Nov 11, 2023
I feel your breath upon my neck
A soft caress as cold as death~
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I feel your breath upon my neck
A soft caress as cold as death~
"Aren't you going to resist?" "Do you want me to?"
SELF-DESTRUCTIVE PASSION FOR BLOOD
The Morning And Evening Star
it has become time for me to play a tabley top roleplaying game once again
More of Shay, Oath of Vengeance Paladin, Dark Urges 🫀
my little gravedigger is going to defy papa at every turn
it would be REALLY funny if i started blasting firework katy perry in this very silent classroom right now
I relapsed. Again. Story of my fucking life lately. Recently I've been so consumed by this, so lost to the darkness... every other thing in my life feels hollow. This feels like the only way for me to even remotely enjoy spending my time. I'm even doing it at the same time I type this out. God, how did I become this person...
I have to change. But I'm scared that I can't. No matter how much I try, it's never enough. But I can't stop trying. I can't give up. I refuse. Even if I never succeed, I'll never quit trying to overcome this. I don't want to be this person anymore. I never wanted to be this person at all. Am I really supposed to accept that this is just how I am? But then... maybe it's true. And maybe all the advice about integrating ALL parts of yourself is true... Maybe I need to properly build my life around it, to keep it in check. Maybe I can find a way to feed it ethically. Maybe... but I think I would need to finally find my doll for that. And I fear I will never find the right person to become my doll.