hi this is a rant post aka me rambling about personal issues (i’ll delete it later, just need to get my thoughts out ;_;) so here is a big fat TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!! mental health & talks about depression. please do not read if you may be triggered or are uncomfortable w the content. my feelings wont be hurt lol i want you to do what’s best for you <3
ok so my birthday is in like a week (the 11th) and its something i’ve always struggled with ://// i love celebrating other’s birthdays like my friends or fam but something about mine has always made me feel so terrible lmfao so with it being just a week away, im already having such bad anxiety. i think its because ive always struggled w depression and living in general???? like there were times that i didnt think i’d make it to a certain age, like 16 or 20, so i know that hitting 22 should be something to be proud of!!! but my stomach still sinks at the thought of it lol. (ITS ALSO A DESIGNATED TAYLOR BIRTHDAY? turning 22 and listening to 22 taylors version? i should be GRATEFUL) i just hate having a day designated to me, especially when ive struggled so much to get there :/ stupid little rambles that i just needed to write out and validate. if anyone actually read this and has a similar experience or advice w something like this, my inbox and messages are always open <3