God why are you putting me in this predicament. I don't know what the fuck to do. We closer to the fucking entrance of the V.I.P. My heart pounding and I think I sweating but my finger tips were as cold as ice but my palms were sweating. i continued to rub them together. Karrueche rubbed my leg to calm down. That only made me breath faster.
" Bathroom Now " I said and I got up and walked to the bathroom as Seiko, Cassie, Karrueche, and India followed. We walked in the bathroom and locked the door.
" it's getting crazy huh? " Seiko said
" Yes what am I suppose to do " I said
" First calm down " Karrueche said
" I know but that it's working " I said
" take deep breaths " India said and I started to take deep breaths. I breathed in.
" Damn Teyana breath out " Cassie said and I let go of the breath I was holding. My mind was racing so fast I forgot to breath out. In mind I could imagine myself cursing out Chris, Brandon and Cooling with Rocky for the end of the night but I didn't want that to happen. I wanted someone to hold me and make these thoughts disappear. I felt myself about to cry. The tears rushed down my face. I wanna escape these memories.
" Baby " Karrueche said as I bent down and held myself.
" Okay tell me exactly what's going on ? " Cassie said
" Okay I fucked Rocky a while back and Brandon found out and we haven't seen each other since. Brandon and I had this big fight this morning. Chris and I had a big argument a while back. " I said
" well first look maybe you need a break with Brandon. " Seiko said
" Yeah look if you love something you will let it go if it comes back it was meant to be " Karrueche said and I nodded
" we got your back " India said
" Yeah " They are said and I wiped my face and hugged each one of them and walked out the bathroom. To the V.I.P were It was so clique up. I just walked in and hugged everyone then when it came to Chris, Brandon, and Asap. I just hugged Rocky and he told me hi and I just smiled really hard. I continued to talk to him as everyone proceeded to have a good time. I could feel Brandon starring holes through my face.
" how you been ? " He said
" having talked to you since we " he said then chuckled at the end.
" cool it B" I said and laughed with him
" why your home boy staring damn " He smiled
" I can see " He said " why you over here with me instead of him "
" because he is being a bitch and I missed you rocky " I said
" Yeah Teyana cool it, he over there thinking how he gon' beat your ass when ya get home " he said
" I don't care " I said " I am sick of trusting him with my heart and he tore it apart. Let him sit by his self "
The rest of the night I just partied with everyone else. Brandon was really angry so he left and never came back. Chris talked to the boys the whole night and even spoke to Seiko half of the time. India mugged the shit out of him the whole time and tried to keep Seiko attention the must of the time that's why Chris couldn't talk to her the rest of the time. Karrueche came over and talked with us as well and was turning me on. I just kept my legs crossed and danced the rest of the night and drinked.
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I turned over and it was 3:00 in the morning. I repeatedly heard knocks at the door. I rosed from my bed and walked to the door. I opened the door and he stood there looking me in my face.
" Teyana you know this is it " He said motionless. I can tell he been thinking this through and finally came to a conclusion.
" what are talking about ?" I said
" Us we don't work, this isn't gonna work " he said and my eyebrows arched and I poked at my lips.
" what happened to you being there for me. You act like i did this by my damn self " i said " you helped too "
" why can't you ever notice that you do fucking wrong too. it's always your way or the highway isn't it ? " I said
" man you just not there " he said
" I am not great at love but i am open " I said " I fucking trusted you again after you did that shit to me why can't you do the same "
" because you won't let it go you won't let him go " He said
" Brandon i let it go, I let it go a long time ago. When you came to visit me for my damn birthday two months ago I did. It is now February 16, 2013 almost a year and it's out my mind and out of my heart " I said " I trusted you with my fear and heart i know i shouldn't have let you. You sugar coded you lies " His nose started to flare and he was breathing hard enough. His veins were popping out his neck and head. " you told me that you love me more than anything in the entire world, you would kiss me on my forehead and tell me you leaving for a while and I already knew you were going to cheat "
" Teyana don't put this shit on me " I said
" what because we were doing good before all of this before her getting pregnant, I love legend with everything with me I even wish he was mine or i had mine but I can't and i cry all the time about it " I sobbed onto my shirt and the tears rolled down my face to my neck. " I felt like I couldn't compare to her because you left me and got her pregnant. She made you forget about the girl that is there when you foolish. You would love her and hold me but just let me know if i am standing in your way "
" the fuck are talking about? I loved you and only you. Look I fucked up you fucked up and I fucked up again. i am just sick of seeing you secretly cry inside when you come into contact with her when i pick him up or drop him off. The face you make when you see him the smile but i know you hurt inside. " He said and I cried harder as he walked to the door. i grabbed his hand.
