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[tsumugiswaifu]

Worked my ass for all those boyfriends titles 😭

[miranaisnotdead]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Mad About Marilyn's new song is just peak ofc 😛😛😛😛😛😛😛

Another banger, and Dénes is still hot 😛😛😛😛😛😛😛😛😛

[rosieroseraw]

ugh dying inside

WIPs - days go by too fast i can't complete everything i want...

but got much art coming in :3

[monstersflashlight]

Hii <3!! Little more of a personal question so feel free to delete this or not answer it if you feel comfortable!! But I was curious about your writing process for a lot of these whilst being ace :o?

For me: I'm greysexual and aegosexual and only recently began to understand how I experience sexual attraction (and other things tied with it). Before I explored myself in that context, I was honestly really afraid to consume any content related to sexual topics– not even just sexual, slightly risqué or suggestive too. It felt uncomfortable.. But, not because I was ace, I didn't know I was yet. I think it's because so many people around me discussed how they experienced sexual attraction, and I just didn't experience it in that way..

Once I figured out I was ace, I became a lot more comfortable after with sexual content, maybe since I understood my feelings and what I enjoyed, didn't enjoy and other complicated sorta feeling type things. I actually started exploring my own original characters with their sexual preferences in mind and not shying away from the topic as much, even if it doesn't really come up in the series I'm creating at all. It's something I've truly enjoyed exploring with my characters, I think it gives them a bit more depth in a way I wouldn't have understood before... Despite not even experiencing that attraction in that way myself.

In a way, I think accepting being greysexual and aegosexual helped me understand the diversity of sexuality and how it's experienced so vastly differently between a lot of people that's not really talked about.

I also think why I take comfort so much monster relationship content and why I'm so drawn to it is related to me being ace. I LOVE MONSTERS JUST IN GENERAL ALWAYS HAVE!! But after figuring out I was ace, I took comfort in them in a different way. I feel like outcasted and out of place in both allo and ace circles, and it's really isolating.. But, honestly I get a lot of comfort from monster relationship scenario, fics, things like that. I think it's because the community itself understands what it's like to be different and experience attraction that's "strange" so even though a lot of is stuff I'm not into specifically, I enjoy reading them because it's like unconventional attraction and the creators themselves REALLY understand it.. At least in spaces I hang around in. I love everything it represents hehe. But also, feeling isolated by humankind itself I am just kinda like SIGH MAN IF I JUST HAD A WEREWOLF PARTNER THEY'D GET IT AND RESPECT IT AND WE'D LITERALLY BE SOULMATES AND CRAZY ABOUT EACHOTHER AND MY PREFERENCES WOULD WORK OUT AND I WOULDN'T FEEL PRESSURED TO DO ANYTHING.. LMAOO anywya..

I take a lot of comfort reading your work specifically and feel a bit more at home because MONSTERS WOOOO!! But also reading your work and knowing you're ace makes me feel seen and a little less alone <3..

But I was just curious about if your asexuality has any impact on your writing, since for mine when I accepted myself I became more comfortable and I think it let's me write sexual intimacy and content despite not really experiencing or wanting it myself much.

Hi there anon! I do love to talk about my asexuality bc it took me a long time to recognize it 😂 So I've never really experienced sexual attraction in a normal way, I think. And this understanding came after a lot of questioning from me to my friends, who very happily answered my questions bc they are the best. So I ended up discovering I really didn't feel that for people, I do feel arousal, but it's not mediated through attraction. I don't really know how to explain it, but well.

I write smut for the love of the game, to be honest. I think once you take attraction out of the framework, everything you do is more interesting because I explore other ways. Are those ways better? Not sure, but they are my way, so there's that. Also the autism, because I'm that kind of spicy. So I think my asexuality and my autism are also why I like monsters because 1) not accessible so easy to play with, and 2) I feel like a monster myself a lot of times because of the otherness. I've talked about that a lot already so I don't want to bore y'all with it. But to summarize it: I do think my asexuality shapes the way I write, because it also shapes the way I interact with others.

