After some due thought, I’ve decided to restructure this so-called “online journal”. I’ve deleted everything that I posted before, mostly those posts about life being unfair to me yet being great to everybody else.
I’ve been a dick, I know it.
Borderline Black Pill believer.
I did some soul searching for quite some time, explored new hobbies (maybe even some vices), met some people (and a girlfriend) who are not entirely against with hanging out with me (thanks, by the way), and basically getting out of being a part of the cycle of hate that I voluntarily set myself in.
As it turns out, it wasn’t life that was holding me back.
I was holding myself back.
My negative personal views stopped me from developing myself further. it stopped me from improving. Before, I firmly believed that I was NOTHING compared to the others who were well-endowed and popular; that I was complete TRASH and that I should just up and die.
Somehow, doing what I did, I saw my true worth. I didn’t have to compare myself to others, looking for anything that I could have had as an asset when being myself is already special in its own way.
In short, I’ve seen where I went wrong and I’ve decided to change for the better.