𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐒𝐨 𝐌𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞🌟
Enhypen debuted on November 30th 2020 and I found them on a random day in September 2021. Or rather, they found me. Because if I didn't decide to search their name on YouTube after that one recommendation from a random comment I got on an anime Wattpad fanfiction I was reading back in 2021, I never would've clicked on the Tamed-Dashed Music Video.
I never would've found Yang Jungwon & Kim Sunoo so pretty and wanting to learn their names. I never would've fallen absolutely in love with the song and never would've looked up the rest of their discography so far and been completely enraptured by them.
Enhypen would never have become exactly the distraction I needed to take my mind off the shitfest that was my life at the time, to make me laugh and smile and remember what being happy felt like by simply watching them have fun together, grow together. If they hadn't found me...
I wouldn't have discovered Tomorrow by Together that debuted on March 4th 2019. I'm not sure exactly when it happened but I started listening to their music too and it reopened a door I'd long closed, to a room where a little girl sat alone and forgotten. Their music let her out, showed me that she was still there, that she needed me.
They showed me that even if I had to grow up, I shouldn't leave her behind. She could come with me, I could make her happy again, I could play with her and love her. I shouldn't leave her behind like everyone else had or toss her aside like everyone else did. Their songs pushed me through another tough time. TxT became my friends, their music the time we shared together.
They brought life back to the little girl inside me and showed me it was okay to grow up as long as I remembered she was there and never let her dreams die. If not for them...
Stray Kids that debuted on March 20th 2018 never would've found me on a random day in November 2022. To this day I'm convinced. They found me. The catchy chorus of Case 143, the blinding colors of the Music Video and the fun, new & unique take on a love song wouldn't have hooked me and made me search their names.
I was going through yet another hard time, walking down a path that...admittedly, might've been the road to my early destruction. But I learnt their names, I listened to their songs and in the process I was able to realize just how much I'd been failing. Not failing my family, not failing my "friends," not failing my communities like I'd managed to make myself believe, no. I was failing myself. I wasn't being fair to me, I wasn't loving me, I wasn't being me. Stray Kids found me and helped me find myself.
Helped me see myself for the very first time and see who I wanted to become more clearer than ever before. They made me see that the life I was living was mine and mine alone. That I could do whatever I wanted to do and shouldn't feel bad about it! They helped me love that I'm weird, I'm funny, I'm goofy and unique. They helped me understand that even if my skills were average now at best and I wasn't the shiny trophy everyone liked to show off when I was a child it was still okay.
I was still okay. None of that mattered if I wasn't happy anymore. If I was happy no longer being the best then I didn't need to hurt myself to be the best for anyone else. They helped me see my worth, helped me learn so many things, reignited the flames of passion inside me and made me love life again! Made me want to live again! And not just live for livings sake but to live the life I wanted for myself!
Because that's all that really mattered. Nothing less than that and if I suddenly decided I wanted more, as long as I'm willing to put in the work, I can have as much more as I want. I'm not undeserving of it, I'm not selfish for it. Not in the slightest bit.
Stray Kids saved me. Just as TxT saved the little girl inside me and Enhypen saved pre-teen me.
Tomorrow is Stray Kids' 6th Anniversary but November will mark my 2 years of being a STAY. TxTs' 5th Anniversary was earlier this month but 2024 marks my 3 years of being a MOA. ENHYPENs' 4th Anniversary will be later this year but September will mark my 3 years of being an ENGENE and soon I'll also be celebrating one year with BOYNEXTDOOR.
𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝟑 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝟑 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 ❤️🩹