#dean widower arc

[lazarrusrising]

I'm a big believer in Dean knowing himself more than he lets on but I also can't help but indulge the idea that the reason he doesn't realise he's in love with Cas for so long is because he was never allowed a best friend growing up (Sam doesn't count that was his kid/brother/responsibility/purpose) so he meets Cas and they become Best Friends and then Cas keeps leaving him and he's devastated and whenever Sam pokes into that grief he's like Cas is best friend/family/Important/faith? Of course I want to kill myself? And it's not until like season 13 when Sam is reacting wayyyyy more to Mary's loss than Cas literally dying in front of their eyes that Dean is like, huh... I wonder if everyone else feels like this about their best friend/family/Important/faith? (They do not)

[baby-boy-stiles]

Jack heard Dean saying to Sam about all he sees when he looks at Jack is those he lost, and Sam is like yeah I miss Mom too, and Dean ranting (all but foaming at the mouth) that HE LOST CAS AND HE WILL NEVER FORGET THAT and Jack immediately is like I HAVE TO FIX THIS I HAVE TO FIND CASTIEL FOR DEAN cuz he desperately wants his love and approval from Dad Dean and the best way to do that is find his husband Dad Castiel.

Cue Cas being revealed to be in The Empty.

[perlukafarinn]

Supernatural 12x01, 'Lost and Found' // The Epic of Gilgamesh, Tablet VIII, translation by N.K. Sanders

[sweetonsugden]

[soupy-natural]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural) Additional Tags: Post-Episode: s15e19 Inherit the Earth (Supernatural), Grieving Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester Grieves Castiel, Dean Winchester Loves Castiel, Fix-It, Angst with a Happy Ending, Depression, Panic Attacks, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Suicidal Thoughts, Grief/Mourning Series: Part 6 of the other side of the apocalypse Summary:

Cas is gone. Dean doesn't cope well.

[gabaghoul-fandom-meme-queen]

Season 13 Dean pisses me off. Like I can see that the trope is widow and like, "I have to parent the kid that killed my lover in childbirth" but, because they were afraid of Destiel they won't go full into the trope so now Dean comes off as just a huge ass and it's annoying that they don't go into the why why of it, that would make I make more sense!!

[lazarrusrising]

I think after Dean carefully carried Cas's body into the house and gently laid him on the table, draping a sheet over him, he walked back outside and collapsed in the cradle of Cas's burnt out wings and I think he stared up at the cold night sky and couldn't imagine the sun would ever rise again (but it did, it did, it did)

[lazarrusrising]

Sam trying to explain to someone that even if the world is about to end the priority should be saving Cas first otherwise they won't have Dean's help because he goes into a hopeless suicide spiral every time Cas is gone