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Twina Celestia
Orbitania
Mün Malia (& Cresca Trees)
Münlala Spikalif
Radiana Waterina
Celestial Flora: The Epistler Project
I started off this project not exactly sure what my personal goal was. At first, I was just looking around me, trying to get some sort of meaning out of my organic chemistry lab manual which I had at my hip for the past two months. That class really increased my anxiety levels this semester, and I remembered how I felt the same way in high school for my AP classes. It was much worse then. Most of the time, intrusive thoughts would invade my daily life by telling me I’m not good enough or that I should just hide in a hole for ten years because I expressed some sort of emotion. It seems silly, but it’s how I felt most of the time. After a while, I started to push back the intrusive thoughts by reassuring myself I was doing my best, sometimes out loud. This gave me the idea to use subliminal messaging in some poems I had already wrote.
The parentheses used in this project can hold a higher meaning in the chemistry nomenclature. When writing a chemical formula, parentheses are used for when a atom has multiple bonds, usually a double bond and a single bond i.e. C(O)OH. The thing about double bonds are that they are shorter and weaker than single bonds and put a lot of strain on the molecule. If I look at the C being my life, (O) being my intrusive thoughts, and OH being my combatant positivity, then my strain lies with the double bond. Although I have a weaker bond with my intrusive thoughts, I would need some outside energy to break it.
If you’re still confused by the format of the poems, that’s fine. The letters in parentheses spell out some of my most common intrusive thoughts, and the letters that are uppercase spell out my usual combatant phrase. I wrote the actual poems using a large array of sources i.e. my lab manual, permutated songs, out of context experiences. The name of each poem also has a meaning following flower language, and it’s best to read them in order.
Sweat Pea
i hear you watching
(come) WHY
you see me listening
(inside) DONT
pierce the heart on my sleeve
(head-on) YOU
take your prize
(dea d- e
n
d
)
STAY
Epistler ver. x
Petunia
rose(s) are red fill me u(p) coura(g)e laugh(s)
viole(t)s are blue tear me down the nIght is y(o)ung
w(o)nder bread (b)ermuda butt(e)rcup (a)mber polygrAphs
blink-182 yellow(i)sh brow(n) Mother to(n)gue
past the k(n)ife bruIses (y)earn
thr(o)ugh the heart rule of thumb
lost the striFe ball up and discerN
night shift at Walmart equil(i)brium
diamond princess
firi(n)g squad
ambitious forgivenEss
word of (g)od
Epistler ver. x