It was rhetorical, really. You liked being alive but what about being a captive is living? Unfortunately for you, your words had an audience, and the wrong one at that.
Code Geass Edition (pt 1/2): Lelouch, Suzaku
CW: suicidal ideation but doesn’t go past the title. kidnapping, manipulation, references to violence, threats of violence, very unhealthy relationships. This is not what a relationship should look like.
Lelouch Vi Britannia
"Kill you?" He looked so amused. Amused but irked. With delicate brows raised and stood tall in his white regalia, he looked like a tyrant who was so humoured by the court jester, that me may just spare their life.
But, you could tell that he was surprised by your question. He clawed through his dark hair, his gaze not leaving you once. He looks down at you, purple eyes holding an uncomfortably off gleam to them.
"Never." You expected as much.
He reaches towards you, running his knuckles down your trembling cheek, and his gentle gaze holding yours. "Never you."
You stiffen, your ankles feeling tighter in their jewelled holds, your legs feeling much more jittery against the fine silk of your bedsheets.
"...then who?" Your voice is weak, after not having used it for so long.
He laughs this time, so light, so full. You wouldn't think he was laughing at someone else's death.
"Anyone. If that's what it would take to remind you-" a smooth hand curls around your neck, "that you are mine."
You don't fight him and he relishes in his hold over you, your submission. You've long since learned that he will never apply too much pressure if you stay still, instead becoming accustomed to the warmth his palm spreads around your neck.
"Now, my love. Who put those ideas in your head?" His face holds a perfect smile, but you know better than that. "That dying is better than being here, with me?"
He gestures to your opulent room, gold gilded the frames of every piece of furniture, you had a stocked kitchenette, an en suite, even a TV and laptop with access to the outside world. You had everything you needed to survive. But you didn't have freedom.
The doors only opened for Lelouch, your activity monitored and limited by Lelouch, every piece of clothing lovingly selected by Lelouch. Even now you could walk the perimeter of your small home, but the jingle of the chain around your ankle never let you forget that your life was lost long ago, even if you still breathe.
But you didn't say a word, simply looking at him. When he had first 'relocated' you, for your safety of course, you believed every lie. Followed every rule. And yet, he only got worse.
It was a shame really. You had loved him once, when you were children. You had hoped that the glowing boy of his youth was in there, somewhere, when he returned to the capital to usurp the throne. The frail genius became an emperor.
You were one of the few nobles who didn't fight his rule. You revelled in it even, tired of watching the world suffer at the hands of your brethren, angry at how they treated their own. He worked to tear down the work of his forefathers, which hurt your inner Britannian but your heart sang, knowing that those tyrants would lose their life’s work to flames set by their own blood.
He was on a roll, so it was surprising when he had proposed that you help him secure his rule by becoming the imperial consort. You were sure that that role would fall to his beautiful green haired companion. But he claimed that he needed you for this, that you were the key to peace. You hesitated, naturally, none of it made sense. But when you spent more time with him, joined him for strolls, dinners, meetings, you understood.
“You are perfect. Let no one question that.” He said. You felt warm, and you almost listened.
When he slipped the ring on your hand late one banquet, leaving a longing kiss on its place in your finger he whispered “Let no one question the future queen.”
And this time you believed him.
Now here you are, suffering the consequences of your naivete.
You looked up at the frustratingly handsome face of the current emperor, the man who trapped you so sweetly, the one you cannot help but to care for.
He seemed to have expected your silence. He continued to speak with a curl on his lips as you felt the heat from his hands slide from your neck to both your cheeks to hold your stare to his. All you could see was him.
"No matter. I know a way to ensure I am your only choice. Though I'd preferred for you to love me on your own."
Again, no response. Just a despaired look passing from your eyes to his.
"I, Lelouch vi Britannia, command you, to love only me." His voice is strangely soft as his eyes begin to glow a light pink and suddenly you feel something you've long tried to supress.
"...Lelouch." You sighed out his name, liking how it sounded.
"Yes, dearest?" He smiled, genuinely this time.
Your hands cup around his face, moving closer to him. "Lelouch, I-"
You stopped, flinching. Even he looked suprised. No, this isn't-
"Dearest?" His voice was so warm and gentle on your ears. A part of you giddy that it was towards you. You feel what little grasp you have slip-
-That's right, this is perfect. What was I thinking? He's my love.
Warmth flooded you. Of course, how could you forget?
With no hesitation this time, you pressed a soft kiss to the corner of his mouth.
"I love you."
Lelouch beamed.
.
Suzaku Kururugi
It was a line you’d heard somewhere, corny but it stuck with you. You wanted to taste how it sounded, nothing serious. Though, it would’ve been better if Suzaku hadn’t just stumbled through the doorway.