" wait brandon wait " I said " don't leave "
" I have to teyana. We need time " He said
" NO WE NEED EACH OTHER " I yelled
" TEYANA GIVE IT TIME " he yelled back
" I HATE YOU " I said and it cut so deep.
" you don't mean that " he said softly
" Yes I do " I said back in the same manner. I knew exactly that I didn't him but I needed him to feel the plan I felt. " I FUCKING HATE YOU. YOU LEFT ME REPEATEDLY TO DIE, TO DIE ALONE. I MISSED YOU DEEPLY. I NEEDED YOU. I LOVED YOU and now I have grown to hate you " with that his eyes turned red he turned red. i never seen him so mad. He opened door and looked back at me. I stood there motionless. Only thing moving on my body that I felt was my tears falling from my eyes. He slammed the door behind him. As soon as I heard the slam from the door I dropped down to my knees and my breath fell with it and I cried. I cried angrily to I couldn't breath anymore. Then i calmed down because I got a headache and I was getting dizzy.
He cut me open and let me bleed. He let me hurting. He suffocated me. i believed him when he lied. I saw everything. I saw in his phone. When he called them baby she is haunting me. I didn't mean it when i said I hated him I just needed him to hurt as much as I did.
I got up off the floor as the tears dried on my face. I walked to the door and closed it and locked it behind me. I had only big shirt on. No shoes or nothing. I walked down the hallway. I knocked on the door. i waited for a while and cried a while. Then she came to the door. She grabbed my hand and we walked in and closed the door behind us. She walked to her door and climbed in. She lifted the covers for me and I crawled in. She pulled me closer and held.
" i didn't wanna be lonely " i said
" it's cool I will be here and you won't have to be lonely " Kae said and I closed my eyes as rubbed my back. " I am here first as a friend so if you need to talk just let me know "
" I have to go so nobody can find out okay " I said getting up from his bed and putting my shirt on and pulling up my pants slightly.
" what's wrong with them knowing about me and you " he said
" look, they didn't expect us being together the first time anyways and you have someone you mess with right ? " I said. Getting mad of the thought of her.
" So, when I had you it wasn't like I told you not to leave me. I loved you Cassie and no one could change. What we had wasn't just no highschool thing I loved you babygirl and still do " He said and I wasn't facing him so I was able to shed a tear and wipe it away slowly and proceed to get dress.
" Jermaine, I'll call you later okay " I said walking to him after I tied my shoes.
" you love me right ? " he said walking over to me and standing right in front of me, His manhood poked out of his hans draws as I tried to pay attention to his face. His cute little face. His dimples and his little slight freckles that you can only see in the light. His perfect smile and his perfect lips. I have missed him so much but it's been so long and in highschool we broke up for a reason. He was messing around with one of my closet friends from a another school but he always claimed he didn't know and he was sorry.
" Look Jermaine I'll talk to later okay. I promise " I said and I stood up and looked him in his face. He towered over me and and looked away. I stood on my tippy toes and moved in and kissed his neck. I held the back of his neck and kissed his chin then his lips then bit his bottom lip.
" I guess but you better or I am have to beat it up again " he smiled. I laughed as he smacked my butt as we both walked out the door. He watched me walk to my car then I got in then he finally closed the door and walked in. I pulled up and got on the hallway to my hotel. I started to cry on the way. Every time I see him, I miss his face and his touch and the way he does everything. He was my first real boyfriend and my last. He always has a place in my heart. Red and I never really got to talk after that day I told him it wasn't a good idea to have that anymore. I always wished he would call or speak and start a conversation with me when I saw him but he never did and and that diverstated me. It hurt for a long time then I got over it.