Also, thank you, I'm so very glad I created a safe little corner of the internet where you feel comfortable being yourself. ❤️❤️❤️

[pheroyyay]

hey is anyone else sort of getting the feeling dan and phil might actually be gay

[your-local-chaotic-cryptid]

Weird that only Mia looks like she took some damage

[mamidearcst]

CHARACTER SHEET ! ( repost, don’t reblog ).

basics.

full name: Mami Nathaniella Essex (Mami Dahlia Phillips Chiba) Dahlia

nickname: Miss Malignant (Plague Rat) The Masked Mute

titles: Void Dominion, Child of Nyarlathotep

other names/aliases: CHIMERA FAILED (Daisuke Hirotsu)

height: 5'1" Variable

weight: 111 lbs Variable

age: Early 30's - currently 33 as the default Millenia

zodiac: Virgo - September 13th

spoken languages: English, Japanese, Latin, Spanish, French, Italian, Lingala, German, Mandarin, Russian, and I'm pretty sure she's picking up Latverian. R'lyehian.

physical characteristics.

hair color: Black

eye color: Red - hidden behind a glamour that makes them appear dark brown. (Dark brown) Red and bright green.

skin tone: Alabaster white - like chalk. Unnatural. But hides it under a glamour that, while still pale? There's a bit of color: just fair with a neutral undertone. (Light with a neutral undertone) Variable.

body type: Ectomorph and mesomorph hybrid. Lithe. Variable.

accent: It's hard to place and seems like it is fabricated - mostly because it is. Most her life was centralized around only being around Sinister. Her accent falls very similar to his- typically I believe it has the remnants of his British accent. (Jersey - Italian) Cannot be placed.

voice: Light and airy - disarmingly so most of the time. Her words are well chosen but she speaks at a pace that doesn’t allude to such. Whatever viciousness comes from her is very off putting with how ‘sweet’ her voice seems. Imagine a cacophony of voices speaking at different pitches, tones, volumes, and decibels. All at once.

dominant hand: She is ambidextrous - and the amount of hands she goes through is troubling. (Ambidextrous - right) What makes you think she has hands?

posture: Like a finishing school graduate. You can place a book on top of her head as she walks past and it's not going to move. Head high, shoulders back, back straight. (Head high and confident - but she is a scientist who cares more about her wares and is checking a microscope often. So... often shrimp.)

scars: None.

tattoos: None.

birthmarks: None.

most noticeable features: Red eyes - not just irises. Iris, sclera, and even pupil. Just like 'father'. Also the literally porcelain white skin. [Red eyes - just the irises.) The whole ass thing.

childhood.

place of birth: Within one of Mister Sinister's labs. (New York City) Beyond the veil of reality.

hometown: Sinister’s Lab [She thinks it counts.]. (Gotham City) Outside of Reality

manner of birth: Genetically engineered. (Natural) Rend from the fabric of the progenitor.

first words: Papa! (Daddy!) P̸̜͈͕̲̼̲͚̟͇̤̣̦̏͑͋́̐͑̊̂̄̀̓̈́͘̕̚r̷͔̒̅͂̀̈́͑͘o̷̳͆̎̈́̉̈́̓́̌̀̀̾͛̕̕̚̚͜͝ͅģ̷̦̠̥̯̯̪̪͇͕̭̻̀̅́̈̓͛̏̀̓̅͌̀͘͘͝ĕ̶͇̱̱͖̰̬̩̜͇͚̥̹̇̉̀̈́̈͐̐̉̾̎̓͠͝͝ͅn̵̢̢̙̪̲̗͔̙̟̾̎̾̓̎̀i̶̧͔̬̩͇̫͓̺̼̯͙̟̩̤̾̑̓́͆̽͒͋̌̈́̈̍̓̾̀͂͠ͅͅţ̶̢͎̖̤̰̝̣̇̂̑͐̑̓̑̆̓̑͜ó̶̡̡̨̘̝̱̹̞͉̪̖̥̽͂̈́͜͝ŗ̵̪͓͖͇͈͖̩̹̬̗̀̇̌͆͌̉̍̾̐̉̈́͗̿ͅ

siblings: @rotbleed / @fivecrimes and any number of Nathaniel’s experiments tbqh. (None.) Countless.

parents: Nathaniel Essex [creator] (Howard Phillips @stalkingthestars - adoptive father Courtney Bowen @imagosequence - Adoptive mother.) Hereditary parents: Unknown) Nyarlathotep @stalkingthestars and Sysyphyx @imagosequence

parental involvement: She is so intrinsically tied to her creator it’s stupid. Too involved! [And so many of him!] (Spoiled her rotten. Gave and give her anything she asks for.) TOO INVOLVED WHILE PRETENDING NOT TO BE.

adult life.

