#dev rants

[devaunte-writes]

Two-sides of a story is genuinely so interesting in storytelling and unbelievably awful in practice. My friend is mad at me that I don’t have prompt responses to their texts if I open them and leave them on read because it makes them feel unloved/very self-depreciating (fair enough and a symptom of a larger issue that I understand.).

And then I show literally anyone the ‘gaps’ (we have a 3 hour time difference) they’re upset about or the instances where I ‘don’t respond’ and it flips:

Message at 9pm on a Saturday, mad I didn’t respond by 2am (I was preparing to go out/literally about to walk out the door).

Message at 4am on weekend, mad I don’t respond by 10am (I haven’t woken up).

Message at 10am on weekday, mad I don’t respond by 3pm (I am working but they woke up for the day at that time).

And it is very very frequent. Like enough that this is still clearly a person I talk to regularly more than anyone else that’s not in-person. Then their request adjustment is to include, in every text that could possibly be read as a negative slant inclined towards their actions/existence, a positive reassurance that I don’t hate them, and elaborating on the phrasing I’m using.

[devaunte-writes]

“I have patiently waited (in vain) for you to love me as I love you. Say ‘[] I am never going to love you.’ It would help me a great deal.”

To hear from your lips, that you don’t miss me at all. That you plan to never speak to me again.

That you do truly hate me.

Show me the only way you know how to love. Vainly hurting yourself, bleeding over someone as though your pain - your penance - is what gives them life, and not what drowns them in sorrow.

[devaunte-writes]

Y’all ever see a piece of media and it’s like…you were designed to be an AU for other characters weren’t you

[devaunte-writes]

Love love love my friends and that we get to spend our summer nights sitting in my backyard is something I will never take for granted and cherish always but holy FUCK do I get overstimulated once we reach a certain point past the original plan and they just do not have the capacity to pick up on it.

[devaunte-writes]

Both my mother and sister, two incredibly smart and well educated, left leaning women (who are incredibly offline/unplugged), have completely turned over their thinking to ChatGPT.

My mom spends a lot of time coordinating meetings between people in her company. She’s turned all emails over to her company’s built in LLM. Almost all non-face to face communication she has gets completed by ChatGPT.

My dog is violently sick and we have very specific medicinal paste that says it has to be given orally (via syringe), and my sister goes to ChatGPT to get the answer of “yeah probably” when the first non-AI answer is “no that’s really bad don’t do that.” And she’s mad at me for getting upset with her for risking my dog’s health and doesn’t believe me when I say the shit is often wrong/the answers are useless.

It’s so disheartening and infuriating they become insulted if I tell them LLMs are bad or think “their question is different / the way they use the LLM is better”

[thegolden-tigeress]

why would you do that

[devaunte-writes]

I’m going to have possibly my biggest crash out yet in the coming days I am SO excited! (Read: dreading immensely and preemptively ashamed of)

[devaunte-writes]

Words of wisdom from your Local Forge Locos TM