#challyshares

[hi-imnei]

Today...

Today Im happy. Not for any particular reason. I woke up feeling good. Wish I had more days like this, but Im not going to dwell on that right now. Im just gonna focus on the feeling.

[hi-imnei]

Back my Nei...

Give me back my Nei from circa 08 or 09. She didn't have it all, but promise was in the air and she was more than aware of great things lurking around the corner. 

But things changed. Life became strained. And now....

Please, just give me back my Nei. I miss her. I need her. Find her. Please!

[hi-imnei]

Hard...

one of the hardest things to do is love someone who can't love you....

[hi-imnei]

Dear Elle, 

I would appreciate it if you would get out of my head and stop singing my business all over the place. 

Love, 

Nei

[hi-imnei]

Falling back...sigh

As the excitement tapers off and reality sets in it hits me. I'm not having fun anymore. Feeling anxious and unsure about things, I think about falling back. The question is is it sabotage or self-preservation? I mean, I kinda understand how things go and I said that if given the chance I could handle it. But is this really a chance that I've been given or is it just Nei be damned? Gotta be smart...protect myself...shield the soft spot. But again, is it sabotage or self-preservation?

I don't know. I need clarity. I don't want to rock the boat, bust sometimes things need to be shaken up a bit. But what if it isn't what I thought it was turning out to be....

In "thinking" mode, 

Nei

[hi-imnei]

Jumbled Thoughts...

This is what happens when I get bored and have run out of books to read. Idle hands make for some silly moments. 

DISCLAIMER: I AM IN NO WAY SHAPE, FORM, OR FASHION A RAPPER, NOR DO I WANT TO BE. I'm just having fun with Audacity and Windows Live Movie Maker. 

Enjoy!

Sincerely yours, 

Challions