occupation: Lab assistant, virologist, geneticist. (Virologist, geneticist, bioweapons developer, arms dealer, baker, Cafe owner) Entropy

current residence: New York/ Krakoa/ One Of Sinister's Labs ™️ depending on place in her timeline. (Gotham City) The space between the stars.

close friends: @apothekosm - getting close to @vitrumbra and will grow closer to @rotbleed ( @wrldofhassle I think it's your Roman is her best friend. lmfao) Blackheart @wrldofhassle

relationship status: Single. (Single.) Blackheart @wrldofhassle / The Void @goldcnsentry / Draculina @imagosequence

financial status: Very well off. (Very comfortable.)

driver's license: Does mimicking Nightcrawler's teleportation count? (Yes.)

criminal record: Nothing against her [yet :)] (A stint in Arkham - transferred to Blackgate after clean psychological profile: multiple counts of felony murder, first degree kidnapping, contaminating public water or food for terrorism [she argued that it was a necessary field test and that no political agenda was involved], assault 3rd degree, possession of narcotics, various weapon offenses [development and arms dealing]…) lol no

vices: Sex, forbidden science. (Sex, forbidden science, and narcotics.) Entropy.

sex & romance.

sexual orientation: Pansexual.

romantic orientation: Demiromantic.

preferred emotional role: The caregiver.

preferred sexual role: Bottom.

turn ons: Intelligence, ambition, ruthlessness, potential to be a bad decision, willingness to experiment, embraces her monster [literal and figurative]

turn offs: ignorance, disrespect... it's pretty hard to do, ngl. Or just something fleeting and shallow.

love language: acts of service, words of affirmation, spending time together

relationship tendencies: If you can get to the real Mami? You'll have a partner who is probably loyal to a fault. True loyalty is hard to come by with her and is only given to her creator. She allows her duplicates to form bonds - and they, honestly, attach and mold themselves to others. Endlessly loyal - but the original has a killswitch for them. She puts a lot into relationships and wants nothing more than to play the perfect partner. (Acts like one of the duplicates.) Dedicates her everything.

miscellaneous.

character's theme song: "Red Stars" by The Birthday Massacre (“Terrible Things” by April Smith and the Great Picture Show) “Nyarlathotep’s Children of the Void” by Dawn of Ashes

hobbies to pass time: Baking, reading, drawing- realistic scenes and anatomical charts, tea drinking, various forms of dancing, violin, singing, learning almost anything - she embraces continuous learning and education, experimentation.

mental disorders: This is hard to do for someone genetically engineered and made to adapt and evolve. She doesn't actually even have a traditional brain - or pretend like anatomy and physiology is a thing she has to adhere to. I’m not sure what to do with her as she really just approaches front a neutral and amoral understanding of everything. That being said? Anti-Social Personality Disorder.

mental illnesses ( sx ): Feelings of self disconnection, deceitfulness, hostility, manipulativeness, risk taking, aggression, lack of regard to safety of self and others, impulsivity, lack of restraint, amoral, lack of conscience, rule violation. [I’m… still not sure about this all - because she’s pretty in control of it. BUT… we’ll just go with it for now until I’m more positive about how I view this? I am relatively sure this is just all conditioning. I mean- DC Mami might have it legitimately.]

physical illnesses: none.

left or right brained: Left.

phobias: Atychiphobia, atelophobia.

self confidence level: She was raised by Mister Sinister you best believe she’s got some unwavering [unless he’s concerned] confidence. (Immense) She was born of the greatest ego that has ever been or not been.

vulnerabilities: Abandonment issues [you look at all those labs and experiments that Sinister left over the years - always waiting for the time to come :| ], loyal to a fault to Sinister, puts others before self [selective but a problem] (loyal to a fault, abandonment issues, puts others before self to a self destructive degree)

tagged by: @abovedivinity tagging: @legion-transcendent , @esinisex , @ssscarecrow , @brokentoys , @goldcnsentry , @themckaytriarchy , @emmatriarchy (muse of your choice <3), @collectingmuses (muse of your choice too! <3), @speechbbls (YOU AS WELL! <3), @vitrumbra (sorry you get twice nami ), @rotbleed @d1nker [I’m not sure who has all been tagged previously so lol sorry if so]

[providing-leverage]

My profile picture is Mary with a lesbian flag because I 100% believe that she is one, but also with an ace flag because I am and projection is important, understand?