#c!salmonduo

[mooni]

it's been years but the fact that c!fundy never got an actual ending makes me violently ill. especially cause like. he basically says outright he wants to self destruct and isolate himself and no one comes to help. he jumps off a cliff and it's a c!crimeboys stream the next day. he's honest and raw and real and himself and it's a side note in conversation.

c!fundy's only story was the one told by those around him, and those people forgot to give him the pen when they were done.

[krebble]

what place does c!fundy have in your au, if he has any? what's he's like as a character? are there changes to his design or biography?

cFundy one of my favorite characters that i post very little about yesss

C! NOT CC

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as for his ‘place’ im not quite sure what that would be, but in terms of biography/backstory and how he is as a character he’s quite similar to canon. I think his canon arc was really fun like a car crash is and i think he’s the best emo on the server. tw: HEAVY abandonment/attachment issues, depression, schizophrenia, insomnia, night terrors, transgender, listens to Nine Inch Nails. 

I know a lot of people have him being a teenager around the first l’manberg arc, but personally i like it much better when he’s already in his twenties. this makes cWilbur’s constant infantilization of him even more infuriating when he’s a grown ass adult, and it makes cFundy even more upset to see his dad treating cTommy and cTubbo (who are like fifteen or even fourteen at the time) as more capable and adult than him. it also twists the knife in a little bit deeper when cWilbur elects first cTommy and then cTubbo as president without even LOOKING at Fundy. I also think it adds to the theme of him never getting to belong anywhere–because of how Wilbur infantilizes him, he either feels insecure around other adults or they treat him like a child (or both, one begetting the other), but he can’t fit in with the kids like Tommy and Tubbo either because he’s too old for him. not that his age means he gets any respect from them, because nobody respects Fundy, least of all his own freaking dad. like broooooo every time i think about cFundy it makes me lose my shit the way he’s treated like a useless toddler by everybody. and this is exactly why he switched sides so suddenly with cSchlatt, because in my AU cSchlatt saw him just the same as everybody else but recognized him as easily manipulatable. all he had to do was offer Fundy a little respect, treat him like a man and not a boy, and Fundy was hooked. when Fundy wrapped back around to hating Schlatt, he felt extreme shame for having been so easily hoodwinked and told himself he wasn’t gonna care about anyone anymore. he’s not great at that, but he does his best to act that way outwardly. 

he loves Yogurt so so much and is also so so scared for them. he’s heard all Wilbur’s drunken rants throughout his childhood about cPhilza. he knows Phil told himself he would be a good father, despite his father and childhood. he knows Wilbur told himself he would be a good father, despite his father and childhood. and now here Fundy is telling himself the same thing, except unlike his dad and granddad, he barely believes it. years of being treated as useless have led to deep-seated belief and fear that he is useless, which only exacerbates his worries about how Yogurt will grow up. part of the reason he forms a shaky relationship with Phil, cTubbo, and cRanboo is because he wants Yogurt to have somewhere to go if he turns out like everyone else in his family. he doesn’t think Phil was a good dad either, or a great granddad, but he seems to have changed and at any rate, if Fundy was bad enough for Yogurt to leave then Phil would have to be better for him, right? Wilbur never left Phil, after all, but Phil was the one who left him, so maybe Phil’s not good. in that case Yogurt can fall back on Tubbo and Ranboo. and Tubbo and Ranboo have a kid of their own, who seems to be pretty happy. Yogurt can have a friend his age, something Fundy never had. maybe Yogurt will like having a friend so much that they’ll want to leave Fundy. no, no, can’t worry about that. 

Fundy has a mild form of schizophrenia with mostly auditory hallucinations (his chat) and occasional visual hallucinations. he has extreme insomnia, and when he does get to sleep, he has recurring nightmares. while living in Las Nevadas he confided in cQuackity about his issues and cQuackity set him up with sleeping pills that knock him out for about eight hours each night, so that’s pretty solid. Quackity might even be able to find him some schizophrenia meds, but Fundy would never ask. he’s never told anyone about his hallucinations, not even cNiki (who he misses but also avoids). cQuackity also got him some antidepressants, which he appreciates. Las Nevadas actually has a pretty solid pharmacy, and it tends to do steadier business than the casino in the off months. 

and of course he is transgender. he’s always gonna be transmasc to me. he uses he/him pronouns and actually might not be a full guy (he would probably lean more towards he/they and transmasc nonbinary if he got comfortable with it) but after so much constant infantilization he feels like he needs to be manly in order to be treated as a real man. nobody on the server ever misgendered him or was transphobic to him, but the infantilization made him feel like a little tiny kid, and a bit like a girl, too. he also doesn’t like to wear bright colors or colors of any kind really because it reminds him too much of that stupid little crayon-colored uniform that NOBODY else had, not even the literal children six-plus years younger than him. the infantilization affected his self-image so badly and continues to do so more and more over the years. 

