I haven’t stopped thinking about it. All day. MIN YOONGI...
He didn’t just throw his money at it. Didn’t just offer some nice words...
He built something. With time. Heart. Actual presence.
As someone with light autism and ADHD, whose amygdala straight up doesn’t work right (not experiencing fear or overreacting completely), whose even been turned off by foster families, changed elementary school too many times (and I never told anyone about the last two facts before)? This hits. Hits deep. Deeper than words. That’s why his lyrics are inked onto the back of my neck. His music got me through. His honesty made me feel seen.
And now? This center exists. For kids like me. Because of him. Because he showed up.
He helped create the MIND program. Volunteered for months. Sat with those kids. Made music with them. Helped them open up. This wasn’t a performance... this was SO real.
He said he has two dreams... being that old man on stage with a guitar... and becoming a therapist. To help the ones coming after him.
He didn’t just say it, I know he meant it.
I’m studying social work, focusing on child psycholog and youth welfare. Soon... heading abroad again for my master’s in international social work. And I swear. I will work my everything off. Every. Single. Day. Until I make it...
Because this? This is the biggest fuel. The purest motivation I could ever have.
I've been crying. Laughing. Quietly tearing up all day.
My heart just... feels right. Settled.
I’ll never find the word. Never. Not for this. Not for him... EVER
"Life goes on but I always find my way back to you."
⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖
After years of leaving the fandom and genuinely just being a casual fan, I found my way back to BTS at one of the darkest times of my life, fired from work, social life in flames, don't even get me started with my own state of both mental and physical
I was lucky that I got tickets to see my beloved Hobi at one of his concerts, I swear it was timed perfectly right when I was feeling life had struck it's hardest on me
Slowly I found community and joy in things I let go of once, finding myself as the boys returned to our sides
Be it dance, writing, designing, drawing
Living.
I feel it when I breath now and I look forward to seeing them together so here's a little (long overdue) birthday gift to both BTS and Armies!
May we always find each other in any universe and even in the darkest night
Shine, even if it's for ourselves.
+ design concepts that were worked into this:
- Initially wanted to make everyone match in purple but instead I ended up with the idea of making them match their microphones! Alongside, I added colours that I felt complimented them
- For armies design, instead of a signature, I chose the flower motif that's used in their Love Yourself album series, maybe as a wish for myself and hoping that we all find that bit of love in yourselves for one's self
⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖
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You woke up by your boyfriend min yoongi wrapping his arm around your waist "good morning Jagiya" you didn't say anything but just turned around and nuzzled his neck with his arm still around you "morning" you said smiling on his chest "you know what day it is hm" "yeah we are staying over your parents house" he smiled "mhm now come I'll make you food" you got up and walked to the bathroom and did your morning routine. After that, you went downstairs and saw him cooking. You were just staring him down. How can someone like that be your boyfriend? He's just so perfect. Yeah, he might be "cold" sometimes, but you know that he loves you. You snapped out of your thoughts and went to him. You hugged him from the back and he smiled "hey Jagiya" "hey cutie" you let go as you saw that he was done "smells good" he smiled "thanks" he wasn't really good at saying thanks and you find it so cute he put the breakfast on the table and you guys started to eat. After that, you both took a shower and packed your bags. You had on baggy clothes and he had on a plain shirt with sweatpants. you both left, and he started driving to his parent's house
You had arrived at his parents' house. His parents loved you even though you're a different race from him (whatever your race is) you guys walked up to the door and knocked after a few seconds his mom opened the door "OH yoongi my baby and hey y/n you look so heathy and well, come in" you both came in with your bags "let me get those" his dad said "no no it's ok I got it" he smiled and took your bags anyway "oh ok then" yoongi laughed "come lets go to our room" you both went upstairs and went to his room you sat on the bed and he sat next to you, you sat there in silence it wasn't awkward you actually felt comfortable. He broke the silence. "so do you wanna cuddle and maybe watch a movie," he said, holding the back of his head. "um yeah ok" you smiled. You lay down and cuddled him and started watching liar game.
1 hour into the show you felt his go to your thighs you looked at him and he was watching the show like he didn't do anything you just watched the show his hand went to your heat you bit your lip "what are you doing yoongi" "nothing just watching the show" he said with a smile acting so normal when his hand is right on your heat. "u-uh, ok then. " he looked at you. "You're wet. " you looked at him with shocked eyes. How could he say that so casually? he kissed you and you and you kissed back "baby I'm in that mood" "no really I wouldn't have never guessed" he looked at you with lust and started kissing you again "take this off" he said while pulling your long shirt you took it off and he went on top of you. you arched your back so he can take your bra off. "we have to be, you know, quiet. " you nod. He took the rest of your clothes off as you took off. He put his cock on your clit. "oh your pussy is dripping wet only from me touching you. " you blushed as he slapped his cock on your clit. he shoved his cock in and you let out a moan. "your pussy is tighter than last time," he groaned lowly. it felt so good. It felt like you and him was the only people in the world right now. he held your hand as he was going slow but really hard "f-faster." He obeyed and started going faster like super fast "oh god that pussy is so tight" he said going down to your neck and started to bite it leaving marks "oh god baby I feel it coming" "cum inside me please yoongi" he grabbed your face "you want it inside like the big slut you are" hearing that almost made you pass out "y-yes please please" "I'm gonna cum inside so deep your pussy will be filled with my cum" he said going harder skin slapping and hard breath could be heard "oh fuck i-im cumming baby ah fuck-" he came deep inside you and your eyes rolled in the back of your head he dropped on your body his breathing was unstable. you wrapped your arm around his naked body. "never knew you where this kinky hm" he blushed. oh be quiet. after a few you both got dressed, you put on yoongis shirt and he just put on sweatpants with no shirt on you went downstairs and made dinner when you where getting something off of a high place you felt someone behind you pressed on your ass. it was yoongi "horny again" "how can i not when your in that so sexy" he smirked
-when Tae gets mad, he stays mad. Although he’s quiet, you can see it in his face, in his body language, his eyes, all over.
