**Pulling off the Band Aid**
An addition to my last post. I am finally beginning the process of something I should have done a long time ago: giving Robert his stuff back. I had offered to keep some of his game consoles at my house to keep his mom from pawning them off. As it stands, they are still at the house and I have no idea when he will claim them. So...Dad is messaging him this week for me. I admit, I am a coward for not messaging Robert myself. But that is an emotional burden I find very difficult to bear. I own that I am a coward. I should take care of my own problems...but I cannot face him. The courage to face him is long gone. I just am not emotionally able to do it. Side note, I think I am gearing up to have my monthly visit. Again. For the second time this month. Backstory: I have had a somewhat stressful year so far and it has messed up my cycle. I skipped February entirely and now, finally appearing again in mid March. Since then, I have had three cycles, my last one being completed around May 6th. Three periods in two months. If this one starts, it will be 4 in 2.5 months. Not normal and not cool. Mild cramping today, gotta love it. My emotions are all over the place, I have been crying off and on all day and I just have had enough. I need my brain console to function properly already. (Think "Inside Out"). I think the board got jammed again, might wanna look at that... Sigh. I just want to retreat and hide from everyone right now. Even Florizel. That means bad news. Trying to keep it together. On the upside, Florizel and I pick up our rings today! I have that to look forward to. Also, cardio drumming with one of my besties and bridesmaid, "Becca". Even Florizel is coming, so that makes me feel a little better. Roller coaster is calming down a bit. Hope it stays that way. Happy thoughts and prayers appreciated.
