#crying tiku

[bolontiku]

Wow-personal

For the first time in four years I made it through April without thinking about him.

I forgot his birthday.

I didn't think about him.

I didn't feel the need to call him and wish him a happy birthday.

And I don't feel like trash because of it.

I forgot him.

[bolontiku]

Go away mother nature

Cramps have me curled into a ball all morning. Remembers I have hot chocolate, manage to drag myself outta bed. Make said hot chocolate. Better but not great. Dad gives me soup. A little better. Brother shows up with a pepsi-awesome...still a little off. Remembers hot pickles- one bite and cramps are gone. Fuck yes.

[bolontiku]

I AM DISGUSTED...

At my brother and his girlfriend.

Okay maybe...no DISGUSTED.

WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS?!

Telling him that he needs to be a grown up and clean up after himself. And that he needs to eat. And that hes the most handsome boy shes ever seen?!

Making him apply for the job that ive told him to apply to for the last two years....celebrating when he got said job?! Pssshhhht, this chick...

And hes actually saving money to get a car.

His room is clean.

He cleans it. For her.

And hes happy.

😭😭😭😭😭

I really like this girl.