#void journal

[yawpyawp]

my whole audhd experience as an adult has been:

professionally: i specialize in scenarios where we’re building the plane as we’re flying it

personally: my entire life is thrown off for 2 calendar weeks if i can’t get the specific variety of potatoes i eat

[lostinlilac]

After a small personal journey, I have realised—as in truly knowing and accepting it, without just ‘knowing’ about it—that the state of the void is not something to achieve. It’s just something I am. It is me. Not in me, not something else, but me.

I can feel it constantly. After a week of trying a non duality challenge, it truly feels like I am just consciousness. Just awareness experiencing life.

Though I have yet to simply just be and be able to let go of my body. This is a huge step in my personal journey, and have made me a lot calmer about a lot of things.

[taurusbae222]

AFFIRMATIONS FOR LIMITING BELIEFS

𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪 𓆩♡𓆪

❥ i lovingly and peacefully withdraw any limiting beliefs, emotions and tension

❥ i just remembered that everything always works out for me

❥ i never need to do anything to get what i want

❥ i know i get anything i want because it’s literally a law

❥ i just realised how powerful i truly am and i now take back all my power

❥ if i say that i don’t have it, i am literally lying to myself because i literally have what i want

❥ i always been able to manifest because i have been doing it all my life, and even in this second i’m manifesting from my 4d

❥ creation is finished. therefore my desire has already been created

❥ i now take all my power back. i am deeply apologising to myself for even thinking for a second i couldn’t have what i want when i know i have always gotten what i want

❥ silly me. i tricked myself into thinking it wasn’t gonna work out when me even thinking like that manifested my desired results anyways because everything is rigged in my favour

❥ wow all i did was be alive and be pretty and i got exactly what i wanted literally in less than a second

❥ i am self assured knowing that everything is rigged in my favour

❥ i am a manifesting god

❥ i am so powerful, even if i don’t feel like it

❥ no matter that i am feeling or seeing in front of me, i KNOW i have what i want because i said so

❥ no matter what i am thinking, i always manifested my desired outcome

❥ the universe helps overcome these limiting beliefs

❥ i know i deserve only good things in this universe

❥ i fully release anything unwanted thoughts that no longer serve me

❥ i permanently remove all self doubt and worries

❥ i am the creator of my reality

❥ i fully trust myself and i know i already have everything i want in this life

❥ i live life in peace knowing i have everything i want

❥ i feel so calm because i trust myself and i know my potential and power

[sexytransbitch]

Listen you always tap into the void state! (no cap)

Actually you get into the void every time you sleep. But you're not aware of it!! Getting into the void is as common as peeing. But awareness it all that you should affirm for (eg: I'm aware in the void state) and that's it!

[sekhmete]

You don't shift when you manifest, unless it's what you want.

Listen to no one but yourself. If you feel your self calling to something or telling you something isn't true, Then it's not.

Why wait until another person, who has listened to themselves tell you that you're correct? This is self disrespect.

Quite literally we're all one, of one. And are one. Do not hurt yourself by seeking outwardly validation when, ironically, all that is outwardly are but a messenger. A reflection of the deepest depth of fleeting thoughts.

Reality is a construct shaped entirely by your mind, and what you constantly think about shows. Unless it is not what you want. ?

The void state is but a state of consciousness, a drop in purity and one-ness. Unity.

Quit avoiding your desires, quit running from them, later a time you might find them, after accomplishing something, or during a method that, even if you didn't do, you would've gotten the same results.

24/7 thinking you still "will" get your desires. Or that you finally "will" get into the void state.

You do realise this is the void, yes?

And you do realise, you do have your desires, yes?

Nothing and no one to change but self.

And stop trying to fit into what others molded themselves into. You don't need to fulfill other's societal codes & expectations, they don't even fulfill yours.

[mothalaalee]

Practical Drs that i think will make my Cr life easier:

Online store Dr: A Dr when i can pull out things from online stores, so i can try it out before buying. (one more return and im going cave man)

A study Dr: I have access to unlimited library collections both online and offline. Search engine to find stuff easily from Books. No premium plans. No pay walls. (Fuck capitalist gatekeeping) Also, an AI that will answer my question exactly the way i need too understand it.

Fashion Dr: (sewing is my comfort hobby). I can experiment with thrifted clothes, new fabric and left over fabric. If i mess up anywhere along the way i can redo it because I have time manipulation power HAHAHAHAH. And when i get a satisfying result i can do it in Cr.

Home theatre Dr: (I study films). Movies from the beginning of movies. Great search engine. Can search film by dialogue, plot, story, actors, even the slightest nuance. Dub or Sub? Hell yeah. I can also watch cancelled TV shows. How cool is that???

Skill share Dr: I get to learn cool skills and discover new talents. I have unlimited supplies to learn it. (Yes i know i can do this in Cr too but im hella broke. And it's so fun when i can do it in an ALTERNATE REALITY???)

Past Dr: I can go back to my college and dress better (pinterest wardrobe) and spend a lot of time with my friends again. Travel more. Have fun again. BE THE ACADEMIC WEAPON I PROMISED MYSELF TO BE?? Have intellectual discussions with the uni people. Be more active. Talk with the professors. Get that O-grade.

Tinker Bell Dr: this is just so i could find stuff i have long lost in my Cr. (I wanna know where i lost that one pair of my favourite earrings)

[iivenusii]

🐚 My perspective on the void 🐚

As someone who has successfully entered the void state and manifested through it, I want to share my views about void state which could hopefully help some of you guys.

