I can't stop thinking about you. Everything, all of it. You just won't leave my mind. I remember all the best times we had, how you would smile when I smiled. How everything was good. It's all there and it's not going anywhere.
I couldn't have a relaxing day right now if I wanted to. You are there. Clouding and pushing in my heart. My body wouldn't let me be still because you occupy everything not-physical. I hate so many things about these feelings, how I can't let go, how I don't want to, how you make me happy, what I have done to hurt you.
I made a mistake, and I can't unmake it. I hurt because of it. And I know you do too. Because of that I am losing you. I don't know how to deal with that.
Because when you are gone you still wont be gone. You will occupy my heart and mind for a long time.