𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ─── juhoon who was never good at telling his emotions started crying infront of you after a heated argument between you two
★ bf ! juhoon × fem!reader
word count ── 3.2k
˖᯽ ݁˖ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 coco speaking here! JUHOON GOTTA BE THE PRETTIEST CRIER IVE EVER SEEN LIKE WHY IS HE JUST SO PRETTY ALL THE DAMN TIME 😓😓😓 UGH MY AEGI HES SO PRECIOUS TO ME 𖧧 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
The fight began the way most disastrous arguments do—not with screaming or shattered glass, but with something deceptively insignificant.
A forgotten text, a delayed response, a sigh delivered with the wrong tone. By midnight, however, the tiny fracture had widened into something jagged and catastrophic.
Rain tapped relentlessly against the apartment windows while the city beyond the glass dissolved into blurred streaks of gold and gray. The kitchen lights remained dim, casting amber shadows across the marble counters and illuminating the tension suspended thickly between the two of you.
You stood near the island with your arms wrapped tightly around yourself, nails digging crescents into your sleeves as though physically holding yourself together.
Across from you, Juhoon leaned against the counter in suffocating silence.
That silence again. That unbearable, impenetrable quietness that made every disagreement feel one-sided, like throwing your emotions against a locked door and hearing nothing echo back.
His expression was composed in the infuriating way it always was—controlled, restrained, unreadable. Even now, during an argument that had your chest aching so violently you could barely breathe, he looked devastatingly calm.
You hated that, not because he was cruel, but because you could never tell if he cared as much as you did.
“You could at least look at me while I’m talking,” you said at last, your voice strained from holding too much emotion for too long.
His gaze flickered upward briefly before drifting away again. “I’m listening.”
“That’s the problem,” you replied bitterly. “You’re always listening. Never talking.”
His jaw flexed, a subtle reaction most people would miss.
You didn’t. You noticed everything about him because you had spent months teaching yourself how to love someone who communicated through fragments instead of sentences.
The way his fingers curled meant irritation. The slight tension in his shoulders meant discomfort. The silence meant he was overwhelmed.
Except tonight you were exhausted from deciphering him. “You always do this,” you continued, voice trembling despite your efforts to steady it. “Every single time we argue, you shut down and leave me to figure everything out on my own.”
“I’m not shutting down.”
“You haven’t said more than five words to me in ten minutes.”
He exhaled slowly through his nose, already looking fatigued by the conversation. “You know I’m not good at this.”
A humorless laugh escaped you. “At what? Communicating? Having emotions?”
“That’s not fair.”
“No?” Your eyes burned. “Then tell me what is fair, Juhoon. Because I spend half this relationship wondering whether you actually want me here.”
That finally made him look at you directly, and the hurt in his eyes was immediate. But instead of softening you, it only made the frustration twisting through your ribs intensify. “You know that’s not true.”
“How would I know?” you shot back. “You never tell me anything.”
His patience began to fracture. You could hear it in the clipped cadence of his breathing. “I show you.”
“You show me in ways I have to analyze like I’m decoding some impossible language,” you said, voice rising. “Do you know how exhausting that is?”
He pushed away from the counter then, agitation radiating from him in restrained waves. “And do you know how exhausting it is feeling like nothing I do is enough for you?”
The words struck harder than expected. You blinked. “I never said that.”
“You don’t have to.” His tone sharpened. For the first time that night, genuine anger seeped through his carefully maintained composure.
“It’s always the same conversation,” he continued. “You keep asking for more and more and more from me like I’m failing some test I didn’t even know I was taking.”
“That’s not what this is!”
“Then what is it?” he snapped suddenly. “Because apparently loving you quietly isn’t enough. Remembering everything about you isn’t enough. Being there whenever you need me isn’t enough because I don’t say pretty things every five seconds.”
The accusation stole the air from your lungs. “I never asked for perfect words,” you whispered.
“Could’ve fooled me.” The cruelty in his voice was subtle, not loud nor explosive. Which somehow made it worse.
Your throat tightened painfully. “I just want reassurance sometimes.”
“And I’m telling you I’m trying.”
“You barely talk to me when something’s wrong!”
“Because every time I do,” he said sharply, “it turns into this.”
Silence crashed between you again, only this time it felt vicious. Your heartbeat thudded painfully against your ribs. “You know what hurts the most?” you asked quietly. “I feel lonely even when I’m standing right beside you.”
Something cold flickered across his face then. Exhaustion, the kind born from feeling perpetually misunderstood. “And you know what I’m tired of?” he replied. “Feeling like I have to become someone else just to keep you satisfied.”
Your lips parted. “That’s not—”
“No, listen,” he interrupted, voice rougher now. “I can’t love the way you want every second of every day. I’m not overly emotional. I’m not good with words. And honestly?” His eyes hardened slightly. “Maybe if you stopped needing constant validation, we wouldn’t keep ending up here.”
The sentence landed like a blade driven straight between your ribs. The room went completely still. Juhoon seemed to realize it immediately.
You saw the regret flash across his features the second the words left his mouth. But it was too late, because suddenly every insecurity you had buried deep inside yourself came clawing violently to the surface.
Too clingy, too emotional, too much. Your face went blank in the terrifying way heartbreak sometimes empties a person instead of making them cry. “Wow,” you whispered.
“Baby, I didn’t mean—”
“No.” Your voice sounded distant even to yourself. “You meant it.”
His expression crumpled slightly. “I was angry.”
“That doesn’t make it less true.”
“It’s not true.”
But now you couldn’t stop hearing it. Maybe if you stopped needing constant validation. The sentence echoed viciously through your head.
You swallowed hard, suddenly unable to bear the sight of him. Without another word, you turned and grabbed your jacket from the back of the chair.
Juhoon straightened immediately. “Where are you going?”
“I need to leave for a while.”
“It’s raining.”
“I don’t care.”
He stepped forward then, panic finally overtaking the frustration on his face. “Don’t do this.”
You laughed softly, but the sound was hollow. “Do what? Leave before I embarrass myself by begging someone to love me correctly?”
His face paled. “That’s not what I said.”
“It’s what you meant.”
“I was frustrated—”
“And I was hurt.”
Your voice cracked at last. Raw devastation bleeding through the numbness settling over you. “You know what the worst part is?” you whispered, eyes glossy now. “I defended your silence for so long. To everyone. I kept telling myself you loved differently, that you cared in ways people couldn’t see.”
Juhoon looked like he physically couldn’t breathe.
“But tonight,” you continued shakily, “you made me feel stupid for wanting reassurance from the person I love.”
The apartment fell deathly silent. Rain battered the windows harder. His eyes glistened with immediate remorse “Please don’t leave angry.”
You stared at him for a long moment. At the boy you loved so desperately it frightened you. The boy whose quiet tenderness had once felt safe. Now it only felt unreachable. “I think if I stay right now,” you said softly, “I’ll say something unforgivable.”
Then you walked toward the door.
“Baby—”
But this time, when he said it, you didn’t stop, and the sound of the door closing behind you felt far too much like something breaking forever.
The night had become glacial by the time you finally wandered back toward the apartment. Hours had passed in a blur of rain-slick sidewalks, blurred streetlights, and thoughts so tangled they felt impossible to unravel.
The city was nearly silent now, stripped of its usual vibrancy, leaving only the distant hum of traffic and the occasional rush of cold wind biting against your skin.
Your fingers were numb inside your jacket pockets. Your chest hurt worse. The argument replayed relentlessly in your mind no matter how hard you tried to outrun it.
Maybe if you stopped needing constant validation.
The sentence echoed like a bruise pressed over and over again. Part of you understood he hadn’t meant it the way it sounded. You knew Juhoon better than anyone. You knew frustration twisted his words sharp sometimes, especially when emotions overwhelmed him.
But another part of you, the quieter, more fragile part—couldn’t stop wondering if there had been truth hidden beneath the cruelty.
Maybe you were too much. Too emotional, too needy, too difficult to love properly.
The thought hollowed something inside you, and somehow, despite all of it, despite the hurt still lodged painfully beneath your ribs—You missed him desperately, pathetically.
It had only been a few hours, yet every second away from him had felt profoundly wrong, as though some invisible thread tethered between your hearts had stretched too far without snapping completely.
By the time you reached the apartment building, exhaustion clung heavily to your bones. Your phone read 2:07 AM.
The hallway outside your apartment was eerily quiet. Even the usual flickering overhead light seemed dimmer tonight.
You stood outside the door for several seconds, staring blankly at the handle while anxiety twisted violently in your stomach. What if he was still angry? What if he regretted everything? What if—
You swallowed hard and unlocked the door anyway. The apartment was almost entirely dark. Only the small lamp beside the couch remained on, casting a muted golden glow across the living room. Shadows stretched lazily along the walls while rain continued murmuring softly against the windows.
And there he was. Your breath caught instantly.
Juhoon was curled awkwardly against the couch cushions, still wearing the same black hoodie from earlier. One arm lay draped over his face while the other rested limply against his stomach, like exhaustion had finally dragged him under after hours of waiting.
The sight alone nearly shattered you. He looked uncomfortable, restless. Like sleep had only claimed him out of complete emotional collapse.
Your chest constricted painfully. Slowly, carefully, you stepped closer. “Juhoon,” you whispered.
No response.
You crouched beside the couch quietly, your heart aching at how pale he looked beneath the warm light. Strands of dark hair had fallen messily across his forehead, soft and disheveled in a way that made him seem unbearably vulnerable.
Tentatively, you brushed your fingers through it. “Baby.”
His eyelashes fluttered faintly. Then slowly, reluctantly, his eyes opened, and your entire body went still.
His eyes were swollen, red-rimmed, wet. Like he had spent hours crying alone in the dark.
Your stomach dropped immediately. “Oh my god…”
The devastation on his face the moment he fully recognized you was almost unbearable to witness. Relief hit him so violently it physically altered his expression. His lips parted shakily.
Before you could even process it, Juhoon surged upright and wrapped his arms around you with desperate force, nearly knocking the breath from your lungs entirely, and then he broke apart.
A strangled sob ripped from his chest so abruptly that it startled you. His entire body trembled violently against yours while another shattered sound escaped him, raw and uncontrollable.
“Hey—hey, it’s okay,” you whispered immediately, climbing onto the couch beside him as your own vision blurred with tears. “Juhoon…”
He buried his face against your neck like he couldn’t bear to look at you directly, fingers clutching the fabric of your hoodie so tightly it almost hurt.
But you didn’t care, because Juhoon was crying. Juhoon, the boy who concealed every emotion behind silence and restraint—was sobbing in your arms like he had been holding himself together by a single unraveling thread.
“I’m sorry,” he choked out brokenly. Your heart cracked clean down the middle. “I’m so sorry.”
Another sob tore through him, rough and uneven. You froze for half a second, overwhelmed by the sheer enormity of his grief.
You had never seen him like this before. Never.
Even during the worst moments of his life, Juhoon had always remained composed in that quiet, self-destructive way of his. He internalized everything. Buried everything. Suffered in silence because vulnerability terrified him more than pain itself.
But now?
Now he was unraveling completely beneath your touch, and somehow that hurt more than the argument ever had.
“I didn’t mean it,” he whispered frantically between shaky breaths. “I swear to god I didn’t mean it like that—I didn’t mean to make you feel unwanted.”
Tears spilled down his cheeks faster than he could wipe them away. His breathing came unevenly, fragile hiccups interrupting nearly every sentence.
“You left and I just…” He swallowed hard, voice splintering apart. “I thought you were done with me.”
“Oh, Juhoon…”
“I called you like ten times,” he admitted weakly, words muffled against your shoulder. “I kept trying to figure out what to say, but nothing sounded right and I—fuck—”
His voice dissolved into another sob. “I can’t lose you.” The confession was so painfully sincere it made your own tears fall instantly.
You cupped his face carefully, forcing him to look at you despite the embarrassment flickering through his watery eyes.
And god, he looked devastated.
Wet lashes clung together while tears slid endlessly down flushed skin. His lips trembled uncontrollably, breath hitching every few seconds as though his body physically could not calm down now that the fear had finally escaped him, and beneath all that anguish.
Love.
So much overwhelming love it nearly stole the air from your lungs. “You’re not losing me,” you whispered softly.
His expression crumpled further. “I thought I already did.”
You brushed your thumbs beneath his eyes gently, catching tear after tear.
“I know I’m difficult,” he whispered hoarsely. “I know I make things hard because I don’t talk right, but I swear I love you more than anything.”
The sincerity in his voice shattered whatever remained of your anger, because he meant it. Every single syllable.
Juhoon loved with terrifying intensity. He just expressed it differently—through actions, through presence, through quiet devotion hidden in places words could never fully reach.
“I don’t know how to explain things the way you need,” he continued shakily. “But I need you here. I need you.”
Your chest ached so violently it almost felt unbearable. Without thinking, you leaned forward and kissed him softly.
The second your lips touched his, he melted completely. A trembling breath escaped him, shaky and uneven, before his hands slid around your waist with unmistakable desperation. Not possessive, but clinging, almost fragile, like he needed physical proof that you were truly there and not about to disappear again.
The kiss carried remnants of tears and exhaustion and unspoken apologies.
Juhoon kissed you like someone starved for reassurance, every movement hesitant at first before gradually deepening with overwhelming emotion. His lips trembled faintly against yours while his fingers curled tighter into the fabric of your hoodie, anchoring himself to you with quiet urgency.
You could still taste salt from his tears. Could still feel the uneven rhythm of his breathing brushing shakily against your skin, and somehow, that vulnerability shattered you more thoroughly than the argument ever had.
When you pulled back only slightly, your foreheads rested together, breaths mingling in the small space between you.
His eyes remained half-lidded and glassy, lashes damp and clumped together from crying. There was something devastatingly defenseless about the way he looked at you now, like every carefully constructed wall he’d spent years building had finally collapsed under the sheer magnitude of loving you.
“I’m sorry too,” you whispered against his mouth.
He shook his head immediately, brows pinching together. “No, don’t apologize.”
“I left.”
“You were hurt.”
“So were you.”
That alone nearly made him cry again. A shaky breath escaped him before he buried himself against you once more, arms wrapping tightly around your middle as though separation itself had become unbearable now.
This time, he didn’t fight the tears. He let them come. Soft, broken sobs trembled through him while your fingers combed gently through his hair, untangling the storm little by little.
“I love you,” you murmured repeatedly against his temple. “I love you so much.”
Every single time you said it, his grip tightened, as though he was memorizing the feeling of hearing it.
Eventually his crying softened into quiet sniffles and exhausted breathing. You pressed a lingering kiss against his forehead. “Come to bed with me?”
He nodded weakly. The two of you moved through the apartment in silence, but it no longer felt hostile. Now it felt delicate, tender. Juhoon never let go of your hand once.
The second you both slipped beneath the blankets, he immediately curled himself against your side, burying his face near your shoulder while one arm wrapped securely around your waist.
Your fingers drifted slowly along his back beneath his hoodie, soothing the occasional tremor still lingering through his body.
The room remained quiet except for rain tapping softly against the windows and his gradually steadying breathing. Then, after several long minutes. “I never think you’re annoying.”
Your heart squeezed painfully. You glanced down at him. His eyes remained closed, voice rough and sleepy from crying. “I like when you cling to me,” he admitted quietly. “Makes me feel… wanted.”
A weak, watery laugh escaped you. “Yeah?”
“Mhm.” His fingertips curled faintly into the fabric of your shirt, hesitant and delicate despite the vulnerability trembling beneath the gesture. “When you need me like that,” he whispered quietly, voice still rough from crying, “it reminds me I matter to someone.”
You stared at him in stunned silence for a moment, because suddenly everything made sense. All this time, Juhoon had been loving you with the exact same desperation you loved him.
He just buried it beneath silence because he never learned how to voice it aloud.
Your expression softened entirely. The tension lingering in your chest melted into something overwhelmingly tender as your fingers brushed carefully along his cheek, your thumb grazing beneath his eye where faint traces of tears still remained.
He leaned into the touch instinctively. The sight nearly shattered you.
Slowly, you leaned down and kissed him again. This kiss was different from before, slower, sleepier. Overflowing with forgiveness instead of panic.
Your lips moved against his with lingering tenderness while his breathing softened gradually beneath the warmth of your touch. He kissed you back carefully, almost reverently, as though savoring every second instead of fearing its disappearance.
The room around you had become impossibly still. Only the rain tapping faintly against the windows and the occasional shaky exhale from Juhoon disturbed the silence.
One of his hands slid slowly upward along your side until it rested lightly against your ribs beneath your hoodie. The touch was featherlight, unhurried, his fingertips tracing absentminded patterns there like he simply needed to feel your heartbeat beneath his palm.
Yet even now, wrapped around you beneath dim bedroom lighting, Juhoon continued kissing you with heartbreaking sincerity, as if every unspoken emotion he’d buried for months was finally pouring out through touch instead of words.
Juhoon sighed softly against your lips before tucking himself impossibly closer, his face hidden safely against your neck now. “I love you,” he whispered once more, barely audible.
𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ─── you got sick during the day where you guys were supposed to perform for a big event, so you hid it until you couldn’t anymore
★ keonhyeon × 6th member!reader
word count ── 8.5k
˖᯽ ݁˖ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 coco speaking here! FIRST 6TH MEMBER ENTRY FIC AND ITS A SHORT STORY LMAO 🤭 HONESTLY I LOCKED IN SO HARD AFTER SEEING THAT REQUEST AND IM SUPER EXCITED TO CONTINUE THIS 𖧧 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
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The dressing room had always been the liveliest place in the building before a performance. It was an organized sort of chaos, one that every member had grown accustomed to over the years.
Music leaked from someone's speaker, blending with the muffled cheers of fans filtering through the concrete walls outside. Stylists hurried from one chair to another with curling irons, makeup brushes, and armfuls of freshly steamed stage outfits. Managers called out reminders that no one was listening to. Laughter erupted every few seconds over conversations that constantly overlapped one another.
It was noisy, comfortably so. The familiar disorder had always settled your nerves before stepping onto a stage. Today, however, the sounds surrounding you felt strangely distant, as though you were hearing everything through layers of water.
James occupied the center of the room, unable to remain still for longer than a few seconds. Even while waiting for final touch-ups, his feet instinctively traced fragments of the choreography across the floor, lips silently counting each beat beneath his breath.
"Five, six, seven..." He pivoted too sharply, his elbow narrowly colliding with Martin's shoulder for what had to be the third time in less than five minutes.
"Bro," Martin sighed, taking a step back before another collision could happen. "Watch where you're going."
"I am watching."
"No," Martin deadpanned, adjusting the rings decorating nearly every finger. "You're literally walking into me."
James blinked. "...Was I?"
"Yes bro."
"Oh." Two seconds passed, then he absentmindedly drifted forward again.
Martin caught himself before impact and simply stared. "...Okay I’m taking a break."
Meanwhile, Juhoon remained secluded in the quietest corner of the room, entirely detached from the surrounding commotion. His earbuds muted the world's constant chatter as he methodically stretched his shoulders, neck, and wrists with practiced precision. His movements were slow, measured, deliberate, almost meditative.
Across from him, Keonho had somehow managed to sprawl himself across three separate chairs as though they had been specifically designed for his personal comfort. “I just finished my obby in Roblox!" he announced dramatically to absolutely no one.