Void is always within you - A lot of people subconsciously view entering the void as going to a place “beyond” or “elsewhere”, but void state is simply a dimension within you that is directly connected to your subconscious - the 4D. When entering the void state, you are not trying to reach anywhere other than yourself, because you are the void. Don’t put the void above or separate from yourself, because it’s a part of you and no one can can take it away. Thinking like this helped me to take the void off the pedestal :))

It is natural - It’s important to know that we all possess the ability to enter the void state since the very beginning, and just like sleeping/blinking/walking, it’s natural for us. In truth, you don’t have to “learn” how to enter the void because it has always been part of you. Have you heard of someone “practising falling asleep” or “learning to sleep”? Strange isn’t it? Falling asleep sounds so easy and relaxing and it feels natural. Void state is the same. There is literally nothing to it and it is very very easy. What really helped me was assuming I already went into the void state before and it was just usual business for myself lol. That worked wonders for me and I went into void state easily and effortlessly with simply commanding my subconscious.

Lastly, I just want to say that YOU are what makes the void so powerful 🌷 YOU are the shot caller and YOU decide when and how you enter the void state.

~ venus

[auroras-void]

Some advice on how I got myself to enjoy writing:

So I used to hate writing when I was in High School, and I think it's probably mostly because schools just kinda fucking suck at teaching you how to write. Especially if you got ADHD, all the advice you're going to get is very neurotypical minded. Teachers I think, also tailor their lessons to work under the assumption that it's already clicked for you, how exactly you put your thoughts onto the page, because most of them never struggled to find it, and they also just, don't have the time to work individually with students to find out what works for them and their thought process. It feels like they're just trying to build a structure that's rigid enough it supports you to passing the rubric instead of teaching you how to get there yourself.

So I thought I'd share how I got over it, in case it might help someone else (though I'm probably preaching to the choir given that this is the textposts and fanfiction website lmao).

I used to think I hated writing, because I thought I was terible at it for the longest time.

I don't actually hate it though, and I'm also not bad at it (and I'm betting neither do most of the people reading this).

What I really hated was being forced to write like someone else.

I hated the formal prompts, I hated the way I had to bend my thoughts into unnatural shapes. I hated the outlines, the routines. Being forced to ignore my stream of consciousness to fulfill a requirement, I hated color coding my sentences. I'd constantly have writers block, I wrote stuff that felt very stiff and inhuman, and over and over again I'd hate it when I was told "just write something" because I just couldn't. No one was ever checking to see if I actually understood the point of anything I did, just whether I met the rubric.

But then, something just kinda clicked for me.

I can just. Not do it like that. . .

I noticed two things really.

First, was I had discovered video essays, and I was starting to consume a lot of them. The more I read though, the more I realized they sounded nothing like anything I had ever been taught to write, even when speaking in an academic register about the same kinds of subjects I had to write about for school. It seemed like their thought process was just completely different from anything I'd been taught, it felt more, organic, more authentic.

Like, what I noticed more specifically, was that text messages were effortless to me. They're like talking but with words on a screen. They're also infinitely more creative with the ways you can add extra meaning to your words using the vocabulary of the internet. To me it felt distinct from writing everything else, because it was just, conversation.

But then it dawned on me, it's not actually different.

That's just what writing is.

I don't need to be agonizing over perfection, I don't need to treat it like a problem to be solved, or an answer I need to get right. I could just, reuse those pathways I already have for speaking and communicating in other ways, to write anything, and suddenly just, overnight, it made perfect sense to me, I could do it effortlessly.

This is just like, infodumping, but the words get recorded and you can revise them and add citations to it after. Like holy shit, this is actually pretty cool.

I wasn't trying to fill out an outline anymore. I stopped giving a shit about that formal hook -> topic -> transition -> claim -> evidence -> reasoning -> conclusion, and all that bullshit that just makes me freeze in my tracks.

I just learned a lot about my subject, and simply, spoke freely about what I thought, but just, code switching it to be in a more formal register. I wrote as if I was dictating my thoughts. I listened to my gut and what felt right, made sure I covered what I needed to cover, and tightened it up and rearranged it later. It was like I had suddenly learned to harness my endless stream of thoughts into doing something I wanted.

It wasn't as neat as following the lesson plan, I wrote a lot more bullshit that got deleted for the second draft, but it didn't sound like it was written by a STEM major anymore.

Once it clicked too, I realized I could help others who had the same struggle I did by actually just having them literally dictate to me. I would tell them to just, not even try to write anything, just have them speak freely about what they thought about the subject, and I would write it down for them and sometimes make suggestions about how to translate it into something academic. Something about just, saying it out loud to a peer, it forces you into using the pathways you have that are already strong.

Around then is when I got my first ever perfect score on an English paper, and I was so fucking proud of myself for it.

The structures and outlines actually started to make a little more sense too. I could see how they'd be useful in organizing the word vomit on the page, but the secret was I actually needed to get the word vomit there first. So I still mostly disregarded them and did things my own way.

It feels like that's the secret really. Not trying to do it someone else's way, letting myself be weird and ADHD and Autistic.

Now I actually really enjoy writing, I love yapping about things, sharing my ideas. It feels like a very natural medium for my expression. So much so that I had a very similar epiphany by journaling, and I actually kinda stumbled into keeping one by accident.

I go over it in more detail here: https://www.tumblr.com/auroras-void/776055272532852736/journaling-lpt?source=share

Now, the one achilles heel for me and using this technique though. Is what I write now has to be authentic, or I get stuck. I struggle when it comes to writing about stuff I don't care about, or when I have to use a register so formal I can't speak freely, it's really hard for me to bullshit canvas discussions or write emails for example. (Especially if I need to lie about what my thoughts are just to meet the requirements.)

Fiction too. I still haven't figured out how to write fiction. I think part of that is 'tism for me,,, I struggle with authentically writing someone else's perspective, because my instinct is to just to imagine myself and my ideas in their shoes. If I ever tried to write an OC, it'd just inevitably turn into a copy of me.

Hopefully someday that'll click for me too though.