#depression shit

[catnipkdodo]

Steven Universe Future: I’m in this picture and I don’t like it

[leafwateraddict]

Small vent comic

[aquareegia]

haven't really been keeping up with the tour tbh. not because i lost interest in the eepy bois or anything it's just that i'm really down rn. i saw a smiling vessel jumping around like a maniac and i didn't even smile at my screen like i usually do. nothing really cheers me up that much atm and idk why.

obviously nobody keeps up with my online activity so i probably seem as always but i'm actually not doing so good rn. so if i don't really talk to anyone, i'm sorry, i just can't really rn. i don't know what to say bc i just feel empty tbh.

[emilywaters]

I want to cry, and it's for the stupidest reason ever

I was building my heizou and he was consistently dealing 30k+ each skill crit (which is a lot for me ok I'm not new I'm just bad)

Then randomly, my heizou started dealing less damage. I couldn't figure out why, I hadn't changed anything other than finally getting my xiangling a full emblem set, but that should increase damage, not reduce.

I was so confused.

Then it hit me.

The astral marks.

The fucking imaginariun theatre astral marks.

When I was building heizou that dam thing was there.

And now I want to cry.

Because I was so proud, I thought I had improved in building, and my theory of 4-star dps over 5 star dps was real, that I had actually gotten better.

No.

I'm still dealing the same shit damage I did before.

And I know this is a really fucking stupid thing to cry about (it's a fucking gacha game!) but I've been feeling so shit these few days I barely got out of bed for meals this week and this is just

Really fucking shitty

So shitty

Something I thought I actually achieved

But nope

It's just as much shit as it was before

I achieved nothing

And now I'm upset about something so fucking stupid as coloured pixels on a gambling game

All this to say

FUCK YOU GENSHIN (AND HOYOVERSE) MAKE THAT SHIT OPTIONAL

[polaviia]

secret thing about me is that i literally hate when people like the same things as me. I want to gatekeep everything i know. I hate when others adore the same tv shows as me or when they listen to the same music as me, then it all becomes rlly popular and im mad af like i liked it first.

[itsavee4117]

... why does depression just have to hit suddenly out of nowhere? Nothing bad's even happened... tf?

[phantomcreeeper]

I had a therapy appointment today.

Nearly three hours ago.

I really hate the human brain. I hate how difficult this all is. I hate talking about all this shit. I fucking DESPISE how easily I become an absolute emotional wreck with just one simple question.

Every time I try to speak...I just end up crying.

I hate this. I fucking hate it. I hate being here alone.

I wish I could just crawl into bed with someone and just be held. I just want to feel something other than this fucking mess.

I'm going just going to try another dab and hope smoking will eventually even me out.... because this is awful.

[a-well-organized-mess]

My daily routine