"Are you done with your break yet?" Seonghyeon replied without looking up.
"Nah, I’m tired."
"You’re just being lazy bro."
"No I’m not, my legs have been hurting since this morning."
Seonghyeon sighed before casually tossing the makeup sponge in his hand. It struck Keonho directly in the forehead. "...Ow."
Another toss directly at Keonho. "Stop."
"No."
"Seriously."
"No."
"Seonghyeon."
"No."
"Martin," Keonho whined, sitting halfway upright. "Tell him to stop."
Martin didn't bother lifting his gaze. Instead, he continued straightening the silver rings adorning his fingers with meticulous concentration.
"You’re grown, just throw something back at him."
A brief silence settled over them. "...You’re right," Keonho admitted.
The room dissolved into another wave of laughter. Ordinarily, you would have been laughing alongside them, you would have thrown another makeup sponge at Keonho yourself, you would have teased James for rehearsing choreography every waking second or stolen one of Juhoon's earbuds just to see him finally react.
This room had never simply been a dressing room, it had become home. A sanctuary hidden behind backstage hallways where exhaustion transformed into excitement, where nervous anticipation dissolved into jokes, and where every performance began long before anyone stepped beneath the blinding stage lights.
Yet today, everything felt oddly disconnected, like you were standing several feet away from your own body, merely observing the scene instead of existing within it. Quietly, you tugged the oversized hoodie closer around yourself, your fingers instinctively gripping the sleeves until the fabric concealed most of your hands.
It wasn't because you were cold. Although, maybe you were. It was difficult to tell anymore, your body couldn't seem to decide whether it was freezing or burning alive. A dull ache settled behind your eyes, pulsing relentlessly with every beat of your heart. Each throb radiated deeper into your skull until even the fluorescent lights overhead felt painfully bright.
Swallowing became an ordeal. Your throat felt scraped raw, every movement accompanied by a sharp sting that refused to disappear no matter how often you reached for your water bottle. Your muscles protested even the smallest motions, simply sitting upright required far more effort than it should have. Every joint felt unbearably heavy, as though invisible weights had been fastened to your limbs overnight.
Sleep hadn't helped, medicine hadn't helped. Nothing had, you knew exactly why. The moment you'd opened your eyes that morning, you knew. Your forehead had been burning. Your entire body had shivered beneath blankets despite the overwhelming heat radiating from your skin.
A fever, and not a mild one.
Your manager had suggested resting, the company doctor had advised you not to overexert yourself. Even looking in the mirror had been enough to tell you something was wrong. Your complexion lacked its usual color, faint shadows settled beneath your eyes, and the exhaustion clinging to your expression couldn't be disguised with even the most skilled makeup artist.
Under any other circumstances, you would've stayed in bed without hesitation. But today wasn't an ordinary schedule, today was one of the largest university festivals of the year. Thousands upon thousands of fans had gathered hours before the gates even opened. Multiple cameras would broadcast the performances live. Special collaboration stages, months of relentless rehearsals, countless sleepless nights, endless practice until every movement became instinct.
Too many people had worked too hard for you to disappear because of a fever. There wasn't a universe where you would willingly miss it. So you smiled. You laughed at the appropriate moments, you nodded through conversations, you answered questions with just enough enthusiasm to avoid suspicion, you performed normalcy almost as carefully as you performed on stage. No one needed another problem to worry about.
"...You okay?" The voice interrupted your thoughts.
You slowly lifted your head, and Juhoon removed one earbud. His usually serene expression hadn't changed much, but his gaze remained fixed on you with quiet attentiveness.
"Hm?"
"You've been awfully quiet."
"Oh." You forced a small smile. "I'm just... sleepy."
He studied you carefully, as though attempting to piece together something you hadn't said aloud. "...Did you actually sleep last night?"
The question lingered between you. You hesitated for the smallest fraction of a second before answering. "I slept fine…."
It wasn't exactly the truth, but it wasn't entirely a lie either. You had slept, just not well. Not peacefully, not in any way that resembled actual rest.
Juhoon's eyes remained on yours for another lingering moment. Long enough that your heartbeat subtly quickened, long enough for you to wonder whether he had noticed the faint flush spreading across your face... or the slight tremor hidden within your hands.
Then, he simply gave a quiet nod. "...Okay." Without another word, he placed the earbud back in his ear and resumed stretching.
The conversation ended there, you released a breath so quietly that no one noticed.
You were safe. At least, for now.
Except...
Your performance wasn't nearly as convincing as you believed it to be. You had spent the entire morning carefully constructing an illusion, masking every symptom behind practiced smiles and casual responses, convincing yourself that if you acted naturally enough, no one would question it.
Unfortunately, the people surrounding you knew you far too well.
Especially when something felt even slightly off. By the time rehearsal began, the enormous stage was already buzzing with activity.
Towering LED screens illuminated the venue in shifting colors while technicians hurried across the platform adjusting cameras, checking microphones, and shouting cues through their headsets. Dancers occupied every corner, running through formations one final time before the audience would eventually flood the festival grounds.
Music thundered through the stadium speakers, powerful enough that it vibrated beneath your shoes. Usually, that familiar bass settles your nerves. Today, it only made the pounding inside your skull significantly worse. You inhaled quietly. Just one rehearsal, then the real performance. You could manage that, you had to.
The opening track began. Your body moved almost entirely on instinct, years of relentless practice carrying you through each sequence despite the overwhelming fatigue weighing down every muscle. Every step, every turn, every transition had long since become engraved into your memory. Yet your concentration continued slipping through your grasp.
The choreography blurred together, the lights overhead seemed unusually brilliant, forcing your eyes to squint against their intensity, the relentless heat radiating from your skin contrasted strangely with the persistent chill creeping through your fingertips.
You blinked for only a fraction of a second, and that was enough. Instead of moving forward on the second count, your foot landed a beat too late.
Most people probably wouldn't have even noticed. The formation remained intact, the audience certainly never would have realized. But someone did, Martin. His awareness during rehearsals bordered on frightening. The music hadn't even finished before he turned toward you, eyebrows subtly knitting together.
"You normally step two counts earlier."
You glanced toward the mark on the floor before offering an apologetic smile. "...I know."
Silence lingered for a brief moment, Martin studied your expression. "You okay?"
The question arrived so naturally it almost caught you off guard. You answered just as quickly. "Yeah."
He didn't respond immediately. Instead, his gaze drifted over you once more, taking in details you desperately wished would remain unnoticed. The slight sluggishness in your movements, the faint flush coloring your cheeks despite the cool air inside the venue, the way your breathing seemed just a little heavier than usual.
"...You sure?"
"Mhm." You smiled, the exact smile you'd been giving everyone since waking up that morning.
Martin simply stared. His expression remained unreadable, but his eyes narrowed almost imperceptibly. He had known you for years, long enough to distinguish every genuine smile from every fabricated one. This was definitely the latter. Still, he chose not to press the issue. "...Okay."
Nearly ten minutes later, rehearsal paused for a short break. The music abruptly faded, replaced by scattered conversations as dancers wandered toward the sides of the stage to catch their breath. Staff members quickly distributed towels while stylists rushed in for last-minute touch-ups.
James, unsurprisingly, had volunteered to pass around bottled water before anyone else could. "You get one."
He tossed a bottle toward Seonghyeon. "You too."
Another landed neatly in Juhoon's lap.
"Keonho."
"What?"
"Drink water."
"I'm not thirsty."
"I wasn't asking."
"So bossy…."
James ignored the complaint altogether before continuing down the line until he eventually stopped in front of you. "Here."
You accepted the bottle with a quiet smile. "Thanks."
Your fingers brushed against his hand for barely a second and James froze. "...Whoa."
You blinked. "What?"
He instinctively reached forward again, lightly catching your wrist before you could pull away. His eyebrows lifted almost immediately. "...Your hands."
You looked down. "My hands?"
"They're freezing."
You let out a small laugh, attempting to sound unconcerned. "They're fine."
James shook his head almost instantly. "No."
His grip wasn't tight, just enough to keep your hand from slipping away. He rubbed his thumb lightly across the back of your knuckles, his expression gradually shifting from confusion to unmistakable concern. "They're literally ice cold."
You gently withdrew your hand before anyone else noticed. "It's probably just the air conditioning."
James instinctively glanced toward the massive ventilation units mounted high above the stage. "...The air conditioning doesn't make someone's hands that cold."
You shrugged as casually as you could manage. "I guess I just get cold easily."
His lips pressed into a thin line. That explanation didn't satisfy him in the slightest. James wasn't usually the most observant person in the room. In fact, he often overlooked things everyone else noticed immediately.
But whenever it came to the members, especially you. His instincts rarely failed him. Something wasn't right, he could feel it. "...If you say so," he murmured at last.
Backstage descended into complete pandemonium as the final countdown approached. The corridors that had seemed relatively calm only moments ago were suddenly overflowing with movement.
Production staff hurried from one end of the venue to the other, clipboards clutched tightly against their chests as they called out last-minute instructions over the deafening noise. Stylists darted between artists with remarkable efficiency, adjusting collars, smoothing wrinkles, reapplying makeup that had begun to fade beneath the relentless stage lights, and carefully securing in-ear monitors so they wouldn't shift during the performance.
Managers moved with equal urgency, repeatedly checking schedules and communicating through crackling headsets. "Three minutes."
"Camera three is ready."
"Pyrotechnics are confirmed."
"Stand by."
Every announcement blended into another until individual voices became impossible to distinguish. Beyond the heavy backstage curtains, the audience was already roaring. Thousands upon thousands of excited fans filled the stadium, their collective cheers reverberating through the walls with enough force to make the floor tremble beneath your feet.
Ordinarily, hearing them would have filled you with anticipation. It was the sound every performer longed for. Today, It felt overwhelming. Your heartbeat echoed relentlessly inside your ears, drowning out nearly everything else.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
It almost seemed louder than the crowd itself.
The fluorescent lighting hanging overhead appeared unusually brilliant, forcing you to squint against its harsh intensity. Heat spread uncomfortably beneath your skin until it seemed impossible to breathe. Then, without warning a violent chill coursed through your body.
The abrupt contrast made your teeth threaten to chatter, your vision wavered only for the briefest moment. The hallway tilted ever so slightly before righting itself again. Instinctively, your hand shot forward, fingers curling tightly around the edge of a nearby equipment table.
Cold metal pressed against your palm. You inhaled slowly, steady. Just steady.
Don't panic now, not when you had made it this far. One performance, just one. After that, you could collapse into bed and sleep for an entire day if necessary. You only had to hold yourself together for another hour.
"...You look pale."
The voice startled you from your thoughts. You turned your head, Keonho had somehow materialized beside you without making a sound. He wasn't joking. Instead, his usual playful grin had been replaced by something considerably more concerned.
You forced an easy smile. "I always look pale."
"No."
His answer came almost immediately. He tilted his head slightly, studying your face with surprising concentration. "You look..." His sentence trailed off as though he couldn't quite find the right comparison. His eyebrows gradually pulled together. "...Like you’re about to die."
Despite everything, a quiet laugh escaped you. almost involuntary. "I promise I'm okay."
Keonho didn't return your smile. "You don't sound okay."
"I'm fine."
"You've been saying that all day."
"Because I am."
His eyes narrowed. "You've coughed six times in the last ten minutes."
You blinked. "...I did not."
"I’ve counted."
"I—" A tickle blossomed deep inside your throat. You barely had enough time to turn your head before another cough escaped. then another. You pressed your fist against your mouth, attempting to muffle the sound. It didn't help much.
Silence followed.
Keonho slowly folded his arms across his chest. His expression became almost unbearably smug. "...Seven."
You stared at him.
He lifted a single eyebrow. "Busted."
"...You're actually counting?"
"I started after the third one."
"You seriously have nothing better to do?"
"Apparently not."
You rolled your eyes, grateful that he had shifted the conversation back toward something familiar, even if only briefly.
Before either of you could say another word— "CORTIS!" The stage manager's voice rang throughout the hallway. "Two minutes!"
Instantly, the atmosphere transformed. Casual conversations vanished, the joking stopped, every member instinctively gravitated toward one another until all six of you stood together in a tight circle just beyond the stage entrance.
Martin extended his hand first, without hesitation, everyone stacked theirs on top. James, Juhoon, Keonho, Seonghyeon, then yours.
Martin glanced around the circle, making eye contact with each member before speaking. “Our usual.”
"Don’t forget our lyrics." Seonghyeon added without missing a beat.
"Don’t forget our formation." Keonho dramatically placed a hand over his heart.
"And absolutely no embarrassing fancams" James immediately grinned.
"No injuries." Martin nodded.
James snorted. "That’s hard to get through."
"It isn't."
"It really is."
Seonghyeon pointed directly at Keonho. "He’d probably break a finger.”
A chorus of laughter erupted almost instantly. You laughed too, only for a moment. The sound disappeared almost as quickly as it had come. Your smile faded before anyone else seemed to notice almost. But Martin did. His gaze lingered on you for just a fraction longer than usual.
Long enough to notice how quickly your expression had fallen, long enough to recognize the exhaustion hiding beneath your carefully maintained composure. Concern flickered across his features before he quietly asked, "...Ready?"
You swallowed against the persistent ache in your throat, then nodded. "...Ready."
The stage doors opened, an explosion of brilliant light flooded your vision, the deafening roar of the audience crashed over you like an ocean wave. Thousands, perhaps even tens of thousands. An endless sea of illuminated light sticks stretched across, shimmering beneath the night sky like constellations brought down to earth.
For one breathtaking moment, everything else disappeared. The fever, the dizziness, the aching muscles, the relentless pounding inside your head. Adrenaline surged through your bloodstream with overwhelming intensity, silencing every protest your body had been making throughout the day.
The opening notes echoed through the stadium, your body moved before your mind had the chance to think. Months of repetition took over. Every count, every transition, every formation, every lyric, every expression practiced endlessly inside mirrored rehearsal rooms. Muscle memory carried you effortlessly across the stage.
You danced, each movement appeared just as sharp as it had during rehearsal. You sang, your voice remained remarkably steady despite the burning sensation lingering in your throat. You smiled, bright enough that cameras captured nothing but confidence.
You waved toward every section of the audience, fans screamed your name until their voices became indistinguishable from one another. To everyone watching, you looked perfectly fine. The audience noticed nothing unusual, the broadcast cameras captured flawless angles, the MCs enthusiastically praised the performance from the sidelines.
Not a single person outside the group would have guessed you had woken up with a high fever. Your performance was nearly immaculate, because the people who had spent years standing beside you didn't need obvious signs. They recognized the smallest deviations.
Halfway through the second song, Seonghyeon caught it first. Your breathing. Usually, your inhalations remained controlled regardless of how demanding the choreography became. His eyes lingered on you for a beat longer than necessary before returning to the choreography.
By the beginning of the third chorus, Keonho noticed something different. Normally, during formation changes, you'd instinctively glance toward whichever member happened to be beside you. A quick smile, a playful expression, some tiny interaction reserved for fans paying close attention.
This time, your eyes never left the floor markings. You weren't looking at anyone, you were concentrating entirely on maintaining your balance. On staying upright, mn making sure your legs continued carrying you through each step.
During the final chorus, James happened to catch your hand while the choreography briefly brought you shoulder-to-shoulder, only for a split second.
Martin saw your eyelids flutter noticeably slower than usual, like keeping them open had suddenly become difficult. Then, the cameras shifted toward another member.
Barely noticeable to anyone else, Juhoon saw your hand briefly press against your stomach as you lowered your head, your fingers tightening against the fabric of your outfit for the shortest moment before smoothly returning to your side.
The movement lasted less than two seconds, the cameras missed it, the audience missed it, everyone else missed it. Your members didn't. One by one, the same realization settled over each of them.
Something was very wrong.
The final note echoed across the stadium. For a fleeting moment, it seemed as though time itself had paused. Then, an explosion of silver and sapphire confetti erupted from above, cascading through the air in shimmering waves that reflected the stadium lights like falling stars.
The audience's cheers swelled into an almost deafening roar. Thousands of voices merged into one overwhelming chorus, chanting the group's name with unwavering enthusiasm. It was impossible to distinguish individual faces anymore. All you could see was a sea of glowing light sticks stretching endlessly into the darkness.
Everything you had worked toward for years stood before you. You forced another brilliant smile, the kind fans expected, the kind cameras loved.
You raised your arm, waving toward every section of the audience despite the growing ache radiating through your shoulders. "Thank you!" Your voice carried through the microphone with practiced warmth. "We had so much fun tonight!"
The members stood shoulder-to-shoulder, bowing deeply toward the crowd one final time. "Thank you for coming!"
More cheers, more applause. Another wave, another smile, another carefully maintained illusion. Every movement demanded far more energy than you had left. Your vision blurred briefly as you straightened from the bow, you blinked until the world sharpened again.
Just a little longer, only a few more steps.
The cameras followed the group as everyone began making their way toward the backstage entrance, continuing to wave until the very last possible second. Your smile never faltered, not once.
The instant you disappeared behind the towering stage curtains, everything collapsed. The overwhelming rush of adrenaline that had carried you through the performance vanished with astonishing speed, abandoning your body all at once.
The exhaustion returned tenfold, your hearing dulled, the voices surrounding you became muffled, as though someone had wrapped thick fabric around your ears, the hallway tilted.
No… It wasn't the hallway, it was you. Your legs suddenly refused to cooperate. Strength drained from your muscles so abruptly that your knees buckled beneath your weight. The floor rushed toward you.
"Whoa!"
Before you could hit the ground, a pair of strong arms caught you securely around the waist. James. His reflexes had acted before his mind even processed what was happening. "What the—"
His voice broke off in alarm as he steadied your unbalanced weight against him. The sudden movement instantly drew everyone's attention.
Martin spun around almost immediately. "What happened?"
Juhoon reacted just as quickly, reaching behind you to unclip your microphone pack before it could crash onto the floor. The expensive equipment barely cleared your body before he set it aside.
Seonghyeon was already kneeling beside you, his usual easygoing expression had vanished entirely.
Keonho hurried over next. For perhaps the first time all day, there wasn't even the slightest trace of humor lingering on his face. His playful demeanor disappeared so completely that it almost startled you. "...Hey." His voice came out quieter than expected.
Your breathing had become irregular, every inhale felt painfully shallow, every exhale trembled despite your efforts to steady it. "I..." You instinctively tried to push yourself upright. "I can..."
The moment you attempted to stand, the entire world lurched violently. Your vision darkened around the edges, the hallway spun in dizzying circles. You instinctively reached for something to stabilize yourself but found only empty air. "...I can't..." Your voice barely rose above a whisper.
James immediately tightened his grip around your shoulders, supporting nearly all of your weight without hesitation. "You don't have to."
"I..." You swallowed against the burning pain in your throat. "I'm okay."
"No." Martin's response arrived instantly. For perhaps the first time that day, there wasn't even a hint of gentleness in his voice. "For once..." He took another step closer. "Stop saying that." Silence settled over the group. "You are not okay."
You lowered your gaze. "I just need..."
The sentence never reached completion. A violent coughing fit seized your chest without warning. You doubled forward instinctively, one hand flying to your mouth as each cough became harsher than the last.
Your lungs burned, your throat felt raw, breathing itself became unexpectedly difficult. The hallway fell silent, completely silent. Even the bustling activity surrounding other artists seemed to fade into the background.