-but if you run your fingers through his hair, he’s letting you.
-if he’s complaining, arguing, or explaining in his state of anger, your touch on his head instantly brings him down a notch.
-as you continue you can feel him relax
-he leans his head towards you, silently encouraging you to continue as he basks in your comforting touch.
-when you pull your hands away seeing that he’s doing better, he grabs your wrists, keeping you close to him. Doesn’t matter where you are or who’s around. It’s his silent thank you
You were in a SUV on your way to a photo shoot with your boyfriend. However, you were running late because of a misunderstanding of the time. Taehyung was not okay. It was a big deal to him, it was already difficult to get an offer to be in this particular magazine. You looked over and saw him sitting with his arms folded and his brows furrowed in irritation.
Silently you reached over and ran your fingers through his thick luscious locks of hair, letting your fingers glide across his scalp. You didn’t say anything because you knew it would be no use. All you could do was sit in the car and hope nothing slowed the driver down. As you continued your actions he leaned over closer to you, so it was easier for you to reach him.
You smiled at his actions. He was really a big baby when it came to head rubs. After a couple minutes you leaned forward looking at his face. You saw that his eyes were closed and his face was relaxed. Feeling your fingers stop, he opened his eyes and smiled at you. You kissed his forehead and picked up where you left off.
Once you made it to your destination he quickly kissed you on your lips before you walked inside.
“Thank you.”
“You welcome.” You smiled.
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Jin: Hugs
-if Jin is upset a hug goes a long way.
-only from you though
-when you first started doing it you thought you irritated him, from the way he threw his head back, but when he sighed then asked ‘how do you do that?’ you knew it was quite the opposite.
-sometimes smiles at you immediately when you do it.
-wraps his around you too.
-sometimes drops his head in your neck, on your shoulder, or on your belly, depends on how you’re hugging him.
-if you squeeze him just right he might crack a smile, because it tickles
Jin was going back and forth with one of the team members. They insisted he didn’t fill out paperwork that they needed him to review and sign, but of course Jin insisted that he did complete it. You listened as the worker asked him where it was and once Jin responded you slightly winced at his volume. They were really irritating him, because he had already mentioned what he did with it when he finished.
You moved behind him and wrapped your arms around him. His words didn’t even falter as he told them for the umpteenth time that he gave it to his manager just like he was instructed, but his hand came up to rest on top of one of yours around his torso.
As the member ceased talking to Jin to speak into their headset, Jin sighed. Before you could say anything to him he said “I love you.”
You popped your head up from his back, looking up at him even though he couldn’t see you. “Yes you. I love you.” He laughed as he tapped your hand.
“I love you too.” You smiled.
Had you not been there, he probably would’ve kept talking as the member tried to verify what happened again but he no longer felt like repeating himself. He’d just let them figure it out.
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Suga: Jokes
-You have one thing you say or ask everytime and then he's not mad anymore because he's laughing at and judging you.
-Asking you to come here because you made him feel better.
-now he needs to hug you, hold you, or kiss you cause you brighten his mood always
-responds that you’re so lame or not even funny, even though you make him laugh all the time
-Tries to hide his smile when in actuality he’s doing much better
Yoongi was in the company studio fidgeting with the equipment. From where you were sitting on the couch behind him, you couldn’t see his face but you could hear him huffing and smacking his lips occasionally.
After a few seconds you asked what was wrong.
“My recording didn’t save.” He said in exasperation. His fingers tapping away at keys, while his foot tapped angrily against the ground. “I was working on this for days and now it’s just gone!” He groaned.
“Your music is just gone?” You asked
“Yes!”
“Oh no. Sounds like treble.”
“Ye-” he stopped talking and turned around in his chair to look at you.
“What did you just say?”
You bit your lip trying not to smile because you couldn’t tell if it worked or not.
“Sounds like treble?” You repeated.
He cracked a smile. “You’re such a dork, but at least it worked this time. Come here.” He said patting his lap.
“And if I don’t? Am I gonna get in treble?”
“Babe, stop please. It’s really not funny when you use that for everything.”
“But you’re a music producer.”
“That’s not how it works.” He laughed
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J-hope: Back Rubs
-instantly sighs when you start rubbing his back
-loves it so much he leans forward to give you better access to him
-sometimes holds onto you while you comfort him
-if he was talking, he’s silent now.
