#depression stuff

[totalspiffage]

Honestly the thing that helps me (personally, this isn't professional) the most with big overwhelming care tasks that seem impossible is honestly setting the bar as low as possible. Dishes piled up? I'll take literally only one thing when I go to the kitchen for something. Can't bathe and feeling gross? Use bath wipes for some immediate improvement. Too exhausted to work out? Do one single lie-down or seated stretch. Can't clean everything? Focus one tiny area only.

Be reasonable with yourself about your expectations. No "I should be able to do this". One thing is better than no things. It counts. Plus even if it's small it can prove to your brain that you can in fact accomplish things and a quick win rules when you're down.

[artigas]

okay, it's almost august. so i think it's safe to say that depression won this fucking round when it comes to how the entre summer got eaten up by the big sads. i feel so guilty about it: how little I biked, how little I socialized, how little I read or wrote for fun. but I can't do anything with guilt and guilt isn't worth much at all if it doesn't serve as some kind of undercurrent for making a change.

here are the small things that were good this summer: i submitted an article for consideration to an academic journal. i finished chapter two of my dissertation. i read (and continue to read) a fuck ton of academic books because (don't ask me why) i can't make myself read for fun but i can read for work and i'm really, really enjoying a lot of it (my favorite read thus far has been The Racist Fantasy by Todd McGowan). I watched some of the movies in my romance homework list (my two favorites have been When Harry Met Sally and Roman Holiday). i helped my youngest sisters with their sweet sixteen!

I've got to get into high gear with respect to the next steps. i need to read the next book I'm writing my dissertation on. I need to send some important emails to professors at my phd program. i need to re-enroll in health care. i need to start making my syllabuses.

and then there's the stuff i want: i want to write some fanfiction! i want to watch more movies! i want to respond to people for whom I owe them responses because they are my friends and i love them, even if sometimes this weird summer depression really does rob me of any stamina to talk to people.

i can do this in small steps. maybe not all at once, maybe not perfectly or everyday. but slowly. with patience. i just want to stop avoiding everything i know i need and want to do, because the avoidance creates guilt and then paralysis and we're back to step 1. so, small steps. one small step starting today. i'm gonna send an email.

[selectivechaos]

somewhere out there today there’s a depressed person doing their laundry. and they’re doing it incredibly slowly. they’re taking breaks; not because they care about themselves, but because their body just keeps collapsing. this is the only thing they’re doing today. and the whole time, their head is filled with thoughts about how they suck at this, and they shouldve done it weeks ago, and they’d rather just be in bed. but they’re doing it. and they might give up halfway through. their clothes might go mouldy from being left in the washer so long. the fresh laundry might gather dust from being sat in a corner of the room, unfolded. but they tried. and that’s not good or bad; it doesnt make them better or worse than those who didn’t try. it just makes them different than they were a week ago. 🌹🌹

[certified-silly-guy]

Oughhh we just have to keep cleaning and washing and tidying and MAKEITSTOPPPP

[purple-quark]

human Lucifer design for au I sometimes work on to distract myself

[aquareegia]

wish i could just say that i hate myself, and i wish i was dead without someone going "omg nooo". sometimes that's just how i feel, and i want to just say it without any commentary on it. i don't want to hear positive affirmations that are just empty words anyway. i just want to state how i truly feel and move on.

[dunglizard]

TMS moodboard