#celestial chaos

[aneldritchclown]

the wheel

celestialchaos : xiang liu x sun wukong

cw/tw : this was just fluff i wrote in 30 minutes my heart hurts i hope you feel it too

words : 395

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i made you myself i spent hours agonizing over your form i drew you first during boring mornings waiting for our creator to return she wouldnt let me out and she refused to let me explore and meet others but in that time i made the most priceless discovery out of the depths of my own psyche i pulled you

crudely drawn in yellow ink on rumpled pages i drew someone who looked like me but like her curling hair like the clouds that formed my only company eyes as bright as the sun and a smile that could outshine stars with 5 appendages to match me and 9 orifices to match her his skin was hers but he bled like me

i made you and i couldnt stop repeating you your face drawn on countless pages then she let me create you she saw my vision as significant as her own and smiled down upon me she brought me to harvest clay to pluck out the most sturdy of evening clouds and to bring down stars that would decorate him i molded your body with the help of a wheel she spun i brought you up and then i cut you from it

i shaped you with my two hands made impressions for 10 phalanges pushed down where your eyes would be and brought out your nose i scraped your lips together and pulled out your ears i sew golden clouds into the wet clay as eyebrows hair and fur i pushed stars into your skin anywhere that wasnt quite right i then dug out your insides and i fired you

our separation during that time broke me enough she promised me life and your life in turn she swore and she instructed me to make more two halves of your stone womb an egg for your gestation and birth and when it was all ready she kissed you and told me to kiss your womb to seal it she set you down lent over the celestial realm to set you where she decided suit you best

when you broke out she gave me to you too she formed my egg the same two halves and she set me on your mountain and let you crack me open a new brother for you a lover yours until the end just as you are mine

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i dont know i love you

[julibellule]

Celestial Chaos - Gods

Relationship: Aziraphale ♡ Crowley 

Summary: Life is a journey of self-discovery. For everyone.. even God ♡

Rated: General (tw: First person POV, OC's POV, Mild gore, Parent Aziraphale ♡ Crowley)

Chapter: 16/17

Words: 1398/27k

From the story: Celestial Chaos

From the series: Little Wisp

Song that goes with this chapter:

Aloha Ke Akua - Nahko and Medecine for the People

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Read Chap.15 - God

God’s gaze settles on me—heavy, ancient, and filled with unspoken sorrow. It pierces through flesh and thought, slipping past every mask I’ve ever worn, reaching straight into the marrow of my being.

The questions that have haunted me—who I am, why I exist, what I was made for—don’t need to be spoken aloud. She answers them with a single look. Not with explanations, but with understanding. A quiet acknowledgment of the storm I carry inside.

“It doesn’t matter who created you,” she says, her voice soft, steady, and impossibly kind. “Or what purpose they had in mind. What matters is the choice you make now—and what you choose to create from what you’ve been given.”

The words ripple through me like a warm current, quieting the chaos within. They are simple, but they ring with the gravity of eternity. My chest loosens. My breath returns. And I feel something familiar at the edges of my soul—hope.

My eyes find Crowley. He stands tense beside me, shoulders drawn tight, jaw clenched. The fire that usually dances behind his eyes has dimmed, replaced by a terrible, aching grief.

Read Chap.17 - Épilogue

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[julibellule]

Celestial Chaos

Aziraphale ♡ Crowley • 22k • Rated.K

Aziraphale trembles beneath Crowley’s hands, his breath catching. When they part, his eyes are luminous with love and sorrow. "I’m so sorry, Crowley," he murmurs. "For all the years I spent hiding. For all the times I pushed you away. For all the hurt I caused." His voice cracks. "I was so cruel. I said and did horrible things to you. How could a being of love be so callous? So… heartless?" Crowley traces his thumb along Aziraphale’s cheek, catching another tear before it can fall. "I know, angel," he whispers. "I understand. I see it. I see you." His fingers drift to the faint glow at Aziraphale’s chest, brushing against it as though touching something holy. "I’ve always known. Always understood what was at stake. It was bigger than us, angel…"

-Chap.02 - Apologies-

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[julibellule]

Celestial Chaos

Aziraphale ♡ Crowley • 27k • Rated.K

“Speak to… Him?” Aziraphale echoes at last. He says Him like it’s a forbidden spell — reverent, afraid, half-hopeful, half-horrified. “But… that’s…” His voice cracks. “That’s unthinkable. It’s… it goes against everything—” Everything he was built for. Centuries of obedience, trust, blind faith — now colliding with everything we’ve seen, everything we know. Crowley lets out a low chuckle, the sound dry and void of humor. “Unthinkable gets thrown around a lot more these days, wouldn’t you say, angel?” He gestures vaguely with his glass, bitter amusement flickering behind his eyes. “Especially considering the current… state of affairs.”

