#convo;nathan

[chemicvlx]

open: m/f/nb connection: nathan likes someone and he’s coming to your muse for advice/help

“you don’t understand. it’s like my chest is gonna cave in when i’m around them and i feel hazy.” he started, his forehead showing visible signs of sweat as his whole body began to get warm at just the mere thought of the other. he didn’t even know how he had managed to get their phone number. “she’s really popular and i’m just a nervous dude who barely knows how to walk, let alone talk to a girl. i barely know how to even kiss a girl. you’ve gotta help me get some game.”

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nathan found himself staring and studying every inch and pore of the other’s face, enamored by their natural beauty as the two of them ate and drank tea. his calloused fingers adjusted his glasses, careful not to let the steam fog them up. “has anyone told you how nice you look when you’re thinking? you look really peaceful.”

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farmboy feelings || nathan & ??

[ open to anyone aka pls love this fluffy boy ]

the first moment always has the loudest silence. the kind that leaves you thinking to yourself about what was happening. no words are spoken but the intensity of feelings in that moment spoke enough. nathan grew up on a farm and saw the same things over and over but never questioned anything. he supposed that this was how life was meant to be, how it played out. the best thing to happen to him was leaving his small hometown to seek after a career bigger than anything he had experienced. however, the eerie, distant feeling he had when he saw the ghost of his room that seemed to only have the bare essentials was the first step into his new experience.

computer engineering was as difficult as he had initially believed and he can recall the countless nights he spends grinding his nose in a book to understand his course work. that’s when he felt that same odd feeling in his gut. the feeling of routine and ordinary life. he figured that this emotion came in cycles like everything did but often questioned if he was truly living his life to the fullest. it was a typical morning for him: coffee, a jog, and a trip to the bakery but today was different.

anyone who has fallen in love can remember the exact moment when it happened and he knew that this was that moment. everything seemed to be moving slower as if his brain was trying to capture every detail of this memory like it knew that this was something that needed to be remembered. he had never seen someone like them. he had recognized them because he had seen them around but knew nothing about them. the delivery boy knew that there was something about them but he couldn’t place what it was. he was far too focused on the tightness of his stomach and sudden awareness of his own heartbeat.

that day ended in nothing. he didn’t speak to them or do anything but part of him hoped that they would return to him and let him know their world. weeks went by and no sign of them but nathan still had every inch of them engraved in his mind. however, life still called and another shift delivering pizza came his way. it was his last delivery of the night before he had to return home to another evening with his nose crammed in a book. as he waited for the door to open, he took the time to take in his environment before he heard the door fly open and the moment from weeks ago resurfaced as he saw them right in front of him. was this a dream? “y-yes, you ordered some pizza?”

[chemicvlx]

[ open to m/f/nb ]

“So how does this Valentine thing work? Am I supposed to do something or take you out? I’m confused.”

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snapchat to; 👀 ayy

NATHAN: just another day after the gym NATHAN: aka the rice fields of home NATHAN: do girls like these kinda pictures? NATHAN: my mom think i’m never gonna get married NATHAN: i will one day, right?

[chemicvlx]

[ open starter based on train to busan ]

“my parents are probably dead, aren’t they?” he mumbled, genuinely scared at the moment. this news scared him to think that the very people he was on the train to visit might be gone. they would be proud to see how brave he had been this whole time: saving the kids and guarding them all in one area of the train while pushing and destroying whatever those things were to help a few other survivors. but now, he was unsure if there was a point anymore. “i don’t even know if my sister is still alive. where are we supposed to go? they said the last place was safe but it wasn’t, how do we know this next place is safe?”

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@gcldenhearts

​ for chungha

nathan constantly looked over at the sleeping figure of his girlfriend the whole time. his fingers twitched on the wheel as he stared at her for a split second before paying attention to the road ahead of him. they were heading to his parents house. nathan had spent a few hours on the phone with his mother to let her know that they were coming and that he was bringing someone special. of course, she knew who he was talking about instantly but nathan still felt incredibly nervous.

the familiar farm was within sight now and his hand reached over to shake her hip to wake her up. “babe, we’re here.” he mumbled, slipping on his sunglasses and mentally prepared for the warm welcome of his mother. it wasn’t even two seconds after he had parked the car that he saw his mother emerge from his house with a huge grin on her face. being the mama’s boy he was, the boy quickly got out from the car to run and give her a large hug, picking her up and swinging her around and let her comment on his weight loss like she always did before looking over at his special guest.

“mom, this is my girl, chungha. we’ve been dating for awhile now. she’s the girl i’ve been telling you about.” he told her, smiling fondly at chungha like a hopeless boy in love. although he hadn’t told her yet, he was sure of that feeling. his mother was quick to hug the small girl, kissing her cheek and welcoming her with open arms. “you’re so pretty. you’re just as beautiful as nathan described. please come in! you can help make some dinner while nathan gets those bags.”

nathan chuckled as his mother ushered her in while he grabbed their belongings to take up to his room. that familiar feeling enveloping him in his home, hugging his sisters and catching up with his father for a few minutes. it was about an hour later before he was able to come up behind her, kissing her cheek softly to make sure she was alright. “you okay, babe? i know my mom can be...energetic.”

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happy new year #1

for the lovely @gcldenhearts!!!

nathan’s fingers drummed along the dash of his piece of shit car as he nervously went through his plan in his head. his gut was so far down, he thought it might fall out of him from sheer nervousness. it was new years’ eve and while he had been invited to many parties, all he had on his mind was one person. as he finally forced himself out of his vehicle, he began to feel like he was going to throw up.

however, nothing was going to stop him. with a giant bouquet of flowers in hand, the boy carefully walked up to the door of her home. he could hear the bicker of family from behind the door and the twinkling lights of a Christmas tree that was still up. it made him miss his own family, he hadn’t seen his older sisters in ages. maybe he could bring her next time he saw them. nathan found himself adjusting everything: his hair, his scarf, his coat (that he bought to look nice) and the flowers.

how he got the courage to knock was beyond him but the first thing he was greeted with was an unamused chungwoo. he seemed surprised that he was there but soon he was yelling for the one person that nathan had been itching to see. now she was even more surprised than her brother and walked out into the cold in her pajamas, closing the door behind her for privacy. her hair was in two perfectly made braids, similar to the ones he would do to her hair when she was over at his place.

why did she have to look like the most perfect thing to grace his world? her eyes reminded him of two golden pools of thick honey with the whole galaxy flecked within them. her skin seemed so soft that it took all of his strength to not caress her cheek but her small, pouty, strawberry petals were making him itch. he wanted to kiss her so badly in that moment. he must have been staring hard since she called his name for the fifth or sixth time.

“i missed you.” he blabbed like an idiot while handing her the flowers. there goes the plan. “i was going to go out with my friends but i’d rather be with you.” god, he was so nervous. the high schooler must have thought that he was lame. his car was terrible, he could barely afford to treat her to anything and he was struggling to even pay his own rent while in school and yet, he would give her his world if he could. quietly, he leaned over to place a few butterfly kisses all over her face with the most tender touch. 

“can i join you guys for the new year? it’s fucking freezing out here so i’d like to come in and meet everyone. if that’s okay. if not, i can just go home and eat peanut butter out of a jar or something and just talk to you on the phone. and now i’m blabbing like an idiot.” he mumbled, rubbing the back of his neck nervously. “happy new year though.”