Remember how I hosted a 5 months sober/birthday(because I’m selfish) creative challenge back in November- Get Dieter Sober? Well I’m here to do it again because GUESS WHAT on June 11th, I will have officially hit my ONE YEAR sober milestone! What better way to celebrate than to host another sober creative challenge?
During the month of June I’d like to see how Dieter Bravo and/or Frankie Morales stay sober.
Make it happy, make it angsty, make it goofy, make it sad, make it spicy, make it however you would like to make it! The important part is to have fun with it ❤️
Please be sure to tag me @bitchesuntitled and use #ddsoneyear in your post, I will be making another masterlist and want to make sure I include everyone’s submissions!
Tagging some moots to help me spread the word: @beefrobeefcal @strang3lov3 @pinkypromisepascal @noxturnalnymph @goodwithcheese @secretelephanttattoo @jolapeno @whocaresstillthelouvre @hellfire-state-of-mind @yopossum @covetyou @mothandpidgeon
I fucking did it. One whole year. I can’t believe it’s been an entire year.
I can’t even begin to express how thankful I am for the friends I’ve made here and how much they truly have helped along the way of getting to an actual year! Honestly, I was only going to try and make it to a month, give myself a nice break but then realized I felt better without booze.
I was telling @hessofather earlier it’s weird because I remember the morning of this day a year ago pretty clearly…
Tw: alcohol mentions, depression, rambling, personal thoughts and gettin’ real fuckin’ vulnerable here so please please don’t be an asshole
I was supposed to stop drinking the night before but there was still alcohol in the house, thought to myself “Well… I can’t have alcohol in the house if I’m gonna quit drinking. Better get rid of it… by drinking it” so I woke up on Tuesday very hungover, which wasn’t unusual at that point I was a hangover pro. I got ready for work, had to put my dog in the kennel and she was on the opposite side of the bed that morning. I picked her up and as I was walking with her to put her in the kennel I tripped over a pair of my husband’s boots and fell. SHE WAS OKAY! She was just a little scared. I literally held her onto until I knew she would be okay to drop to the ground and then smacked my face into the doorway and broke my glasses. I was irritated, got her in the kennel and felt like I was already ready for it to be 8:30pm so I could have a drink. I messaged a friend telling her how upset I was at myself for drinking the night before and tried to move on with my day. Went to work, had to leave work so I could get new glasses frames then went back to work.
I had rules for myself and my drinking. 8:30pm is when I could start and 10:30pm is when I needed to stop. Never before and I would be very irritated if I started after. I had to keep to a schedule but then the schedule started to get blurry. I’d still wait til 8:30 but the stopping time became “Well… I’ll open my last one at 10:30 and then be done” then it became “Well… It’s 10:40…”
“Well… it’s 10:50…”
“Well… it’s 11…”
Get the picture? Yeah. Some nights it wouldn’t be until midnight and then I’d get 5-6 hours of sleep before waking up for work, feeling like death, and make my way to work. I was constantly agitated, I was constantly depressed, I knew something needed to change.
I felt like a fucking idiot because I know the pattern. My dad’s an alcoholic. Several other members of my family have a bad relationship with alcohol. I fucking knew what would happen but still had it in the back of my head “But not me.” Yeah, okay. Sure Jan 🤦♀️😅
Anyways, if you read all the above thank you! If you want to make a change, do it. It’s hard, I’m not going to say it was easy breezy and anyone can do it. It’s okay to have more than one day 1! You have to learn different habits, you have to learn to be okay with feeling things, you need a good support system!!! I already mentioned it but I seriously can’t thank my support system enough for helping me get to a year ❤️
