#canonmate

[ectobiologics]

hi, i'm john or june!

i am 20. i like blue, the sky, video games, drawing, crappy programming, edm, writing, and other bullshit.

anybody is welcome to talk and stuff! it doesn't matter to me who or what you are. i would especially love to see the other beta kids, you guys are my best friends in the whole world. also vriska and karkat and terezi and roxy!! i miss you guys so much. it would be awesome to chat, even if i am not the john you remember. (if that makes sense.)

additional pylons:

hit me up or interact with my stuff whenever, i don't bite. promise!

i like and follow from a different blog, hopefully it is pretty obvious it's me!

i tend to be more chatty in groups! i am giving my official ectobiologist's endorsement to june's server (18+) because i talk there a lot.

i go by john both here and off line, it's my real name! but you can call me whatever. i like june, eb, gt, july, j or jj, ecto, and ghosty. also, anything i use elsewhere is cool too! get as creative as you want, haha.

if i take ages to respond, it is probably because i have adhd and it hates me. i have a really big problem with accidental ghosting (hehe), so feel free to double text.

sometimes i dont adhere perfectly to my typing quirk :p depends on how i feel

i'm still figuring it out, but i consider my canon very close to events as portrayed in the comic and eventually the meat epilogue.

i am not exclusively looking for others from the meat time line, though! and i don't need canon mates to align exactly with my perception of who they were/are. here are some less-abridged thoughts about that.

i am kind of new to fiction folk stuff. i've been like this for ~8 years, but i only learned there was a community for it recently. sorry if i fuck up.

i have like a bajillion other blogs that i use to sort stuff, so sorry if i freak anyone out by accidentally dog piling you with them.

oh yeah also any pronouns are fine. i don’t really care.

i am not a fictive or a system.

tags guide thing. kinda old kin sheet thingy.

fun stuff. :)

[starribbons]

Found my first canonmate!!!! I'm winning!!! ^^

[di-a-vo-lo]

Recalling memories is so exhilarating and having a sourcemate, if not, a canonmate, to chisel out further details is so refreshing to me... like, yes!this did happen! IM NOT CRAZY!!!

[maskedseaweed]

Thoughts on seeking sourcemates

I consider reaching out to people of my source again, but really when I look at its kin tag here on Tumblr, do I want to? The atmosphere does not inspire my positivity, and that sort of issue is one I run into often in alterhuman circles. It's just not the atmosphere for me. It's a very distinct case away from "the atmosphere here is bad". No, no, it is not bad objectively. It is bad subjectively. I personally do not feel as if I would get meaningful connection out of it. And I may be wrong about that, and by staying away taking the chance of finding something good from me, but at this point I've experienced discomfort in alterhuman spaces that I don't fit into too often.

It all makes me ask myself why I even want to reach out. Why is it I want to talk to sourcemates, really? I am not particularly yearning to talk to someone who's a double of who I remember (I am not open to finding canonmates). I don't really care. That is a focal point to my situation. If I felt differently, it would make sense for me to reach out, but I don't. So why is it not enough for me to have bonds with people who don't share my source? What do I want out of talking to sourcemates?

As far as I can tell, the answer to my questions boils down to how I want to be seen as me. Sourcemates know me. They know what I am about, and really, that is a stupid shortcut. Why don't I just show people who I am? Why would I want that ridiculous shortcut of people already knowing me through knowing my official canon version, which is an utterly risky situation due to it making people prone to see me as that version instead of seeing me for me? Parasociality is not typically spoken of in this context, but I believe it applies, and there is large risk of it and alterhuman areas in general, which I don't like.

Conclusion of the story is that I snip at my forehead and stick to the great alterhuman friends I already have, who aren't sourcemates but who've shown that they see me for me without preconceptions based on my identities.

[x2joincircus]

trying to find my Moon-

OK SO IVE BEEN CONSIDERING DOIN THIS FOR A WHILE SO YEAH <3 HIIIIIIII So, I'm a canondivergent Sundrop fictionkin! And I miss my moon a lot- So im just gonna make posts of mems and stuff until I find them <3 Some base things I know about my moon: - We were not brothers as far as i remember- - after we got combined I can't remember if we ever got separated. - he wasnt bad at all, actually quite the opposite. He was rather calm and collected most of the time. he only got mad if it was something really bad <3 - he loved smart people puzzles like crosswords and stuff like that. - Unlike canon us we were actually different sizes- moon was a lot taller and thinner than me jiojihjbioijihjb <3

[vethromantic]

Sometimes you're stuck missing people, and it feels like you're drowning...

And sometimes you find them, and for once it seems like everything will be okay.

Thank you guys. I love you so much.

[possiblysystem]

Hey everyone! I have a favor to ask. I have a friend who's part of a system and has been feeling pretty lonely lately. He's an introject and neither of us have really seen others like him, which makes him feel really sad since a few of his systemmates from the same source are abundantly common. So, if you know any systems who have a Tim from the Magnus Archives podcast, please send me a message/send them our way. And if you know anyone else who has a lot of system friends, feel free to pass along the message and my Tumblr URL. I'm hoping that with enough help, we can find him a "speciesmate" or two! Even if you don't know anyone, please consider reblogging to help this reach more people. Thanks!

[olivemanlover]

I love Boris Habit so much. I can't.