#depression talking

[maverickcalf]

Telling myself I am not important to lower my expectations when I am feeling left out

[disasterboys]

I would like very much to just go back to bed and try again tomorrow. (Maybe)

Now accepting offers for cuddle buddies.

[silent-pirate-hunter]

Mental health is taking a bit of a dive since schools got cancelled and everything got thrown into a tizzy.

Doing my best to stay positive but I’ve been getting a normal 7 hours since January and suddenly started sleeping 10+ out of nowhere, eating less and finding it hard to focus on anything.

Hopefully I’ll level out soon cause DeWine seems hellbent on shutting down everything he can and locking Ohioans in their houses for the foreseeable future

[starkidlabs]

I just hate it when you’re talking about something really enthusiastically and you realise that no ones listening So you just stop talking and nobody even notices.

[ana-morphic]

Probably gonna sh tonight because I gotta be at work in t minus three hours and I've never found a more effective coping mechanism for keeping myself "put together" when I'm this overwhelmed.

Gonna sleep a bit and hope that helps. Waking up is gonna be a bitch. So will work. 2 separate hour and a half long naps is all the sleep I've gotten since last night's shift.

And I have supervision at the end of my shift. Ik I'm low-key getting fired (being forced to resign)(bc I've been late every day for these past couple weeks of this depression episode)(but they'll fire me outright if I'm more than 10 minutes late again during this notice period).... but I still really don't want to cry in front of my supervisor.

I've gotten myself landed a psych eval before at a different job, and ik when I'm too emotional I tend to say the type of shit that might get me one. And that is the fucking LAST thing I need. Because they can't do jack fucking shit for me. I'm already doing all the things. And I'm not bad enough for hospitalization, and even if I was I can't afford it.

Anyway. Sleep time

[tumbleringismycopingmechanism]

I feel like nobody is better off for having known me, except maybe in the sense that they might feel better about their own life when comparing it to how much of a fucked up shit show I've made of mine

[bidisasterevankinard]

Deactivate button is so sexy again

[bidisasterevankinard]

I want to feel sexy and hot and beautiful and stop a new wave of food disorder and bad body image, but knowing that i was flrirted with only 2 times in my almost 24 years: in in the shop by a strange guy over suchi choice and another at my ex- friend's birthday party which still led to me being left alone at midnight bc everyone left to the club without me.... Let's say it's hard

Thanks for it mom, dad and everyone who since i was 6 was saying "oh she's so chubby. Don't worry she'll get it all off when she'll grew up."

Well, when it will happen? Any time soon?