☜ + for eleven, when he left amy and rory at the end of the god complex!
he’s told amy that he’s doing it for them. that he’s doing it to keep them safe. & that’s a real reason , it’s a valid reason , it’s a BIG REASON , actually. but it’s not the whole reason ( but he’ll get to that soon ).
the prison they’ve just escaped from , the people they’ve lost , it shoves a knife deep into both those twin hearts. they’ve scarred so much since he’s been on his journey. he’s lost so much. he overheard rory & his quiet remark to amy , whenever the doctor gets pally with someone , i want to notify their next of kin. & because the doctor is the doctor , he ignored it for the time being. focused instead on how wonderful beautiful , faithful rita.
but it did in fact stick with him . he’s done that , by the way. taken someone in , notified the next of kin. didn’t go very well. back to the leaving amy & rory though . it did stick with him though. & then there was the whole breaking amy’s faith in him bit. it shoved that knife deeper , soon his hearts will be more knife than actual muscles beating harmoniously & keeping him alive. he finally called her by her name , amy williams. she’s grown up, he’s broken her faith in him , & he’s broken his faith in himself , CONGRATS , ALIEN PRISON . YOU’VE DONE YOUR WORST !
so the doctor does what the doctor does best when it comes to difficult emotions. rory pointed out a car in a magazine , so now that car’s in front of their new house. he’s not really lying when he tells amy that he refuses to lose her ( because really , he refuses to lose them on any terms other than his own ). so he says goodbye . says goodbye on his terms. he won’t lose them , he’s going to keep them safe , because here’s the real reason he’s leaving them behind :
he’s about to die . & the doctor , dear old time lord with a long life behind him & many friends loved & lost , with all the fun he had , he would rather leave them with all they could have wanted than to lose them. he puts people in danger , he knows it , rory knew it , & he’d rather face his own death without them if it means that he keeps them safe. & so the doctor leaves them behind , happy with a new life. he’s alone in his TARDIS , & he’s off to say goodbye to the ones that need it now.
there’s too much in his head at times like these. // @cryingroman.