#tiredness

[wanderingmind867]

I can't really focus to play pokemon right now. Feel vaguely bad about that, but I'm also tired. So I'm gonna lay down for the next 30 minutes. I chose to read a kingdom hearts fanfic I accidentally got redirected to (product of following tags on here for some old hyperfixations) and now I'm bored enough to read almost all of it. Like that harry potter fanfiction a while back, except with less of a moral dilemma. Just like that one though, I'm reading fanfiction for something I'm not even hyperfixated on. It's weird, but I'm making due.

In any case, I'll probably shower soon. But I think I'll stay laying down for 10 more minutes. My stomach does feel weird, but I'll be fine. And even if I have no kingdom hearts hyperfixation, I'm just glad I'm reading. This is proof I can still read tolerably, even if I haven't read a physical book since June 2025.

[wanderingmind867]

My dad just got home from work. We leave for therapy in around an hour and a half, so we don't exactly have time to do much. But I think therapy will still go well. I woke up at 3:30 am or 3:50 am, so I am tired. So I should be fine today.

What's more bothersome is that it's apparently supposed to rain all day today. It's supposed to rain today and continue raining tomorrow. The sky seems cloudy, I think. And it's all just making me feel depressed. So that's not great.

On another note, I still worry I could be constipated again. I might not be, but I am worried I could be. I feel some mild cramps in my stomach today, and that's really frustrating. Really freaking frustrating.

Finally, I'm not sure if I'm going to have a bath tonight or tomorrow. I'm really not sure. All I know for sure is that I'm tired, and it's getting on my nerves how tired I feel. It's annoying. sigh...

[wanderingmind867]

I woke up at 3:50 am (maybe 3:30). My dad gets home from work in about 30 minutes. We leave for therapy in an hour or two. I'm tired and I feel like that'll have an effect on me all the way on the lead up to our appointment later. It probably won't effect the appointment itself, but everything leading up to it.

I'm feeling constipated again, you know? My constipation is beginning to annoy me and frustrate me, but yeah. It's getting on my nerves. I keep feeling mild cramps again, and that isn't helping me to feel good. If anything, it's just making me feel worse than I think I should feel.

The weather is predicting rain, you know? They're saying it's gonna rain today and tomorrow. And that's kind of getting on my nerves. It's making me feel depressed. I hate rainy weather. I really freaking hate it. So yeah, that's getting to me too.

My dad gets home in like 10 minutes now, and I'm just exhausted. Really exhausted. I feel tired and stuff. My stomach feels constipated. I feel like I've got a slight headache.

I feel like there's more I could be writing. But I guess I'll have a chance to write another post before we leave. So it's fine. sigh...

[brainwavesechoes]

E non è vero che ci si abitua, si è sempre più stanchi, semplicemente.

Charles bukowski

[wanderingmind867]

I'm laying down on my side in a recliner downstairs. I feel tired. I woke up at 5:40. It feels like my stomach hurts, like it's tied into knots. I feel like I could go and masturbate now. I feel like I'm being loose with my words because I'm tired.

I've got a chiropractor appointment around noon. It looks like it's going to rain today. I keep wanting to play the Pokemon anime with my dad, but it's hard to let down my guard and unmask. sigh...

[wanderingmind867]

It's 7 am. I've got a chiropractor appointment at 11 am. I'm also feeling weird still. My skin feels all itchy, especially on my hands and stuff. I'm just really tired.

I feel like I could go down for a nap. I'm gonna lay down for a while, I think. It looks like it's gonna rain. My stomach is beginning to get cramped and constipated. sigh...

I still want to play the Pokemon anime with my dad, but I'm not sure if I've got the energy. Especially since sharing it basically means unmasking and sharing the interests I don't usually share with my dad.

[wanderingmind867]

I woke up like 30 minutes ago, give or take a few. I'm feeling better than I did last night, but I'm still itchy and have some dead skin. Beyond that, I've also got some other issues too.

I'm gonna try to watch pokemon with my dad today, I think. I wanna try and share it with my dad again. But working up the nerve to do that and not mask...that's the hardest bit for me.

[wanderingmind867]

I slept in a bit today. I woke up at 7 am or so, and I think I usually wake up at 6. So that's left me feeling kind of weird. I just feel tired. It's frustrating.

It's supposed to storm this afternoon. Rain and thunder and all that stuff. Maybe it's the change in the weather that's making my head hurt. Maybe (and I hate to go on about this) it was me masturbating in our brightly lit bathroom. Maybe it's a ton of things. I really can't tell. All I know for certain is that my head hurts, and I feel kind of exhausted.

My head really does feel sore. Beyond that, there's still my constipation. I'm still constipated, or at least I think I am. It's hard to tell, but my stomach pains feel like they're still here. So I'm assuming I'm still constipated. But I'm just worried that nothing will come out when I go bathroom. Or stuff will come out, but it'll be mostly bloody. Because my hemorrhoids still lash out, sadly.