#depressing myself

[whisperingloud-blog]

King of my Own Demise

I await the day, I know it comes...

You're much too perfect

And I'm just another one

Nothing special

Nothing unique

Just another failure

That comes from the street

I try to do better

I try to be enough

But the truth of it is

I'm falling apart

I keep picking up broken pieces

That you once believed was art

Now I'm good for nothing

Simply trash to be burned

My final purpose

To give you a few more moments of warmth

[rabidlemur]

Honestly I'm not sure how I got through school with ANY friends. Everything I did- Too childish. Too loud. Always missing the point, always making the wrong joke. Did I have "trouble following social cues"? That's a bit... subjective, no? I may not have known the right thing, but by God I knew when I'd got it wrong. Which was often.

And naive af. I thought those friggin sleepover games were effing SATANIC, thanks Ma.

Would they have been glad to be rid of me? Wish there was some objective observer who could just tell me how bad I effed it all up.

Was I hated?

...Did I deserve it?

Somebody didn't invite me, specifically, to their birthday because I wasn't "cool". LOL

I shoulda told her - you're not COOL, you've NEVER been cool! But I always invited you cause you're my friend, you unmitigated ass

People, man.

[poetry-in-motion-tra-la-la-la]

Just depressing myself

York City, while down to ten men, scored twice against Carlisle United last weekend. We scored one in one two hours.

Bordeaux let in six goals in their game last night, we scored one past them last week.

Anyone remember what it was like to score more than one goal a game? I don’t.

[petitetorte]

Also..Natasha and Elise needing to hug for like 5mins after the "im done" scene cause things got real and they knew their filming time was gonna be over soon..

[incrediblemeatza]

So I've been dealing with a lot lately and everything that's happened over the past few months has sort of hit me all at once. I'm just really feeling down and my parents still haven't seen about me seeing my therapist again. I don't know what to do about it. I've just been kind of repressing everything lately and people are finally starting to notice something is wrong.

[louteasdale-offish]

Lou para pt. 2 (violence)

After I pack I hop in the shower. I feel the worst I’ve felt in a long time, but it doesn’t matter. Nothing matters anymore. Soon ill be far away from here where I can’t cause any more trouble. Tom said something about leaving the country because niall and harry threatened to call the police on him. I sigh thinking of them hoping that they’ve given up. If they give up looking for me everyone will be safe. Except me but that doesn’t matter. I dont care. I wash my hair and my injuries,they still are very painful. I forgot to take my medicine today. When I get out of the shower, Tom is standing in the doorway smirking at me. I clutch the towel tight to my body. “What do you want?” I ask quietly. “Drop the towel.” He says flatly. He’s seen me naked 1000 times but this time is different. I don’t want to, god knows I don’t want to, but I do to protect everyone that Tom has threatened to hurt if I don’t obey him. I let the towel drop around my ankles and Tom comes closer to me. His hand trails against my bruises and he smiles. A tear rolls down my cheek. “Look at you.. All battered up. You know this wouldn’t have happened if you didn’t fight back like a crazy bitch.” His hand finds the stitches in my side and I jump back. “Oh does that hurt?” He mocks and I look up to keep myself from crying. “Please stop.” I say covering my chest with my arms. “Never.” He sneers and guides me to the bed. I fall back like a ragdoll. As he undresses himself i lie there limp and lifeless. He leans over me and smirks. “Just pretend im niall.” He says and I want to punch him but I don’t. teare run down my cheeks and I close my eyes. Nothing matters. Nothing matters…

[synthdykes]

It's that one thing when you're friends go somewhere and they tell you "we made so many new friends it was great" and then you just kinda feel empty inside like those new friends will replace you and then you'll just be alone

[skinnyydarling]

i just want to own every cute shoe ever made ever in my size is that too much to ask for?????