I feel a lot like second best I feel like I'm great but not great enough I feel like there's all of this great potential and all of these amazing possibilities but I'll never get to know I feel like my happiest times are with you and my shittiest are without I feel like you're someone I wanna grow with and experience life with I feel like you're stuck and unhappy I feel like I could help with the unhappiness But also like I'm contributing I feel like this is worth it I feel like I'll never be what you choose I feel like this is really gonna fuck me up in the long haul I feel like that's why you still hold on to this, to not hurt me But I also can feel that you genuinely care and love me I feel like you're confused but I know you're trying I know this isn't easy for you I know you're hurting too I don't know what's keeping you back I don't know if you're happy I'm hoping you're happy I'm hoping I can make you happy I'm hoping this will work out the way I want it to But I'm suspecting it won't I don't want things to change And I don't want to lose you But this is really hard for me I'm too intimate not to be able to love you fully Not to be loved fully But I don't want anyone else Or anything else I want you I feel like I'm watching someone I completely adore being taken for granted I feel like everyone looks at me like the pathetic boy at work that's completely infatuated with you I wish people knew this wasn't one sided "I want the world to see we've met" I want the best for you I want to help you I want to support you I feel like I'm being too emotional But I feel like I'm justified I feel like I'm too attached But how couldn't I be I feel like I'm too much I feel like none of this should be said I don't want things to change I feel like this should all be known I want things to change I want you I'm yours I feel like this is worth it I'm really really happy But sometimes I'm pretty low I know this isn't one sided I'd help you as much as I could if you ever wanted to move out and do your own thing We could use my truck to move you I can bring boxes for work Hell I'll even help with a down payment I want you to be happy and appreciated I want you to have the love you deserve I want you to thrive I want you to figure yourself out I want to go on this journey with you You comfort me so much I want to comfort you I'm not saying I have to be a part of your future But i want you to be a part of mine I'm trying really hard not to cry at work It's hard for me to say all of this But that's what people do, they communicate I miss out on too much by not letting my feelings be known I missed out on you But like you said, you weren't fully you And I wasn't fully me The timing is both good and bad Deep breaths I need to stop apologizing for how I feel You've taught me that People talk about their feelings How are you supposed to know if I don't tell you I don't want to burden you with this You're my happiness Do we have a record player at home I hope we would You feel right This feels right You feel natural You're part of me I want to love you fully I want to connect with you deeper I've never felt so close to somebody I care so much You don't have to feel the way I do You don't need to have an answer You have my understanding and support I'm not great at expressing my emotions but I want to be with you You see potential in me You see so much in me You show me I can be so much And I see it in you You can be so much You can accomplish so many great things I want to motivate you I get jealous I hate knowing I'm taking you home to him I don't like knowing that when you're saying goodnight to me you're greeting him home I want you to be happy I hope I make you as happy as you make me I hope this works I see a future with you I feel most like me when I'm with you You bring me out I appreciate you I value you I miss you I know this isn't easy for either of us I want this I don't want things to change I want to be with you as much as I can I really truly care I feel a lot better letting this all out Still don't know if I should tell you You need to know I need to be open with you I want to be open with you I want to be raw You should know that there's no pressure from me I want to see you happy And I don't know if you are in your current situation I want to go to school with you I want us to motivate each other I want us to help each other You're my best friend I want to know more about you I'm sorry I get jealous I don't want to be a mistake I don't want you to regret me I'm happy I see you in everything I think of you always I don't want you to worry But that's just not you Should I tell you? It's not fair to either of us to keep this unsaid You can talk to me You can be honest You don't have to know You don't have to censor I want to be there for you You know me More than most have ever cared to You care more than anyone has cared to I feel it I see it I know this is confusing I daydream about us being together a lot I crave you in the most innocent ways I see you when I feel warmth I see you when I picture happiness You're my idea of perfection You're all I've ever wanted to find in someone Made from the same stuff We can figure this out This will work Good things come in time I hope you feel the same I hope you see what I see Embracing you is like embracing a galaxy Your lips on mine release this feeling of... Nothing that I have words for Your hand in mine is what holding onto love and happiness must feel like I care I understand I support I love You should be happy My hurt shouldn't be yours I know you're trying I know you're doing what you can I know you're considering me I know most of what I feel is just me thinking too much I know that things are as they should be I know everything happens for a reason I know I don't want to lose this I know I don't want to lose you I know you care I know