I’ve been on an internal dive this last winter as I’ve been butting up against my own internal doubts and having to dispel the projections of others who would prefer to knock me down for daring to try being my best self. Nobody thinks of the power of their words in a simple passing thought of disbelief. How one might cast a spell of doubt because they have never sought that power out themselves. It takes a lot of strength to shut all of that noise out 💜 At some point I started to let it seep in and my comfort level started to become mediocre. I knew it was time to push past my comfort zone of being “fine”. “Fine” is the most offensive word in the English language. I’ve been getting the “I don’t wanna’s” a lot lately. Looking back in retrospect, I’ve been operating my life this way for a while. This is the danger of becoming too aware of others. “I just want to go to sleep and I can finish packing my bag tomorrow.” Or “It has been a long day and I’d really rather not go to the gym right now.” One of my usual “it’s been a long day, I can unpack tomorrow.” … Timelines rushed, I wasn’t getting the things done that I needed to, stressing out, and general disorder has been amok. Lately I’ve been pushing back against this comfort zone and the rewards keep me coming back for more. The benefit and the potential to grow past my usual is palpable. Wash my face, brush my teeth, meal prep, do my laundry, put away my laundry, unpack my set bag, pack my set bag, go to sleep. It’s all of the little things that take my daily living immersed in chaos to peace. Don’t let others self doubt or lazy get in the way of your goals. Don’t let “fine” be the death of your dreams. . . . . . . #redheadedwoman #frecklesonfleek #daretoachieve #lovejessicaryan #jessicaryan (at Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqacpT4uwal/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
