How, just wanted to come and ask if you’re okay? I hope this doesn’t cause any sort of pressure or guilt towards you but I just want to know if you’re still alive
Hi all!
First thing first, definitely still alive! Somehow. Physically at least. I promise to be quick, because I don’t wanna sound like I’m just here to complain, but I know the question a lot of you have: Where have you been?
Speaking bluntly, 2024 has been literally the worst year mental health wise for me. I’m not kidding when I say that if I weren’t living with people that I felt the need to play a part of ‘mentally stable’ for, I would’ve easily just rotted away in bed, not even eating. I’ve essentially been emotionally numb for most of it and not even had the mental capacity to open tumblr. So that’s been fun!
Onto more pressing matters though, as I’ve noticed an uptick in notes and questions: What’s happening with the blog?
It is not being deleted, and it’s not being abandoned. Over the past year I’ve come to a few realisations about myself, including coming to terms with the fact I may be less neurotypical than I believed I was. I could joke easily about my quirks, and while I don’t have an official diagnosis so I’m not going to say I for certain have any conditions, I’ve had numerous people who’re officially diagnosed tell me it’s very likely I do have them when I’ve spoken to them about my thought processes and action.
The issue is the way I was trying to keep this blog running on a hyperfixation I’d burned out on. I fell out of love with TW and the way the story was going with it, and my brain was trying to jump onto the next thing, but I felt like I had to keep answering for TW. So I crashed, and I burned. Hard. I didn’t have the energy to write.
This is very hard for me to do, because I feel awful for those who have sent asks, but I think I’m going to have to just completely empty my inbox, I feel like I need a fresh slate, and to step away from TW being my main focus. I wanted to be a variety blog, and while I do think my hyperfixations will normally be the focus, I do want to have more flexibility in my writing to avoid this kind of burnout happening again quickly with requests.
It’s super early here, so my brain isn’t at 100%, but Baldur’s Gate 3, Honkai Star Rail and Genshin are the main 3 pieces of media that immediately come to mind.
I’m not emptying the inbox quite yet, I’ll get some sleep, then scroll through it and see if there’s anything that grabs my attention now that I’m back to hammer out, but it will be being cleared out soon.
