I’m never fully satisfied with my physical gender expression and I never know what to do about it.
I have days where I’m fine presenting AFAB and being perceived as AFAB. I have days where I wish I had a deeper voice. I have days where I wish I had a flatter chest. I have days where I wish I looked more like a boy, but a very feminine/androgynous boy if that even makes any sense.
I think that’s just a fact of being demifaer that I have to try harder to accept and cope with. My feelings fluctuate, my dysphoria fluctuates. I’m not sure if I will ever have one true “body” I can be 100% comfortable in all the time because my feelings aren’t concrete... as is the struggle of being underneath the genderfluid umbrella.
If anyone has any advice or opinions on what I’ve said here, I’d really appreciate it if you could share with me. I’m tagging this post with transmasc tags (even though I’m not transmasc myself) in hopes that the transmasc community can provide some insight as well.
Come to think of it, I’m honestly shocked I haven’t discussed this topic on my blog yet, since it’s really nothing new.