Jermaine ( J Cole ) and I seen each other in the club a while back and just reconnected. he still is the same though except he is like a millionaire now, but his heart hasn't changed. I missed him deeply after we broke up. Seeing his face again put me right back in that place as a little girl in highschool having the biggest crush on the cutest guy in school except Brandon but I knew Brandon was always Teyana and I never got attached to him. He was upperclass so he was older than me. My mother never wanted me to get involved with him though. She thought that he was a bad idea, but i wanted him so bad. Besides when you love someone and you guys love eachother you don't listen to no one at all.
I parked the car and closed the door behind. I wiped my tears as I walked to the elevator. I got on the elevator and waited till my floor. I got off and walked to my door. I pulled out my room key and stuck it in and opened the door. I walked started to the bed and dropped my pants. I took my shirt off and let my hair down. I walked to my purse and took the shirt that I told him I was going to take. I put his shirt on and his scent drifted across my nose and traced across my skin. I smiled at the smell of him. I pulled back the sheets and laid in the bed. I pulled the covers up and put the shirt up to my face and imagined his arms wrapped around me. My phone started to make sounds and blinks of lights. I grabbed it off the dresser and it was a message from Jermaine, twitter, Seiko, Karrueche, and Instagram. I opened up Jermaine's text.
Just making sure you good shawty, call me when you get to the telly * laughing emoji*
I went to his phone contact and called him on FaceTime. He picked up after the third time and as soon as he appeared I smiled.
" nothing I just wanted to FaceTime you" I said
" oh you wanted to see my face huh? " he joked
" nah don't get cocky " I said
" I'm not you just do " he said " I see you got my shirt on "
" Huh?" I replied embarrassed
" it's cool " he smiled then my face softened up. " Can I ask you something? "
" can I take you out somewhere ?" he questioned
" Um Yeah " I said but in the back of my mind I knew that I had plans with Teyana, Karrueche, and India tomorrow. i am just have to try and make some shit up because I really do wanna actually spend some time with jay.
" are you sure you have nothing to do? because I don't want to be messing up your plans " He said I decided I would tell him.
" Yeah I was suppose to go to sneaker summit with my friends then the club late later that night " I said
" Okay then I will just pick you up at sneaker summit " he said
" okay " I said nervously. We really did want nobody to know about this. Like it's just something we want to keep to ourselves.
" don't worry i will figure something out and plus it's allstar weekend it's going to be attention everywhere " He said and I smiled. I was getting a little sleepy. It was already four in the morning. " you getting sleepy Cas? "
" no I am listening " I said his voice was very slow and calming.
" Baby why don't get some sleep. I got to head to the studio anyways " he said and I smiled and shut my eyes a little.
" studio this late " i said
" yeah " he said " but have a good night sleep and be ready for tomorrow okay ? "
" you are going to have a goodmorning text from me by the morning " he smiled
" Okay and goodmorning since you gotta go to work " I laughed
" girl shutup " he smiled
" It's true though " I mumbled
" goodnight shorty and dream about me " he said
" goodmorning poo and rap about me " I said and with that I let out one more smile and hung up.
" you ready ? " I questioned
" yeah " She said back and started to put on her jacket.
" okay they are waiting downstairs. Are you hungry ? " I said and she just nodded with the saddest emotions I ever seen her. Like I didn't know what the fuck to do. I didn't know whether to to tell her to go talk to him or hold her because lastnight when I did she felt so cold. She stayed in one spot the whole night never moved. " teyana maybe you should talk to your moms "
" about what ? " she said with a attitude.
" whatever teyana " I said about to walk to the door. I looked back at her and she rolled her eyes and continued to do what she was doing. I rolled my eyes and the opened the door then closed the door back and walked over to her. " the fuck teyana. Shit I am sorry that your relationship ain't fucking working out but shit it's not the end of the world. Look I don't even know why ya let this little shit get to ya when ya know ya are going to get back together anyways. The fuck be happy your shoe sold out in ten minutes. You have the fastest sold out shoe in the world, you have a fucking world record. Like does any of that shit fucking matter ? or you are too upset over a argument that won't do shit to ya relationship." I said out of breathe at the end.
