I hate chess guy I hate him. I go to all of his games just for him to ignore me and pretend I don't exist!? Yeah fuck off! I'm such a naive dumb bitch. Like oh yeah why did I even come for fucks sake. I know he doesn't like me but he didn't have to completely ignore me. Like if you don't want me to come just fucking say it and stop being a baby. Honestly I've had enough of him. I even fucking relapsed because of this short,long haired,egoistic,funny,weird,dumb idiot I honestly am speechless how much I'm crying too. I mean the worst thing is that I'm probably the issue. No one ever asked me to go but I do anyway because I think it's first of all nice of me and second of all I think chess is cool. I feel like a huge creep just watching him every goddamn game. It's weird,creepy,annoying. I DO know I'm most likely the problem but I also don't wanna admit it. Oh my fucking god.... I'll come watch tomorrow anyways. It's like I'm addicted to seeking his attention and just watching him from afar. What the fuck is wrong with me oh my...