-says thank you when he’s all good
-starts looking at you all dreamily, his eyes tell you how much he loves you.
He was on the phone and you couldn’t hear what the other person on the phone was saying but you could see that Hobi was visibly stressed. His voice jumping to different octaves occasionally as he conversed. You were in your bedroom at first but when you came out to get a snack you saw all the tension in his posture.
You sat your snacks on the counter, forgetting them for a minute while you went to sit beside him on the couch. You immediately began rubbing his back in circular motions. He kept his hand over his face but you saw him lean forward, relaxing as the tension in his shoulders slowly but surely disappeared.
You weren’t listening to his conversation just his tone, and the longer you sat with him you noticed he kept the same even tone. He dropped his hand from his face and looked at you. You could see clearly in his face with his eyes lowered, that he was relaxed now. You smiled at him before kissing his cheek and going back to the kitchen to grab your snacks. When you turned back around you saw that he was looking at you, his eyes following your every movement as you walked from the kitchen. When you passed him on the couch he turned his head to watch you as you walked to the room. Before you walked into the room he blew you a kiss and winked at you. Making you smile before you went back inside.
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Jimin: Kisses, (please he’ll forget he was even mad in the first place.)
-doesn’t matter where you kiss him
-mood change instantaneously
-sometimes he blushes
-melts instantly if you kiss him on the lips
-will literally forget about whatever it is that upset him
-has a completely different attitude and demeanor when he talks about it again because you just lit up his feelings
Jimin was sitting crossed leg on the floor in one of the dance studios warming up and practicing lines for one of their new songs they were going to record soon. You could tell he wasn’t happy with his execution because he kept starting over after grumbling and huffing.
He sounded great to you, but you know that we are often our worst critics. He was so immersed in his bubble of trying to get it perfect that he didn’t notice you had come to sit beside him. So when you kissed his cheek he looked surprised. 3 seconds later and he was smiling brightly.
“What was that for?”
“Nothing, I just love you.”
“I love you too.” He replied.
He held his smile watching as you went back to where you originally sat at the table. He waved at you when sat down and waved back, smiling at his mood shift.
Once he started practicing again, if he messed up, he laughed, or just shook his head instead of grumbling. After a few more minutes he called out to you.
“I need more love.” He pointed to his cheek again as he laughed at how he was acting.
But that’s okay, you thought it was cute and you wanted to kiss him more anyway.
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Jungkook: Eye Contact
-because he doesn't even know how to get mad at you his face and attitude immediately change when he meets your eyes
-you don’t deserve his anger so it snaps right out him when you make contact
-you’re his angel, he has literally never been mad at you
-even the thought of being mad at you makes him chuckle
-there’s no way
-he’ll smile at you the longer you stare
-don’t smile first, he’ll go so soft and mushy inside
Jungkook was ready to go home. They told them they would be home by 8pm but it was now 9pm and they were still sitting there waiting to go over the schedule for tomorrow’s show. From where you were sitting on the other side of the room, you could see him bouncing his leg and his arms clasped behind his head while his eyebrows were deeply kitted together.
He was very upset. And you could practically feel the irritation from across the room. You continued staring at him, feeling bad that his night wasn’t going as planned but also immersed in his face.
Suddenly he looked up at you, his furrowed brows smoothing out almost instantly. You smiled at the quick change, tilting your head to the side.
He tilted his head to the side too, copying you but raising an eyebrow. The longer you stared at each other he started to wiggle his eyebrows up and down at you.
You covered your mouth, trying not to break the silence in the room by laughing. He smiled at you too before pulling his phone out and texting you a single heart emoji.
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Namjoon: Holding Hands
-if you grab his hand while he’s upset he calms down
-you’re so calming to him; his peace
-loves when you play with his fingers
-usually grips your hand back the same way you held his
-if he’s talking you can hear the change in his tone as you’re holding hands.
-even if he’s not looking at you it works
-he kisses your hands afterwards. That’s his thank you
Namjoon sighed deeply as he dropped the ceramic statue he bought for his parents. He sat down on the couch defeated. Completely ignoring the mess, which told you he was about to lose it.
You got up from where you were seated and grabbed the broom and dustpan, quickly sweeping up the pieces. You sat them aside instead of throwing them away at the moment, then you sat beside him on the couch. His head was back and an arm was thrown over his face as he clenched his fist tightly out of frustration. “I can’t believe that just happened.” He said loudly, disbelief and anger apparent.
You silently took his hand and intertwined your fingers. With your other hand you ordered the same exact ceramic, knowing it would take time to be ready to pick up. When you finished you pulled his other hand down from his eyes which he immediately relaxed, letting you hold.
He leaned down, resting his head on your shoulder before groaning lightly.
“I love you.” He said.
“I love you too.”
He pulled your hands up to his face, kissing them both repeatedly. “I feel better.”
“I know.” You winked at him.
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I honestly think Suga and Jungkook both are wholeheartedly eye contact men but I didn’t want to write the same thing twice. 😩
Very quick, very random, hope it doesn’t suck too much
