BTS Reaction- They Meet Their Child For The First Time
When you found out you were pregnant you felt a whirlwind of emotions. Of course you were happy to be having the child of the man you loved, but you felt like now was literally the worst time to be having a child. He had just explained the new concept to you and he was excited for the world wide tour that would last all year, and you were beyond excited for him and very proud how far he had come. You knew the minute you told him you were pregnant he would want to drop everything to be with you. You couldn't bare being the reason he let's so many fans down, his friends down and his company down. You knew he would resent making that choice, so you made it for him.
You kissed him goodbye at the airport and watched as he joined his friends in line for the plane. You smiled at him knowing this was the right choice, he had to go and him dropping everything just to be with you while you were pregnant was silly. The baby would only be three months old by the time he got home, so it's not like he was missing too much of the babies life. Besides it's not like it'll be your last child either so, you weren't really worried about it. Sure it would be hard to be pregnant on your own, but so many other women did it, and you knew you could too. It was also hard not to tell Jin everything that was happening, every milestone you were hitting, so you took pictures of your belly, saved every ultrasound and put it all into this baby book with little notes so Jin could read it later.
Delivery and labor were probably the hardest part of your pregnancy journey but you were thankful your friends and family were there to support you, even though none of them would be as great as Jin. You spent the next three months learning how to take care of a tiny human, one whom took his fathers looks, it was like falling in love all over again. You were trying to get the baby to sleep at 2 in the morning and had forgotten Jin was coming home and when he walked in he was a little stunned. "Jagi... Who's baby?" he asked walking up behind you wrapping his arms around your waist, resting his head on your shoulder looking down at the child, his breath hitched. "Is he... is he ours?" he asked quietly, you smiled down at the wide eyed boy "Yes," you answered simply.
He had to pull away from you and take a deep breath, this was a lot of information, and he was feeling a lot of things. He felt happy yet angry, and scared and sad but excited, every emotion. "How could you not tell me?" he finally whimpered, you sighed walking over to him "Because Jin, I knew you'd drop everything-" "Of course I would!" he glared at you "He's my child too, of course I wanted to be there for you," he whispered yelled not wanting to scare the baby. "I know you would've but you couldn't and I didn't want you to be angry and upset the whole time on tour," you told him. You held up the baby to look at him and he couldn't help but smile a bit "I wanted it to be a surprise present," you added wigging the baby around a little.
You placed the baby in his arms, and as if he were meant to be there he nuzzled into his fathers chest and let out a little content sigh before going to sleep. You watched Jin, his smile grew, tears well in his eyes and you could literally see his heart melting within his chest. You wrapped your arms around Jin leaning your head against his shoulder "It's like he knew he was in his Appa's arms," you cooed. "Appa," he repeated shaking his head a bit in disbelief before looking at you "I'm an appa," he said slightly excited, you kissed his cheek "And he's your son," you told him before running your thumb across the baby's cheek. "I made you a scrap book of everything you missed if you want to see it," you told him, he nodded his head "Please," he said quietly taking out his phone to take a picture of them and send it to the boys.
You and Yoongi ended on a very bad note. Not that the two of you didn't love each other, you loved each other too much, that was the problem. He was always busy and so were you, it was hard to ever get together. There were harsh words that neither of you meant, and loud voices, eventually ending in a break up, and a door slamming behind you never to see him again. Only a week later did you realize that you were pregnant, and at this point the damage was too deep and it seemed to late to even try to go back to him. He made it clear that music would always be the most important thing in his life and you didn't want to subdue your child to the same kind of treatment, although any dad is better than no dad.
It was hard to be a single pregnant woman, people always asking about the father and if you are married, it was kind of like scrubbing salt into a already infected wound. It hurt because you still loved him. But you managed and had a beautiful baby boy, you were glad he looked a lot like his father but it also pained you every time you saw his little smile, matching the exact gummy smile of his father. Most of the time you were happy, but there were some nights you spent sobbing your eyes out wishing you weren't doing this alone, honestly you wished you had Yoongi by your side. It was hard, but nothing is easy right?