Juhoon's eyes widened ever so slightly. For anyone else, the change might have gone unnoticed, but the members knew him well enough to recognize that expression. It meant he was genuinely worried.
Seonghyeon slowly reached forward. "...Can I?"
You gave the faintest nod. The back of his hand brushed gently against your forehead. His expression changed immediately. He pulled his hand away as though the heat had startled him. His eyes lifted toward Martin. "...Hyung." His voice came out unusually subdued. "She..." A brief pause. "She’s burning up."
James stared at him. "...What?"
Without waiting for confirmation, he placed his own hand against your forehead. The moment his skin made contact, his eyes widened dramatically. "...Oh my gosh." His voice was barely audible. "You're..." He shook his head in disbelief. "You're absolutely burning."
Martin looked at you, horror gradually settling across his face as realization finally clicked into place. "You have a fever."
You immediately attempted another weak smile. "It isn't that—"
"It is." The interruption came quietly.
Everyone turned toward Juhoon, he rarely interrupted people. When he did, it usually mattered. His calm voice remained remarkably even. Yet beneath that familiar composure lingered unmistakable certainty. "You've had one all day."
Your eyes slowly found his. For a moment, neither of you spoke. Then, almost hesitantly. "...You knew?"
Juhoon nodded once. "I wasn't completely certain." His gaze remained steady. "But..." He exhaled softly. "I suspected."
Pieces of the day suddenly replayed inside your mind. The lingering glance in the dressing room. The questions. The way he had continued watching you during rehearsal. He hadn't been imagining things, he had noticed.
"You still performed." His voice softened further. "...Why?"
The question pierced far deeper than you expected. Your gaze drifted toward the floor. You searched for an answer that sounded reasonable, one that justified everything. "I..." Your fingers tightened weakly around the sleeve of your hoodie. "I didn't want to disappoint anyone."
Nobody answered. The silence that followed felt infinitely heavier than any response could have been. Then–
Flick.
"...Ow." Your forehead stung.
You instinctively looked up. Keonho stood directly in front of you, his hand still half-raised from flicking your forehead. Normally, his expression after doing something like that would've been mischievous, teasing, accompanied by an insufferably proud grin.
Instead, he looked devastated. His eyes shimmered with frustration. He looked hurt. "...You idiot." The words were quiet, almost fragile.
You blinked. "I..."
"You seriously thought..." He stopped himself, taking a slow breath before speaking again. "You thought we'd rather watch you collapse after the performance than know you were sick?"
Your lips parted. "I just didn't want—"
"You should've told us."
For the first time since any of you had met him, his voice cracked.
"We're a team." He swallowed. "If one person's hurting… We will deal with it together." He gestured toward the rest of the members. "You don't have to carry everything by yourself."
Your chest tightened, the exhaustion, the fever, the overwhelming relief of finally no longer pretending… Everything crashed into you simultaneously, your vision blurred, not from dizziness this time, your eyes burned. "...I didn't want everyone worrying."
A small, bittersweet smile appeared on Seonghyeon's face. He crouched beside you again, his voice impossibly gentle. "...Too late."
James gave a tiny nod. Martin folded his arms, though the sternness on his face had softened into quiet concern. Even Juhoon's usually unreadable expression carried unmistakable relief that the truth had finally come out.
Seonghyeon reached over, lightly squeezing your shoulder. "We've been worried all day."
James let out a quiet sigh. "You just didn't let us help."
Martin shook his head. "You've spent the entire day protecting everyone else's feelings." His gaze met yours. "...Now it's our turn to take care of you."
The moment your manager understood the severity of the situation, every remaining commitment on the day's itinerary was abandoned without hesitation. There was no discussion, no negotiation, no insistence that you could simply "push through it."
The decision was immediate. "Cancel everything." His voice carried a level of authority that silenced the room almost instantly. "The post-performance interviews are off." He turned toward another staff member. "Notify the broadcasting team."
Another nod.
"The radio recording scheduled for tonight?"
"Canceled."
"The behind-the-scenes content?"
"Canceled."
"The promotional livestream?"
"Canceled."
Every obligation that had once seemed impossible to postpone disappeared from the schedule within minutes. Phones rang continuously throughout the backstage hallway as managers hurried to contact organizers, publicists, and production teams. Apologies were exchanged, rescheduling discussions began, none of it mattered to you anymore. The only priority left was getting you back to the hotel.
The journey there felt strangely subdued. Ordinarily, the van would have been filled with excited chatter after a successful performance. James would enthusiastically replay clips from the stage, insisting everyone watch his favorite moments. Keonho would dramatically complain about some microscopic mistake that nobody else had even noticed. Martin would pretend not to laugh before inevitably joining the conversation. Seonghyeon would tease everyone until the entire vehicle dissolved into another round of laughter. Even Juhoon, despite his naturally reserved personality, usually smiled quietly while listening to everyone else.
Tonight, none of that happened. The silence settled gently over the van, the kind of silence born from shared concern. Rain hadn't begun to fall outside, but the city lights still reflected softly across the windows as the vehicle navigated through evening traffic. Streetlights streaked past in blurred ribbons of gold and white.
You rested against the seat, every ounce of energy seemingly drained from your body. The adrenaline that had sustained you throughout the performance had disappeared entirely, leaving nothing behind except overwhelming fatigue. Even keeping your eyes open demands effort.
James occupied the seat directly beside you, he hadn't said much since leaving the venue. Instead, his attention remained fixed almost entirely on you. Every time the van rolled over uneven pavement or turned too sharply around a corner, he instinctively reached out before you had the chance to lose your balance.
When the driver slowed suddenly at a traffic light, your body tipped slightly forward. James immediately steadied you with a gentle hand against your shoulder. "You okay?" His voice barely rose above a whisper, as though speaking too loudly might somehow make your headache worse.
You gave the smallest nod. "...Mhm."
He wasn't convinced again. But unlike earlier, he didn't argue. He simply kept his hand resting nearby, prepared to catch you again if necessary.
Several minutes passed before Juhoon quietly leaned forward from the seat behind you. Without saying anything at first, he unscrewed the cap of a water bottle he'd been holding before extending it toward you.
"You need this." His voice remained calm, gentle, almost soothing.
You slowly accepted it. "...Thanks."
Your throat still burned every time you swallowed, but the cool water offered a fleeting moment of relief. Not enough to make you feel better, just enough to make breathing hurt a little less.
Juhoon waited until you had taken several careful sips before speaking again. "Drink slowly."
You nodded obediently.
He didn't add anything further, he simply settled back into his seat, satisfied that you were at least staying hydrated.
A few minutes later, another shiver unexpectedly coursed through your body. It arrived without warning. One moment, your skin felt unbearably warm. The next, an icy chill wrapped itself around you so intensely your shoulders instinctively curled inward. You rubbed your arms through the fabric of your hoodie, hoping the sensation would pass. It didn't.
Martin noticed almost immediately. From the opposite side of the van, his eyes lifted from the schedule displayed on his tablet. "You cold?"
You hesitated, then quietly nodded. "...A little."
Without another word, Martin reached toward the air conditioning controls mounted above the seats. The steady stream of cool air gradually weakened before disappearing altogether. The warmth inside the vehicle slowly returned. Still, you continued shivering.
Martin watched for another moment. Then, with characteristic practicality, he pulled the oversized hoodie he had been wearing over his head. "You'll be warmer in this."
Before you could protest, he carefully draped it across your shoulders. The soft fabric settled comfortably around you, noticeably larger than your own sweatshirt. It retained the lingering warmth from where he'd been wearing it only moments earlier. A faint scent of fresh laundry detergent clung to the material, accompanied by traces of the subtle cologne he always wore. The familiar fragrance surrounded you almost immediately.
You instinctively pulled the sleeves closer around yourself. "...Thank you."
Martin simply nodded once."No problem."
Across the aisle, Keonho appeared completely absorbed in his phone. At least, that was the image he attempted to maintain. His thumb lazily scrolled through social media, occasionally tapping at the screen with exaggerated nonchalance. Anyone glancing over would have assumed he was far too distracted to notice anything happening around him.
Except, every thirty seconds, almost precisely every thirty seconds, his eyes drifted upward. Just for a moment, long enough to check whether your eyes remained open. Whether your breathing still looked steady, whether you seemed any worse than before.
The instant he confirmed you were still conscious, he'd immediately lower his gaze back to the screen as though nothing had happened. Then another half minute would pass, and he'd do it again. It became so predictable that James eventually noticed. Without turning his head, he quietly muttered, "...You're checking on her."
Keonho's eyes remained fixed on his phone. "No, I'm not."
"You've looked up six times."
"I have not."
"Seven."
"...You're counting?"
James shrugged. "I started after the third one."
For the briefest moment, Keonho looked genuinely offended.
Then he sighed, locking his phone without another attempt to deny it. "...Fine."
His voice was barely audible. "I just..." He glanced toward you one more time. "...I wanted to make sure she didn't pass out."
The confession lingered in the quiet van. No one laughed, no one teased him for caring. Because the truth was, every single person inside that vehicle had been doing exactly the same thing. Some were simply less obvious about it than others.
By the time the van finally pulled beneath the hotel's covered entrance, the exhaustion weighing upon your body had become almost unbearable. The journey itself hadn't been particularly long, but every passing minute seemed to magnify the fever's relentless grip.
Your muscles felt impossibly heavy, as though every movement required far more strength than your body could offer. Even lifting your head from the seat demanded a level of concentration that should never have been necessary.
The vehicle rolled to a gentle stop. Outside, the hotel entrance glowed beneath elegant chandeliers, their warm golden light spilling across the polished stone driveway.
The manager climbed out first, exchanging a few hurried words with the staff waiting near the entrance before opening the sliding door. "We're here."
One by one, everyone stepped onto the pavement. James turned toward you almost immediately. "Easy."
He extended a hand without hesitation. You accepted it, allowing him to help you out of the van. The instant your feet touched the ground… Your knees nearly buckled again. The solid pavement beneath you felt strangely unsteady. Your vision swayed, you instinctively reached toward the side of the van for support.
"...I'm fine."
James caught your elbow before you lost your balance. "You don't look fine."
You forced yourself upright, taking a slow breath. "I can walk."
"No." His answer arrived so quickly that you almost laughed. "...Seriously."
"I can."
"No." James folded his arms. His expression carried the unmistakable stubbornness everyone in the group recognized immediately. Normally, the two of you would have turned this into a playful argument. Tonight, there wasn't anything playful about it.
"I've walked farther than this before."
"No."
"It's literally only the lobby."
"No."
"I—" Before another protest could leave your lips, someone quietly stepped in front of you. You looked up.
Seonghyeon.
Without saying another word, he turned around and lowered himself into a crouch directly in front of you. "...Get on."
You blinked. "...What?"
He glanced over one shoulder. "Piggyback."
The suggestion caught you completely off guard. "...Absolutely not."
"Why not?"
"I'll crush you."
Seonghyeon slowly turned back toward you, looking so dramatically offended that even Martin let out the faintest sigh. "...Excuse me?"
"I'm serious."
"So am I."
"You've seen me."
"I have."
"I'm not exactly light."
He placed a thoughtful hand beneath his chin, pretending to contemplate the matter with exaggerated seriousness. "Hmm..." Everyone waited, after several unnecessarily dramatic seconds, he finally nodded to ."You weigh..." Another pause. "...Approximately..." He squinted as though performing complex calculations. "...Two pillows."
Silence. Then, a weak laugh escaped you before you could stop it. "...Two pillows?"
"Mhm."
"I don't think you've ever picked up a pillow."
"I've picked up plenty."
"Clearly not."
"They're notoriously heavy."
James snorted.
Martin pinched the bridge of his nose.
Keonho muttered, "That's the worst comparison you've ever made."
"I disagree." Seonghyeon looked back at you again, smiling far more gently this time. "I'm serious."
"So am I."
"I don't want to inconvenience you."
"You won't."
"I can manage."
"You've been saying that all day."
The words weren't harsh, just quietly honest. He shifted slightly, still crouched in front of you. "...Come on."
You hesitated.
He smiled. "You've carried me emotionally for years."
You blinked. "What?"
"You listen every time I complain." He began counting on his fingers. "You've stayed awake helping me memorize lyrics, covered for me when I overslept, talked me through panic before concerts, and convinced me I wasn't completely hopeless after that awful audition." A small grin tugged at his lips. "I think..." He glanced back over his shoulder. "I can return the favor."
Your eyes softened. "You don't have to."
"I know." His voice remained impossibly warm. "I want to."
A brief silence settled between the two of you. Then he added with a quiet chuckle, "I can carry you physically for five minutes."
The remark earned a chorus of amused laughter, and despite the pounding in your head, you laughed, only softly for a moment. But this time, it felt genuine. "...Fine."
Seonghyeon's smile brightened immediately. "I knew you'd say yes."
"I didn't."
"You were going to."
"I really wasn't."
"You absolutely were." With one last sigh of surrender, you carefully leaned forward. Your arms settled loosely around his shoulders while he reached behind to secure your legs.
"...Ready?"
"As I'll ever be."
Without the slightest indication of strain, Seonghyeon stood smoothly to his full height. The movement was so effortless that you blinked in surprise. "...See?" He adjusted his grip slightly. "Told you."
"You weren't kidding."
"I rarely kid."
Every member stared at him, James raised an eyebrow. "That's the biggest lie you've told all year."
"...Okay."
Seonghyeon laughed. "I occasionally kid."
"You've been making jokes for the last ten minutes," Martin pointed out.
"Details."
The group began making their way toward the hotel entrance together. The revolving glass doors turned quietly as staff respectfully greeted everyone upon entering.
Throughout the entire walk, Keonho remained close, very close. He positioned himself beside Seonghyeon without anyone asking him to. His pace matched theirs perfectly. Every few steps, his gaze instinctively drifted toward you. Checking your expression, watching your breathing, making sure your eyes stayed open.
At one point, when Seonghyeon stepped down from a curb leading toward the lobby entrance, Keonho's hand instinctively lifted. It hovered only inches beneath your leg. Not touching, simply waiting. Ready to catch you if your balance shifts. The moment the step was over, he lowered it again as though nothing had happened.
Several minutes later, another uneven section of flooring again, and his hand rose again. Almost unconscious in its timing. He never acknowledged it, never said a word, never drew attention to what he was doing.
But the others noticed, James noticed, Martin noticed, Juhoon noticed, even Seonghyeon felt it every time Keonho instinctively moved closer whenever your weight shifted unexpectedly. No one teased him, no one pointed it out, because they all understood. For all of Keonho's endless jokes, dramatic complaints, and playful antics, when someone he cared about was hurting. His concern always revealed itself in the quietest ways.
The moment the hotel room door clicked shut behind the six of you, the atmosphere shifted completely. The bright stage lights, the roaring audience, the cameras, the endless expectations. All of it remained outside. Within the quiet sanctuary of the room, there were no performers. No carefully rehearsed smiles, no need to convince anyone that you were perfectly fine.
There were only six exhausted people who had spent years becoming one another's family, and at that particular moment. Five of them shared the exact same objective, making sure you recovered.
As expected, Martin assumed responsibility before anyone else even had the opportunity to speak. He didn't hesitate, didn't ask for opinions. He simply assessed the situation with the same composed efficiency that had earned him the unofficial title of the group's dependable leader years ago.
His eyes swept across the room once, then he began issuing instructions. "James." James looked up immediately. "Medicine."
"Got it."
Without another word, he disappeared toward the kitchenette, already rummaging through the medical supplies the company insisted every group carried during schedules.
"Juhoon." Juhoon had already retrieved an empty glass from one of the cabinets. "Water."
He gave a quiet nod. "I'm already filling it."
Martin wasn't surprised, of course he was. Juhoon always anticipated what people needed before they asked.
"Keonho." Keonho straightened from where he'd been helping you remove your shoes. "Blankets."
"I'm on it." He vanished into the bedroom, returning moments later with far more blankets than anyone had actually requested.
James stared. "...Planning to mummify her?"
"You can never have too many blankets."
"I think four qualifies."
"She’s cold."
"She’s also running a fever."
"Exactly."
James blinked. "...I don't think that's how fevers work."
"I wasn't a science major."
"You weren't any major."
"...Rude." Despite the exchange, Keonho still carefully draped every blanket over you with surprising gentleness.
Martin almost smiled. "Seonghyeon." He was already opening one of the drawers. "Temperature."
"I've got the thermometer."
Within only a few minutes, the once ordinary hotel room had undergone a remarkable transformation. Water bottles lined the bedside table. Medicine rested neatly beside them. Extra pillows appeared from somewhere. Blankets were layered carefully around your shoulders. A small trash bin had even been moved closer to the bed.
It looked less like a hotel room now, and more like a miniature recovery station assembled entirely through quiet teamwork.
You sat propped against the headboard, cocooned beneath multiple oversized blankets until only your face remained visible. "I can't move."
Keonho looked entirely satisfied. "Good."
"I've become a burrito."
James returned first, carrying a small packet of medication. "Here." He carefully placed the tablets into your palm. "Medicine."
Almost simultaneously, Juhoon approached with a steaming mug. "Warm water." He offered it toward you. "Drink slowly."
The warmth seeped pleasantly into your chilled fingers as you wrapped both hands around the mug. "...Thank you."
Before you could take the medicine, Martin reached over. "Wait." He picked up the instruction leaflet again.
James blinked. "You already read it."
"I'm reading it again."
"You've read it twice."
Martin ignored him. He carefully scanned every line one final time. Dosage, side effects, time intervals. Satisfied, he finally nodded. "Okay." He handed the tablets back. "Nothing crazy."
You sighed dramatically. "...You’re being paranoid now."
"I've had to be." He folded his arms. "You become impossible to handle when you're sick."
Your eyebrows immediately lifted. "I do not."
"You do."
"When?"
Martin gave you an incredulous look. "You spent the entire day insisting you were perfectly healthy."
"I managed."
"You nearly collapsed."
"I stayed standing until the performance ended."
"Barely."
"I still succeeded."
James raised a hand. "Objection."
"Denied."
"You can't deny your own objection."
"I just did."
Martin looked at you with complete seriousness. "You literally attempted to convince five people you weren't sick."
You opened your mouth, nothing came out.
A soft electronic beep interrupted the conversation. Seonghyeon lowered the thermometer, his cheerful expression fading almost immediately as he looked at the display. The room fell noticeably quieter.
"...Thirty-nine point two."
Silence, complete silence. Even James stopped smiling.
Martin slowly looked up. "...What?"
Seonghyeon silently turned the thermometer around. Martin stared, then rubbed a tired hand across his face. "...That's over a hundred and two."
James looked horrified. "You had that kind of fever?"
Across the bed, Keonho slowly turned toward you. His eyes widened in complete disbelief. "...You seriously danced an entire festival like this?"
You shrank slightly beneath the blankets. "...Maybe."
"Maybe?" He stared another second. Then dramatically dropped backward onto the mattress with an exaggerated groan. "You stress me out."
"I didn't mean to."
"I know." He sighed deeply, running both hands through his hair, his expression softened almost immediately afterward. "...That's what makes it worse."
Without another word, he shifted closer. Then gently rested his head against your shoulder. He simply leaned there, saying absolutely nothing. His quiet presence somehow communicated far more than words ever could.
