#personal vent?

[angellic-collective]

For singlets grossly overqualified

For systems grossly underqualified

[jelestes]

yeah having daddy issues is shitty and stuff but mommy issues WILL turn you into a deranged unhinged shell of a human being, it’s honestly disturbing to see how i can be so emotionally unattached from people and still crave for them all the time, it’s like someone (my mother) ripped my heart out and i tried to put it back together by glueing it to my rib cages. ugh.

[jojosbabe]

Ok *cracks knuckles* time for y'all to understand keicho.

Tbh i know this may sound mean to some

But honestly if you are a single child. Don't have siblings. Or are not an older sibling.

I don't really think you can capture keicho nijimuras character.

Its not that you couldn't write him. Its i dont expect these people to get it done well.

It kinda hurts me when people don't do siblings well.

But that aside. I know people have different feels. And thats ok. But the nijimuras are close to me. And i wont stand for slander on any of em.

The nijimura brothers arch hit me close. As i completely understand keicho's character. And the shit he had to go through. What its like to kinda lose that feeling of being the fun big brother to having to help take care of family. Granted mine wasn't as oof. But it still is a sombering feeling. That you grow up to damn quick.

And now you look back and ask. Where did the time go? I went through a lot of shit tbh as a kid. But my personal experiences aside. Keicho's i absolutely understood where he came from. What he smart bout it? Nah. He did deserve that ass whoppin from josuke. But he got it. And lost. But he isn't bad and he hesitated and thought about giving the bow n arrow. But his pride got in the way. And didn't know how to atone and repent. But probably he didn't have anyone approach him in that way before. He probably didn't have many friends or people to talk to. As many people cant see stands and well you get the point. Akira otoishi seemed to be friends or someone he knew. Thats why that scene seemed so weird and sudden. I wanna know more what happened before that. It sounded like they had history. So i hc they were friends and the only person that cho felt like he understood and he understood him. And he could be his happy self around other than his brother okuyasu. He didn't trust easy. Like i have a whole big story in mind.

And not to mention their father who is practically disabled. Keicho seeing him go through that. He admitted he hated seeing his father suffer. Their family suffer unnecessarily. And there isn't anything to do about it. That feeling of having to be strong for his bro during the abuse they suffered. And now having to feel helpless. Like its just awful. The amount of shit he took the brunt of for oku.

Alao people forget the cultural differences too. That doesn't help. Japanese family dynamics are different than us. Sorry people it is.

But anyways. Keicho isn't a bad guy. Just a product of hurt and dios bullshit. And his fathers mistakes.

But mr.nijimura isn't all bad either. He was desperate. He lost his wife. Lost his business. It was tough.

Like the whole thing still gets me. But many people dont wanna go deep or take it at such shallow face value. And so much slander and overshadowing keicho.

Look i looooove okuyasu with all my heart. But keicho nijimura. How they did him. It feels like a waste. And wasted potential. And how the fans sideline him. All because his lil bro is the "nice symptoms" of ptsd and all that shit they went through.

Okuyasu suffered too and hated how he felt helpless to protect his bro not just from other stand users but himself. And you guys let this fly over your heads.

Okuyasu nijimura loved his big brother and his father. Unconditional love. The good the bad and the ugly of it. We dont deserve this bean

Keicho also loved his brother. He had an overprotective complex. And if you were a big sibling you would understand that feel.

You want them to be strong and resilient to the world. Because not everyone is gonna be your friend. But at the same time. While it made him blind to the fact you can love too. And its ok to ask for help and a shoulder to lean on.

I could go on forever.

But you get the idea.

It just hurts me that that arch had the potential to be the most realest damn thing in the series.

It hit home too much. Thats why it both made me pissed when keicho nijimura was killed off. But was sad af too.

We dont really see the aftermath. And that sucks ass.

Sure yeah anime plot. But still. Oof.

I may have to write more keicho nijimura stuff because nobody can get him well enough for me. At least the complexity of it all.

Thats enough venting for now.

Im not here to jab at anyone. I just have a lot of feels and opinions about this character personally because they hit home to me personally.

I don't expect everyone to understand or agree. But i needed to say something about it.

[theannoyingparasite]

Do I really have to scream to get your attention (METAPHORICAL IM NOT SHOUTING AT PEOPLE TRUST)

[acupofteaintheafternoon]

ts might turn as well into a vent blog but i want my mother to shut up for once and appreciate me as a person, not just as a punching bag to others that embarasses themselves in public. she keeps on telling me how i embarassed myself in front of my entire class + all of the professors because of the way i read something , she keeps on telling me how i failed at things instead of focusing on the good parts and that i've had fun. all she knows to blame is that damned tablet instead of taking a good look at her and her temperament. goodnight, i'm tired

[a-ghost-in-universe]

Bawling my eyes out. I hate my body. My personality. I really wanna cut myself and starve for week straight. I can't because my mom would notice. I feel like the love and happiness was sucked out of my body and now I'm just rotting sadness. I don't know anything.. I feel sad. I really can't explain how I'm feeling. But if I simplified it I guess it would go under category sadness

[theannoyingparasite]

It hurts to know that no one knows the actual me.

Or something like that.