#depression etc

[cas-backwards-tie]

idk if this is just my… lmao, pitiful desperate plea self-indulgent ass not being able to write this for myself write now, so putting it out there into the ether in hopes that maybe someone… somewhere would be motivated and willing enough to write this please? But…

I could really use a fic (or headcanons/preferences) of, I’d love if it could be Johnny. Idk why but I’ve fallen for him recently. But if it floats your boat for someone else, by all means ❤️ but

As guilty as I feel about it, and would be embarrassed and probably deadass su*c*dal or even thinking of breaking up w said person on the spot for showing up w conditions the way they are rn…

I could really use something about Johnny (your guy of preference) coming over bc while you’ve been managing to respond and communicate w your boyfriend, it’s clear you haven’t been doing well, and things aren’t good. Maybe they’d make sure you have food and have been eating, and take a shower/bath (I mean, bonus points if they join you), and clean up, and just… try to help work things out because they know you’ve been overwhelmed. And while the two of you don’t live together and you know you have no excuse to get like this/for things in your house to get like this, while they literally go to war… they still see you and validate you and are there for you 🥺

[yeskrisyesdreemurr]

you too huh

x

[jacklefay]

Truly feel like my heart and brain have been going a million miles an hour for the last six hours and I'm so tired and can't get them to fucking shut up

[earthseaborealis]

my shit brain: youre not a likable person and nobody enjoys being around you :]

me: i have school tomorrow can we not do this tonight

shit brain: theres nothing you can do to change your personality :3 other people see you as cold and frankly kind of creepy but nobody would say that to your face because nobody cares enough ;)

[sunspill]

For the ask prompt: wish you’d write another 100 fic. I never even finished the silly show but i think about the wit and humor and brilliance of your fics all the time. Especially the dynamic between Lexa, Clarke and Anya.

Its been so long since I even saw a gif of clexa haha. I still have one story in the drive, 40k in prog arranged marriage Canon au, but since I couldn't finish the sga au I dont think I should post it unless I finish it all first. And I have 2 other big wips I wanna finish first.

[2colde]

i sort of feel like i’m spending 90% of my energy masking lately i can’t even think or be present and what’s worse is it’s not even working it’s constantly slipping so bad that the other 10% of my energy is spent feeling immense guilt about the interpersonal mistakes im making it didn’t used to be this hard

[furrama]

Someone on DeviantArt made an unsolicited art request, and I'm just looking at it like. Dude. I have been trying to get me to make stuff that I want to make and have been unsuccessful, what makes you think...

[titusandrogynousxvx]

this is 2 honest for facebook but I just did that “how hard did aging hit you” post, and in the picture from 2009 I was 19 years old and a few months away from the second and more severe of my agoraphobic episodes, and there aren’t really words for how grateful I am to have recovered as much as I have. I don’t acknowledge that enough.