The one year old was fascinated by the Kdrama you had put on, and of course it had to be the one with Yoongi's band member Taehyung, you never really get a break. Suddenly there was a knock on the door and you headed over pulling the door open only to be met with someone you hadn't expected to see. This was the first time seeing him after the longest time. You felt the ache in your chest reawaken. How did you look into the eyes of the man you lost, you smiled. All the stories he had told you, chapters of his life, every single one flooding back. He never had to tell you but you figured he wanted to anyway. You listened, you cried, and you'll never forget how you laughed. He was your escape and you were his.
Still after a year there was something about him that you could never quite define. But you knew that he had taught you how to love. Before him there was nobody, and after him there was nobody. And through all the time you spent with him he taught you that even in the most shattered hearts, beauty still exists. You had both spent at least a minute just looking over each other "H-hello," you greeted him, he sighed "I've missed you," he said making your heart flutter. "I crave your lips when I want a kiss. And I still choose your arms when I want to be held. And I still wish you'd speak to me when I'm feeling lonely. It's always been you, and I'm scared it will always be," he admitted in a soft voice making tears well in your eyes.
"I can't unlove you," you whispered your voice breaking getting him to smile slightly, his eyes remained sad "I still love you." You had sad those words to your child so many times it was no wonder he started mocking the noises from your living room. Eventually he came waddling over and looked up at you mimicking the words. You were wide eyed as you looked between the two before picking your son up on your hip. He shook his head in disbelief but smile anyways "I wasn't sure it Hoseok really had seen you with a child or not," he said softly not wanting to scare the kid. "Yoongi... I-" you didn't have words to explain to him why you never told him, he shook his head disregarding your thought.
"I understand why, I do," he assured you "Things ended badly, and it's mostly my fault. I wish you would've told me, but I understand why've you done this," he said. Despite what people think of him, he is a very understanding person, he gets shit, he gets life. "His name is Y/C/N," you told him, he smiled "He's beautiful, like his eomma," you said. You looked at the little boy "This is your appa," you cooed before pointing at Yoongi, your sons eyes following your finger. "Appa?" he asked tilting his head to the side, you nodded kissing the kids cheek. "Do you mind if I hold him?" he asked holding out his hands, you allowed him to take him from your and your heart skipped a beat. The image of the two is exactly what you had hoped it would be.
"I don't think I can't be a part of his life, Y/n," you told you looking over the boy before looking at you "I don't think I can't be a part of your life," he added getting you to blush. This was how soft you were for him. "I know it will be hard and there's things we need to work out, but I'd rather do that with you and him then start over with someone else," he was practically begging at this point. You smiled wrapping your arms around yourself "I think we can work something out," you replied allowing him into the house. This was a start of a new beginning and both of you were equally as excited and ready.
You left him a note explaining that you still loved him, but the timing was all off for the two of you. He was too busy with his idol life and you were ready to settle down as a family. Well, not at first, but when you found out you were pregnant you knew he wouldn't be ready for a child. His life was crazy, fun, and he should be able to live it to his fullest, a child wouldn't help that. So you left him. You knew he would be in pieces for a while, you were too, but this was for the best and you knew he would get over it. He was strong and so were you.
For the most part that is. Around 7 nearly 8 months you felt something wrong with your body and rushed yourself to the hospital, only to find out that the chord had wrapped around the baby's neck. You were terrified and felt like you couldn't breath, you had already lost the love of your life, you couldn't lose the baby too. They had to call your emergency contact and just your luck it was Hoseok, of course at the mention of you being in the hospital caused him to rush over. He was even more shocked to find you were pregnant and on the verge of a panic attack. He recovered quickly knowing now was not the time for questions, he rushed to your side and took your hand in his smiling at you.
"I-i'm s-sorry," you whimpered closing your eyes hoping to stop the tears, he kissed the side of your head "Shhh, we can talk about it later, what's wrong?" he whispered calmly. You choked on your tears a little "T-he baby's chord is wrapped around it's neck," you explained as best you could. Imminently he felt a sense of protection over the baby he never knew existed "What are they going to do?" he questioned, you sniffled opening your red eyes "They have to do a C-section," you replied. Your grip on his hand tightened "Hoseok I'm scared," you whispered, if he was being honest he was terrified too, but he would remain strong for you, he had too. "It's okay, I'm here now, you're not alone," he told you.
