thinking about sex kind of disgusts and terrifies me bc my stepdad used to leave cameras in the bathroom to see me showering and in my bedroom to see me changing and he’d sometimes climb into my bed when he was drunk and try to touch me and id manage to stop him so i feel invalid since i was never raped but ? i feel like im hs even so? and im so ashamed of it? but i cant really control how im gonna respond to sex either one min im fine and the next im uncomfortable and freaking out i hate myself
thats fucking awful and its definitely a valid cause for hypersexuality he was preying on you and being sexual with you. shame is really hard to deal with and im sorry, i just want you to know that it’s not your fault, that your disorder isn’t your fault.