why I'm glad to be back in the spn fandom is that for so long I didn't really feel much. like I didn't feel excitement or happiness. not noticeablely at least. like part of the reason why I loved 5 Giants so much when it came out is because it was the first time in years where I was genuinely excited abt something. and that was 3 years ago now.
now there's been several times in the past 3+ months where I've felt stuff bc of the fandom. there's been multiple days/nights where it's been exciting to go on tumblr, and I've been feeling engaged. also not only that, there's the fact that it's so nice to be into something and decide that I do not care if it's cringey or anything, I'm having fun