They allowed him to come into the surgery room with you since you'd be awake during the surgery anyway. He was running his fingers through your hair, every other time looking over the blanket to see what was going on. "Hobi-Hobi- what's going on," you asked getting him to look at you "Not really sure," he replied quietly kissing your forehead "It just looks like a lot of blood and guts," he added. He managed to calm your nerves down, and even smile a little bit, it was almost as if you two never broken up. Only your little reunion was cut short when the cries of a baby started happening, both of your looking as they rushed the baby away. "Congratulations! It's a girl!" the doctor said.
Tears spilled out your eyes for two reasons, one your baby was alive and healthy, and two you were not alone. "Did you get to see her?" you asked him softly, he nodded a tear welling in his eye as he looked at you "She was beautiful, you did well," he said with a smile. For the first time that night you felt a sense of relief, but that lasted a minute as you knew you'd have to explain yourself to Hoseok, and you knew he would be mad, if not furious. Once they had sewn you back up you were returned to your room, feeling overly exhausted by what had just happened. They brought the baby in and you told them to give her to Hoseok first so you could calm yourself down.
The sight of him holding the little bundle was enough for you to feel your heart melt, this is what you always imagined when you had a kid, and it could've been. "Hoseok," you said getting him to look at you "I'm sorry for leaving, but I didn't want to ruin your life. Maybe it was too selfless or selfish, I don't know, but I'm really glad you were here with me," you told him getting him to smile. "It's okay Jagi, look at this beautiful angel you gave me," he replied, he used one of his hands to hold yours "But you never have to worry about me okay? We are a team, and I'd rather do hard stuff with you than easy stuff with anyone else," he added. You nodded your head "I love you Jung Hoseok," you told him, he smiled looking at the baby "I love Jung Y/C/N," he teased before looking at you "And you too."
It wasn't like you wanted to break up with Namjoon, in fact neither of you wanted to break up. You even snuck around together when he told them you had broken up, but eventually you were caught and the world came crashing down. You were blocked from his life. Literally. He had no way to contact you, and you weren't allowed to see him. When you found out you were pregnant you were happy but then terrified because you had to do this by yourself. Of course you wanted to tell Namjoon, but even when you pleaded with the managers and told them the situation they sent you off with a boot in the rear. You were baggage he couldn't afford.
You cried for days. For yourself. For the baby. For Namjoon. It was scary to be a single mother and it was also sad that Namjoon would never know he had a mini me running around. You wanted more than anything to be able to share this amazing wonderful thing that had happened. But you believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. You decided to make this the most beautiful moment in life. Instead of seeing as the scary thing it was, you had made it the most amazing thing that had happened. You took photos and posted them for your family to see, you let everyone know how happy you were with this life you were going to live.
Labor and delivery were a bitch but it was worth it to see the beautiful boy you were blessed with. Of course you updated everyone every day of the child's life, it was when he first sat up and grew a tooth when you started thinking about Namjoon again. For a while he ceased to exist, but as your little boy grew the more he looked like his father. You were snapped out of your thoughts when there was a knock on the door, quickly you put the little boy in his play pen before rushing to open the door. You literally gasped when you opened the door "Joonie?" you said a smile creeping on your lip "Hello Y/n," he replied. You loved him, so much, you threw your arms around his neck and hugged him.
He wrapped his arms around you, "Why didn't you come sooner," you whimpered before crying a little. His arms tightened, "Just because I let you go, doesn't mean I wanted to," he replied, it was a little more than a year since you had even seen him and having him this close made all the broken pieces come back together. You buried your face in his shoulder as he held you clos. All you could think about was how much you missed him. How you've needed his arms around you, needed him to hold you and whisper that they'd find a way to be together. "When I finally was able to find you I saw this boy... he looked like me and you, so I looked at every thing you posted... It was like you set me up," he teased.
