did, however, convince her to let me skip my morning classes the next day and attend the first showing with my friend Jaymin and her older sister Jessa. I still think it's a miracle, to this day, that my mom let me go. She was a real stickler on grades back then. But I'm glad she let me because New Moon was SENSATIONAL! It was real treat, a real excitement for me, finally seeing the movie I've been following so closely through trailers, MTV movie awards and information given to me on newmoonmovie.org. Now I just had to wait for Eclipse which was to be released only a short 6 months after. You can imagine my excitement when I heard that;)! Even though I passed the waiting time with eclipsemovie.org, I still need something else. More Twilight or more romance. So I turned to more Y.A. (Young adult) books which were sure to have a romance like Bella and Edward in it. I started to become increasingly more passionate about reading and then, writing. I can't remember the exact day when I decided I wanted to be a writer, but ever since Twilight I can't remember wanting to be anything else. Obviously, I began to be grateful for the series and become more committed to it. Along came June and I got tickets to the midnight. My first ever midnight premiere with some friends from high school. I can still remember screaming when the movie started and waiting for people to look at me like an idiot, except they were screaming to. I had discovered a whole new community. Eclipse was amazing. AMAZING! But now I had to wait a whole YEAR AND A HALF for Breaking Dawn Part I (I was stoked when I saw it was being made into 2 parts, obviously). However, that was a really long wait. In between that wait, I partied, I read, I wrote, I studied in school, got kick ass grades and I watched in dismay as my best friends growing up fell in love and got there heart's broken. I knew "happy ever afters" didn't happen every day, but they did happen, right? I was beginning to doubt. My mother and father seemed perfectly happy but what about everyone else? Some of my friend's parents were getting divorced, all my friends were running in and out of relationships and a lot of them, giving up something really sacred; their virginity. I decided one day that that wasn't going to be. I refused to be just another girl in a guy's life; I knew I deserved better than that. Sure, wanting an Edward was a little bit of a stretch, but I wasn't about to lower my standards and settle for someone who didn't make me happy. So now here comes graduation, only months away from Breaking Dawn Part I and I'm still sticking with my beliefs. No sex until I fall in love. I don't want to regret giving away something so precious to a complete asshole. Here comes BDPI, and I'm happy. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I know myself. And knowing the next movie was about to start, only made me more happy. Their marriage, their love scene, their daughter, everything although, not a usual relationship, seemed so perfect. I wanted that. And I will have it one day. So then the next year comes along, the next and final movie of the series and I was dreading it. I was excited and I wanted to see it, but I knew once I did, it'd be the end. Still, time goes on. I attended the midnight, as what has become my tradition for these movies, and I said goodbye (sort-of). My final goodbye happened today. When I watched the final movie on DVD and all the special features that came along with it. Of course, I bought the exclusive edition so 1 movie and 2 disks of special features done and it was finally goodbye. I cried, naturally. Because I'm a wimp. But I also smiled, laughed and thanked the series for everything. For making me become who I am today. For helping me discover who I want to be. For helping me mold and shape my beliefs. And for being there for me, when it didn't always feel like someone was. Thank you. Thank you. I can't say it enough. And goodbye. <3