He returns to his home in the 11's district, ready to start dinner, only to hear you ask him to kill you? You’d be stupid to think he wouldn’t overreact.
The door slammed shut behind him with a thud, his face draining of colour so quickly.
"What? What makes you think I'd ever do that? That's the last thing I-"
He panics, dropping the bags of food on the floor. He rushes to you, sat up against the bed, a bandage wrapped around your head. He looks you over, thinking you'd tried to hurt yourself. But his fear is replaced with something much more sombre when he sees you're free of injury.
"Is that what you think of me? That I'd kill you because we have a- a hiccup?"
He calls kidnap a hiccup?
He clenches his fists, he seems to struggle to look at you.
"Is this about what happened with Euphie? You think that dying is the only way to get my attention?"
God, not this inane bullshit again. He was convinced that you were jealous of a dead girl. Once upon a time you were worried that he'd never let her go, that you would always be second to a ghost. And now, you wished that that was the case.
"Because you dont need to, damn it. You just need to ask, I'd give you everything if you asked!"
"So you'd kill-"
He slaps his hand over your mouth, infuriated that you'd ask again. It almost stung as much as the wound on your head that you got trying to fight him off when he took you.
"No. I couldn't, that's the only thing I could never give you. I'm sorry." He wasn't sorry, and it was starting to piss you off.
"Just stop." You almost growl beneath his palm, so tired of putting up with him. "Suzaku, I can’t live like this, not here, not with you-"
"YOU DON'T MEAN THAT!"
His shout surprises you, banging your head against the headboard that you're pressed against.
His fist punches into the wall behind your head and for the first time, you're sacred that he might deliberately hurt you.
"...you don't mean that."
His voice his weaker this time and you seem to have completely lost yours.
"You don't. I know it." He said to himself under his breath, seemingly trying to convince himself.
"We're all we have left, from the beginning its always been us. I was an idiot but I'm fixing it. And then I'll bring our home back."
"Suzaku-"
"I know I'm not good enough for you, I know that. But I will be. Once I become viceroy, I'll fix it all."
"Suzaku, I know you're trying but you didn't need to do this. " You say, gesturing to the now highly secure apartment. "I dont want to be trapped-"
"You're not! We'll leave eventually but not right now. It's not safe, you know that.” He has a stern look in his green eyes, one that reminds you of his father. “ It’s not safe, let me protect you.”
The dull ache in your head reminded you not to trust him, no matter how much he pleaded. You had loved him, yes. But you couldn’t forgive this.
He looks up at you with a tired, longing look before he sighs. Resting his head on your shoulder he wraps an arm around your waist to hold you close.
“Please.” He begged, and your heart ached. “I can’t do it without you.”
Oh Suzaku. You reach up to stroke his back. You couldn’t forgive him, but that didn’t stop you from feeling hurt, seeing him like this.
“I know you love me.”
He pulls back, his eyes a little more dull than before and this raises alarms.
“I know you love me, so don’t lie like that ever again.” He spat. He leans his forehead against yours, staring deep into your eyes.
“Don’t make me do something I’ll really regret, okay?” The grip he had on your waist tightened and the increased pressure of his head against your injured one reminded you-
Suzaku hurt you to take you home. What else would he do to keep you there?
Hi! May i have a romantic matchup request from JJBA and Code Geass? (sfw & nsfw) (im officially 18)
I'm a female (she/her), im interest on boys or males, My MBTI is INFP, my zodiac sign is Aries.
My style is kinda boyish clothes,like im wearing large shirts/hoodie, but i also like masculine clothes, i wear sometimes girls clothes.(if i wanted to)
i have a short black hair, light- skinned, my eyes is brown, i wore glasses but sometimes. my height is like 5'9(?)
My personality..I'm very shy and quiet when it comes to socialized people or talk to someone , the way i talk i just stuttered and i also just shyly looked away, cuz im i don't want them see me very akward (i also have a trust issues), But if im comfortable with someone i will get along with them or get used to it.
i have a anger/temper issues, i might snapped when people annoyed me or noisy, that's i wanted avoid it, cuz i might end up hurt their feelings for being a harsh
But im a soft person inside that i didnt want admit to them, even i have anger/temper issues.
I can playful or goofy if i wanted to or it depends on my moods.
My hobbies which is Drawing, Playing a Piano, Listening Music and Playing Video Games and Baking.
My Main Passion which is (Marine) Biologist and Arts.
My Love Language is Physical touch, i like giving my s/o some hugs/cuddles and kisses, Acts of service i liked to served my s/o if i wanted to, Words of affirmation, i can cheer or tell my s/o how much i loved them and doesnt care what they looked like and lastly Quality time, i can let my s/o decide where they wanted to go, as long is peace and quiet place without being interrupt.
