#circle!bethany

[hollyand-writes]

I love just how smooth Sebastian is when he flirts with Bethany in the Legacy DLC. Even Varric is impressed -- and, honestly? My reaction was exactly the same as his 😂

[baejax-the-great]

For the DADWC: The way cold glass fogs when you press your hand against it, for the character of your choice!

Thank you for the prompt! Here is Circle!Bethany as I imagine her in my unwritten Shipwreck AU @dadrunkwriting

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Bethany idly chilled the glass windowpane while staring into the courtyard. It had been three weeks since Meredith confined her indoors—a punishment for her sister, not Bethany, who hadn’t broken any rules in years—and now she stared and she watched and she glowered at the people who walked around like the right to do so was Maker-granted.

She’d chosen this window because the panes fit poorly, and air slipped in around the cracks. The harbor wasn’t exactly her favorite smell in the world, but her options were limited to her roommate’s dirty socks, the slop served at supper, and the books in the library. She’d had her fill of old paper. She longed for something else. Fresh bread or lilacs or even the homey smell of a mabari, but all she could get was stolen whiffs of the harbor and the muffled sounds of the people below.

There was a new templar in the courtyard. Lost by the look of it. Helmet under one arm, fingers in his hair as he looked around, his entire body shaped into an apology for existing. Bethany watched as he tried one direction, then disappeared into another which she knew was a dead end blocked off by a large gate, and he shuffled back into view a moment later. His hand met his hair again, but he relaxed when he caught sight of Cullen.

Bethany hated him for that. Not because Cullen was any better or any worse than any of the others, at least he didn’t appear to enjoy his role of jailor, but this wrong-footed stranger lived a life that Bethany would never understand, one where a stone-faced man in a suit of armor could provide comfort instead of fear and submission. The stranger actually smiled.

She felt her control over the spell slipping, frost accumulating on the windowsill, and if the glass chilled too much, the bubbles in it would pop and she would lose her favorite window and possibly even her permission to look through windows at all. Then she might really go mad.

She pulled her hand away and wondered that no one would know the glass was on the verge of shattering. It was still glass up until it wasn’t, still serving its function of letting her look through it. At least until Bethany put her palm against the center of the pane, and the glass fogged around her. It was at that moment that the new templar looked up in her direction. And she was too far away for him to possibly be looking at her, she knew it, but she still drew away from the window entirely, leaving only a palmprint behind.  

[hollyand-writes]

Hi! How about a prompt? Sebastian/Bethany, if you please! "You're safe here with me."

I’m so sorry that this is so much later than I hoped, but – hope you like it! 

Title: The Maker’s Will Rating: General Words: 1475 [READ HERE ON AO3] 

Bethany only ever wanted to be normal.

But being a mage, in this world, meant you could never be normal. Being a mage, in this world, meant you would be hunted, forever on the run, never able to get too comfortable in one place or spend too much time with anyone out of fear that they would find out your secret. Being a mage meant that if you were not locked up in the Circle, you were forced to hide yourself and who you were and your hopes and dreams because magic meant you were a person to be feared, not trusted.  

It was with some relief, then, that Bethany was taken to the Circle in a much more gentle manner than she could have hoped. If she couldn’t be ‘normal’, then perhaps the best she could hope for was that she could be ‘normal for a mage’ – never having to worry about running and hiding ever again, never having to worry about how her family were affected by her magic ever again.

Never having to worry that she and her loved ones would not be safe.

The Chantry was sometimes where Bethany had sought refuge in Lothering, despite her father’s reasoning that they should go along to services if only to keep tabs on every templar stationed in their village. She enjoyed Sister Leliana’s stories, and she appreciated that Carver would always come along with her, silent, watchful; ostensibly to keep his twin company, but privately to protect her if the worst ever happened.

Carver would have made a good templar, if he were alive.

Kirkwall was very different from Lothering, and here she was not allowed to roam free; but Bethany was allowed more privileges than many of the mages in the Gallows – writing letters to her family, teaching the apprentices, even cordial relations with the templars who were designated to watch over her – and one of the privileges she most enjoyed was that of being allowed out of the Gallows (albeit with a templar escort) to attend services at the Chantry.

At first, Bethany had gone along simply to remember her twin, and practise her faith. But no sooner had she started attending with that intention than her eyes had been drawn by a Chantry brother, deep in prayer, with shining white armour and reddish-brown hair that complemented his deep brown skin; handsome features and a proud nose that delineated a noble heritage; and when he opened his eyes and lit the red candles at the altar, Bethany had been struck by how bright his bluish-green eyes were… until he turned his piercing gaze on her.

‘I know you,’ he had told her, in a soft Starkhaven brogue that made her melt inside like warm liquid caramel. ‘You’re one of the Hawke family, are you not? I cannot thank you and Hawke enough for the help you gave me in eliminating the Flint Company all those years ago.’

‘It was our pleasure,’ she had replied, staring right back into those striking blue eyes, and feeling as if her breath might have caught in her throat. ‘We were happy to help. And please, call me Bethany.’

‘Bethany,’ he had repeated in that rich burr of his, and she could feel herself melt again. ‘I’m delighted to properly make your acquaintance at last. I look forward to seeing you again. Soon.’

Perhaps it was not for a mage to hope for too much, or to think of much beyond her life in the Circle, but Bethany soon found she looked forward to her visits to the Chantry in hopes she could spy the handsome Brother there. Even if Bethany had given up on her dreams of being normal – of having a husband and family or even being whisked off her feet by a handsome, dashing prince like in the stories she loved reading while growing up – she would allow herself to enjoy the handsome prince-turned-priest at service. For everyone needed to have some pleasures in life, no matter how forbidden; and this would be hers, and the templars need never know.

