#tiredness

[wanderingmind867]

I'm beginning to get tired. It's only 8 pm, and I'm beginning to get tired. Is it because of my bath? Is it because I took an extra anxiety pill last night? I don't know. All I know is that I feel tired. And I don't have much to say about that, but it's annoying.

Is it also because I yelled at my dad earlier? I don't know. I feel like I'm writing too much. But I wanted to finish my note.

[wanderingmind867]

I've been awake since 5:30. In that time, I've watched some stuff online and listened to music and I've been sleepy.

I've been laying down upstairs for a while. I'll head back downstairs in a bit, but I keep feeling sleepy. And it's supposed to storm today. That's not helping my mood.

[wanderingmind867]

Our neighbours are banging again. They're banging outside and inside. They're so fucking noisy. I hate them.

I'm still a bit hot. My dad's beginning to fall asleep, and I feel kind of sleepy myself. Being sweaty has made me irritable, I think. I feel horrible.

[wanderingmind867]

I woke up at 5:30 am today. The storm I kept seeing predicted by the weather channel over the past few days finally looks like it's coming to be. It's exceptionally grey outside. It's really dark and dreary, to the point where everything looks very dark and unsaturated. I can hear wind whipping outside. It just sounds awful.

I've got a chiropractor appointment today, and yet there's a part of me that really doesn't want to go outside today. I know our chiropractor lives around 3 minutes away from us, so I could probably tough it out and walk to her place. But do I really want to? If a thunderstorm does kick up later and I'd have to walk through it just for a chiropractor appointment…well, I think I'd rather just not have the appointment. Even if a thunderstorm or rain storm doesn't kick up, I've gotten the impression it's really humid outside. And I don't want to venture out into the humidity.

I may still go for the chiropractor appointment. I'm not sure yet. But I'm certainly unhappy to deal with the heat and humidity outside. I don't want to walk even a moment in the thirty degree weather outside today.

You know what's funny? I'm actually feeling cold within the house. I've got a blanket draped around my legs and my chest. I'm also beginning to feel really exhausted, and so I also feel sleepy. I'm sleepy and cold. But if I went outside, I know I'd feel stifling with the heat and the humidity. So it's horrible.

I still don't know if I'm gonna go with my dad on that brain cancer walk this weekend. But I think I'll probably do it. As long as it's not too hot or rainy or humid. Speaking of, my dad goes back to work tomorrow. He takes the day off for the walk on saturday, then he resumes working on sunday and monday. I'm not looking super forward to spending time all on my own. But I'm sure I'll be fine. I'll take an extra anxiety pill to manage it and everything. And as long as it doesn't storm, I should be fine. So I think I can end this note here.

PS: I'm feeling an urge to masturbate, too. So that's frustrating, but I'll try to handle it. I'll try, anyways.

[wanderingmind867]

I woke up at 5:30 am today. The storm I kept seeing predicted by the weather channel over the past few days finally looks like it's coming to be. It's exceptionally grey outside. It's really dark and dreary, to the point where everything looks very dark and unsaturated. I can hear wind whipping outside. It just sounds awful.

I've got a chiropractor appointment today, and yet there's a part of me that really doesn't want to go outside today. I know our chiropractor lives around 3 minutes away from us, so I could probably tough it out and walk to her place. But do I really want to? If a thunderstorm does kick up later and I'd have to walk through it just for a chiropractor appointment…well, I think I'd rather just not have the appointment. Even if a thunderstorm or rain storm doesn't kick up, I've gotten the impression it's really humid outside. And I don't want to venture out into the humidity.

I may still go for the chiropractor appointment. I'm not sure yet. But I'm certainly unhappy to deal with the heat and humidity outside. I don't want to walk even a moment in the thirty degree weather outside today.

You know what's funny? I'm actually feeling cold within the house. I've got a blanket draped around my legs and my chest. I'm also beginning to feel really exhausted, and so I also feel sleepy. I'm sleepy and cold. But if I went outside, I know I'd feel stifling with the heat and the humidity. So it's horrible.

I still don't know if I'm gonna go with my dad on that brain cancer walk this weekend. But I think I'll probably do it. As long as it's not too hot or rainy or humid. Speaking of, my dad goes back to work tomorrow. He takes the day off for the walk on saturday, then he resumes working on sunday and monday. I'm not looking super forward to spending time all on my own. But I'm sure I'll be fine. I'll take an extra anxiety pill to manage it and everything. And as long as it doesn't storm, I should be fine. So I think I can end this note here.

PS: I'm feeling an urge to masturbate, too. So that's frustrating, but I'll try to handle it. I'll try, anyways.

[justreitz]

THERE IS A CERTAIN KIND OF TIRED THAT SLEEP DOES NOT FIX. INTERESTING.

[micaruhi]

I struggle so much to not hate my mom rn. It's so weird that's I can't hate her knowing that's her behavior is an domino's effect result ... (I still dislike her)

Anyway Happy mother's day to y'all :D

[wanderingmind867]

I'm getting heartburn again. My dad should be home from his tattoo appointment soon though, which is good. I'm beginning to get tired and lonely, so having him home would be nice.

I don't know why I'm beginning to feel sad and existential again. I'll probably be fine. But I've got that callus or wart on my left ring finger. I've got a headache and some moods. Maybe therapy on sunday will make me feel better.