-Chap.13 - Metatron-

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[julibellule]

Celestial Chaos

Aziraphale ♡ Crowley • 27k • Rated.K

“In the end,” God says, her voice quiet but resonant, vibrating through the very bones of the chamber, “I abandoned you all... to your own choices. And you created something even better than I ever imagined.” Silence follows. Heavy. Sacred. No one dares speak. The weight of her words settles over us like snowfall—soft, but irrevocable. Free will. Not a punishment. Not a trap. But a power. One we never fully understood until now. And the most incredible thing? She’s proud of us. After millennia of believing humanity was forsaken, condemned by a single ancient misstep… here she is, radiating love not just for the perfection she intended, but for the chaos we chose. It’s almost too much. And yet... It feels so obvious. This love—boundless, forgiving, quiet in its certainty—was here all along. We just didn’t know how to see it.

-Chap.15 - God-

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[julibellule]

Celestial Chaos - Nightmare

Relationship: Aziraphale ♡ Crowley 

Summary: Something inside wants and needs to be heard

Rated: General (tw: First person POV, OC's POV, Mild gore, Parent Aziraphale ♡ Crowley)

Chapter: 08/17

Words: 1424/23k

From the story: Celestial Chaos

From the series: Celestial Chaos

Song that goes with this chapter:

Mercy - Muse

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Read Chap.07 - Answers

I bolt upright, a strangled scream tearing from my throat. Sweat slicks my skin, my chest rising and falling in ragged gasps as my heart hammers against my ribs like a trapped bird. The lingering scent of sandalwood and something stygian—Crowley’s presence—still clings to the air, but the room itself feels cold. The nightmare lingers, draped over me like a shroud, its whispers still echoing in the silence.

The images still burn behind my eyelids: a terrifying vision of gods, ancient and powerful, trapped in some unseen prison, their screams stretching across an endless, desolate void. Their anguish is palpable, a wave of bitter rage and despair that still churns in my gut. The wooden box Crowley brought back flickers in and out of focus, its intricate carvings writhing under the pulse of something malevolent.

I see rituals—grotesque, horrifying—human sacrifices offered to feed its power. Blood stains the wood. Throbbing, fleshy hearts crushed in hands.

A crimson tide nourishing the unspeakable entity within. Temple ruins, half-swallowed by the encroaching jungle, rise before me. Places of death, of forgotten horrors.

Then, a voice. Not my own. Harsh, urgent— “Wake up, child of light and darkness, sister in human flesh. Wake up and bring back balance to this universe!”

Read Chap.09 - Ritual

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Celestial Chaos

Aziraphale ♡ Crowley • 23k • Rated.K

I could shape the heavens with a thought. I could unmake the stars with a whisper. I could reach out and take their pain away. Because they are in pain. And I love them. So much. More than words, more than power, more than the burning force that hums beneath my skin like a caged star. I want to help them. I need to. My feet are both heavy and weightless. As if I am floating and sinking all at once. One step, then another. The ground does not meet me. I am surrounded by light, not just bathed in it but woven into it. A halo that bends to my will, a force I could command with nothing more than a thought. Aziraphale’s fear slams into me like a physical blow. Raw. Primal. Visceral. A sound rips from him, a low, broken scream that shatters the suffocating silence. It erupts from the depths of his soul, claws its way up his throat, and crashes against me like a tidal wave. His terror is not just something I hear—I feel it, sharp as a dagger through my ribs. Because it’s me. He’s afraid of me.

-Chap.11 - Aftermath-

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Celestial Chaos

Aziraphale ♡ Crowley • 23k • Rated.K

“There are so many risks,” he murmurs. “Every cell in my body wants to throw this… thing… into the fires of Hell.” Aziraphale’s gaze pleads with me. He wants me to back down. To let it go. But I don’t. I can’t. “I know I can do this,” I insist. “I feel it in my bones—there is a message waiting to be heard—it deserves to be heard.” Aziraphale flinches. A tiny shift. A flicker of something behind his eyes.  And I know—this is bigger than us. “Let me do this,” I whisper. Crowley stiffens. He doesn’t like this. At all. His instinct to protect—to shield both Aziraphale and me—throbs like a living thing. Aziraphale exhales, the tension bleeding from his shoulders.  “If you must…” he concedes. “We’ll help you prepare. But we will not go blind into this. We will find a way to lessen the danger, if it's possible."

-Chap.08 - Nightmare-

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