he’s also gay, and yes, the Dundy wedding was canon, and yeah, it totally fucked him up. he actually did have genuine crush on cDream (like half the server did for some reason, forbidden fruit i guess?) and he was genuinely excited about the wedding, in part because he just wanted to be with cDream, and in part because he thought that being with someone like Dream who commanded so much respect would have to rub off on him, right? people would take him more seriously then, right? and then cGeorge literally stole Dream from him right in front of EVERYBODY at the stupid enormous wedding venue that he’d commissioned just for Dream with all the fancy things that he’d spent so much time on. months and months of work, so much effort from him, for George to ruin it all like it was nothing to him. in front of everyone, including his dad, including Tommy. it really, really hurt to be thrown away so blatantly like that, to be treated like just another stupid little joke for the billionth time with an extra dose of public humiliation, when he’d thought he was actually having something serious. it did not help that there were a lot of jokes from all sides afterward about how incompatible he and Dream were and how ridiculous they’d have been together and so on and so forth. it honestly ruined romance for him a bit to have his first serious relationship (or so he thought) get turned into a hilarious joke after he poured so much effort into it. 

as for his design, he takes mostly after cWilbur’s side of the family, with only a few traits from cSally: he has gills on the sides of his abdomen (and he got his top scars tattooed to look more like the gills; he actually really likes that about himself) and he has a large patch of scales right above his tail and a bunch scattered about on his legs. for the rest of him, he’s kinda pale, much like Wilbur and Phil, and has those Minecraft family yellow, slit-pupiled eyes as well as the large hooked nose with the nose crest markings. he has very spiky sideburns with some white streaks, and his fox ears grow from the same place where his human ears would have, so they kinda stick out to the side. kinda convenient because it makes wearing a hat a lot easier. he has curly hair like WIlbur but is ginger like Phil, although his hair is much darker. like Phil, he has small, sharp nails that are more like claws, and his fingers are darker and more furred than the rest of him. he has a short tail and patches of fur on his body, and he has the sense of smell of a fox. he also has sharpened teeth, again like Phil. like Wilbur, he is tall and lanky, but with a bit of a potbelly like cTommy from drug and alcohol use. he’s about 5’10”.

[crimeboys]

this image from my air purifier's website is giving cwilbur and fundy

[lmanburger]

day 9: you outshine the morning sun, my son

[aviaphexn]

the joys of ms paint & whiteboard / dsmp doodles

[lmanburgseulogy]

when fundy was a child in human years (teen in fox years) imagine how upset wilbur would be when his son started not spending time with him bc. angst teenager. but that was his baby boy! his little champion!

YESS YES I THINK ABOUT IT ALL THE TIME

c!Fundy being a teenager stuck in a child’s body is really heartbreaking to me. Because it just makes c!salmonduos tragedy so much more heartbreaking, yk? c!Fundy just being a normal teenager, lost and trying to find yourself again, but everyone belittles him so much and he feels so out of place. Because they don’t know. They still think he’s a child. So he rebels and tries to separate himself from the thing that hurts. Though all c!Wilbur sees is his little champion, his boy. he doesn’t understand why Fundy is acting different or is so mature because he doesn’t know that Fundy ages differently. but Fundy doesn’t think he has to explain. Or doesn’t think it would be worth it to. Everything spirals out of control and it’s hard to talk, things move too quickly and horrible things distract them, and it’s like a fracture formed in their world that’s too wide to cross. and they can’t communicate before it’s too late. Until the ghost of your dad won’t even listen to you.

Also c!Fundy’s rebellious “phase” was a very interesting time. It was kinda close to the election and he refused to wear his uniform or talk fondly of his home. Since c!wilbur wants everyone to take L’manburg just as seriously as he does, (unhealthy as crap btw watch the streams) it’s heartbreaking for him. So he treats Fundy like someone who’s just pretending to be upset like it would fix it all. Because out of all the people he didn’t expect that from Fundy!! No! It feels like just another betrayal to him. That was his little champion guys. His boy.

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[mooni]

"my little champion."

a nickname. a derivative. you are mine. you are my child and my child alone. you will never grow to be something more. you are small, insignificant. your victories will mean next to nothing, because you are mine, and i lay claim to all that you do. the memory of my hands will stain your own touch, and you will keep me alive far after i am dead, because you are a part of me. a part. a product. never a whole, because that is a right reserved for those who can stand alone. i am a leader. you are a follower. you can take a different trail, but all roads lead back to me. you are my son. you are my son.

fundy will always be remembered as wilbur's son.

my little champion, and that's all you can be.