You pulled away far enough to look at his face and smiled cupping his cheeks "Y/c/n looks so much like you," you said before stepping back into the house pulling him inside. You could see in his eyes how grateful he was towards you, apparently he thought you would have harsh feelings towards him. But you knew it wasn't up to him, if it were he would've been by your side, you know that with your heart, you couldn't blame him for what had happened between you two. You also knew that he needed to worry about his career, "Would you like to meet him?" you asked with a smile, he nodded his head and you lead him into the living room and picked the child out of the play pen.
You balanced him on your hip turning towards Joonie, "What to you think little man?" you asked looking at the child before his father "What do you think," you asked him. You could see the tears well in his eyes "I'm so sorry Y/n," he said looking at you, he felt the exact opposite way you wanted him to feel while meeting your child. You gave him a confused look "Why Joonie? Y/c/n is the best thing you've ever given me," you replied kissing the baby's cheek getting him to smile and giggle. "But I was there for you... I don't deserve you, either of you," he said hanging his head in shame "Kim Namjoon you take that back," you scolded getting him to look at you confused "I knew our life together was never going to be easy, but I chose to love you anyway, even when it was hard, even when I was mad, even right now, I chose to love you, because I knew you'd come."
You stepped over to him and forced the child into his arms who happily looked at the man holding him "You are a good man Joon," you assured him. The child rested his head on the man's shoulder, mumbling softly "I'm sorry," he said, you nodded understanding that there was nothing you could do to rid him of the guilt he felt. It was something he'd have to overcome himself, "I want you to be our family," You told him. He looked at you questioningly and you smiled softly "I'm still madly in love with you," you cooed wrapping your arms around him squishing the baby between you two. He smiled weakly "There hasn't been a day you haven't crossed my mind," he replied.
"So, stay Joonie," you said looking into his brown eyes, almost pleading, he looked down at the child who was fast asleep in his arms, and in that moment he knew. He couldn't miss out on any more milestones, he couldn't let you slip between his fingertips again, he wouldn't be able to bare it. "I want to be with you," he said firmly looking at you, "I want to be with you, and I don't care what anyone has to say, this is my family, you are my family." he was mostly talking to himself but you couldn't help but smile a little "Something as amazing as this only happens once in a person's life, and I am not going to waste my shot at true happiness." You leaned up and placed a gentle kiss on his lips "Good."
The moment the doctor explained to you that you were pregnant two things ran through your mind, the first being how happy and exited you were to be starting a family with the man you love, the second was how Jimin was going to react. The second thought started to get darker and darker as the doctor gave you a list of options. Of course you refused profusely and explained that you indeed wanted to keep the baby. You wondered if Jimin was ready to have a child, he was at the peak of his career, it really couldn't have been a worse time to get pregnant. You trudged your way back home, thinking of all the possibilities, all the reactions Jimin could have. You wanted to be prepared.
As soon as you entered the house Jimin ran up and wrapped himself around you kissing your face all over. Of course Jimin was always clingy like this, but today it felt even more obsessive, "What's going on Jimin-ah," you giggled as he pulled your towards the couch to cuddle. He smiled brightly, one that reached his eyes "We're going on tour," he squealed before attacking you in kisses and eskimo kisses. You giggled at the excited puppy you knew as your boyfriend "That's great Jimin," you said as he calmed down a bit "I'm happy too, but I will miss you a whole lot," he said with a pout. You kissed his jutted out lips "I will miss you too, but you'll be home before you know it," you told him.
You then took his hand in yours "I have a question for you Jimin," you said getting serious all the sudden, and he worried a bit, shifting uncomfortably "Yes, baby?" he questioned. You looked at him "What do you think about having children?" you asked getting him to sigh in relief "Well, of course I want children with you, someday, but we're so young and busy now, you know?" he said getting you to nod as the words seemed to disappear. "I just think it's better to wait you know," he said wrapping an arm around you. You felt like you were going to be sick, the fact that he didn't want kids yet and you were already pregnant causing you to feel panicked. So, you did probably the most immature thing and didn't tell him, even when he noticed your habits changing and weight shift.