You didn't move away, a few peaceful seconds passed. Then the mattress dipped again. "...Scoot over." You turned.
Seonghyeon had decided there was apparently enough room for one more person. He settled beside your opposite shoulder, carefully making sure not to jostle you too much. Now, you were sandwiched between them.
James immediately laughed. "...You're literally making her into a sandwich."
"It’s okay." Seonghyeon looked entirely pleased with himself. "The safest place."
"You two have absolutely no understanding of personal space." Martin shook his head, though there wasn't any real irritation behind the words.
James pointed toward him. "You say that..."
Everyone looked over. Martin had unconsciously begun tucking one corner of the blanket more securely around your shoulder after it slipped. He froze.
James grinned wider. "You're literally fixing her blanket."
Martin looked down, then quietly adjusted it anyway. "...Shut up."
Laughter instantly filled the room. Martin couldn't suppress the reluctant smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. The warmth of that shared laughter settled softly throughout the room, wrapping around all of you as comfortably as the blankets piled across the bed. The kind of laughter that only existed between people who had known one another long enough to understand every habit, every expression, and every unspoken thought.
As you listened to them teasing each other over absolutely nothing, a realization settled gently inside your chest. Home, had never been defined by walls, home had always been this. James stealing everyone else's snacks before pretending he had no idea where they'd gone. Martin sighing dramatically every time someone ignored the schedule he'd painstakingly organized. Keonho borrowing hoodies without permission and somehow insisting they had belonged to him all along. Seonghyeon finding excuses to make everyone laugh, even during the most exhausting days. Juhoon quietly noticing the smallest details everyone else overlooked.
They argued constantly, they stole each other's clothes, they complained, they bickered over food, they teased one another without mercy. Yet the instant one person was hurting, every joke disappeared, every complaint became insignificant, every ounce of their attention shifted toward protecting the person who needed it.
You slowly looked around the room.
James sat cross-legged on the floor, rereading the medication instructions for what had to be the third—or perhaps fourth—time, muttering quietly under his breath to ensure he hadn't overlooked anything.
Juhoon sat at the small dining table, carefully peeling an orange into perfectly even slices. He remembered that fruit was one of the few things you could usually manage when you were sick, and without mentioning it aloud, he arranged the pieces neatly onto a plate.
Martin remained by the window, sending message after message to the company's staff, reorganizing tomorrow's schedule so you could rest without worrying about upcoming commitments.
Keonho, despite insisting he wasn't doing anything, absentmindedly reached over every few minutes whenever one of the blankets slipped from your shoulder, quietly pulling it back into place before pretending he hadn't noticed.
Beside you, Seonghyeon hummed softly beneath his breath, no particular song, just a gentle melody. His shoulder rested lightly against yours, close enough that the quiet contact reminded you someone was there. Someone wasn't going anywhere.
A smile slowly found its way onto your face. "...Thank you."
The room immediately became still. Five heads turned toward you almost simultaneously. James tilted his head. "...For what?"
You looked at each of them, then quietly answered, "For... everything."
James smiled first. "You would've done exactly the same." A pause. Then he laughed softly. "You have done exactly the same."
Martin nodded in agreement. "When I completely lost my voice before promotions..." He looked at you. "You stayed awake the entire night making ginger tea because you kept saying it might help."
Keonho immediately pointed toward himself. "When I sprained my ankle. You carried my backpack for almost two weeks, and you refused to let me carry anything heavier than a water bottle."
Juhoon spoke next, his voice as quiet as ever. "The night before debut..." He met your eyes. "I couldn't sleep. You stayed awake with me until sunrise. You didn't even try convincing me everything would magically be okay. You just..." He smiled faintly. "Sat beside me." The memory lingered between you.
Seonghyeon gently nudged your shoulder. "So..." His smile was impossibly soft. "It's our turn." The words settled somewhere deep inside your heart. Your vision blurred again, emotion tightened painfully inside your chest.
Outside the hotel, the city remained alive with celebration. Fans still filled the streets after the festival, laughing excitedly as they replayed videos from the concert and shared their favorite moments from the night.
Inside your room, the world felt entirely different. Soft lamplight bathed the room in a warm golden glow. Blankets were scattered everywhere. Empty mugs rested across the coffee table.
The conversation drifted effortlessly from ridiculous childhood stories to embarrassing rehearsal memories, from arguments over whose turn it was to order dinner tomorrow to complaints about James' habit of leaving phone chargers everywhere except where he needed them.
The hours slipped quietly by. Gradually, your eyelids grew heavier. The medicine began taking effect. Your breathing finally slowed into a steadier rhythm. Words became harder to follow. Voices blurred into something gentle and distant.
Just before sleep completely claimed you, you felt careful fingers brushing several loose strands of hair away from your forehead. Someone was checking your temperature again. The touch was impossibly gentle, as though they were afraid even the slightest movement might wake you.
A moment later, another pair of hands carefully pulled the blanket a little higher beneath your chin, making certain no cold air could reach you.
"...Sleep well." Seonghyeon's voice was barely above a whisper.
Then another voice followed, carrying the faint smile you couldn't see but somehow heard anyway. "We've got you."
Keonho, the words settled around you like another blanket.
You finally allowed yourself to rest. Tonight, you didn't have to be CORTIS's dependable youngest member. You didn't have to carry expectations, responsibilities, or anyone else's burdens. Tonight, you only had to let yourself be cared for.
𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ─── after james dyed his hair blonde, you couldn’t stop playing with his hair because how radiant he looks
★ bf ! james × fem!reader
word count ── 3k
˖᯽ ݁˖ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 coco speaking here! FINALLY WROTE SOMETHING BECAUSE JAMES HAIR LOOKS SO FREAKING GOOD 😍😍😍 IM GONNA TRY TO BE MORE ACTIVE ON TUMBLR ONCE SUMMER STARTS BUT IM BEYOND EXCITED FOR MY BREAK TO START 𖧧 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
The apartment was steeped in a rare, unhurried tranquility. Not silence, true silence had never existed in James’s presence. He was far too animated for that, forever filling empty spaces with stories, ridiculous observations, and endless streams of commentary that somehow never grew tiresome.
this was something softer. Something infinitely more intimate. The sort of quiet that descended after a demanding day had finally loosened its grip. The sort that settled comfortably between two people who no longer felt obligated to entertain one another because their mere presence was enough.
Outside, the city continued its restless rhythm, but within the confines of the apartment, time appeared to slow.
Golden sunlight filtered through the gauzy curtains, casting elongated ribbons of amber across the hardwood floors. The living room glowed beneath the warmth of the setting sun, every surface bathed in shades of honey and gold. Somewhere in the background, the television droned on mindlessly, its voices blending into nothing more than ambient noise.
Neither of you paid it any attention. Your focus had long since drifted elsewhere. Specifically, to the man sprawled across your lap, and, more importantly, his hair.
His newly dyed blond hair. You were beginning to suspect that your fascination had evolved into a full-fledged obsession.
For nearly an hour, your fingers had remained tangled within the silken strands, repeatedly threading through them as though you were attempting to commit their texture to memory. Every pass revealed another variation of color beneath the evening light.
Some sections gleamed like molten gold. Others resembled pale champagne. Occasionally, when he shifted beneath the sunlight, the strands shimmered with almost platinum undertones.
It was unfair, completely and utterly unfair.
James had always been attractive. That much had never been up for debate. Yet somehow this new hair color transformed him into something devastatingly beautiful.
The contrast was breathtaking. The pale blond framed his features with startling precision, accentuating the sharp lines of his jaw and cheekbones while simultaneously softening the overall look. His dark eyelashes appeared even longer against the lighter shade. His eyes seemed brighter, more expressive, every glance carrying an intensity that left your pulse stuttering unexpectedly. It should have been illegal.
Across your lap, James looked entirely content.
One arm rested lazily over his stomach while the other dangled uselessly off the couch. His head was comfortably nestled against your thigh, using you as a pillow without a trace of shame.
Not that you minded. If anything, you secretly adored moments like this.
The version of James that the public rarely saw. Not the charismatic idol, not the performer who commanded stages and captivated arenas.
Just James. Sleepy, comfortable, safe. His eyes remained half-lidded with exhaustion, yet he continued speaking, determined to finish whatever story had captured his attention.
“…I still remember going up to the office jokingly if there is a chance i could dye my hair blonde,” he mumbled, voice roughened by fatigue, “the visual team told me blonde wouldn’t suit me.”
Your fingers swept through his q bangs again. A habit you could no longer control. A distracted hum escaped your lips.
James’s eyes fluttered shut momentarily beneath your touch. “So I informed them they were incorrect.”
The corner of your mouth twitched upward. “Hm?”
“I was very persuasive.” His tone carried the utmost confidence.
You looked down at him with obvious skepticism. “Very persuasive?”
“Extremely persuasive.” The smugness in his voice was immediate.
You laughed softly. “How exactly did you persuade them?”
One eye cracked open. A grin spread lazily across his face, the kind that always preceded trouble. “I annoyed them until they gave up, it was going on for three weeks.”
The laugh that burst from you was immediate. “Three weeks!?”
James frowned. “They were being stubborn as fuck.”
“It’s that serious?”
His expression transformed into exaggerated offense. “I’ll have you know that it was a carefully constructed argument.”
“You harassed them for three weeks.”
“It was a carefully constructed three weeks.”
Your laughter grew louder, and instantly, his smile widened. That happened every time, without fail.
No matter how exhausted he was, no matter how terrible his mood had been beforehand, your laughter seemed to illuminate something inside him. Like a flower turning toward sunlight, like a reflex he couldn’t suppress.
The realization made warmth bloom beneath your ribs. You glanced down at him again.
A mistake, because James chose that exact moment to look up.
The setting sun caught in his blond hair, igniting the strands like spun gold. His features softened beneath the warm glow. The sharp planes of his face became almost ethereal.
Beautiful.
There truly wasn’t another word for it.
Beautiful.
His eyelashes cast delicate shadows against his cheeks. His lips curved lazily as he watched you. His eyes, dark and impossibly expressive, reflected the fading sunlight in a way that made them appear almost liquid.
For a moment, you forgot what he had been saying entirely. Forgot the television, forgot the apartment, forgot everything
Alll you could see was him, and God—He was breathtaking. Not in the polished, magazine-cover way that millions of fans admired. Not in the carefully styled, professionally photographed way people discussed online.
This was different. This was the kind of beauty that emerged during quiet evenings and lazy conversations. The kind found in sleepy smiles and messy bangs. The kind revealed only to those fortunate enough to witness it. The kind that made your chest ache with an overwhelming surge of affection.
James blinked slowly, then smiled. A small smile, entirely unaware of the effect he had on you, or perhaps completely aware. With James, it was honestly impossible to tell.
A dramatic sigh escaped you before you could stop it. The sound wasn’t particularly loud, yet James noticed immediately.
Of course he did.
Somehow, after all this time together, he had developed an almost supernatural awareness when it came to you. A shift in your posture, a subtle change in expression, the faintest alteration in your tone—nothing ever escaped him.
His eyes fluttered open slightly. Concern immediately surfaced across his features. “What’s wrong?”
You absentmindedly twirled a strand of blond hair around your finger. “Nothing.”
His eyebrows knitted together. “You tired?”
“I’m not, don’t worry about me.”
“You sighed like a Victorian woman standing beside a rain-covered window while contemplating a forbidden romance.”
A laugh nearly escaped you. You managed to suppress it… Barely. Instead, you rolled your eyes toward the ceiling. “That’s oddly specific.”
James slowly pushed himself up on one elbow, his expression growing increasingly suspicious. “What?”
“Nothing.”
“You’re staring at me.”
“I can stare at my boyfriend.”
“Not like that.” A knowing smile tugged at the corners of his mouth.
“Like what?” You studied him for another second.
The soft blond strands fell effortlessly across his forehead. The fading sunlight illuminated them from behind, creating a halo of gold around his head.
Honestly? He looked ridiculous—Ridiculously beautiful.
You exhaled slowly. “You just look really good.”
James blinked. “Oh.”
There was a brief pause. “Like…” You narrowed your eyes. “Like really hot.”
The transformation was immediate. His entire face brightened, the sleepiness vanished. A grin spread across his lips, slow and devastatingly pleased. “Keep talking.”
You immediately reached forward and poked his cheek. “No.”
“Please?”
“No.”
“Baby.”
“No.”
His grin only widened. “Sweetheart.”
Your resolve weakened instantly.
Dangerous. That was the only word capable of describing James when he used that voice. Low, warm, affectionate. The kind of voice that felt like being wrapped in your favorite blanket, the voice specifically engineered to dismantle your dignity.
His eyes sparkled mischievously. He knew exactly what effect he had, the menace. “Look at you” he cooed.
“What do you mean?”
“You’re not that innocent.”
You groaned. “I hate you.”
“No, you don’t.”
Unfortunately, he sounded entirely confident, because he was entirely correct.
You returned your attention to his hair before he could become any more insufferable. The strands slipped effortlessly between your fingers. Silky, featherlight, far softer than you had anticipated.
Every time you touched it, you became increasingly convinced that blonde had been the best decision he had ever made.
Well… Maybe second best. The first had been dating you, obviously.
Without realizing it, you began absentmindedly playing with the ends again. Twisting a small section around your finger, letting it unravel. Repeating the motionagain, and again.
The sunlight transformed individual strands into ribbons of gold. You were fascinated, completely captivated. Eventually, a quiet chuckle broke the silence.
“You really like it, huh?”
You didn’t even hesitate. “I love it.”
James gasped dramatically, his hand flew to his chest. “More than me?”
You immediately looked horrified. “Don’t ask questions you don’t want answers to.”
His jaw dropped. “Excuse me?”
You burst into laughter.
James stared at you in mock betrayal before finally reaching for your hand. His fingers intertwined with yours effortlessly. The way every physical interaction between the two of you had become.
“Good answer,” he murmured. Despite his teasing, his thumb brushed across your knuckles with unmistakable fondness. The gesture sent warmth flooding through your chest.
For a while, neither of you felt compelled to fill the room with conversation. The silence that settled between you wasn’t awkward nor empty.
The apartment seemed enveloped in a tranquil stillness. The television continued playing in the background, though neither of you registered a
single word.
Nothing beyond this moment seemed particularly important. Not schedules, not responsibilities, not tomorrow. Just this, just him.
Without warning, James shifted. The movement was subtle, he simply gravitated closer, as though some invisible force continuously drew him toward you.
His cheek found its place against your stomach, nestling there comfortably. One arm slid around your waist.
The action carried such natural familiarity that it made your chest ache. There had once been a time when physical affection felt deliberate. When reaching for each other required thought. When holding hands still caused nervous butterflies.
Now it was effortless, an ingrained habit, a language all its own. James sought you the same way flowers sought sunlight. Without hesitation, conscious intent.
Simply because it felt right. Your fingers immediately slipped back into his hair. No thought preceded the gesture, no decision was necessary.
It happened automatically. A reflex cultivated through countless evenings spent exactly like this. Your fingertips threaded through the silky blond strands, gently combing them back from his forehead.
The texture remained almost absurdly soft. The color still fascinated you. Each golden strand gleamed beneath the fading sunlight like spun silk.
The moment your nails lightly scratched against his scalp, James visibly relaxed. A quiet sigh escaped him, his shoulders loosened. The tension he’d been carrying throughout the day gradually melted away beneath your touch.
“That’s nice.” His voice emerged low and drowsy. Softened by exhaustion, the words were nearly slurred together.
Your lips curved upward. “Is it?”
A sleepy smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. “Yeah...” The response came immediately, as though there had never been another possible answer.
You laughed quietly. The sound was swallowed by the warm atmosphere surrounding you both.
God, he was tired.
You could hear it.
His energy had slowly diminished throughout the evening, leaving behind a version of James few people were fortunate enough to witness.
The exhaustion stripped away every carefully maintained layer. What remained was simply him. The James the world rarely saw.
The public knew the dazzling idol who effortlessly commanded attention whenever he stepped onto a stage.
They knew the confident performer whose charisma seemed limitless beneath flashing lights and roaring crowds, the polished celebrity who appeared in interviews, magazine covers, and promotional videos. But they didn’t know this James.
They didn’t know the one who became impossibly clingy whenever he was sleepy. The one who searched for your hand beneath restaurant tables without even realizing he was doing it, who refused to sleep until he heard your voice after particularly difficult days, who stole your hoodies, sweaters, blankets, and occasionally entire pillows before insisting they had somehow become his property.
The one who sent you three-minute voice notes at absurd hours of the night because a random thought had entered his head and apparently couldn’t wait until morning, the one currently sprawled across your lap.
The realization washed over you with startling force. You had fallen in love with him countless times before. In crowded airports, in late-night phone calls, in quiet mornings, in fleeting glances.
Yet somehow, your heart continued discovering new reasons, as though loving him was an endless process rather than a destination.
The affection swelling within your chest felt almost overwhelming, warm enough to ache, gentle enough to make your throat tighten unexpectedly.
Your thumb brushed across his forehead. The pad of your thumb skimmed his skin before sweeping a few loose strands away from his face.
Immediately, James leaned into the touch without hesitation, like a cat seeking warmth from a familiar hand.
The sight nearly destroyed you. There was something indescribably precious about being loved so openly.
You looked down at him. The soft blond hair scattered across your lap. The relaxed features no longer sharpened by cameras or stage makeup, the faint rise and fall of his chest, the contentment written into every line of his expression.
His eyelashes rested against his cheeks. His lips remained slightly parted. His entire body seemed to radiate comfort, and suddenly, the realization struck again.
God.
You loved him, not because he was talented, or because he was admired, not even because he was beautiful, though he undeniably was.
You loved him because he was James, because he laughed too loudly, or he talked too much when he was excited, especially when he trusted you with every version of himself.
The thought settled warmly inside your chest, and as your fingers continued gliding through his blond hair, you found yourself smiling.
Several minutes drifted by in comfortable serenity before James finally stirred. One eye slowly cracked open.
The movement was sluggish, weighed down by lingering exhaustion, yet the instant his gaze landed on you, a familiar look of amusement surfaced.
“There you are.”
You blinked. “There who is?”
“The person who’s been staring at me for the last ten minutes.”
A smile immediately threatened to betray you. “Maybe.”
His eyebrow lifted. “Maybe?”
“I was just zoning out.”
James huffed a laugh through his nose. “You absolutely were staring though.”
“Was i? I can’t even remember.”
His expression became increasingly incredulous. “Don’t play dumb now, doll.”
You offered your most innocent smile, the one that never fooled him. James stared at you for several seconds. Then, without warning, he reached upward and pinched your cheek.
You immediately swatted his hand away. “Ow.”
“You deserved that.”
“For what!?”
“You were being suspicious.”
Your jaw dropped. “Suspicious for admiring my boyfriend?”
“See?”
“See what?”
“You were staring.”
You groaned. “Just talking to talk.”
James laughed, the sound reverberated softly throughout the room. The kind of laugh that seemed capable of dissolving stress simply by existing.
Your chest tightened unexpectedly, because the truth was embarrassingly simple.
James noticed the subtle alteration in your expression almost instantly.
At this point, you were thoroughly convinced that your boyfriend possessed some sort of unfair advantage when it came to reading you. After years of memorizing your habits, studying your mannerisms, and paying attention to details most people overlooked, he could decipher your emotions with alarming accuracy.
