The Long Way - Kayla Martel , 2021.
Irish , b. 1980s -
Oil on canvas, 24 x 30 cm.
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The Long Way - Kayla Martel , 2021.
Irish , b. 1980s -
Oil on canvas, 24 x 30 cm.
when i was at university (south of england, 2017), i worked part-time as a library assistant. there was this very dark-academia coded guy who was always there, studying on the same floor every time i had a shift. headphones in, a book open on the side, his laptop covered in stickers. we would lock eyes sometimes, and i found him so enigmatic, even though men rarely caught my attention.
by the third month i had a full-blown crush. i never spoke to him - too afraid he’d have a girlfriend, too afraid of rejection. eventually, a facebook page popped up for anonymous submissions from students, and i wrote in: “does anyone know the tall, mysterious man with glasses, covered laptop, always on the third floor of the library?”
that was my desperate attempt at reaching him. i thought maybe he or one of his friends would see it and be curious. but no response came, just banter and spam.
and that was the end of our non-story.
sometimes i think i’ve been unlucky in love ever since i broke a mirror at fifteen.
Dust-covered pens
Unread books
Empty diaries
Abandoned.
Why did I ever
leave behind
the very things
that helped me survive?
Who am I
without the ink
in the pen
spilled on pages
printed in stories?
How could I
be so selfish
to leave behind
what kept me alive?
I try to return
to the quiet comfort
of paper and ink
but I keep slipping
failing
again and again
And now
they look at me
like strangers
the pages
the words
the pen
watching in silence
with a certain kind of ache
I cannot bear to meet.
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skeletons in your heart
when there are skeletons creeping in your heart (as they've escaped your closet and are following you around—pesky things!)
here’s what you can do:
🖤 get a little diary at the super market. mark it "skeletons."
💗 in this little diary, write down your heavy painful skeletons, whenever they arise in your heart.
🖤 leave the diary at home in a locked drawer or the highest shelf in your room. use it when you need, but don't take it anywhere with you. let them live in there by themselves, not in your mind.
see? now the skeletons have their own space, and you have occasional visiting hours.
stay strong.
anastasia the fairy
my diary and i share so much lore
Why you, yes YOU should journal..
You have probably tried journaling once in you're life, maybe thought about journaling or bought a pretty notebook but never found the motivation to open it. Im here to tell you NEED to journal. Im serious as an avid journaler this hobby has completly changed me for the better + its fun! Why wouldnt you want to have fun! So, heres why you should journal my top reasons WHY I do it and why you shoud too.
IT'S FUN!
Okay, okay, this reason may be a little too simple but all in all journaling can be fun if YOU make it FUN. I always hear how people quit journaling because they cant find the fun in it too keep going. The reason you may be quitting or dont find it fun is because you're doing it wrong.. I know thats rude but listen! Maybe you.. try daily journaling but hate the structure instead write when you feel like it dont force something that doesn't fit! Maybe you.. dont like summarizing how you feel onto a page instead write about you're interests and passions! Journaling is all about YOU. So write about anything thats sparks joy you dont need to follow the boring structure of "Dear Diary, today I... and I also... and blah blah" thats boring (unless maybe thats what you want to write, in that case DO IT) Write about everything and anything!
LOOKING BACK ON OLD JOURNALS
There is no better feeling than finishing a journal. A journal filled with you're thoughts, doodles, lists, dreams, goals, rants, etc. A journal that is a recollection of who you were at a specific stage in you're life. Being able to look back on that in the future is so special. No matter how embarrassing that journal may be you'll be thankful to have something to look back on. But the best part of looking back on a journal will be seeing how much you changed, I mean you're documenting change! How cool is that?!
HAVE AN OUTLET
I know you have things you're probably dying to tell someone. Either that be gossip, drama, personal issues, etc. But you unsterstand that telling others about certain things isnt so wise. You're bubbling with things to say, where do you dump that out? A JOURNAL! A journal will become your bestfriend who wouldn't dare to reveal you're secrets. Tell it everything, let those thoughts flow and I promise youll feel so much more at peace. This especially works if you have an interest you're dying to talk about but no one to tell it too. The journal will listennnn!
At the end of the day there's so much you can get out of journaling, not just what I said. So I encourage you to try it. Find what journaling will do for you. Yes, you should journal! Now go ahead pick up that old journal or go out and buy a cute notebook and begin you're JOURNALING JOURNEY!!
XOXO, Tiff