i hate being sick but also i love that i have over 250 hours of sick pay to use and also that the election is tomorrow and my job is a voting site also i love that i already voted so i can bed rot allllllllllll day tomorrow because my boss told me basically to take a sick day and my best friend and i already agreed to have a relaxing day and bake cookies and i hate that i can’t sleep with my boyfriend this week but i love that no matter what he’s always checking on me to make sure i’m okay and last night he was my personal heater and was so ready to run out and grab vics and cough drops but i didn’t let him bc it was late and i just wanted to be held. i hate how i’m a brat when i’m sick but i love how tender i’m treated by everyone around me. my mom packed me a bag with teas and cough drops, my boyfriend brought me vics in the morning, my cousin made me tea because he noticed me in the room sick. i love all the people i surrounded myself with. i found myself clicking the unfollow button today on someone who no longer served me and i just appreciate my inner ability to pick wisely the people in my life and the content i expose myself to. while i’m at it, i was watching this Michael Moore documentary called 11/9 and you should seriously go watch it if you haven’t. i feel extremely uneducated in all things life but at least i understand it’s never too late to learn. my 7 year old nephew is in his knowitall stage and we had to school him on the phrase “you learn something new everyday” and “the day you think you know it all is the day you stop learning” and how there is always knowledge to gain and just teaching him the importance of not responding “i know; i already knew that” (when he clearly didn’t/doesn’t). anyway. i feel like watching that documentary stunned me into feeling healthy in some weird way. i’m not by all means and i’m going to force myself to get rest after posting this but before i go into november 5th, 2024 i need to be able to tell myself some positive things and manifest a better tomorrow, even though i know the work is never going to be done. anyway be a voice today tomorrow and forever. goodnight xx