" Look Karrueche I know I know I know " she cried " I am sick of people telling me that it will get better but lastnight it was different like it actually felt like it was over. Words were being said that I never thought would be said but it did and I couldn't stop them. Lastnight I told him i hated him and he asked was serious and I told him yes. i am afraid that I might actually hate him seiko but i don't want too. I am not used to sleeping without him and Legend in the middle it is weird and I am so sorry because I know we had something going on but I need you there as my friend now and have that understanding first before anything else and to be honest i have talked to everything and they are giving me bad response. Usually we go through this little fucking periods but I think it's different now. " she cried more and the mascara ran down her face.
" I am here but I don't understand why you would tell him that you hate him but that's the last thing you want him to hear or think "
" because I was hurt and I wanted him to feel as hurt as me because he never understands. The shit he does stop me from what I am doing and I am done doing whatever for three months straight. The fucking cheating and shit has to stop. I can't anymore. But you know how you want someone so much that you feel like nothing can stop you or you just need this person. That's how I feel i feel so vulnerable to him and I hate it. I am weak when it comes to him but I can't change it. I hate how someone knows your fears and they use that shit against you. i don't think he does it intentionally but he does it. "
I walked over to her and hugged her, she stayed that way for a while. Then she wiped her face and reapplied her make-up and tried her hardest to plaster a smile on her face. People don't know anything, because you are looking from the outside in. This girl is strong but something is going to hit the fan.
" you going Cassie " we asked leaving sneaker summit
" nah I don't feel good. I think i am going to lay down okay. I will probaby be okay by the club " she said and smiled a slight smiled and hopped in her car after hugging us. The car soon pulled off. Seiko stopped talking chris and walked over to us.
" that was weird, she seemed fine to me " Seiko smiled
" me too but we will find out later " I said
" I think she just doesn't feel good " Teyana smiled. " seiko are you coming to brunch with mommy, karrueche and I "
" nah " she said and chris grabbed her from behind. They really have been touchy feely today. He keeps grabbing her hands and hugging her, she just would smile and laugh.
" why not ? " teyana questioned
" because me and chris are running somewhere " she said and teyana rolled her eyes.
" oh " teyana said and mugged chris a dirty look. Her and Chris haven't spoken since she cursed him out a couple of months back. She would constantly throw him dirty looks. He just shrug his shoulders and take it. Seiko and I really want them to talk tho, but they won't because they are so damn stubborn. I just don't like the fact that chris still has a girlfriend but continues to try to be with seiko I think it's sick. I really don't care for Chris anymore either because I think he is the biggest bitch that ever walked this earth for ever treating Seiko like that. But now I look over at them now and I can still see the hurt in seiko's eyes and the apology in his and the love their body languages holds. " I see you later Seiko "
" See you later sissy " Seiko said and walked over to teyana and kissed her cheek then mine and hugged us both.
" see you later " I said " and chris " he waved and smiled.
" shut the fuck up " teyana said and got in the car and I got in and they closed the door. It's sad to see your oldest friends sad.
We finally got back to the hotel and Teyana didn't want to be by herself so we stayed together and pre gamed in my room. I was rolling up and and she was drinking ciroc.
" Has he tried calling " I said
" yeah he has but he knows that I am not going to answer so he stopped after forty miss calls and texts "
" some things you just get used to you know " She said
" have you talked to Trey " she said
" No" I said then trailed off " I mean yeah sometimes "
" I heard he has been trying to get in touch with you " she said and slipped once more " so have you really been talking to him "
" No No I haven't " I said truly
" I think you should talk to him " she said softly
" why ? " I said with a attitude
" because you want to and you know you do. " she said and it was a quiet pause and a deep stare " why did you guys break up "
I knew wasn't going to be able to hide it anymore the " it just didn't work out okay " wasn't just going to work anymore. It was all my fault I felt bad ass hell everytime I talked to Trey. It was that we had a big argument one night and I couldn't. We started arguing all the time. He started cheating, we stopped talking all the time. He just stop doing what he promised he would do. So I told him that we couldn't and this isn't going to work.