My Dislikes or what i hate (and also feared) is Loud/noisy people, being stared (cuz its kinda uncomfortable) , being lonely, being betrayed/abandoned and being judged.
Hope i didn't missed or made a mistake cuz im not so sure since i read your rules carefully.
Thank you and have a nice day/night! <3
Hey thanks for the request! You're one of the only people who've read through our rules so thoroughly thank you so much!! We hope you like your match ups <3
Your biology guinea pigs,
Admins sav & san
(The jojos and code geass match ups are under the cut)
Your jojos match up is...Muhammad Avdol
SFW
Avdol is a very mature man, he knows how to interact with shy people in fact he is reserved himself. He will know how to initiate conversations and make you feel comfortable through out.
Looking at how this man can hang out with the rest of the stardust crusaders. He knows how to handle loud, noisy, wild and short tempered people. When you snap he will know exactly how to calm you down. He will hold you and assure you he knows how to handle the situation instead. Also gives you enough space to calm down and relax.
He can see right through you. He is a tarot reader so he can tell that your a soft-hearted nice person despite your angry exterior at times.
Avdol will love being around you since you can be playful and goofy at times. As evidently seen with his company with Joseph, he doesn't mind a bit of fun even if hes only a witness.
Avdol loves your hobbies he would try learning all of them with you especially drawing since it will help with his tarot cards too, who knows maybe he can start selling his own brand of them.
Avdol is so adorable, he would just melt under affectionate touch. He would hug back so tight, squeezing you breathless. He always has to be the adult of the group so when he hears words of affirmation from you he will feel different and motivated, that for once there is someone looking out for him too.
You can trace the scars on his face and make them deeper by adding shadows with paint.
N/SFW
Avdol wears a lot of jewelry its clear hes gonna use chains and many different accessories in bed too. Get ready to get tied down.
He does not like getting his dreadlocks pulled. that shit is expensive to get done and he is just gonna stop midway through sex if you mess worth them. So steer clear of that.
Y'all can roleplay according to tarot cards, letting it decide the theme of the night. So you can always expect something new and sex never gets boring.
He prefers being on top, hes got daddy energy so get ready to be his baby girl.
Avdol would look after you so well after sex, he'll get you water and help you clean yourself.
Your code geass match up is...Kaname Ohgi
SFW
Ohgi is very accepting of all types of people. He used to be the leader of the resistance group after all! Hence, he wouldn't really mind if your style is boyish or girlish. Since you mostly wear masculine clothes he'd let you borrow his clothes.
He is a very sweet and social person, he nursed Villetta back to health patiently. So he would let you warm up to him over time and wouldn't force you.
He would like listening to you play the piano and if you're ok with it he'll invite other members of the resistance group to listen to you play.
LOOOOVES gaming and baking with you
He thinks your passion biology and the arts is super cool. You would know which fish to eat and which to not eat, the resistance thank you for that.
Ohgi loves hugging and kisses. He is super affectionate. He also tells you that you're pretty everyday and how much he loves you.
He would take you out on walks to the park for when you want to be outside in a quiet place.
Ohgi is a chill fella, he realises you run away from him when his friends are being loud. He tries to tone them down when you're around.
N/SFW
He puts the ass in geass. You are allowed to smack it anytime any day. He'll let you eat his ass on special occasions.
Mostly he is vanilla, sweet, loving and caring. But as you know the quiet ones are the kinkiest.
You guys have great angry sex when you're pissed off.
He has a degrading kink. Call him your filthy eleven when you're angry with him. He'll love it.
You should totally pull his afro and be rough with him.
Ohgi likes your piano hands as they are deft and nimble, which is great for hand jobs (and fingering).
Happy birthday!! I hope you have a wonderful day, and you get all the presents you want! Could I request some headcanons for Lelouch, Killian from OUAT, and Gabriel for an s/o with short hair (like pixie cut short.) You’re a lovely writer, as well as a lovely person! I’m so glad requests are open! Thank you so much! Also, good job on getting all this requests done!! Make sure to catch up on that missed sleep tho! You’re health is what’s most important!
Ohmygoodness, this in been in my drafts since my birthday last year!!!! I’m so sorry @cipherwheeldecoder!!!! I hope you enjoy this despite the loooooong wait! <333
Lelouch vi Britannia (Code Geass)
Lelouch doesn’t notice the affection of others which means he wouldn’t notice that your hair was shorter than his.
It would probably never really be acknowledged, though you would know that he had clocked it when he stopped and stared for several minutes.
He’s selfish and arguably arrogant because of his upbringing but especially in times of war he would appreciate the practicality and simplicity of your hairstyle.
Lelouch is compassionate and loving towards his friends and family so when he has the time and inclination, he would offer to style your hair for you.
He would somehow do a better job than you do and you’d cherish the feeling of his fingers in your hair.