His eyes narrowed suspiciously as he studied you from where he rested against your lap. “You know you’re pretty, right?”
Your heart completely betrayed you. The words struck with embarrassing effectiveness. Warmth flooded your face instantly.
Then he leaned closer, not enough to invade your space. Just enough for you to notice every detail. The faint mole near his cheek, the curve of his smile, the pale blond strands falling carelessly across his forehead, the warmth hidden within his dark eyes, the affection that lived there so openly.
Your breath caught immediately.
His thumb brushed against your cheek, the touch was featherlight, tender, affectionate. “So cute.”
You rolled your eyes. “You say that like I’m a puppy.”
“Maybe you are.”
“Don’t say that.”
“I mean...” His smile deepened. “You’re very cute puppy.”
Before you could retaliate, he leaned forward. A soft kiss landed against your cheek.
You blinked. Then another landed beside the first, then another, and another.
Each one accompanied by increasing levels of satisfaction, like he was accomplishing a very important mission.
The ridiculousness of the situation eventually became too much. A laugh escaped you. Soon you were laughing so hard your shoulders shook.
“James.”
“Hm?” He didn’t stop. Another kiss, then another.
Your laughter only grew. “What exactly are you doing?”
James finally pulled back. His eyebrows furrowed slightly, the expression was so sincere that you almost laughed again. “Showing affection.”
“Really? Cause ever since you dyed your hair blonde, you gotten more clingy.”
“I’d say the same about you.”
The confidence was infuriating, the smile accompanying it was even worse. Warm sunlight illuminated his blond hair, transforming the pale strands into molten gold. Combined with the ridiculous grin currently stretching across his face, the effect was devastating.
You hated how attractive he looked, you hated it even more because he knew it.
Then, without another word, he rested his forehead against yours. Immediately, the distance separating you vanished.
Suddenly, your entire world narrowed to the person sitting directly in front of you. The warmth radiating from his skin, the faint scent of shampoo lingering in his blond hair, the steady rise and fall of his breathing, the comforting pressure of his hand resting securely against your waist.
Everything felt impossibly close, neither of you spoke, there was no need. The silence felt intimate rather than empty. Comfortable rather than awkward, a sanctuary constructed from countless shared moments. The kind of peace people spent entire lifetimes searching for.
You simply sat there, gazing at one another while evening sunlight painted everything gold. His eyes drifted over your features as though committing them to memory.
The tenderness in his expression nearly undid you, and then, as if drawn forward by instinct alone, James smiled.
Your fingers automatically slid through his blond hair once more, then, completely unashamed, he settled more comfortably against you.
And judging by the triumphant smile lingering on his face, he planned to use your very obvious obsession against you for the foreseeable future.
𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ─── juhoon plays in the world cup final when he saw you wearing his jersey and his whole confidence boosted
★ bf ! juhoon × fem!reader
word count ── 4.2k
˖᯽ ݁˖ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 coco speaking here! sadly korea didn’t win against mexico BUT THATS OKAY 😔😔😔 maybe in another life korea wins in the final like my fic LMAOAOA i just thought about this because juhoon is a really good soccer/football player HEHEHEHE HOPE YOU ENJOY 𖧧 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
The stadium roared with a magnitude that felt almost otherworldly.
The deafening chorus of thousands reverberated through your entire body, vibrating beneath your feet and rattling the metal railing gripped tightly in your hands. Every corner of the arena pulsed with anticipation, emotion, and national pride.
A vast ocean of red and white stretched endlessly before you. Flags billowed dramatically in the evening air. Supporters leaped from their seats. Strangers embraced. Children sat atop their parents’ shoulders, waving banners larger than themselves.
The atmosphere was electric—so charged with excitement that even breathing felt difficult. This wasn’t simply a football match, this was history unfolding before your eyes.
The World Cup Final.
The culmination of years of sacrifice, relentless training sessions, devastating defeats, miraculous victories, and impossible dreams, and somewhere amidst the brilliant floodlights illuminating the pitch stood your boyfriend.
Kim Juhoon, wearing a Number 7 Jersey. Captain of South Korea. The man who carried the hopes of an entire nation upon his shoulders.
From your seat high in the stands, you could still pick him out immediately. There was something unmistakable about him. The quiet confidence in his posture, the sharp determination etched into his features, the captain’s armband wrapped securely around his bicep, the way he stood taller than everyone around him despite being surrounded by world-class athletes.
He looked composed, focused, ready. At least until his gaze wandered toward the crowd, toward you.
The moment his eyes landed on your figure, he visibly froze completely, utterly. For a brief second, the chaos of the stadium seemed to disappear from his perspective, because you were wearing his jersey.
Not merely a national team jersey, not a replica purchased from a merchandise stand. His jersey.
The exact one he had carefully folded and handed to you after practice months ago. The same jersey he’d insisted would look adorable on you. The same jersey he’d repeatedly begged you to wear, and the same jersey you had stubbornly refused every single time.
It had always felt embarrassing. Too obvious, too couple-like, too revealing of your relationship to the millions of people who watched him.
Yet today was different, today was the biggest day of his career. The most important match he would ever play, and if there was ever a moment to support him without hesitation, it was now.
The oversized fabric draped over your frame, the sleeves extending nearly to your forearms. His surname stretched proudly across your back. His number adorned the front. A silent declaration that made your cheeks warm when ever you looked down.
Yet the reaction it provoked from Juhoon was far more dramatic than you’d anticipated. Even from across the enormous field, you could see the exact moment his brain stopped functioning.
His eyes widened noticeably, his lips parted. The confident captain who had moments earlier looked prepared to conquer the world suddenly resembled a teenager experiencing his first crush.
A delicate blush climbed steadily up his neck, then to his ears, then across his cheeks. You had never seen him turn red that quickly before.
The sight nearly made you laugh, and then it became worse, much worse.
One of his teammates noticed. The player followed Juhoon’s line of sight. His eyes landed on you, specifically on the jersey.
His expression transformed instantly. A grin spread across his face, and he smacked Juhoon’s shoulder hard.
Juhoon stumbled slightly. Another teammate noticed, then another, then another. Within seconds, half the starting lineup seemed aware of the situation.
Several players turned around to locate you in the crowd. The moment they spotted Juhoon’s name displayed proudly across your chest, their reactions became merciless.
One player doubled over laughing. Another wrapped an arm around Juhoon’s shoulders. A third pointed dramatically in your direction while shouting something that made the entire group erupt into laughter.
Juhoon looked absolutely mortified. You could practically see him debating whether to disappear into the grass. Unable to resist, you lifted your hand and offered him a small wave.
The worst possible decision. His expression somehow became even redder. A feat you hadn’t believed was physically achievable.
The captain of South Korea, the man trusted to lead an entire nation. Reduced to complete embarrassment by a single oversized jersey.
Cute, dangerously cute.
For a fleeting moment, his eyes softened. The overwhelming noise of the stadium faded into the background. The pressure, the cameras, the expectations. Everything seemed to disappear, there was only you, standing in the crowd.
His lips curled upward into the faintest smile. One reserved exclusively for you. Then the referee’s whistle pierced through the atmosphere.
The match had begun, and in the blink of an eye, the shy, flustered boyfriend vanished. What remained was Captain Juhoon.
A man determined to bring home a World Cup, and judging by the fire igniting behind his eyes as he sprinted across the pitch, you suddenly had a feeling that wearing his jersey had given him far more confidence than either of you had expected.
You had watched Juhoon play more times than you could possibly count.
From small youth tournaments where barely a hundred spectators filled the stands, to professional league matches broadcast across the country.
You had witnessed victories, heartbreaking defeats, championship celebrations. Moments where exhaustion nearly brought him to his knees.
You knew the rhythm of his movements better than anyone. The slight tilt of his head before making a pass. The determined set of his jaw whenever he became focused. The calculated precision behind every decision he made on the field.
But this?
This was entirely different. The man currently commanding the pitch barely resembled the boyfriend who spent his evenings curled up beside you on the couch.
Tonight, he looked extraordinary. There was an unmistakable ferocity radiating from him. An almost magnetic confidence that drew everyone’s attention whenever he touched the ball.
It was as though every ounce of pressure, expectation, and responsibility resting upon his shoulders had transformed into pure determination.
He wasn’t simply participating in the match, he was dominating it. Every movement appeared deliberate, every decision seemed flawless.
The ball obeyed him as if attached by an invisible thread. His passes sliced through defensive lines with surgical precision. His footwork was elegant yet devastatingly effective.
Each sprint down the field left defenders scrambling desperately in his wake, even the world’s best players struggled to keep pace with him.
The crowd reacted to his every touch, a collective gasp, a thunderous cheer, an eruption of applause. The stadium seemed to pulse in time with his performance.
And the commentators? They could hardly contain their admiration. His name echoed repeatedly through the speakers overhead, praise followed praise.
They analyzed his leadership, his composure, his vision, his ability to elevate everyone around him. At some point, it felt less like a World Cup Final and more like a showcase of Captain Juhoon.
He was everywhere, directing teammates with sharp gestures, tracking back to recover possession, launching attacks, creating opportunities seemingly out of thin air. A true captain in every sense of the word. The embodiment of leadership, the heart of the team.
And when South Korea secured their second goal, the stadium nearly collapsed from the force of the celebration.
The ball struck the back of the net. The crowd exploded, a deafening roar surged through the arena. Flags waved wildly, fans leaped from their seats, some screamed, others cried. Complete strangers threw their arms around one another in celebration.
The noise was indescribable, yet somehow, amidst all that chaos, Juhoon’s attention immediately sought only one thing.
You.
While his teammates rushed toward him in celebration, he turned, almost instinctively. His gaze swept across thousands upon thousands of spectators. Until he found you.
The moment his eyes locked onto yours, something softened in his expression, just for a second. Then a grin spread across his face, completely breathtaking. Before you could process what he was doing—He pointed directly at you. Your heart nearly stopped.
No… Absolutely not.
There were over eighty thousand people in attendance. Millions more watching from around the world. Surely he wasn’t—
The stadium cameras followed his gesture. Your stomach dropped. A collective murmur swept through the audience, then suddenly—Your face appeared on the colossal screen suspended above the field. Larger than life, impossible to miss.
The realization hit you all at once. The jersey, his jersey. His name displayed proudly across your chest. His number, his team, his unmistakable connection to you.
Thousands of people noticed instantly. The reaction was immediate. Entire sections of supporters erupted into cheers. Some pointed excitedly toward the screen, others laughed knowingly. A few fans even began chanting his name louder than before.
Your face burned with mortification. Heat flooded your cheeks so quickly you were convinced the entire stadium could see it. You briefly considered disappearing into your seat forever, or perhaps fleeing the country. Either option seemed reasonable.
Meanwhile, the source of your embarrassment stood proudly in the center of the field, completely unapologetic, completely shameless.
Juhoon looked downright pleased with himself. The grin stretching across his face was insufferably smug, the kind of grin that said he knew exactly what he had done, and as he jogged backward toward his position, still maintaining eye contact with you for one final second, his expression carried a silent message.
One that made your heart flutter despite your embarrassment.
Mine.
The cockiest man alive, and somehow, infuriatingly enough—The most lovable one too.
South Korea won.
3–2.
World Champions.
For a fraction of a second, the world seemed to fall silent. The referee’s final whistle sliced through the night air, sharp and unmistakable, signaling the conclusion of ninety minutes that would forever be etched into football history.
Everything stopped, as if time itself had hesitated. The players froze, the crowd held its breath, even you found yourself unable to move. Unable to think, unable to fully comprehend what had just happened.
Then reality crashed over the stadium like a tidal wave. Pandemonium erupted, the deafening roar that followed was unlike anything you had ever experienced. It wasn’t merely cheering, it was jubilation, relief, disbelief.
The collective release of decades worth of hopes, dreams, and prayers. The sound was so overwhelming it vibrated through your bones. It swallowed every other noise whole.
Around the pitch, emotions burst forth without restraint. Several players collapsed onto the grass, their legs finally giving out after carrying them through the most important match of their lives.
Others fell to their knees, hands covering tear-streaked faces. Some sprinted aimlessly across the field, screaming at the top of their lungs. A few simply stood motionless, staring at the scoreboard as if they needed visual confirmation that this wasn’t some elaborate dream.
The magnitude of the achievement was almost impossible to comprehend. South Korea… World Champions. The words felt surreal, unbelievable, historic.
Above the stadium, enormous confetti cannons detonated with thunderous force. Thousands upon thousands of crimson and silver fragments exploded into the night sky before drifting downward like shimmering snowfall.
The dazzling pieces caught beneath the floodlights, transforming the air into a glittering spectacle. Streams of color spiraled through the atmosphere. Fireworks illuminated the darkness overhead. Flags waved furiously from every section of the stands. Supporters embraced complete strangers.
Many openly wept, others laughed through their tears. The entire stadium had become a living, breathing celebration, yet amidst all the chaos surrounding you, your attention remained fixed on one person.
Juhoon.
Your vision blurred before you even realized tears had begun slipping down your cheeks. You hastily wiped at them. More appeared, then more.
The overwhelming emotion settled heavily in your chest, because this wasn’t merely a victory. It was the culmination of everything.
Every sacrifice.
Every setback, every impossible challenge he had endured. You remembered the countless mornings he woke before sunrise for training.
The exhausting schedules, the months spent away from home, the injuries that left him frustrated and unable to play, the nights where self-doubt crept into his mind despite his best efforts to hide it, the pressure placed upon him as captain, the expectations of teammates, the scrutiny of the media, the weight of an entire nation’s hopes resting upon his shoulders.
You had witnessed every chapter of the journey. The triumphant moments, the painful ones, the days where exhaustion clung to him so heavily he could barely keep his eyes open, the evenings where he sat beside you quietly, wondering if he was doing enough. If he was good enough, if all of it would eventually be worth it.
And now—You had your answer.
Standing in the center of the pitch, surrounded by flashing cameras and euphoric teammates, was the man who had refused to quit.
The man who had dedicated years of his life to chasing a dream that many deemed impossible. The captain who carried his team through the biggest tournament in the world. The boy who once practiced alone for hours after everyone else had gone home. The athlete who sacrificed comfort, sleep, and certainty for a chance at greatness.
And somehow, despite the confetti cascading around him and tens of thousands of supporters chanting his name, Juhoon’s gaze wandered toward the stands, toward you.
Even from a distance, you saw the exact moment he found you, his expression softened. The triumphant grin on his face faltered for just a second. His eyes glistened beneath the stadium lights.
Suddenly, he no longer looked like a global superstar, or a World Cup-winning captain, or the hero of an entire nation. He simply looked like Juhoon.
Your Juhoon.
Overwhelmed, emotional, happy beyond words. The corners of his mouth lifted into a smile so genuine it made your chest ache.
A smile that carried years of perseverance behind it. Years of resilience, years of unwavering determination, and as chants of his name reverberated throughout the stadium, one thought echoed louder than everything else.
He had done it against every obstacle. Against every expectation, against every doubt. Juhoon had reached the summit of the footballing world.
And now, beneath a sky filled with confetti and celebration, he stood exactly where he had always dreamed of being.
A World Cup champion.
The celebration seemed endless after, not that anyone was complaining. After all, moments like these didn’t happen every day.
History had just been written beneath the brilliant glow of stadium floodlights, and everyone wanted a piece of it.
The pitch had transformed into a whirlwind of activity, players moved from one obligation to another without a moment to breathe, broadcast crews swarmed every corner of the field.
Reporters fought for interviews, photographers captured thousands of images from every conceivable angle, television cameras followed the champions relentlessly, documenting each tearful embrace and triumphant smile.
The festivities unfolded in a dazzling blur. There were speeches, award presentations, medal ceremonies, team photographs, commemorative videos projected across enormous screens, corporate sponsors requesting appearances, officials offering congratulations, former players shaking hands, fans chanting from every section of the stadium.
The atmosphere remained euphoric long after the match had ended. At one point, you watched as Juhoon disappeared beneath a crowd of teammates celebrating around him.
A few minutes later, he reappeared holding the World Cup trophy high above his head while tens of thousands erupted into thunderous applause.
Then he vanished again, pulled away by reporters. Then by photographers, then by officials, then by another wave of teammates determined to celebrate all over again.
Every time you caught sight of him, he seemed to be somewhere new. Standing on a stage, posing for cameras, giving an interview, laughing with teammates, accepting congratulations.
The captain of the newly crowned world champions had suddenly become the most sought-after person in the stadium.
You understood. Of course you did, tonight wasn’t about you. It was his night, his team’s night, his country’s night. You figured it would be hours before you’d get a chance to speak to him properly.
Maybe after the press conference, maybe after the trophy presentation. Possibly not until everyone returned to the hotel. The thought made sense, disappointing, perhaps. But realistic.
So you remained in your seat, occasionally watching highlights replay across the giant screens while supporters continued singing throughout the arena.
The oversized jersey draped around your frame still carried his name across the back. A small smile tugged at your lips.
World Champion.
The title still felt surreal.
Your gaze drifted toward the field once more. Somewhere amidst the sea of cameras and flashing lights was Juhoon. You wondered if he’d even had a moment to process everything.
Whether he’d managed to catch his breath, or reality had fully settled in for him yet.
Your thoughts were interrupted by the sudden vibration of your phone. You glanced down absentmindedly. The screen illuminated your face, and immediately, your heart skipped.
Juhoon ♡
A smile appeared before you’d even opened the message.
Tunnel behind Section C.
A second notification appeared almost instantly.
Now.
You blinked once, then laughed softly to yourself. Of course. The entire world wanted a piece of him tonight, the media, the fans, the photographers. Yet somehow, the first chance he found to escape—He was looking for you.
Your chest warmed instantly, because no matter how many cameras followed him…
The person he wanted to see first was still you, and judging by the urgency of those messages—Your boyfriend was getting impatient.
The tunnel behind Section C was astonishingly quiet compared to the spectacle unfolding elsewhere in the stadium.
The deafening celebrations that had consumed the arena moments earlier were now little more than distant echoes reverberating through concrete walls.
Muffled cheers drifted faintly from above. Occasional bursts of applause filtered through the corridors. Somewhere in the distance, supporters were still singing, still celebrating, still reveling in the fact that South Korea had become world champions.
Although down here, hidden beneath the stadium, everything felt strangely intimate, private, like a small sanctuary carved out from the chaos.
The fluorescent lights overhead cast a soft glow across the empty passageway as you followed the directions from Juhoon’s message.
Your footsteps echoed gently against the concrete floor. The oversized jersey shifted against your frame with every step. The realization still felt surreal.
World Champion.
Your boyfriend was a World Champion.
The thought hadn’t fully settled in your mind before a familiar voice suddenly cut through your thoughts. “Baby.”
The sound of it immediately made your heart flutter. You barely had enough time to look up. One moment the corridor was empty.
The next—Juhoon appeared from around the corner, and launched himself at you.
“Juhoon—!” A startled laugh escaped you as his arms wrapped securely around your waist.
The impact nearly sent you stumbling backward. Had he not tightened his grip immediately, you were fairly certain both of you would’ve ended up sprawled across the floor.
Not that he seemed concerned, not when he buried his face directly into the crook of your neck, or when he practically folded himself around you. He held onto you as though he hadn’t seen you in months rather than a few hours.