You sent him off on his way and in a sad weird way you felt this giant relief taken off your shoulders. You no longer had to tip toe around everyone anymore, you could act like you truly were as pregnant as you were and a few months later a beautiful baby girl was born. She looked so much like her father yet so much like you. You never knew that something so small could control so much of your heart. You were so focused on being a mother you hadn't even thought about the fans that lived around the area, and the fact they could take pictures of you and the child. You completely forgot that your boyfriend had no idea you were having a baby. You were living in this false reality and were in for a real awakening.
You had just put the little one to sleep and walked down the stairs only to see your boyfriend, who should've been halfway across the world on stage somewhere, and he looked beyond pissed. "Jimin?" you asked walking towards him, "Why are you so confused when I was the one who didn't know the fuckin truth," he hissed getting you to stop in your spot. You pieced together what he was saying and felt a heavy weight take place on your chest "Jimin-" you said calmly but he was having none of it "Why wouldn't you tell me you were pregnant! Why didn't you tell me you had my daughter! Are you that fucking selfish? Did you want to keep her to yourself?" tears welled in your eyes as you looked to the floor.
"I didn't tell you because you said you didn't want kids yet... and because you were going on tour," you said quietly playing with your own fingers "So? You thought just keeping it to yourself was a way to go?" he snapped a little too loudly getting the baby to cry. Instinctively you ran to your little girl and picked her out of her crib shushing her sweetly wiping her tears away. "I know, I know," you cooed gently rocking her. Minutes later you managed to get her to fall asleep in your arms, and smile at her. She was your whole world after all. You looked towards the doorway to see Jimin leaning against the doorframe "If you're going to yell at me some more, wait downstairs," you said sarcastically looking away from him.
"I'm sorry." you had no expected to hear him say those words, you lifted your gaze to look at him "I shouldn't have snapped at you, I was just upset that you felt too scared to tell me and rather just do it on your own. I wanted to be there for you, both of you, and I wasn't," he said his voice cracking slightly. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you... Do you want to meet her?" you asked giving him a small smile, he nodded his head and you walked over to him holding the little girl. He looked down at her and broke into a smile, tears welling in the corners of his eyes "She's perfect," he whispered bringing up a finger to stroke her cheek. "What's her name?" he hummed as her little fingers wrapped around his "Y/C/N," you replied.
You looked at him and felt your heart melt "She could sleep with us if you want," you told him, he looked at you and couldn't help himself from pecking your lips. "I want to sleep with my girls," he mumbled against your lips before pulling back to look at the little girl. You giggled as the three of you shuffled into the bedroom. Jimin was first to change into his comfy clothes, you had him lay in bed before resting the sleeping child on his chest. He gently placed his hands on her, his heart melting in the process, you smiled before changing into your own clothes and joining the two in bed "You could lay her on the actual bed," you told him. He shook his head no "I want to spend the rest of forever like this," he replied closing his eyes, you moved closer snuggling into his side "She'll grow up eventually," you reminded. He smirked "We'll have more."
Everyone and their mother knew how Taehyung felt about kids. Just look at the way he looks at them and interacts with them, he's absolutely smitten with them. He was born to be a father. So you weren't really worried when you found out you were pregnant, in fact you were excited because you knew that's how he would be. However when you got home to tell him the whole apartment was empty. You searched around for your loving boyfriend only to find a note that said he was practicing today even though it was his day off. You huffed upset, but you knew this is what happens when you date an idol. Their day offs aren't really day offs, they are just days the company gives to see if their idol will practice on the day.
You took the time to make this big extravagant way to tell him he was going to be a father, knowing that he was very extra himself. It took you all day and a swing to the local store to set up a cute little surprise party. Only when Jin came into your apartment unannounced did you realize something was horribly wrong. "We've got to go," was all he told you as he helped you get your shoes on and brought you to the nearby hospital. Everyone was rushing around doctors, nurses, managers, then you noticed the boys all sitting in a waiting area. "What's going on?" you asked Jin as you both made your way over to them. "Taehyung got into an accident," he mumbled, you swear your heart stopped as tears welled in your eyes "What does that mean?" you asked.