" you cheated on him " she said " you cheated on trey songz "
" I did before but no " I said " we had a big argument one night the tears, the glasses the floor, and the blood --" she interrupted me
" of course not. I hit him as hard as could he would just throw me around. glass was being thrown " i said and I started to think about that night. It was so scary " It was hard for me to look at him in the same way again "
" but you hit home what did you expect for him to do. He didn't hit you though. But you can't hit a man expecting him to continue to take that shit over and over again. It doesn't work like that. Some men aren't going to take that ' boys don't hit girls ' sometimes. You better be glad that he did just push pass you or move pass you " she said and I dropped my head and put my hands over face as my hair fell. " It's okay " she said and rubbed my back in circular motions.
" I hate to admit when I am wrong. I am sorry "
" I think everyone does kae " she said and continued to rub my back " I think you should tell him sorry instead of me. "
I wiped my face and looked and looked up at her and she nodded.
" okay here's the deal I will talk to trey and you talk to brandon " I said
" oh hell me and him no no no no not happening " she spat
" because we need a break from each other "
" okay then what are you going to do for me " I questioned. She looked at me and licked her lips and bit them.
" you never gave me my surprise from last night " she smiled seductively
" you want it right now " i questioned
" no the question is do you want it right now "
I smiled and brought her face closer to mine and kissed her lips softly. She slowly entered her hot tongue and it explores my mouth. We stood up and continued to kiss. I lifted her shirt and she lifted mine up and they fell to the floor. She stopped kissing me and smiled. she walked away and watched as her butt sat up in her pants. I could see her back dimples, her tattoo on her ass and her black laced thong. She looked back at me and hooked her bra and threw it back and held her boobs as she smiled and bit her lip and smiled and walked in the bedroom. I got up and followed after her she laid on the bed with her pants off and her thong still on and her tits all out. I crawled on the bed and climbed on top of her. I kiss her lips as she caress my body and unhooked my bra. She threw the bra on the floor. She kissed my neck as my pants were being pushed down. I moaned loudly. I rubbed my vagina back and forth on hers to get her wet. i kissed her breasts and sucked on her nipples. I traveled down and kissed her stomach. I grabbed her thongs and pulled them down. They fell to floor. I opened her legs. Her aroma smelled so sweet. I kissed over lips. I sucked on her lips.
" ahhhhhh mmmm " she tried to hold her moans in. I moved my tongue back and forth on her clit and she screamed. I stayed down town for five minutes then I came back up and kissed her so she could taste herself. She turned me over and returned the flavor and then she inserted her finger inside of me and moved in and out and added one more and the pleasure was unbearable. My moans filled the room and then hers as I ate her from behind and pulled her hair. The squeezing of the ass and all. She sucked my bottom lip and then continued to kiss me as I fingered her wetness till she came. She came and I pushed her on the bed and sucked up her juices.
" shit damnnn mmmmm yassss " she moaned and she ate me till I came.
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Once we were down we ate ice cream in the bed naked laying on each other watching a movie. Really Teyana is my best friend but when there is just temptation it is hard just to look and not touch.
" I am finish " I said and put my cup on the stand and she looked down her phone as she put hers on the stand.
" round 2 " she put the phone down on the stand and smiled.
" I am about to diveeeeeeeeeeeee in " I joked and laid her on the bed.
" that is so sweet " I blushed " but stop "
" you don't want to me to sing to you " I said
" no because you can't sing " I laughed
" I think I should be a singer " he smiled and looked over at me as he drove.
" nope, sick to what you know babyboy " i laughed.
' you doing me like dat shawty " he smiled. Everytime he time he called me shawty it was niagara falls in my draws. I couldn't wait to get back to the hotel to change my underwear. Good thing I wore underwear tonight.
" no i am just saying " I said
" oh okay , but you love it though " he smiled
" yeah i love it " i smiled. " but jay I have to go, you know but I don't want to leave you "
" I know but look shawty I will be there in the cut okay. I bee throwing you dirty looks " he laughed " but seriously I am going tonight with my boys on the other side of V.I.P. "
" okay can I come back with you "
" Look after the club I will meet you at your hotel late though and I will call okay "
" okay " I said and then we pulled in the underground parking lot of the hotel.