You felt the warmth radiating from him instantly. His skin was still heated from the match. His damp hair brushed softly against your jaw. The faint scent of grass, sweat, and expensive cologne lingered around him. Even now, long after the final whistle, his breathing remained uneven from adrenaline.
Then, you felt him laugh. The vibration travelled directly through your skin, warm, affectionate. “Hello, beautiful.” The words came out muffled against your neck.
You couldn’t help smiling. “Hello to you too.”
Juhoon only squeezed you tighter, if that was even possible. For several seconds he simply remained there, arms securely around your waist, seemingly unwilling to let go, as though the moment he released you, someone might drag him back toward another interview.
Eventually, he pulled back just enough to look at you, and immediately froze again. His gaze dropped to the jersey, then slowly traveled upward, then back down.
A disbelieving smile spread across his face, “I still can’t believe you wore my jersey.” His voice carried an unmistakable sincerity.
You rolled your eyes. “It’s just a jersey.”
The reaction you received was immediate. Juhoon’s hands rose to cradle your cheeks firmly.“No.” His eyebrows furrowed. “It is absolutely not just a jersey.”
You laughed. “Juhoon—”
“No, listen.” His dark eyes scanned over you with unwavering attention.
The oversized sleeves nearly covering your hands. The number stretched across your torso. His surname displayed proudly across the fabric. His expression softened with every passing second. “You have no idea what that did to me.”
Heat instantly rushed to your face. You hated how easily he could make you flustered. “You’re exaggerating.”
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“Baby.” The corners of his lips twitched upward. “That time, I almost forgot how to breathe.”
You groaned. “Okay it’s not that serious.”
“I’m serious.” His thumbs brushed gently across your cheeks. “When I saw you in the stands wearing my name?” A smile tugged at his lips. “I genuinely thought my heart stopped.”
“That definitely didn’t happen.”
“It did.”
“It didn’t.”
“It absolutely did.”
You laughed despite yourself. The triumphant grin that appeared on his face suggested he considered that a victory, then, without hesitation, he pointed toward the field behind him.
“I scored because of you.”
Your jaw dropped. “Okay you’re just lying.”
“I’m not.”
“You trained for years for this.”
“Wrong.”
“Juhoon.”
“I’m telling the truth.”
“You’ve been preparing for this tournament since you were a teenager.”
He shook his head, completely unconvinced. “Nope.”
“Yes.”
“No.”
“Yes.”
The smile stretching across his face became increasingly insufferable. “The second I saw you wearing my jersey, I knew I was winning.”
You stared at him speechless. “That’s not how football works.”
“It is…” His hands slid from your cheeks to your waist. Pulling you closer until there was barely any distance separating the two of you. “When you have a motivation
You snorted.n“Your big jersey was your motivation?”
“My beautiful girlfriend wearing my jersey was my motivation.”
His gaze softened, becoming infinitely more affectionate. He gently tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear. The cocky smile never fully disappeared, but there was something undeniably tender beneath it.
“I just wanted to make you proud.”
Juhoon’s arms found their way around your waist once more, as though he simply couldn’t help himself, after spending hours surrounded by reporters, cameras, and countless people demanding his attention, the only place he truly wanted to be was here, with you.
He gently tugged you forward, closer. Until scarcely any distance remained between the two of you.
Despite everything he had endured throughout the evening—the pressure, the expectations, the overwhelming celebrations—his eyes remained fixed entirely on you.
The triumphant energy that had carried him through ninety minutes on the pitch gradually faded. In its place came something softer.
His expression relaxed. The sharp determination that had defined him throughout the match disappeared completely, replaced by an almost unbearable fondness.
For a moment, he simply stared, taking his time, studying every detail. The oversized sleeves draped over your hands. The jersey hanging loosely against your frame. His surname stretched proudly across the fabric.
The sight seemed to render him momentarily speechless, a quiet laugh escaped him.
“God.” His thumb swept gently across your cheek. The gesture was absentminded, instinctive, like he didn’t even realize he was doing it.
“So pretty.”
Heat immediately crept into your face. You rolled your eyes. “Stop.”
His smile only widened, the kind of smile that always meant trouble, that appeared whenever he discovered something capable of making you flustered. “So pretty.”
“Juhoon.”
“My girl looked beautiful wearing my name.” The words were delivered with such sincerity that your stomach performed an embarrassing somersault.
You hated that reaction, especially because he noticed it immediately. His eyes brightened with amusement. The corners of his mouth lifted ever so slightly.
There it was, that infuriatingly smug expression, self-satisfied. Entirely aware of the effect he had on you, the expression reserved exclusively for moments like this. “Aww.”
You groaned dramatically. “No.”
“Look at you.” His voice dropped lower, becoming teasingly gentle.” “So shy.”
You immediately shook your head. “I’m not shy.”
“Baby.” His eyebrows lifted. “You absolutely are.”
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“No.”
“Yes.”
“Stop being stubborn.”
“Just don’t hide yourself beautiful,”
Your hands instantly flew to your cheeks. Juhoon’s laugh echoed through the corridor, entirely too pleased with himself.
“You checked.”
“I did not.”
“You did.”
“I was proving a point.”
“You proved mine.”
You groaned again, the grin on his face became almost unbearable.mWorld Champion, national hero, and somehow still the most annoying person you’d ever met.
Juhoon leaned forward slightly, reducing the distance between the two of you even further. His forehead came to rest lightly against yours.
The simple gesture immediately quieted the conversation. Everything slowed, the distant celebrations, the lingering excitement, the overwhelming chaos of the evening.
For a brief moment, it felt as though the rest of the world had ceased to exist.
His smile softened. “You’re so cute.”
You shoved his shoulder weakly. The motion lacked any real conviction, mostly because you were fighting your own smile, and partially because Juhoon didn’t move an inch.
If anything, he looked even more delighted. “My favorite girl.”
“Juhoon….”
“What? I just love showing off my girl.”
You immediately looked away, his laughter followed almost instantly, entirely captivated.
And judging from the way he continued looking at you, one might have assumed he had just won something far more important than the World Cup.
𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ─── seonghyeon, who quietly yearns for you ever since he laid eyes on you, and watching you became his favorite habit
★ seonghyeon × fem!reader
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Seonghyeon thought he was exceptionally skilled at concealing things. Years of carefully manufactured nonchalance had turned secrecy into second nature.
He concealed fatigue behind indolent, crooked smiles after grueling basketball practices. Buried frustration beneath sarcastic remarks sharp enough to provoke laughter from his teammates. Even the bruises mottling his knuckles disappeared beneath oversized hoodie sleeves, hidden alongside burdens he never verbalized aloud.
No one ever looked closely enough to notice, and Seonghyeon preferred it that way.
He preferred remaining untouchable, easygoing, unserious, effortlessly admired. The kind of boy everyone thought they understood despite never truly knowing him at all.
So when he realized he liked you—truly liked you—he assumed this would remain hidden too. A transient infatuation, something fleeting.
He was so wrong, because somehow, against all logic, his attention gravitated toward you with humiliating consistency.
It began subtly enough for him to dismiss it. A passing observation during class, nothing more.
You sat near the window two rows ahead of him, perpetually arriving several minutes before the bell rang. Morning sunlight filtered through the glass behind you, spilling molten gold across your desk until it looked almost cinematic. Your earbuds were usually tucked beneath your hair, expression serene and unreadable while pages turned beneath your fingertips.
You rarely spoke voluntarily, yet when teachers called upon you, your voice emerged soft but unwavering, composed with an intelligence that never sounded rehearsed. Simply quiet in a way that felt intentional.
There was an immeasurable distinction between silence born from insecurity and silence born from self-possession.
You embodied the latter effortlessly. Seonghyeon noticed things others overlooked entirely.
The rhythmic tap of your pen against the desk whenever concentration overtook you. The slight furrow between your brows during difficult equations, as though mathematical concepts had personally offended you. The way your lips moved faintly while reading paragraphs beneath your breath.
Small details, but somehow they embedded themselves inside his memory with alarming permanence, and that was the problem. Seonghyeon kept looking, far longer than necessary. Long enough for it to become dangerous.
“Dude.” Keonho’s voice shattered his trance one sluggish afternoon.
The classroom buzzed faintly with post-lecture conversation, chairs scraping against the floor while students packed belongings into bags. Seonghyeon blinked slowly, dragged back into reality.
“What?” he muttered.
Keonho didn’t answer immediately. Instead, his gaze followed Seonghyeon’s line of sight toward the front of the classroom—toward you.
You were laughing softly at something your friend had whispered, shoulders relaxing in a way Seonghyeon rarely witnessed during lessons. Sunlight illuminated the curve of your smile, warm and effortless enough to make his chest tighten unexpectedly.
Keonho turned back toward him with dawning realization. “Oh,” he said.
Keonho looked unconvinced. “You’ve been staring at the same girl for ten minutes straight.”
“I was not.”
“You absolutely were.”
Seonghyeon scoffed, leaning back lazily in his chair despite the sudden tension coiling beneath his ribs. “You’re imagining things.”
“No,” Keonho replied slowly, amusement beginning to creep into his expression, “I’m definitely not.”
Seonghyeon reached for his notebook too quickly, shoving it into his bag with unnecessary force.
Keonho’s grin widened immediately. “Oh my god.”
“Shut up.”
“You literally smiled at her out of nowhere.”
That silenced him instantly, because apparently he had, and judging from the sheer disbelief written across Keonho’s face, it must have looked devastatingly obvious.
Seonghyeon felt heat crawl uncomfortably up the back of his neck. Impossible. He was careful, always careful.
Keonho stared at him like he’d uncovered classified information. “Seonghyeon,” he whispered dramatically, leaning across the desk, “you like someone, a girl in our class specifically.”
“I don’t.”
“You do.”
“I really don’t.”
“You looked at her like she personally descended from the heavens.”
“Okay so that’s not even-.”
“Don’t even lie bro.”
Seonghyeon rolled his eyes instinctively, but the reaction lacked its usual sharpness. His gaze betrayed him again, flickering unconsciously toward you. Still smiling, still talking. Completely unaware of the catastrophe unfolding several rows behind you.
An unbearable fondness settled heavily inside his chest, and suddenly he understood why poets wrote insufferable things about yearning, because liking you felt strangely catastrophic.
The terrifying realization that his attention sought you instinctively in every crowded room. That his mood inexplicably improved whenever your laughter drifted through hallways. That even mundane moments became memorable solely because you occupied them.
Keonho watched his expression transform in real time. Then he groaned dramatically, throwing his head back. “Dude, you’re actually gone gone oh my fucking god.”
“I hate you.”
“No this is amazing.” Keonho laughed quietly. “The great Seonghyeon finally losing his mind over a girl who probably doesn’t even know he exists.”
At that, Seonghyeon’s jaw tightened slightly, because that was the cruelest part. You probably didn’t.
To you, he was merely another familiar face in overcrowded hallways. Another student passing by between classes. Another athlete surrounded perpetually by noise and admiration and effortless attention.
Meanwhile, Seonghyeon noticed everything about you with terrifying precision. The sweaters you wore repeatedly when exhausted. The books tucked beneath your arm. The infinitesimal lift of your lips whenever someone held the door open for you.
You existed quietly, but somehow you occupied his thoughts with deafening intensity, and no matter how desperately he attempted to suppress it. Wherever you were, his eyes followed instinctively, as though drawn by something far beyond his control.
You confused him, not in the exasperating, incomprehensible way people often described attraction. No—this was far more insidious.
You bewildered him in the sort of way that cultivated curiosity so profound it bordered on obsession. The kind that compelled him to memorize trivial details without intention. The kind that made him wonder what songs played through your earbuds every morning, what thoughts occupied your mind during long silences, what kind of life existed beyond the quiet exterior you presented to everyone else.
Seonghyeon had encountered beautiful girls before. Plenty of them.
Girls who lingered after basketball games beneath fluorescent gymnasium lights, offering compliments laced with practiced flirtation. Girls who laughed too loudly at mediocre jokes and touched his arm too frequently during conversations. Girls who competed shamelessly for his attention because attention from Seonghyeon had somehow become valuable currency within the school.
But you, you never pursued him, never hovered nearby hoping to be acknowledged.
Half the time, Seonghyeon wasn’t even certain you recognized the effect you had on people around you, and perhaps that was precisely what rendered you so impossible to ignore.
Your indifference unsettled him. Not because it bruised his ego, but because it felt authentic in a world saturated with performance. You existed without demanding to be perceived.
There was something almost ethereal about that quiet self-assurance, something infinitely more captivating than loud charisma could ever hope to achieve.
Then one afternoon, he witnessed a version of you he had never seen before, and it ruined him completely.
Classes had just ended, releasing students into the golden haze of late afternoon. Warm spring air drifted lazily through the school courtyard, carrying fragments of conversation and distant traffic beyond the gates. Leaves rustled overhead in soft murmurs while clusters of students flooded the sidewalks in restless currents.
Seonghyeon stood near the entrance with Keonho, absentmindedly spinning a basketball against his palm while only half-listening to whatever story Keonho was animatedly telling beside him.
Something about practice schedules, or a teacher, or food. He couldn’t remember afterward, because then he heard it.
Your laughter.
Not the restrained, polite smile you wore during lectures. Not the soft exhale of amusement he occasionally caught when friends whispered comments beside you in class.
This was entirely different. It rang through the air unexpectedly bright—clear and effervescent enough to slice cleanly through the surrounding noise. Genuine amusement illuminated every syllable, unguarded and vibrant in a way that made his pulse falter instinctively.
Seonghyeon’s head turned before he consciously processed the movement, and there you were.
Across the street near the convenience store, surrounded by three friends beneath shifting sunlight filtering through tree branches overhead. A cold drink rested loosely against your chest while laughter bent your body forward slightly, shoulders trembling beneath the force of it.
Your eyes crinkled beautifully at the corners. Your smile lingered radiant and unrestrained. You looked alive. Not that you hadn’t before, but this was different.
In class, your quietness resembled still water: composed, elegant, difficult to read. Yet standing among people you trusted, you transformed entirely. Every movement became animated with warmth. Your expressions softened openly; your gestures carried effortless affection as you nudged one friend teasingly while another nearly doubled over laughing beside you.
It was astonishing, like watching sunlight suddenly break through heavy clouds.
Seonghyeon forgot how to breathe properly for a moment. Forgot Keonho’s voice. Forgot the basketball rotating lazily against his fingertips. Forgot the entire world surrounding him.
His attention narrowed with humiliating precision until all he could perceive was you. You, smiling so brightly it physically ached to witness. You, tilting your head back while laughter spilled freely into the open air.
You, looking lighter somehow—as though whatever burdens weighed upon you during quiet classroom hours vanished completely beside the people you loved.
Beautiful.
The word surfaced instinctively within his mind, but even that felt insufficiently devastating, because beauty implied something distant. Something merely admired.
This felt infinitely more dangerous. Something warm unfurled slowly inside his chest, spreading with frightening inevitability. Not sudden or explosive, but gradual—like sunlight creeping across frozen skin after enduring winter too long.
And Seonghyeon realized, with startling clarity, that he wanted to become someone capable of making you laugh like that.
He wanted to exist within the orbit of your happiness. Wanted to know which jokes dissolved you into helpless laughter. Wanted to learn the stories hidden behind your smiles. Wanted to witness every version of you concealed beneath the composed silence you carried through hallways each morning.
The realization struck him with terrifying force, given that this wasn’t superficial attraction anymore. This had surpassed that long ago.
Seonghyeon barely registered the comment. His gaze remained fixed across the street as though magnetized beyond his control.
You reached forward suddenly, brushing crumbs from your friend’s sleeve while grinning at something else being said. The gesture was absentmindedly affectionate, so natural and tender that it tightened something unbearably delicate within his ribcage.
God.
You were gentle, even your happiness looked gentle.
Keonho followed his line of sight before exhaling dramatically. “This is getting embarrassing.”
Still, Seonghyeon said nothing, because how could he possibly explain this feeling?
How could he articulate the strange ache blooming beneath his sternum simply from witnessing you happy? It made no rational sense.
Yet there he stood beneath amber sunlight and rustling trees, surrounded by noise and conversation and movement.
Completely undone by the sight of your smile lingering long after the laughter itself had faded away, and perhaps that should have frightened him more than it did.
Since Seonghyeon finally understood something dangerous then. He could spend hours watching you exist and never grow tired of it.
After that, Seonghyeon began encountering you everywhere, or perhaps encountering wasn’t the correct word.
Noticing felt more accurate, because you had likely always existed within those spaces long before he started paying attention; he had simply become incapable of overlooking you anymore.
At least, that was the excuse he repeated to himself whenever his gaze sought you instinctively in crowded corridors or across bustling streets.
It wasn’t intentional, it couldn’t be. But, somehow you materialized constantly within the edge of his existence, appearing so frequently it began to feel almost cruel.
He saw you in hallways between classes, weaving gracefully through congested crowds with textbooks pressed protectively against your chest. Students flowed chaotically around you in loud clusters and hurried conversations, yet you moved with quiet composure untouched by the surrounding disorder.
He noticed you in the library too.
Curled cross-legged on the floor beside low bookshelves because every table had already been occupied, papers spread carefully around you while soft music leaked faintly from your earbuds. Fluorescent lighting cast pale illumination across your features as you highlighted passages with meticulous concentration, occasionally pausing to rub tired eyes before continuing again.
And during rainy mornings, he spotted you at the bus stop outside campus, shoulders tucked inward against the cold while sleep still lingered visibly across your expression. Sometimes you yawned softly into your sleeve. Sometimes your head tilted back toward the grey sky as though mentally preparing yourself for the exhaustion awaiting you inside the school building.
Each sighting embedded itself inside his memory with alarming permanence, like fragments of a life he desperately wanted access to.
Then one evening, entirely by accident, he discovered where you worked. The convenience store near the gym, and suddenly Seonghyeon understood why fate was dangerous.
The realization struck him immediately upon entering. He froze so abruptly near the automatic doors that one of his teammates nearly collided into his shoulder from behind.
“What’s wrong with you?” someone muttered.
But Seonghyeon barely heard them, because there you were.
Standing behind the register beneath sterile fluorescent lighting, wearing an oversized store uniform that swallowed your frame slightly. Your nametag hung crookedly near the collar of your sweater as though you’d pinned it on hastily before your shift began. A few strands of hair had escaped whatever weak attempt you’d made to tidy it earlier, leaving them scattered messily around your face.
You looked exhausted. There were faint shadows beneath your eyes, subtle evidence of accumulated fatigue no amount of polite professionalism could entirely conceal.
But somehow you still looked devastatingly beautiful. Not in the polished, intimidating way magazines portrayed beauty. Yours felt softer than that, human. Real enough to ache over.
Seonghyeon’s chest constricted painfully. His teammates continued deeper into the store, loud voices echoing carelessly between aisles, but he remained rooted near the entrance like an idiot.
Then you looked up. Your expression shifted instantly into polite customer-service warmth. “Welcome.”
The single word obliterated him. It wasn’t special, logically, he knew that.
You probably greeted dozens of customers exactly the same way every shift, offering identical smiles and identical politeness until closing hours exhausted you completely.
But hearing your voice directed specifically toward him made something malfunction catastrophically inside his brain. His heartbeat stumbled hard enough to feel physically disorienting.
“Seonghyeon?” One teammate frowned from the snack aisle. “You planning on standing there all night?”
