#dear sam

[croissntsblog]

Trying to keep face in public transport as Frodo just watched Gollum falls into the flames of Mount Doom with the One Ring, and telling Sam that he is happy to be here with him at the end of all things 🥲

[one-song-at-a-time]

#269 || Dear Sam --- TROY

[yeong]

Goodbye dear Sam, I will always remember you! Thank you for protecting me😭

[pippinstook]

Gollum: We swears to serve the master of the precious.

Sam, sniffing: Do you smell that mister Frodo?

Frodo: What is it?

Sam: It smells like bull shit.

[percywinchester27]

Dear Sam

Pairing: Sam X Reader

Word count: 650

Warning: Angst, self harm

A/N: Phew! Been a while right? I am on training wheels again, so please bear with me and let me know how this is?

14th August 2018

Dear Sam,

I…. Geez, I think I am drunk as fuck??? But, tell you what? My grammar is still fucking impeccable, isn't it? Well, that's what I get for being a lit major now. I can imagine the look of Professor Astor's face as he would bend down over me with that shriveled face and thick horn-rimmed glasses and go, "You got mad talent Y/L/N. You know that?"    

If he could see me now, huddled over my laptop, in a two day old underwear, downing quarter after quarter of Jack. At this point, it's just sliding down my throat. I don't remember how much I've had. I don't even like whiskey. The room stinks. And not in the nice way… if you know what I mean. But let me assure you, Y/N hasn't had any action in months now. Now… NOw… don't let that make you pity me. Oops… I just realized that I slipped up there. The 'Now' in the earlier sentence has the 'O' in caps. Professor Astor wouldn't be proud after all. But I'm not gonna go back and change that. Because I am a fucking adult. I need to own up to my mistakes because I can't go back in the past and correct them all.

Some of them, I want to. But, it's not possible.

How many years has it been now? 6 or 7? Since that night? And I pushed you away. You were right there, warm and welcoming. And, I? I was desperate. I have never wanted to have sex in my life so bad. But that night, I just wanted it. The need of it, the desperation was acute to the point of pain. And I remember we were in the middle of making out and you pulled my shirt over my head and then looked at me like I was the most important thing in the world. The most beautiful…

But… Sam… I am not…

If you could just see me now… It's horrible. Everything just stinks so bad. This place, it's disgusting. I think I'm making it more disgusting.

I got distracted… my point is, I saw the look in your eyes, and I knew that I could never be worthy of that look, from anyone, let alone you. And I said, 'No.'

It still rings in my ears. My own voice, then yours, as you said, 'Okay.' Then the sound of the door closing in your wake. I also remember the little things from that night, the rustling of your shirt when you picked it off the floor, the way you cleared your throat, and the hesitant footsteps as you walked away.

I cried all the way through that night. There were nail marks on my hands, my face, my thighs, from wanting the pain to stop… just stop.

I lied the next day, when you knocked the door, asking if I was okay. I said I didn't want to see you. Truth was, I didn't want you to see me.

You never mentioned that night again, and I… well, I told myself you were over it, so I could be over it.

I lied again. To myself this time.

I was never over it. Never over you.

I don't even know where I am going with this… Guess, I'm lonely, and piss drunk. I mentioned earlier that I'm drunk, right? And about the impeccable Grammar? Mr. Astor would have hated that I used the same adjective twice.

Maybe I'll pass out before I hit the send. Maybe I won't and keep drinking till dawn. Again.

I just… is it too late to say that I miss you… that I… You know what? Never mind. You don't need that shit on your mind.

-Y/N

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A/N 2: So what do you think? Could this have a part 2?

Sam Sweethearts:

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[midori-kim]

“We’re in love. We just want to be together. What’s wrong with that?” Moonrise Kingdom (2012)
dir. Wes Anderson

[failedtosendtryagain]

"I did it again. Sorry I guess?"

- to a lot of people

[jadelathetranny]

Dear Sam,

Hello again. So I have to be honest. I think the catalyst for creating a blog to was to better articulate some of the issues I've been having with my relationship. First, some background, I have been in a relationship going on 5 months now and I suck :P Seriously I've been having a hard time navigating my emotions and how best to express myself in this relationship. This is my first relationship and it is becoming very apparent that I do not have any idea what I'm doing. This makes sense since this is a first-time thing for me I just tend to think I should know everything, which proves to be its own challenge. But I digress. I feel as though I am actively hurting our relationship. See, I love Sam. Very much. I feel that my absence of a romantic partner or even success in my platonic friendships hurt him and I hate that. I hate that it reflects in our relationship. I understand that I should give myself more grace with such a new experience but I often find myself wishing that it wasn't such a costly toll on each of us.

I shared with him the other night a scary thought, but a thought that remains true. "I don't think I was ready for a relationship when we first met." I'd say most people have their first relationship at much younger ages than me a 22-year-old. (yes, this is stupid) I just wish I had a few other relationships under my belt to make mistakes with rather than risk losing the love of my life. I wish I was just better prepared for him. I hate subscribing him to someone insecure and naive in love. I let my past relationships and trauma infect our relationship like mold on last week's leftovers but refuse to toss it out. -The dilemma: I hurt someone I claim to care about but I cannot even begin to think of a world without him. Is this selfish? Or am I putting complete faith in my man?

Dear Sam, I don't want you to read these excerpts. Even though they are technically addressed to you I think this is a fun way to open up talking points with myself. As if I am simply writing a silly little letter directly to the love of my life. I will say I should also prioritize speaking to you In person as it is becoming painfully clear that I have communication problems I need to work through with you to grow. I would like to use these as "screeners" if you will. A filter of thought and processing that needs to happen before I talk to you in person. I don't want this to be a buffer between us, I just feel like I need to practice talking about my feelings. Hypocritical as this sounds: to work on talking with you I gotta type it out on a blog :) I'm new to this and I'm trying my best so bear with me world. We are gonna get better.