"That means we are taking the best care of him we can," A doctor said getting everyone to jump up and look at her "He was pretty badly injured, we are trying to repair what we can, we will let you know more as soon as we know more," she added before walking off. "What happened?" you asked sitting down in the chair afraid you might faint. "H-he was biking home when out of nowhere this bus hits him-" you closed your eyes to stop the tears "He and the bike got mangled under the bus and then we brought him here," Yoongi explained. "How bad did he look?" you whispered trying to stay strong "Pretty bad," he replied honestly. You all waited in that room for what felt like hours before they informed you all that you could see him.
They had put him into a coma to help his body heal itself so he wasn't going to be able to move or say anything. They wanted you to be prepared. You were the first to go in your heart breaking as you looked over the love of your life barely holding onto his life. You ran your fingers over the bumps and bruises, kissing his face gingerly. You were the last one to leave, and the only one who never stopped crying. You visited him every day, even if it were just for a minute, to make sure that at least someone checked up on him. You hardly remembered you were pregnant except for the fact that your stomach continued to grow. You told him about the baby, even held his hand to your belly. Allowing him to feel the baby move.
Finally one day while you were visiting him you started having contractions and 12 painful hours later you gave birth to the most beautiful girl in the world. It almost made you forget that the love of your life was in an endued coma and maybe will never wake again, almost. You brought your daughter to visit Tae every day, telling her all the things you love about him, and how he was the most amazing person you had ever met. You also told her about how much he was going to love her, she was nearly an identical copy of you, and the whole world knew how much he loved you. She was six months when she muttered her first words, of course they were really words but she gibbered something close to Appa and you swear you could see his eyelid twitch.
You set his daughter down on top of his chest, she nuzzled into him letting out a tired yawn closing her eyes shut. And lo and behold he moved his hand up to her back and he slowly fluttered his eyes open and looked down at the little child on his chest. He broke into a tired boxy grin before looking at you "I thought you were pulling my leg," he said quietly, his throat not use to speaking after over a year and a half. An endless stream of tears rolled down your cheeks, you couldn't believe he was here. Blinking, breathing, talking. You've never felt so overwhelmed in your life, "You're too beautiful to be crying like that," he teased. He reached out and pulled you to lay with him, your face buried in the crook of his neck, his arm around you.
"I thought you'd never come back to me," you mumbled against his neck "And miss out on meeting my baby girl? Oh darling, I was just waiting for the right moment," he said kissing the side of your head. "I love you Taehyung, more than I can explain to anyone," you whispered holding onto him, "I love you too," he said before lifting up the sleepy baby to get a better look at her, he hummed contently "she's perfect isn't she?" he asked getting you to giggle and nod. He placed her back down on his chest, and you gently placed your arm over his on her small back, finally being able to hold your family. "Don't leave us again Tae," you mumbled closing your eyes "Never again, my love," he promised.
You were scared. You hands shook as you held the pregnancy test, waiting for it to decide your fate. You were still young, and a child is a lot of responsibility. You were nowhere near ready to be a mother, yet when the pregnancy test showed up that you were pregnant you couldn't stop the grin that crept on your face. Yes, tears rolled down your cheeks, and you were beyond terrified, but at the same time the most beautiful human miracle was given to you. You were terrified, beyond terrified, but this was something you had wanted to do, it just happened a little bit earlier than expected.
You knew that you had to tell Jungkook, no matter how scary it was, he was a father and he deserved to know. You also didn't want to do this thing on their own. You walked into the dorms and heard some familiar sounds. You headed towards Jungkook's room ignoring the fact that one of the other members had brought someone home, only as you got closer to his room, the noises got louder. You felt your heart tear as you placed your hand on the door handle and pulled it open, and that's when your heart tore. Tears welled in your eyes as you turned around covering your mouth with your hand as if to keep the sobs in.