" see you later babe " he said and kiss my lips and it was connection between us that didn't wanna be broken. Then he broke it and kissed me again. " I see you alright " and I nodded my head and he got out the car and opened the door for me and closed it behind me. He slapped my ass as I walked over to the door. " don't look so sad to leave me "
" boyyyyaaaaaa this " he said in his best impression of me. I smiled and laughed my ass all the way to the elevator. i stepped on the elevator and waited to get to our floor. We have to whole floor to our self. The top floor is ours. Teyana and brandon had the penthouse suite but now it's just teyana's. Even though our suites is gorgeous her shit is crazy. I walked on the floor and of course it was loud as hell and the boys door was open. I walked in and said ' wassup' they said wassup and Red just looked, I rolled my eyes and walked to seiko room. I knocked on the door and she said come in. I walked in and walked to her room. The door was open. Chris was in there laying on her lap on his phone. He rubbed her bare thigh as she messed in her hair and watched TV.
" wassup cassie " she smiled.
" nothing " I said " wassup with you guys " I pointed at them and he put his phone now.
" nothing when are we going out ? " seiko questioned
" Man I don't know, where is your sister " i questioned
" I don't know " she said " she doesn't really wanna talk to us. i don't really know why like I feel like tonight shit is gonna hit the fan tonight "
" please don't say that " chris laughed
" i feel that way to " I laughed " watch your back chris "
" because you guys are not on a good level right now " I grinned
" yeah but I think it's brandon before me " chris said then we agreed.
" that is true but I still say watch your back "
" you don't have to tell me twice " chris said
" give me kiss " I said trying to kiss seiko.
" chris no " she said moving my face with her hand.
" why not? " I questioned.
" because you didn't do what you was suppose to do " she said
" what was I suppose to do " i questioned
" you was suppose to talk to my sister "
" I am going to talk to your sister " I said " but you sister is crazy ass hell dog, you gotta let me figure out a plan. "
I was watching seiko get dress and do her thing for the club. I already was dressed and showered. The whole time i was here I basically spent all my time with her and i like the feeling because i know when I am at home I can't because Rihanna be doing surprise visits and shit, even though she is suppose to be on tour. Seiko and I just flirt all damn day. I never really think about how I would tell Rih if we get caught seen together, I just need to be with her.
" seiko when the last time we had sex " I said
" I don't know about you but I haven't had sex with a man since stopped having sex. I have had sex like every week now with the same girl " she said
" oh so you going back to girls little faggot"
" I am not turning down getting my pussy liked " she laughed and I laughed
" but I can do that for you " I said and she looked back at me from doing her hair and I licked my lips.
" nah I am good " she smiled " chris you have a girlfriend "
" no I don't think you know. We go over this alot " she said
" okay but it's going to be a year in two months since we had sex "
" hell yeah, I miss it " I laughed
" oh well that is too bad " she said as she put her clothes on and finished the last piece of hair she had flat ironed. She walked out the bathroom and walked to the kitchen and grabbed some fruit and started eating it in my face while going down her phone.
" you not gon' offer me none " I said getting in my feelings
" here damn " she joked and passed me the fruit.
" girl don't do too much. I shared everything with you " I joked and she laughed and ate another pineapple. " that's why the pussy was so good "
" huh?" she said and looked at me wrong
" Your pussy aways tasted like pineapples , a very yummy favor " I said and she smiled and laughed " you made me love pineapples a lot a lot "
" Chris stop being nasty " she said
" what you had the best tasting pussy I ever tasted " I said she just looked me " your welcome, that's a compliment "
" well your welcome because you were the first to touch it " she said
" I know thats a blessssssinggggg " I sung and she laughed.
" but chris I am sure that it is more of girls like me if you stop messing with these fishy funky pussy ass bitches "
" damnnnn shade " I said and laughed but she didn't this time " nah there is no other like you "
there was pause and it got quiet she put her phone down and looked away.
" chris... " she trailed off " why are you with her "
" Seiko because I want to be " I said and her face turned red.
