IM TOLD THAT I NEED TO STAY POSITIVE, HOW CAN I DO THAT WHEN I CANT EVEN DO THE ONE THING THAT MAKES ME EVEN REMOTELY HAPPY, BEING ON THE EDGE ISNT FUN, NO ONE NEEDS THAT, IM TIRED OF IT CONSTANTLY HONESTLY, I REALLY AM AND ITS PUSHING ME CLOSER AND FURTHER DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE!