"Y-y/n?" you heard Jungkook stutter behind you, in that moment you rushed towards the front door, pulling your shoes on as tears blurred your vision. You could no longer keep it all in as you let the heartbreaking whimpers leave your lips. You stood up with your untied shoes "Y/n," Jungkook said rushing over to you taking your hands into his. You quickly ripped them from him and almost unconsciously your palm connect to his cheek with a hard smack that rung throughout the dorm. The rest of his members soon appearing around but you didn't care, you grit your teeth "You are a fuckin asshole Jungkook," you hissed. He rubbed his burning cheek and looked at you "I- c-can explain," he said, you shook your head "You can't explain cheating."
"You had a choice, between me and her, and if you really loved me there wouldn't have been a choice for you to make," you said with your shaky voice, "I do love you, Y/n, I do I swear, I made a mistake-" you cut him off "You have no idea how worthless you just made me feel." He reached out for you but you slapped his hand away from you, "The hardest thing I'll ever do is walk away still loving you." you quickly turned around and rushed out the door getting away from him as fast as you possibly could, only to collapse into your bed and sob your eyes out. After your wrapped your arms around your stomach thinking about the child you were going to raise. A part of you hated the fact that it was half of the man you wrecked you, but the other part loved the child that was growing.
You loved him that day, and the next, and even the next ten months. Over that time period life was complicated. There were almost times you relapsed and went back to Jungkook, but instead you locked yourself in your room. You were weak some days. But you were also strong. You lost your shit and yell at people to get the fuck out. You broke down and begged someone to stay with you. Some days your felt everything all at once and other days you felt nothing at all. You had bad times, but you also had good ones. You cried on your knees hurting, begging someone to help. Some days you smiled and rubbed your hands over your stomach thanking whatever God gave you this beautiful life. Some days you knew exactly what you wanted, others you had no idea.
But once you had the little girl in your arms, nothing mattered anymore except her. To you she was the earth the sky and every single star. You loved her and that was the beginning and end of everything. You put the baby into her cute little stroller and started walking down the sidewalk, feeling happier than you've felt in a while. The two of you stopped at the local park, you sat on the bench the baby facing you and kicking her feet around as she looked at the world around her. You kissed her little feet getting her to smile and when you looked up you came face to face with something from your nightmares. Jungkook. All the color that once covered your face left and you became pale, the happiness you radiated completely shutting off.
Neither of you said anything. Too afraid to break the silence. Instead you looked over the man you loved and realized he was way skinnier, and bony, his eyes sunken in dark, he looks like he was slowly but surely dying. You noticed his gaze was on the little girl in the stroller, "Y/c/n," you broke getting him to nod as he looked her over. "Beautiful." he looked at you again "Just like you," he added. "Jungkook-" he cut you off "I'm sorry that I've hurt you... it's something I must live with everyday," he said kneeling down in front of you "Maybe you will never be able to forgive me, and I've accepted that, but I still want you to know that I love you." he rested his chin on the side of the stroller watching the little girl.
"If someone would've told us a year ago that at some point we'd never speak again, we would've laughed in their faces," he mumbled reaching his hand in to let the little girl hold and tug at his finger "I don't know about you, but I'm not laughing," he said. You watched the tears well in his eyes and he squeezed them shut "I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry," he whispered under his breath. The scene was enough to bring you to tears. People can always say they are sorry, but the real apology is when you hear the sadness in their voice and see the look in their eyes. And you realize that they have hurt themselves just as much. "Do you want to hold her?" you asked reaching into the stroller to pull her out, he nodded refusing to look into your eyes as you gently gave him the baby.
He leaned down and kissed her forehead before brushing his nose all over her face getting her to smile. A genuine smile broke on his lips as a giggle escaped hers. It was heartwarming. "Kook-ah?" you asked getting him to look at you "I still love you too," you whispered making yourself blush "But I need time, but we can still hang out and be a family or whatever," you told him. He nodded his head gratefully "I'd wait forever it we'd end up together," he informed you getting you to smile slightly at how cheesy he was "You will have to make it up to me," you added "Even if it takes the rest of my life," he replied