“Yeah,” he answered immediately, or attempted to. His voice emerged rougher than intended, startling even himself. Humiliation crawled beneath his skin.
He forced himself to move forward, trying desperately to resemble a normal human being rather than someone seconds away from cardiac arrest over a girl scanning convenience store items.
Unfortunately, proximity only worsened everything, suddenly he became acutely aware of details he should not have been noticing so intensely.
The absentminded way you tucked loose strands of hair behind your ear while operating the register. The faint sheen of lip balm catching harsh fluorescent light whenever you spoke. The exhaustion softening your features whenever no customers required your attention. The tiny crease forming between your brows while counting change.
Seonghyeon felt insane, completely and utterly insane. He purchased an energy drink first.
Then he lingered near the refrigerators pretending to contemplate additional options before returning with chips. By the time he approached the register a third time holding gum he didn’t even like, his teammates had stopped pretending not to notice.
One of them snorted loudly from nearby shelves. Another looked seconds away from tears from trying not to laugh.
You, meanwhile, stared at him with growing suspicion. “…Did you forget something?” you asked carefully.
Seonghyeon wanted the floor to split open beneath him. “I just—”
Then his mind blanked entirely, because you were looking directly at him. Patiently, quietly.
Your eyes reflecting pale convenience store lighting while waiting for his answer. Pretty, dangerously pretty. Every coherent thought abandoned him instantaneously.
“I like gum,” he finished weakly.
Silence.
Then one teammate nearly collapsed against the counter laughing.
“Shut up,” Seonghyeon muttered through gritted teeth without looking away from you.
And then—Your lips twitched, not fully. Just the slightest upward curve threatening briefly at the corners of your mouth before disappearing again.
But Seonghyeon noticed it immediately.
Of course he did.
He noticed everything involving you. That tiny almost-smile replayed inside his mind for the rest of the evening with devastating clarity, and somehow, impossibly, his feelings only deepened afterward.
Day after day, like warmth gradually permeating cold skin until eventually you realized you no longer remembered what freezing felt like.
Liking you became interwoven with the fabric of his routine so seamlessly he stopped recognizing where ordinary observation ended and yearning began.
Without intending to, he memorized your habits. You always purchased strawberry milk on Thursdays after your longest lecture.
Before examinations, you remained inside the library later than everyone else, surrounded by color-coded notes and exhaustion.
Whenever concentration overtook you completely, you chewed lightly against the inside of your cheek.
And every Friday evening after your shift ended, you sat alone outside the convenience store for exactly ten minutes before leaving.
Those ten minutes became sacred to him. Not because he spoke to you, usually he didn’t. He simply liked witnessing you without the careful composure you carried during school hours.
You sat beneath flickering streetlights with your bag resting beside your feet, shoulders finally relaxed after hours of work. Sometimes you stared absently at passing cars. Sometimes you closed your eyes briefly like you were savoring the silence after an exhausting day.
Seonghyeon found those moments unbearably tender. There was something intimate about being allowed to observe another person existing quietly when they believed no one was paying attention.
Then came the rain, violent and sudden.
One Friday evening, dark clouds ruptured overhead without warning, releasing sheets of rain heavy enough to drench sidewalks within seconds. Water battered against pavement mercilessly while neon reflections shimmered across puddles gathering near the curb.
Seonghyeon had been across the street with Keonho when he noticed you standing beneath the store’s narrow awning.
Your cardigan looked pitifully thin against the cold. You hugged your arms closer around yourself while staring unhappily toward the storm.
Something inside him reacted before logic intervened.
“Where are you going?” Keonho called after him.
Seonghyeon ignored him completely. Rain soaked through his hoodie almost immediately as he crossed the street quickly, shoes splashing through shallow puddles accumulating along the pavement.
You looked startled when he appeared beside you beneath the awning. “Hi,” you said softly.
And somehow that single syllable tightened his chest embarrassingly fast. “Hi.”
For several moments, neither of you spoke. Rain hammered relentlessly around the small shelter, cool air carrying the scent of wet asphalt and distant traffic lights reflecting against slick streets. Thunder murmured faintly somewhere far away.
Seonghyeon glanced upward toward the darkened sky. “You waiting for someone?”
You shook your head gently. “I forgot my umbrella.”
Without hesitation, he extended his toward you.
Your eyes widened. “What?”
“Take it.”
“You need it too.”
“I live close.” A complete lie, his apartment was nearly twenty minutes away.
You frowned slightly. “But you’ll get soaked.”
Seonghyeon almost laughed at the concern in your voice, because if you asked him to stand beneath freezing rain for hours just to keep you company, he probably would have done it willingly.
“It’s fine,” he murmured.
Then you looked at him—really looked at him, and suddenly the atmosphere beneath that tiny awning shifted unbearably.
You were standing far too close. Close enough for him to notice droplets of rain clinging delicately to your lashes. Close enough to smell your shampoo beneath petrichor and damp fabric. Close enough to see exhaustion lingering faintly beneath your eyes despite your gentle expression.
His heartbeat became erratic. Unsteady enough to embarrass him.
“You’re nice,” you said quietly after a long pause. The statement sounded almost astonished. As though kindness directed toward you was something unfamiliar.
Seonghyeon swallowed hard against the sudden tightness in his throat. “You make it easy.”
The words escaped before he could restrain them. Immediately, panic surged through him. Too honest—far too honest.
Your eyes widened slightly.
So did his.
For one horrible second he considered throwing himself directly into traffic, but then your expression softened. Warmth unfolded slowly across your features until it settled there so gently it physically ached to witness.
“…Thank you,” you whispered.
And Seonghyeon realized with terrifying certainty that he was already far beyond saving. He had fallen hopelessly in love with you.
After that, things between you and Seonghyeon shifted. There was no singular, cinematic moment where the atmosphere transformed overnight, no abrupt confession unraveling beneath moonlight or reckless declaration shouted across crowded hallways.
Instead, the change emerged gradually, like dawn seeping through curtains before anyone consciously realizes darkness has disappeared.
You began waving at him whenever your paths crossed between classes. Small gestures, brief moments. Yet they altered him embarrassingly fast.
At first, your waves were tentative—slight lifts of your hand accompanied by soft smiles that appeared almost instinctive whenever your eyes found him in crowded corridors. But eventually those moments became natural, woven seamlessly into the fabric of daily routine.
And every single time it happened, Seonghyeon felt something warm unfurl beneath his ribs. Pathetic, absolutely pathetic.
Keonho noticed immediately, of course. “You smile like an idiot whenever she looks at you,” he remarked one afternoon while walking toward practice.
Seonghyeon shoved him lightly. “Shut up.”
“I’m serious. It’s disgusting.”
Yet despite the ridicule, Seonghyeon couldn’t stop himself, there was something devastating about being acknowledged by you so effortlessly.
You looked for him now. That realization alone nearly ruined him. Sometimes you paused beside his desk before class to ask harmless questions about assignments. Other times you stopped him near stairwells just to complain quietly about upcoming exams or difficult professors.
The conversations themselves were insignificant, However, Seonghyeon replayed every single one afterward with humiliating precision.
Your voice lingered in his head long after you walked away. He remembered specific inflections. Particular expressions. The exact cadence of your laughter whenever he said something unexpectedly funny.
And god, your humor. No one warned him about that. You weren’t loud about it. Your jokes arrived subtly, concealed beneath soft observations and perfectly timed comments delivered with an almost absentminded sincerity that caught him entirely off guard.
The first time you made him laugh hard enough to bend forward slightly, he stared at you afterward in disbelief. You looked startled too, then pleased. The sight nearly stopped his heart.
He liked hearing you talk. Not because you filled silence constantly, but because you chose your words carefully. Thoughtfully. There was intention behind everything you said, as though conversations mattered to you in ways most people overlooked.
Perhaps what unsettled Seonghyeon most was the realization that you saw him differently too.
Not as the basketball captain. Not as the effortlessly popular boy everyone else seemed determined to reduce him into. You looked at him like he was simply Seonghyeon.
A boy who got tired after practice. A boy who liked stupid convenience store snacks and terrible music. A boy whose sarcasm concealed softness more often than not.
The simplicity of that recognition affected him more profoundly than applause after games or admiration from strangers ever could. With you, he never felt like he needed to perform.
One evening after practice, exhaustion clung heavily to his body as he wandered toward the library in search of quiet.
The campus had begun settling into dusk, golden sunlight stretching languidly through tall windows while shadows lengthened slowly across polished floors. The library itself remained nearly empty, hushed silence interrupted only by the occasional turning of pages somewhere deeper inside.
Then he saw you, and immediately forgot how exhausted he’d been.
You sat tucked into a secluded corner near the back shelves, surrounded by open textbooks and loose papers scattered chaotically across the table. Highlighters rested uncapped beside notebooks overflowing with meticulous handwriting.
Somewhere amidst studying, sleep had overtaken you completely. Your head rested against folded arms, pencil still loosely secured between relaxed fingers. Strands of hair spilled carelessly across your face while the setting sun enveloped everything around you in molten amber light.
Beautiful.
The word struck him with painful force, not because of polished perfection, not because of aesthetics. But, there was something unbearably tender about the sight before him.
You looked exhausted, real in a way that made his chest ache violently.
Seonghyeon stopped walking, then stayed there far longer than he should have. Simply watching, admiring. He expected nothing from you. Didn’t require your attention or affection to justify the intensity of his feelings.
Looking at you had simply become his favorite thing in the world. The realization should have terrified him more than it did.
Warm sunset light illuminated the curve of your cheekbones softly, dust particles drifting lazily through the air around you like fragments of gold suspended in time. The library’s silence wrapped around the moment delicately, intimate enough to make his heartbeat slow.
You stirred slightly in your sleep. Your brows furrowed faintly as the oversized sweater hanging from one shoulder slipped lower.
Before thinking, Seonghyeon moved closer carefully, almost reverently. His fingertips brushed the fabric gently as he adjusted it back into place, movements slow enough to avoid waking you, like touching something infinitely precious.
The contact lasted barely seconds, yet his pulse reacted catastrophically anyway.
Then your eyes opened. Sleep lingered visibly within them as your gaze lifted immediately toward his face, unfocused for half a second before recognition softened your expression entirely.
And then you smiled.
God.
That smile would destroy him someday.
“Practice ended?” you asked quietly, voice roughened by sleep and exhaustion.
The sound settled directly beneath his ribs. “Yeah,” he answered softly.
You pushed yourself upright almost immediately, embarrassment flickering across your face as you glanced at the mess of notes surrounding you. “I didn’t mean to fall asleep.”
“You looked cute.”
Silence.
Seonghyeon froze, he hadn’t meant to say that aloud.
Your eyes widened slightly. Heat rushed violently across your cheeks, and judging from the warmth burning beneath his own skin, he probably looked equally horrified.
He rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly, gaze darting anywhere except your face. “I mean—not cute like—I just meant—”
You laughed quietly. Affectionate enough to unravel him instantly.
Seonghyeon looked up automatically, and there it was again. That brightness, that impossible warmth existing only for him in moments like these.
You studied him silently for several seconds, expression gentler than he’d ever seen before. Then, almost shyly, you spoke. “I like when you look at me like that.”
His breath caught immediately. “What?”
“You always look at me like I’m…” You hesitated briefly, fingers tightening slightly around your pencil. “Important.”
The confession struck him harder than any impact he’d ever endured on the court, you sounded genuinely uncertain, as though the possibility had never occurred to you before.
Seonghyeon stared at you helplessly, completely, devastatingly helpless.
You were important, more important than basketball. More important than popularity, expectations, victories, reputation. More important than anything occupying his life lately.
You had woven yourself into every corner of his thoughts without permission. Into mundane routines and fleeting moments and quiet evenings he once navigated without noticing how lonely they were beforehand.
He stepped closer before fear could stop him. The fading sunlight between you turned everything softer somehow.
“You are,” he admitted quietly.
Your expression transformed instantly. Something fragile appeared there. Tender enough to make his chest tighten painfully.
He loved the sound of your laughter drifting unexpectedly through crowded hallways.
Loved the concentrated crease forming between your brows while studying. Loved your quietness, your kindness, your subtle humor hidden beneath soft-spoken words. Loved the way every room shifted whenever you entered it, as though his entire body recognized your presence before his mind could process it.
He loved discovering you everywhere. Loved memorizing details no one else considered significant. Loved every fleeting interaction you offered him so casually, unaware of how precious he considered each one.
He loved you entirely.
Also, judging from the way you were looking at him now—with warmth unfolding slowly across your features like sunlight after endless rain
𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ─── you wanted to do the chapstick trend with your boyfriend for fun but unfortunately he enjoys it more than you do
★ bf ! keonho × fem!reader
word count ── 1.8k
˖᯽ ݁˖ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 coco speaking here! IDK WHY WRITER BLOCK IS HITTING SO HARD LIKE IM TRYING TO WRITE MORE FLUFF TO FEED YOU GUYS BUT DUDE SCHOOL IS ACTUALLY GETTING MORE SERIOUS LIKE SCHOOL IS ABOUT TO END ALSO THE GREENGREEN ALBUM IS SO GOATED WHAT THE HELL 𖧧 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
You had seen the trend everywhere. Couples laughing, guessing, kissing—a lot of kissing—and honestly? You weren’t above using a silly game as an excuse to steal more of that from Keonho.
So that’s how you ended up sitting cross-legged on your bed, a small pile of candy-flavored chapsticks spread out in front of you like some kind of ridiculous experiment.
“Hershey’s, Reese’s, bubblegum, Twizzler, Whoppers, Ice Breakers…” you murmured, lining them up neatly. “Perfect.”
Right on cue, your door creaked open. “Baaabe—”
Keonho’s voice came first, bright and loud, followed by him—all messy hair, wide grin, and chaotic energy as he practically bounced into your room.
He stopped mid-step when he saw you. “…What are you doing?”
You slowly looked up, trying—and failing—to hide your smile. “I want to do a trend.”
His eyes lit up instantly. “What kind of trend?” he asked, already dropping onto the bed next to you, way too close, knees bumping into yours. “Is it competitive? Is it a game? Does it involve couples.”
“Don’t ask too many questions.”
“I’m curious.”
You rolled your eyes, but your heart was already soft just from the way he looked at you—like everything you said was the most exciting thing in the world.
You picked up one of the chapsticks, holding it up between you. “Okay. So, I’m going to put one of these on,” you explained, “and you have to guess the flavor.”
Keonho blinked. “…That’s it?”
“Yeah.”
He squinted at you suspiciously. “…Why do I feel like there’s more than that?”
“it’s a simple cute trend.” you said sweetly.
He leaned in slightly, narrowing his eyes. “…Do I have to kiss you?”
You shrugged, pretending to be casual. “If you want to guess properly.”
There was a pause, then—“Oh my god, this is the best game ever.” He flopped dramatically onto the bed, covering his face for a second before peeking at you again, grinning like a kid who just got handed free candy. “You’re so smart, I’ll definitely play oh my god!”
“Stop grinning dude.”
“I can’t!” He sat up quickly, grabbing your wrist lightly. “Okay I’m ready, when do we start.”
You laughed, gently pulling your hand away. “Close your eyes first.”
He did instantly, no hesitation, hands resting on his knees like he was taking this very seriously. “I won’t peek,” he promised. “…Okay maybe a little—”
“Keonho.”
“I’m not peeking!” he whined, squeezing his eyes shut tighter.
You shook your head, smiling to yourself as you reached for one.
Reese’s.
You applied it slowly, the faint chocolate-peanut scent hitting your nose as you pressed your lips together. “Okay,” you said softly. “You can open your eyes.”
He did, and immediately leaned closer.
Your breath hitched just a little.
“…Wait,” he said, staring at your lips like he was trying to solve a life-or-death mystery. “I have to concentrate.”
“It’s not even that serious.”
“Shh. Yes it is.” His hands came up, gently resting on your waist, steadying himself—and maybe you, too. “Can I?”
You nodded.
That was all he needed. He leaned in slowly at first, like he was teasing, like he knew exactly what he was doing, before finally pressing his lips against yours. Warm, soft, lingering just a second longer than necessary.
Your fingers instinctively curled into his hoodie as he kissed you, gentle but so deliberate, like he was savoring it.
When he pulled back, his eyes were still half-lidded. “…Okay,” he whispered. A pause, then he leaned in again.
“Wait—”
Another kiss, this one a little quicker. “…I need to double-check.”
You let out a small laugh against his lips. “Keonho—”
“I’m thinking!” he insisted, even as he stole another kiss, this time smiling into it. When he finally pulled back, he tilted his head dramatically.“…I don’t know.”
You stared at him. “You don’t know.”
“Nope.” He nodded seriously. “It tastes like chocolate but I don’t have a clue.”
“That was Reese’s.”
He gasped. “What? No way.”
“Yes way.”
He shook his head, already leaning closer again. “Do it again.”
“You just—”
“I need a rematch.”
“That’s not how it—”
He kissed you again, you didn’t even get to finish your sentence. When he pulled back, he was grinning—bright, shameless, completely unbothered. “…Still don’t know.”
You burst out laughing. “You’re literally lying just to kiss me again.”
“Okay, and?” he shot back instantly, eyes sparkling. “Is it working?”
You tried to stay serious, it didn’t last. “…Maybe.”
“Exactly.”
The next round was bubblegum.
This time, there was a noticeable shift in him—subtle, but impossible to miss. The playful hesitation from before had dissolved into something far more eager, almost impatient, like he had already decided that guessing correctly didn’t matter nearly as much as the process itself.
He leaned in quicker than before, closing the distance between you without overthinking it. Or maybe… without wanting to.
His hands rose instinctively, fingertips brushing along your jaw before settling gently against your cheeks, cradling your face with a softness that contrasted his usual loud, chaotic energy. It grounded you in a way you didn’t expect.
Then he kissed you, gentler this time.
Not rushed, not exaggerated, just a quiet, lingering press of his lips against yours, as if he had momentarily forgotten the “game” entirely. There was something almost absentminded about it, like he was savoring the moment rather than analyzing it, letting himself exist right there with you.
When he pulled back, it was slow—reluctant. His eyes stayed on your lips for a fraction too long before flicking back up to meet yours. “…Strawberry?”
“Wrong.”
“…Cherry?”
“Wrong again.”
His expression shifted into exaggerated disbelief, brows furrowing as he leaned back just enough to put on a dramatic show.
“Wow,” he sighed, placing a hand over his chest as if wounded. “I’m so bad at this.”
“You’re not even trying,” you pointed out, though your tone lacked any real accusation.
“I am trying!” he insisted immediately—yet the words barely left his mouth before he leaned forward again, giving you another kiss.
Your breath hitched faintly, your hands instinctively curling into the fabric of his hoodie as that familiar warmth spread through your chest again, your heart picking up speed in a way that felt disproportionate for something so simple.
It was just a game.
So why did it feel like more?
When he pulled away, he didn’t create much distance at all. His face hovered close to yours, breaths mingling, eyes flickering between yours and your lips like he couldn’t quite decide where to focus. “…Okay wait,” he murmured, quieter now, like he was letting you in on a secret. “I think I got it.”
“Oh really?”
He nodded, then kissed you again.
You barely had time to react before your hands came up, pushing lightly against his chest as laughter bubbled out of you. “Keonho!”