" but why are you here with me then "
" chris damnnn it's always what you want. What the hell do you need "
" Seiko don't put all this shit on me like I haven't repeatedly ask you to be with me "
" but you want me right "
" yeah I do but I want her too "
" then leave me alone. Give me time to get over you and give someone else a chance. Because obviously you don't "
" I am not bitchin I am just sick of my heart been thrown around by someone that I FUCKING LOVE " her nostrils were flaring and there was death stare " I am sorry I couldn't just stay there and let you run all over me okay I have pride as well "
" Seiko get the fuck over. Build a bridge and get the fuck over. Look I cheated I apology and I fucked up and I want you and I need you but you won't let me in "
then that's when her phone started to ring. So it stopped her from going into rage and she just stood there and picked up the phone.
" okay well I am leaving tomorrow morning "
then she hung up. She didn't say two words to me but she walked out and left the door open. I followed her to teyana's room. We both walked in and everyone was sitting down and laughing and talking then we walked in and it instantly got tense.
" wassup with the love birds " Keeis said and everyone stayed quiet because seiko sent him a death stare. " okaayy take it back "
" so what's going on ? " Cassie spoke
" We all need to talk it has been too much tension on trip " My mother spoke and I forgot that it was so many of us on this trip. The room was crowded and we sat in a circle. I forgot that my mother was here but she did say that she wanted to see how everyone was doing and seiko and teyana's mother build a good friendship with my mother.
" chris let's start off with you " Teyana spat " you are such a fucking bitch I thought the day would never come when I could say this. I am so angry at you because you are so damn phony. How could you leave her alone like that. She wouldn't tell us anything. You were like the only person she had. She loved you and now you trying to come back and repatch shit and you have a girlfriend. Like dude I think she has had enough hurt and pain. "
" Teyana it's okay " seiko said trying to calm her down
" No it isn't seiko " Teyana said getting louder " You let him do this to you. I don't want you to end up like me and brandon. That is so unhealthy. "
" Is this bring down chris day " I said
" No chris but she does have a point. How are you going to try and love seiko with everything but still have Rihanna " when my mother said that name karrueche, seiko ,and teyana tensed " that's highly disrespectful and I didn't raise you like that "
" and Teyana you can't really have nothing to say " her mother said " because you and brandon are not on good terms "
" me and brandon are not together and never getting back together so that's that " teyana said
" no teyana no you guys aren't done " karrueche said
" shutup kae " teyana said and rolled her eyes.
" but Teyana you can not talk about anybody else because you fucked up in a relationship too If Seiko decides that she wants to be with chris and fuck her over then so be it because she will have to learn and deal with it "
" no when seiko is down. I have to clean up her mess because mr.sluttyboy over here is never around too. He is always fucking sucking another bitch while she is in pain " teyana said and that shit hurt. Like I thought she was my sister.
" teyana chill " cassie said
" I am chill I am just saying " Teyana said
" no you aren't you are angry and we can see that " Mijo said
" shut the fuck up Mijo" she spat
" teyana shutup " seiko shouted
" no seiko you shut up. you didn't have nothing to say when he was cheating on you did you? No you was on mute now you got all that mouth "
" you are acting like a bitch " cassie spoke
" cassie you are a bitch "
" where is brandon " Hood spoke
" why does it matter " teyana said
" because he the only nigga that puts you in your place. You need to calm down " Hood said
" I am fucking calm " teyana said
" chill out chica " her mother spoke. Then Teyana shut up quickly and never talked again.
" So we aren't going to club " Red spoke
" shut up red " we all said
then the wildest shit happened. Brandon walked in with a girl behind him. Soon as I seen it I thought to myself this nigga is crazy.
" can i talk to you real quick " he said to Teyana. She looked him and rolled her eyes and smiled at girl and waved and walked out the hotel with him.
" SHUT THE FUCK UP BRANDON STOP TALKING. DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME "
" so hey " austin said to girl and she just stood there and smiled and waved. The girls couldn't stand the sight of her by the way their faces looked. Even my mother threw her dirty looks. Did they know her or am I missing something.