Sebastian greeted her with impeccable timing each time, and Bethany was secretly pleased to find that he was conveniently never busy whenever she was around. They exchanged polite small talk, he charmed her templar handlers, and even debated the finer points of faith with their party on occasion. Sometimes Bethany thought the way he looked at her was more than merely polite or friendly; but she had learned that as a mage, she should not hope for anything more from it.

But oh, he made it so hard. His gaze penetrated her defences and made her weak at the knees, and it was all she could do to keep cool and composed whenever he spoke to her – or even when their eyes met across the Chantry. She wondered if he knew how much he tempted her, and wondered if he should know, given that he was a chaste Chantry brother himself; cast out from his royal family, neither the heir nor the spare, trying to find a place for himself in this world where circumstances had denied him the life he would have wanted to live – just like herself.

His place was in the Chantry. Her place was in the Circle. But the Knight Commander made it harder each day for Bethany to support the Circle despite her firm belief in the Chantry and the Maker – and despite his equally firm belief in the Chantry and the Maker, it was something she was surprised she was able to talk to him about: her struggle, being a mage, reconciling the teachings of Andraste with what she saw of the abuses of the templars in the Gallows every day.

‘I should not be talking about this,’ she once said to him, as they remained in the pews after service.

‘You know you can talk to me, Bethany. About anything.’

‘Do you ever question? Do you ever wonder–’ She broke off. ‘I shouldn’t be talking about this,’ she repeated. ‘Maker knows what the templars would do to me if they overheard.’

‘Don’t worry. You’re safe here with me.’

Bethany smiled at him then, and Sebastian smiled back, warm, caring, like the light of Andraste had shone through him in that moment. ‘You know,’ she said, lightly, ‘when you get like this, it’s very easy for a girl to believe anything. I can see why the Chantry keep you around.’

Sebastian laughed, a chuckle as rich yet soft as his voice. ‘If you believe in nothing but me, Bethany, I would not ask for anything else.’

Now it was Bethany’s turn to laugh. ‘Really, Sebastian,’ she teased. ‘As a Chantry Brother, shouldn’t you be encouraging me to believe in the Maker? Shouldn’t you give me a stern lecture to never doubt the Maker’s will?’

‘As a Chantry Brother,’ he replied, almost serious now, ‘you are one of the reasons I believe in the Maker. You are why I don’t doubt the Maker’s will.’

Bethany flushed; Sebastian himself went red and she wondered if he was not supposed to say that. ‘I–’ she started, but whatever she was about to say did not come out; it had suddenly got very warm in here, and for one wild moment she thought that might be perhaps why he himself was blushing. When she did eventually speak, she thought she could barely hear her own voice. ‘…Maker.’

‘I’m sorry,’ he started, softly, and he seemed taken aback by what he had said. ‘I shouldn’t have admitted that. I apologise.’

‘No need. I… I feel the same way. I – didn’t know.’

He looked away from her. ‘I – I think I need to pray. I will – need His guidance on this matter.’

She nodded. ‘I know. I understand. Believe me, I understand.’ A pause. ‘I guess that’s the end of us meeting in the Chantry.’

‘It doesn’t have to be.’ His gaze returned to hers. ‘We admire and respect each others’ abilities and faith. We enjoy each other’s conversations. That does not need to stop us talking. Unless you will it.’

‘I would like to carry on talking, at least,’ Bethany agreed. ‘Whatever comes… we should not doubt the will of the Maker, like you say.’

Sebastian breathed a sigh of relief. ‘I’m glad to hear it,’ he said, and Bethany found herself breathing a sigh of relief too; she did not know where this would lead, or if it would lead anywhere – the world was changing around them so fast, and Kirkwall sometimes felt like a powder keg that was ready to explode – but for now, she was happy to keep things as they were. ‘I hope to see you again in the Chantry–’ and here he gazed at her so intently and meaningfully that Bethany couldn’t fail to understand him, ‘soon.’

[ageofdragon]

What would you say is the best (i.e. the one you'd choose) fate for Bethany? Because as far as I'm concerned, it's nothing but tragedy for that girl. She either dies to an ogre, dies to the taint, gets stuck as a Warden where she has to endure that taint for who knows how long, or gets locked up as a Circle mage where she could be killed by Templars.

(Ask box cleaning: answering some old or lost asks, and just clearing out my ask box. Sorry for not getting to these sooner. I also apologize for the long flow of answered asks.)

Bethany is an extremely tragic character with almost no happy ending.

Personally, I think the Circle is the best for Bethany. While she is as much in danger there as anywhere else, she seems the happiest there. She embraces being able to be with other mages and not having to run anymore, plus mother goes to visit her often and when Hawke becomes Champion Bethany is practically untouchable by Templars even in the Circle because their title extends to her. The biggest reason is because Bethany does not have to spend her entire life in the Circle as she does have to give up her life to be a Warden, if Hawke sides with the mages then Bethany can run with Hawke and others to safety, she basically becomes an apostate again.

Meanwhile, the other outcomes for her are death, which on principal is bad and to become a Grey Warden which twists Bethany in to a very fatalistic person who doesn't shine as bright as she did before. Both outcomes are incredibly valid, but for Bethany's health and happiness I believe making her a Circle Mage is her "best" fate.

[brennacedria]

Must... resist...

See discussion link on the side of the DA wiki titled "Best Bethany fate"

Immediately think of killer awesome Bethany post (I think it was MinorEarth's?)

Try to find post to link to discussion page on DA wiki. Not as a "no guys, you're wrong" because that will start fights, but as a "think is a fantastic and insightful perspective on the character, I think you guys will like reading this"

Realize it's going to start fights anyway

Slump shoulders in defeat and slink off to the rest of the internet