i think about how morgana has to learn to be rens ptsd service animal basically on the fly. especially once rens in Inaba again because my god does ren get worse. ren would not have made it through their last year with their parents if it wasnt for morgana. that cat saved rens life
and i think about how frustrated morgana can get because he isnt human. sure, hes accepted that this is just how he is... but theres no greater time he wishes he were human than when ren needs a human person to support them and rens parents either arent doing enough or actively making him Worse.
he watches ren self harm (largely by self isolation and disordered eating habits but ren is not immune to other avenues like extreme risk taking or physical violence) and slowly stop responding to or checking the group chat. watches them fall out of videochat routines with their partners. watches them spend more time sleeping and not leave the house as much. watches the ren they came to know and admire in tokyo disappear to long term trauma survival behaviors
watches ren obsess over “goro akechis stupid glove” for months. watches how ren gets so fixated and lost in their own head over all the ways goro can come back and why he hasnt. and cant help but dislike it and tell ren to let it go because its like akechi is holding power over ren. by having left ren waiting for akechi to return and complete the pair. (complete ren)
the poor thing feels so helpless when rens health starts to tank further. he's just a cat... there are limits to what he can do. morgana cant get ren a glass of water or his favortie blanket. he cant cook or bring them a warm meal when they havent eaten. or hold a wet cloth to the back of their neck. he cant. hold them when they cry at night.
morgana does the best he can and ren thanks him for what he does all the time. and feels immense guilt because he feels like hes trapped morgana here and that hed be better off in tokyo with the sakuras.