He uses his grip sometimes as a convenient excuse to kiss you; gently tugging you into him by your hair.
Lelouch becomes the only person able to touch your hair without permission; anyone else’s grip just feels odd and you’re so used to his touch that you don’t like anyone else’s.
Killian Jones (OUAT)
Killian would love your hair.
You love it too, but you don’t think it’s anything special.
You rarely style it, preferring to rock the Bed Head look, and Killian frequently cracks jokes about you looking like you’ve been dragged through a particularly mean hedged backwards.
You come back with similar insults and his resounding laugh sets you up for the day; the sound is more refreshing than the first coffee of the day.
He’s used to longer hair but he’s found that having to dig his fingers into your scalp to pull you to him when he wants a kiss means that he has to stand closer to you; and that’s all the excuse he needs.
Like Lelouch, Killian likes to style your hair for you, giving you a scalp massage while he rakes his fingers through your short locks; who needs hairspray or styling gel when you have a pirate’s hand to do it for you?
You prefer to keep your hair short as opposed to growing it out, if only to keep Killian’s habits up.
Gabriel (I’m assuming this is for Supernatural; let me know if not! <3)
You have a pixie haircut because of a ‘prank’ Gabriel pulled on you once.
You had annoyed him the night before over something insignificant and it retaliation he had snipped half an inch off of one lock of hair.
It was tiny, barely noticeable, but once you spotted it, it irritated you and ate at you way more than anything Gabriel could have said to you.
So, you hacked the rest of your hair off to the same length and you both grew (no pun intended) to like it.
Now, if your hair gets even a little longer, beyond what he likes, you cut it down to the preferred length. This isn’t controlling but rather something you do as a couple; fight over the length of your hairs.
He would love to tug on it to get your attention. The harsher he tugs, the more he wants your eyes on his.
Gabriel calls you ‘pixie’ because of the style. You call him ‘trickster’ in return and then he jokes that you’re the perfect couple; unbeknown to you, you are; you met to fulfil a higher purpose.
hello, can I request lelouch vi britannia/lamperouge with female s/o, who's brain scattered yet optimistic, friendly and creative/with enfp personality?
Lelouch Vi Britannia
Lelouch would be a really caring and considerate boyfriend for you.
He would make sure you remember to do important things when you're overwhelmed and that you take care of yourself.
Lelouch takes care of his little sister so he would have some experience.
This would work really well.
Or it would work until Lelouch's double life began and he would have much less time for you.
Lelouch would never tell you about his double life and the dangers it brings.
He doesn't think you're stupid, but he doesn't want you to get involved in this matter.
Lelouch wants you to stay safe and happy.
However, you are not stupid so he would have a hard time keeping you in the dark about these things.
You are really giving him gray hairs.
You would be one of his motivations to create a better society.
After a hard day, it would be wonderful to just spend time with you.
Could you please make a Lelouch x reader where reader is foreign royalty and was betrothed to Lelouch as a child but soon forgot about him after his fake death and found someone else? Remember to drink water and rest. Thank you!
Yandere Lelouch Vi Britannia
Arranged Marriages were common among royalty.
Lelouch was no exception in this regard.
However, you two got along really well with each other.
You liked each other and were close.
Lelouch would really need someone to trust after all.
It would be many years before you saw each other again.
But when you did it would be something special.
Lelouch tried to befriend you when you meeted again.
You will also become friends again.
Lelouch could feel your connection returning.
Everything would be fine… at least until you tell him you're engaged again.
He certainly wouldn't be happy.
However, he doesn't blame you for it.
Lelouch would try to hide his disappointment for you.
It wouldn't last long though.
Lelouch would need a plan.
He would do his best to break your and your partner's engagement.
Either through manipulation or through Geass.
The most important thing would be that you don't get to know the truth.
After this, Lelouch would be there to comfort you.
Hiii I was wondering if you could do lelouch x sick s/o I haven't seen many x readers with these headcanons so I thought of this idea! I love reading your blog btw!
Aaaw thank you~ I hope you enjoy this
Lelouch Vi Britannia
That day you didn't come to school and Lelouch was worried.
He wasn't sure if anything really serious had happened to you.
Lelouch was afraid that someone would have found out his identity and would have done something to you.
Leading the resistance would not be a risk-free endeavor.
The school day went really restlessly.
As soon as he could he came to check on you.
He would be really relieved if it was just that you were sick.
Lelouch would take really good care of you.
He would have taken care of Nunnaly so this would not be a stranger.
Lelouch would be a surprisingly good cook.
The most important thing would be for you to be okay.
Lelouch would come after school to take care of you whenever he could.
He would also bring you homework at the same time.
Too bad Lelouch wouldn't be able to give you affection when you're sick.
However, he would be there with you.
When you are better Lelouch would give you the love you deserve <3
