#deardiarrhea

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Thyroid scan this morning. I had to leave my house at 6am 💀 the technician said she didn't notice anything that wasn't on my last scan so idk I guess maybe that could be a good thing.

The Dr will confirm if the nodule has grown or not. But damn it was painful when she was digging around and the last time they did it, it wasn't painful at all.

Making friends with someone new but someone old. Reminds me I am kind and I'm a mirror of all the (imperfectly) good things, and good people, and good moments Ive ever had.

Why?

Because I make that choice. And I refuse to not believe in love and sunlight.

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Also I've decided that orange is my color 🏵️

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I have a four day weekend so I want to be productive, but my period is two days late. Im pretty immobile during the first 2 days of my period.

My macros have been great (deficit, low carb, and IF) so I'm wondering if that's affecting my hormones. Plus the stress of my personal life.

That being said, I got a long term position at a school I really love. It's a bit far but it helps me hit my 5 miles a day minimum.

I love the principals and staff there. I love the kids. And there's a small potential I might be able to stay on after the position ends (January 21) either with that class or just as a school floater.

I hope they consider giving me a full on teaching spot for next year.

My big goals are still:

👩🏻‍🏫📚staying afloat with my masters degree and not flunk out of any courses. Get my degree.

🏋🏻‍♀️Continue to work on my fitness, athleticism, and fat composition. Take care of my overall health.

🧠Work on my mental health struggles. Find an in network provider who's rated highly. (This has been so hard, almost all therapists in network have less than a 2 star rating.)

🏡🐶Move out of my brother's home into my own place.

I want it to have two bedrooms two bathrooms minimum. (I haven't had a bathroom to call "mine" in over ten years, and that didn't last long either.) And one for guests.

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Workout of the day Done ✅

And this is how I found out I wore my shirt backwards all damn day, in public. 😶‍🌫️

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Had an amazing gym session.

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Gym: Done ✅ and I felt strong today.

But, tell me why I was trying to take a cute selfie and then (pic3) started freaking out over the size of my head.

🗣️ Bro... I got that Jimmy neutron noggin. Jeeeez.

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First day of work tomorrow! So nervous. But it's only a half day 8am-11:30 am (same rate as a full day which is nice.)

My relationship is at the point where it's either going to cease or become the most resilient thing ever. And it's really taken a toll on me these past couple months.

I know love isn't all sunshine and rainbows but this sucks. I feel even embarrassed to open up about it but I literally don't have anywhere else to vent..not that it feels good to talk about this in real life anyhow.

I hope everyone's week is lovely so far. Hang in there.

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Dad took me to the gym and back. I'm home now, resting asap with hella electrolytes in my system. I'm trying to minimize any flare ups.