#diary2019

[grimini]

some of my recent diary entries ive not been so active with is recently 

[grimini]

part 3 of ‘pages of my diary i am willing to share’

[tinfoilrose]

The month of December was rough, bright, and long. This month I was ill, recovering, and reflective. #diary2019 #personal #december #overworked #relief #nearlyatthefinishline https://www.instagram.com/p/B6vwaFPFin-dYiICChnQ9hOOtn1D3uFpVUtx-40/?igshid=yfhnvwadazp5

[mercyflower]

Unholy confession?

I haven't been clean headed / sober for longer than a day (longest was 3 weeks in 6 2018) since 9/2017 I started and smoke weed all fucking day

feel a prisoner to my chemical dependencies which nicotine being the other and its fucking stupid

On the bright side marijuana has helped me kind of emotionally heal or was that just age?

I cry less and my depression is gone but my habits are pretty depressing so thats still here but i numb it by staying fucking high so i partly dont care i just know that i love my self now and im cool with living now and i love my family and job so thats what rly matters❤

[tinfoilrose]

The month of November was bitterly baltic freezing. This month I was grateful, let go, and stressed. #diary2019 #personal #november #overworked #relief #nearlyatthefinishline #headspace #processing https://www.instagram.com/p/B5lelyWln6abcZBa6RsJ7psfQ_1yF6hdLESrlg0/?igshid=16j9oycd7zpzs