“I needed confirmation!”
“You kissed me so many times, I doubt you need confirmation.”
“I do! You love kissing me anyways,” he said instantly, not missing a beat.
“…Unfortunately.”
“Unfortunately?” he repeated, eyes wide, hand returning to his chest like he’d been personally attacked. “Wow. I see how it is. I give you my full effort, my dedication to this game—”
“Your effort?” you cut in, laughing.
“Yes! My effort!” he insisted, though his lips were already twitching like he was seconds away from smiling again. “And this is the thanks I get?”
But before he could complain more, you leaned in first this time—quick, soft, catching him off guard. His entire expression melted instantly. “…Okay,” he mumbled when you pulled back, completely flustered now. “That was unfair.”
“You deserved it,” you replied, unable to hide your smile.
He stared at you for a second longer—then leaned closer again, this time slower, almost cautious, like he didn’t want to break whatever that moment had been.
“…Do it again,” he said softly.
Eventually, the small collection of chapsticks dwindled down to nothing, scattered caps and tubes left abandoned across your bed like evidence of how thoroughly the “game” had been played, and somehow, despite all his enthusiasm, all his effort—Keonho hadn’t guessed a single flavor correctly.
You shifted back slightly, crossing your arms in a poor attempt at looking stern, though the faint smile tugging at your lips betrayed you almost immediately. “You lost.”
“I did not lose,” he replied without hesitation, sitting up straighter.
“You got zero right.”
“That doesn’t mean I lost,” he argued, shaking his head with unwavering confidence. “It just means the game is flawed.”
You let out a soft, incredulous laugh.
“The game is flawed?”
“Yeah,” he nodded, completely serious. “It’s clearly biased against me, but at least I got something right.”
Your expression shifted, curiosity slipping in despite yourself.
“Oh yeah?” you asked, raising a brow. “What exactly did you get right?”
He didn’t answer right away.
Instead, he closed the remaining distance between you, his movements unhurried now, lacking the exaggerated dramatics from earlier. His presence felt warmer like this—gentler, more intentional.
His forehead came to rest lightly against yours, the contact delicate but grounding. You felt the faint brush of his nose against yours, a small, affectionate gesture that made your breath catch in a way you couldn’t quite explain.
“This,” he murmured.
Before you could respond, he leaned in, the kiss that followed was different.
It was soft—almost featherlight at first—before settling into something warmer, more lingering, like he was no longer trying to prove a point or win anything at all. His hand found its way to your side, holding you there gently, as if anchoring himself in the moment.
When he finally pulled away, it was gradual, like he didn’t quite want to leave the closeness behind. His eyes lingered on yours, bright and familiar—before that unmistakable smile spread across his face again. Wide, radiant, effortlessly warm. The kind of smile that made everything feel lighter, like nothing could possibly go wrong as long as it was there.
“…Best game ever,” he declared, his voice returning to its usual cheerful energy, though there was still a softness beneath it.
You shook your head, a quiet laugh slipping out as you looked at him. “Yeah?”
“Yeah,” he nodded, entirely certain.
Before you could say anything else, his arms wrapped around you, pulling you closer without hesitation. He buried his face into your shoulder for a brief second, nuzzling into you in that absentminded, affectionate way he always did—like being close to you was simply second nature.
You felt him exhale softly, content. Then he lifted his head again, looking at you with that same hopeful brightness. “Play again tomorrow?”
You narrowed your eyes slightly, though there was no real suspicion behind it, just amusement. “…You just want to kiss me.”
“And?” he replied instantly, completely unapologetic.
You rolled your eyes, trying to act unimpressed, but your body betrayed you as you leaned into him anyway, resting comfortably within his arms.
𝐆𝐎 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏 ─── waking up to your sleepy yet super clingy boyfriend wrapped around you
★ bf ! james × fem!reader
word count ── 0.8k
˖᯽ ݁˖ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 coco speaking here! just a small fic this time because oh how i love domestic james :((( isn’t he the CUTESTTT 𖧧 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
The room was quiet in that soft, hazy way that only existed in the middle of a nap.
Sunlight spilled through the curtains in thin, golden lines, warming the sheets and brushing across your face. The air felt still, heavy with sleep, wrapped in the faint scent of laundry detergent and something distinctly him.
You stirred first. Your eyes fluttered open slowly, lashes sticking together for a second as you adjusted to the light. Everything felt warm, too warm, almost, and it took a moment to realize why.
James.
He was wrapped around you, not just casually either, completely, fully, impossibly clingy.
One arm was tucked tight around your waist, pulling you flush against his chest, while the other was draped lazily over your side, his hand resting loosely against your arm.
One of his legs was hooked over yours, trapping you in place like you were something he refused to let go of, even in his sleep.
You let out the tiniest breath of amusement.
Of course, sleepy James was always like this.
You shifted just slightly, testing if you could move at all.
Big mistake.
His grip tightened instantly. A quiet, sleepy noise slipped past his lips, something between a hum and a soft protest, and his face buried deeper into the crook of your neck. His nose brushed against your skin, his breath warm and slow, fanning softly over your collarbone.
“Mmm… don’t move,” he murmured, voice thick with sleep.
You smiled, your hand instinctively coming up to rest against his arm. “I barely moved.”
“Too much,” he mumbled back, words slurred together as he nuzzled closer, tightening his hold like you might disappear if he loosened it even a little.
Your heart softened instantly. “Clingy,” you whispered teasingly.
He made another soft sound, something that almost resembled a whine, and shifted so that his forehead rested against yours now, his eyes still closed.
“Only when I’m sleepy,” he muttered.
“Liar.” That earned you the faintest, laziest huff of a laugh against your lips.
You couldn’t help it, you tilted your head slightly, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek. His skin was warm, his expression relaxed in that rare, unguarded way he only ever showed when he was half-asleep.
His reaction was immediate. His arms tightened again, pulling you even closer, if that was even possible, until there wasn’t a single inch of space left between you.
“Stay,” he whispered, barely audible.
“I’m not going anywhere.”
“Promise?”
The way he said it, so soft, so small, made your chest ache a little.
“I promise,” you murmured back.
That seemed to settle something in him. His shoulders relaxed just a bit, his grip loosening, but only enough to shift you more comfortably against him, not enough to let you go.
His thumb began tracing absentminded patterns against your arm, slow and gentle, like he wasn’t even aware he was doing it.
You watched him for a moment.
The way his lashes rested against his cheeks. The way his lips were slightly parted, breathing steady and calm. The way he leaned into you even in his sleep, like you were something he naturally gravitated toward.
It made your chest feel warm.
Your fingers drifted up to his hair, brushing through it gently. He leaned into your touch without hesitation, a quiet sigh leaving him as his face tucked closer into yours.
“Comfortable?” you whispered.
“Mhm,” he hummed, barely coherent. “You’re warm.”
You laughed softly under your breath. “So are you.”
There was a pause. Then, “Good.”
The simplicity of it made you smile, neither of you moved after that.
Time passed slowly, lazily, the world outside fading into something distant and unimportant. It felt like you were suspended in this small, quiet bubble where nothing else existed except the warmth of the blankets, the soft sunlight, and him.
At some point, your eyes began to grow heavy again.
Your body sank deeper into the mattress, your breathing slowing to match his. His hand was still tracing those faint, absent patterns on your arm, grounding you, keeping you there.
Right before sleep pulled you under again, you felt it, his gaze. Your eyes didn’t open, but you knew.
James had woken up, fully this time.
His hand stilled slightly on your arm, his movements becoming more deliberate. You could almost feel the way he was looking at you, soft, quiet, like he didn’t want to disturb the moment.
There was something so gentle about it. Like he was afraid to break something.
His fingers brushed lightly against your cheek, tucking a strand of hair away from your face. The touch was featherlight, lingering for just a second longer than necessary.
Then, after a small pause. A kiss, a lazy, warm kiss pressed softly to the top of your head.
You felt his lips linger there for a moment, unmoving, like he was savoring it.
“…mine,” he murmured under his breath, voice barely above a whisper.
then, he settled back down. His arm wrapped around you again, pulling you close, his face tucking into your hair this time. His breathing slowed, evening out as sleep began to pull him under once more.
You didn’t move, didn’t say anything. Just let yourself drift, wrapped up in him. In the warmth, in the quiet, in something that felt a lot like home.
𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 ─── juhoon was streaming when his viewers noticed you behind him, so he reveals you
★ bf ! juhoon × fem!reader
word count ── 1.9k
˖᯽ ݁˖ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 coco speaking here! I PUT EXTRA EXTRA LOVE INTO THIS AND LOWKEY ADDED MOST OF MY MOOTS AS THE CHAT'S USERNAME SO IF YOU SEE IT LMK HEHEHEHE 𖧧 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
The soft hum of Juhoon’s setup was the first thing you noticed.
The faint clicking of his keyboard. The quiet murmur of his voice. The low glow of LED lights casting a dim, cozy atmosphere across the room.
“…chat, I’m telling you, that play was clean.”
Your eyes fluttered open.
Right. He was streaming.
You froze instantly, still half-buried in his blankets, your body warm and heavy with sleep. You didn’t move, didn’t breathe too loudly, just listened.
Juhoon sat at his desk, back facing you, headphones resting comfortably over his dark hair. His posture was relaxed, slightly slouched, like he always was. One hand moved effortlessly across his mouse while the other tapped lightly on his keyboard.
He looked completely normal, like there wasn’t a whole person in his bed.
“…wait, what?” he muttered, glancing at his second monitor. A soft laugh slipped out of him, quiet, breathy, the kind that always made your chest feel warm. “No, there’s nothing behind me. You guys are tripping.”
Your heart skipped, the chat noticed. You slowly shifted, just a little, trying to sit up without making noise, but the blanket rustled anyway.
[meeoowchi]: WAIT DID YALL SEE THAT???
[miaiki]: MAMA A GIRL BEHIND YOU
[realseanshady]: JUHOON THERE IS LITERALLY SOMEONE THERE??
[hollyyoonge]: imagine if it was his girl 😹✌️
Juhoon paused, just for a second. His shoulders tensed slightly before relaxing again.
“…it’s literally nothing,” he repeated, but this time his voice was softer. Almost careful.
Your eyes met the back of his head, like he could feel you staring. You pressed your lips together, trying not to laugh. The chat probably went crazy.
A few seconds passed. Then a minute.
Then, “Okay, you guys are actually not gonna shut up, huh?”
He sighed, leaning back slightly in his chair, one hand coming up to rub the back of his neck. You could see the faintest hint of a smile tugging at his lips.
That smile. The one that was small, a little shy, but so soft it made your stomach flip every single time. “…fine.”
Your eyes widened. Before you could react, Juhoon turned his chair slightly, and looked at you.
There it was, that look. Like you were the only thing in the room that mattered.
His gaze softened instantly, sleep still clinging to your expression, your hair messy, blanket loosely wrapped around you, and somehow, he looked at you like you were the prettiest thing he’d ever seen.
[pearlywhitefics]: THERE IS A GIRL?????
[fshionalien]: HELLO???? HELLO?????
[j4eyxn]: WHO IS THAT???
[afternoontea]: BRO HAD A GIRL THIS WHOLE TIME??
“…hi,” he murmured, his voice was softer than usual.
Your face burned instantly. Heat rushed up your neck, settling deep in your cheeks as your fingers tightened around the edge of the blanket still draped loosely over your lap.
“Hi…” you whispered back, your voice barely there. It came out smaller than you meant it to. Sleep still clung to you, your thoughts slow, your body warm and heavy, your senses just beginning to catch up with everything happening around you.
Juhoon noticed, of course he did. A quiet chuckle slipped past his lips, low and breathy, the kind that always made your chest feel tight in the softest way. His shoulders relaxed as he leaned back slightly in his chair, turning toward you just a bit more.
He lifted one hand toward you, palm open, fingers curling slightly in a silent invitation. “C’mere.”
You hesitated for half a second, not because you didn’t want to go to him. But because suddenly, you were very aware, of the camera, of the stream, of the thousands of people on the other side of the screen.
Still, you moved. Slowly slipping out from the warmth of the blankets, your feet touching the cool floor as you padded toward him.
Each step felt careful, almost shy, your body still waking up, your mind trying to process everything at once.
Juhoon watched you the whole time. His gaze never left you, not even for a second. When you finally got close, his hand gently wrapped around your wrist.
He didn’t pull harshly, didn’t rush you, just guided you with a soft firmness that made your breath catch slightly as he tugged you closer, right onto his lap.
A quiet, startled sound slipped out of you, soft and embarrassed, your body instinctively tensing for half a second before melting against him.
His arm came around your waist immediately.
Your heart was racing now, your face burning as you instinctively leaned into his chest, trying to hide even though you knew it was pointless.
“Guys,” Juhoon said casually, like this was nothing. “This is my girl.”
Your brain short-circuited. Your entire face went hot, completely, overwhelmingly hot, as his words settled into you.
You didn’t even realize you were holding your breath until it left you in a small, shaky exhale.
Your hand lifted hesitantly, fingers stiff as you gave a tiny, awkward wave toward the camera.
“…hi…” Your voice came out quiet, and completely unprepared for the chaos you knew was happening on the other side of the screen.
The chat exploded, you didn’t need to see it. You felt it.
In the way Juhoon’s chest vibrated lightly against your back as he let out a quiet laugh, low and amused.
In the way his arm tightened just slightly around your waist, pulling you closer into him like he was shielding you from it, even while technically being the reason for it.
[saevss]: SHE’S SO CUTE HELLO???
[teacuplps]: MOM AND DAD FR 😭😭
[jjuhyeon]: JUHOON EXPLAIN YOURSELF RN
[martiniholic]: HOLY FINE SHYT 😻😻
“They’ve been begging me to check behind me,” he murmured, his voice dipping lower as he leaned in closer.
His lips brushed near your ear.
Your breath hitched.
The proximity made your entire body warm, a shiver running softly down your spine as his presence wrapped around you.
You hid your face instinctively in the soft fabric of his hoodie, your fingers curling into the sleeve near his wrist.
“They’re probably staring…” you mumbled, your voice muffled.
“They always stare,” he said softly, amusement lacing his tone. “You’re just new.”
That didn’t help. If anything, it made your embarrassment worse.
Your grip on his sleeve tightened, your body curling slightly inward as if you could somehow make yourself smaller.
But Juhoon didn’t let you disappear. His thumb began tracing slow, absent-minded circles along your waist. “…you’re okay?” he asked quietly.
You nodded against him, still half hiding, your cheek pressed lightly into his shoulder. “Mm.”
[tw0star]: SHE’S SHY STOP THIS IS SO CUTE
[eohyeons]: IS THAT HIS HOODIE??
[ramenoil]: PROTECT HER AT ALL COSTS
[eomlinn]: JUHOON YOU WON AT LIFE
He smiled. In the way his chest rose slightly beneath you, in the way his arm tightened just a little.
Then, his fingers came up to your chin. He tilted your face upward, guiding you out of hiding without forcing you. “Don’t hide, pretty,” he murmured.
Your heart melted completely.
You looked up at him, your eyes still soft from sleep, your thoughts hazy, your emotions too big to fully process.
“…they’re saying you’re cute,” he added, glancing briefly at his chat.
You groaned softly, immediately dropping your face back into his shoulder. “Juhoon…”
Your voice held a quiet whine now, embarrassed beyond saving. He laughed softly.
His arms wrapped around you fully now, both of them, holding you securely against his chest as if you might try to escape.
“Relax, baby,” he murmured. “They’re not wrong.”
You lightly hit his chest in protest, your movements weak and unconvincing. “Stop…”
“Mm. No.” The vibration of his voice against you made your breath catch.
Then, a soft kiss pressed against your temple. Lingering just a second longer than necessary.
[amorassz]: SHES BLUSHINGGGGG
[kaikaikoi]: HE CALLED HER PRETTY IM GONNA CRY
[08mrtin]: IVE NEVER SEEN HIM LIKE THIS???
[lovhyeon]: THEYRE SO SOFT IM SICK
He pulled back just enough to look at you again, his gaze warm, soft, filled with quiet amusement at how flustered you’d become. “…you woke up at the worst time,” he teased lightly.
You pouted, your brows knitting slightly as you looked up at him. “I tried to be quiet…”
“I know,” he said, smiling. “You were cute.”
You stared at him, disbelief clear on your face.
“You’re literally streaming.”
“And?”
“…and you’re saying stuff like that.”
He shrugged, completely unbothered. “They already know.”
Your face burned again, there was no winning with him. Before you could even think of a response, he leaned in slowly.
Giving you time, giving you space to pull away if you wanted to. But you didn’t, you stayed right where you were.
His lips met yours, the kiss wasn’t rushed, wasn’t overwhelming, it was slow, like he wanted to take his time, like he wanted you to feel every second of it.
His hand came up to cradle your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly against your skin in soft, comforting strokes while his other arm kept you secure against him.
You melted instantly, and everything else faded.
The room, the stream, the noise. All of it disappeared, there was only him.
The warmth of his lips, and the way he held you like you were something precious. Somewhere in the back of your mind, you knew, the chat had probably lost it.
But you? You were gone.
[hyuneskkami]: THEYRE KISSING????
[i-kai]: I JUST WITNESSED THAT LIVE IM NEVER RECOVERING
[pbananalover]: HE’S SO GENTLE WITH HER IM GONNA SOB
[stagbarnes]: SOMEONE CLIP THAT RN
[coconhovr]: IT SHOULDVE BEEN ME
When he finally pulled back, your eyes were wide, your lips slightly parted, your entire face flushed a deep, burning pink.
“Juhoon—!”
He just smiled, that quiet, soft smile.
The one that felt like it was only meant for you. “…what?” he asked innocently.
You covered your face with your hands, completely overwhelmed. “You’re so—” you cut yourself off, your voice muffled. “Oh my god.”
He laughed under his breath, leaning in to press another soft kiss, this time to your hair.
“Cute,” he finished for you.
You groaned. “I hate you.”
“No you don’t.”
“…no I don’t,” you admitted quietly.
He hummed, satisfied, his arms tightening around you just a little. Then, after a moment, he glanced back at his screen.
“Alright,” he said casually. “I think that’s enough for today. Chat’s gonna focus on her anyway.”
Your head snapped up. “Wait—”
“Say bye,” he whispered, his lips brushing lightly against your ear again.
You peeked at the camera reluctantly, your face still flushed beyond recovery. “…bye…”
Juhoon smiled, then looked back at the camera.
“Later.”
And just like that, the stream ended. Silence settled over the room.
Your heart was still racing. Your hands still slightly shaky as you looked up at him. “…that was so embarrassing,” you muttered.
He tilted his head slightly. “Why?”
“You just—kissed me in front of everyone.”
He blinked, like it hadn’t even crossed his mind as a problem. Then he smiled, completely unapologetic. “…so?”
You stared at him, speechless. He leaned in again, slower this time, his nose brushing lightly against yours.
“Couldn’t help it,” he murmured. “You looked too pretty.”
Your breath caught again.
That voice, that tone. So soft it felt like it wrapped around your heart and squeezed.
You sighed quietly, your resistance melting away completely as you leaned into him, your arms slipping around him in return. “…you’re lucky I like you.”
He let out a quiet laugh, the sound warm and fond as he pressed one last kiss to your lips, short, gentle, lingering just enough to make your chest ache.