" SHUT THE FUCK UP " I screamed in till my voice cracked. I was so mad and angry I cried because I couldn't anymore. " No fuck you AND SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU PUT THAT BITCH OVER ME "
" DON'T CALL MY BABYMOTHER NO BITCH "
" MAN FUCK YOU AND THAT BITCH"
" FUCK YOU TOO " he said " YOU PUT THAT NIGGA OVER ME. I KNEW YOUR ASS WAS GOING TO CRY ABOUT IT LATER "
" no you aren't " he spoke and I started hitting him and he pushed me up against the wall and moved in closer. " calm down " His voice sit me to calmer state but i was still mad as hell. " obviously we aren't going to work so I am coming here to say goodbye okay "
" goodbye ? " I said with the tears falling down my face
" YES TEYANA THIS ISN'T GOING TO WORK LOOK AT US. THIS IS ALL WE CAN DO IS FIGHT "
" NO BUT THAT'S JUST WHAT WE DO. THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE DO WHEN THEY ARE MAD " I said " please don't leave me "
" Teyana it is over okay "
" no this is a break " I said not trying to comprehend what he was saying to me.
" no it isn't. You said we were through lastnight. I am just saying goodbye like you said "
" no but I didn't mean it like that " I said as he walked away from me and back in to the room. I walked in. I walked to trina and she rolled her eyes. All I have been was nice to this girl. Taking care of her baby and keeping my mouth shut. It's gone way to long.
" you want to fight me bitch "
" yeah " I said putting my hair up
" chill teyana " Brandon said
" nah I am sick of this bit---" then that's when she threw the first punch. I pulled her hair and started to punch her in her face. She fell to the ground and i just continued. I wanted to see blood. People kept grabbing at me and telling me to stop. Somebody finally pulled me off and she got up and walked out the door quickly and Brandon just stared at me. The tears were running down my face as he walked pass me.
" okay okay I am cool " I said and Chris and Hood put me down. He walked out the room with his stuff and walked passed me. " I FUCKING HATE YOU " I said sending jabs to his back but he didn't even turn around. He turned around and then I punched him in his face. He dropped his bag and chuckle a little. Then I continue and he shoved pass me and then he probably got sick of me putting my hands on him and he pushed me with force and I slid across the floor. Then that's when everybody got up. Chris walked over to Brandon and he stole him then the boys had to break everything up. They was holding Chris as brandon left and my mother and the girls were holding me back. Brandon walked out and I screamed " I hate you " and he walked out rubbing the back of his neck with his head down. When the door closed I started to realize this wasn't a dream anymore this was real. I lost my other half. My baby. and my bestfriend. Everything happened so quickly and so fast.
" put me the fuck down " I said and then they released. I walked to the room and walked to the bathroom. I looked at my face and my upper body. My hair was matted now. My face was red and my eyes were puffy and red. My lip was busted. But I didn't look as bad as that bitch tho. There was bruise on my back and my arm from him pushing me. But His lip was busted and his nose was bleeding and his eye was purple a little. I tried to clean up my face. I walked out the bathroom. I put my reading glasses on and put my hair in a ponytail and changed my clothes. I walked out the room.
" nobody say nothing to me " I said with no emotion.
" Teyana " My mother spoke
" ma I am talk to her " seiko spoke Then that's when I grabbed some ice for my lip and walked back to the room. Seiko followed and I laid in the bed that was filled with his scent. It made me cry. She sat on the bed.
" teyana you said you hated him " she spoke softly looking at the floor.
" and I mean it " I said " seiko i never felt so sad in my life. It was like he didn't care. He said he wanted to say goodbye "
" goodbye ? " she said " that's a bit to much "
" I know I was crushed " I cried " I didn't mean to hit her or him. I just was so angry I couldn't stop it "
" I understand but Teyana look. You will just feel this way tonight because it just happened but I will be hear for you okay and you did what you wanted to do and felt the need too. It was built up anger it was bound to hit the fan sooner or later "
" but it happened so fast "
" I know " she said " he will come around "
" what about you and chris "
" what about us ? " she said and looked away " it doesn't matter anymore and never will. It is over. We are just single and I hope it stays that way because I am getting hurting and you are getting hurt. "
" can you stay with me tonight "
" yes " she said wiping her lonely tear.
That's when Karrueche, Cassie, India, and my mother walked in and they laid on the bed and listen to me cry and we all let everything out but I still felt alone. I felt like I was a rock standing out in a bunch a pebbles because of the feeling of lone.
The might be some errors but my computer won't let me fix them so bare with me.
