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i thought i’d be in a completely different place right now
dear lesbians + friends,
i made a little thing for the yearners
if u r anything like me, u dream of a quiet space to feel ur feelings, to feel connected to other lesbians
if so, maybe you’ll like scribe ↗
it’s a digital notebook for those of us who write, dream, and yearn..
every month or so there’s a new prompt. a few entries are already there.
i hope i get to come across your heartfelt notes someday 💌
happy scribing.. and if u like the sound of this, please spread the word or say hi, ty x
HIIII MINDYYY!!! how are you doing?
i love your guides and advice so much, i wanted to ask you if you could make your own guide to writing in a diary? like diary writing tips, making it pretty, girly diaries, etc etc etc.
thanks so much for ur time and ily!!
hey glam!! omg i'm so excited to answer this because diary keeping is one of my absolute favorite things to talk about (and do!!)... i've been keeping diaries since i was 9 years old and i have boxes of them under my bed that i sometimes read through when i'm feeling nostalgic or need to remember who i used to be. so yesss, of course glam, i'd love to give you a little guide, i hope this post answers your question well <3
✧ mindy's guide to keeping the most magical diary ever ✧
first of all, let's talk about WHY keeping a diary is literally life-changing:
• it's like having therapy but it's free and available at 3am when you're spiraling
• you can say things you'd never say out loud (and sometimes just writing them is enough to feel better)
• it creates this beautiful archive of your life that future you will treasure
• it helps you notice patterns in your thoughts and behaviors that you might miss otherwise
• it's the perfect place to dream without anyone's judgment (including your own)
✧ finding your perfect diary format:
the biggest mistake people make is thinking there's only one "right" way to keep a diary. there isn't!! here are some formats i've tried and loved and hopefully you like it:
• the classic narrative diary: just writing about your day, your thoughts, whatever comes to mind
• the bullet diary: quick points about what happened, how you felt, what you're thinking
• the themed diary: keeping separate journals for different parts of your life (one for dreams, one for creative ideas, one for processing emotions)
• the question diary: answering the same set of questions every day to track how you're evolving
• the art diary: more visuals than words, perfect if you process feelings through colors and images
• the structured diary: using prompts and templates to guide your writing (i'm actually going to be selling prompts + journaling templates on my gumroad soon)
personally, i switch between formats depending on my mood and energy levels. some days i write pages and pages, and other days i just jot down three bullet points before falling asleep. both are valid!!
✧ making your diary absolutely beautiful:
• invest in a diary that makes you excited to write in it!! (this is so important... if you don't love looking at it, you won't reach for it)
• create a "diary aesthetic" with special pens, stickers, washi tape, pressed flowers, etc.
• designate a special spot in your room as your "diary corner" with good lighting and cozy vibes
• develop little rituals around writing (i light a specific candle and make rose tea before i write. i also love putting on the soundtrack from legally blonde on or sometimes even harry potter music, weird right?)
• don't be afraid to make it messy!! perfect diaries are usually abandoned diaries
• use different colored pens for different moods or topics
• leave space for future reflections (i leave margins so i can add notes when i reread)
• include little artifacts from your life (movie tickets, dried flowers, polaroids)
✧ what to actually write about (for when you're staring at the blank page):
• write a letter to your future self or past self
• document the tiny beautiful moments that would otherwise be forgotten
• write about what you're learning right now (about yourself, about others, about the world)
• create lists (things i'm grateful for, things that made me laugh today, things i want to try)
• write about your dreams (both the sleeping kind and the aspiration kind)
• describe someone you love in detail
• write about what's worrying you and then write advice to yourself as if you were your own best friend
• document your current favorites (songs, foods, people, places, outfits)
• write about the version of yourself you're becoming
✧ how to keep it up long-term:
• lower the bar for what "counts" as a diary entry (sometimes mine are literally two sentences)
• connect it to an existing habit (i write right after i brush my teeth at night)
• don't try to catch up if you miss days (just start fresh where you are)
• give yourself permission to be boring, repetitive, and contradictory
• read old entries when you need motivation (it's so magical to see how far you've come)
• remember that you're writing for YOU, not for some imaginary reader
• create seasonal "check-in" dates where you review and reflect (i do this every equinox and solstice)
• experiment with different times of day to find when your thoughts flow most easily
• use voice memos when you don't feel like writing (you can transcribe them later)
✧ making your diary extra girly & coquette ✧
i know this was your main question, so here is a long list of a bunch of things i personally do to make my diaries cute and girly <3
• use pastel gel pens for different moods (pink for happy days, lavender for dreamy thoughts, baby blue for sad reflections)
• decorate your diary cover with pressed flowers, lace trim, or tiny pearl stickers
• create "pretty borders" around special entries with delicate doodles of flowers, hearts, or ribbons
• use strawberry or rose scented stickers as entry markers (scratch-n-sniff diaries are elite!!)
• add little bows or ribbons to mark important pages (i tie tiny satin ribbons to the corners)
• press flower petals between pages (roses and lavender dry beautifully and make your diary smell divine)
• use a soft pink book light for nighttime writing to keep the aesthetic consistent
• write in your prettiest handwriting for entries about things that made you happy
• add little watercolor washes as backgrounds for special memories
• use heart-dotted i's and swirly flourishes when you're feeling extra
• create "memory pockets" by gluing tiny envelopes to pages where you can tuck away small mementos
• draw tiny butterflies or hearts in the margins when something good happens
• use coquette-core stickers (bows, ballet slippers, swans, cherries) to categorize different types of entries
• spritz your favorite perfume very lightly on special pages (just a tiny bit so it doesn't damage the paper!)
• decorate with vintage-looking lace tape along the edges of important entries
• use a pink silk ribbon as a bookmark (i attached a tiny crystal charm to mine)
• draw little crowns above dates that were particularly magical
• create a "glossary of feelings" in the back with different symbols for different emotions
• use glitter gel pens for birthdays, achievements, and other celebrations
• write quotes from your favorite romantic movies or books in fancy lettering
• create little "note to self" sections with pink highlighter boxes around them
• use strawberry-scented erasable pens so your diary always smells sweet
• add tiny pearl or rhinestone stickers to mark especially precious memories
remember that "girly" means whatever feels feminine and special to YOU. there's no right or wrong way to express your femininity in your diary!! the most important thing is that it feels like a beautiful, safe space that you're excited to return to every day.
✧ the deeper magic of diary-keeping:
the most beautiful thing about keeping a diary is that it helps you become friends with yourself. you start to notice your own patterns, celebrate your tiny victories, and hold space for your struggles. you create this ongoing conversation with yourself that grows deeper and richer over time.
your diary becomes this sacred space where you can be fully, messily, contradictorily yourself. in a world that's constantly asking us to curate and filter our experiences, there's something revolutionary about documenting your life exactly as it is. beautiful, boring, confusing, and real.
xoxo, mindy 🤍
p.s. if you're worried about someone finding and reading your diary, i have a whole system for that too!! let me know if you want me to share it in another post!! 💭 thank you so much for this ask glam! <3
DONE BEING SAD
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Well I Ate the pills Gave confessional spills But still I had the blues
And I Did all the drills So I’d sit still Just to be able to pay my bills
And I Changed my life Cut my vices Just to make it through the night
And I swear I Read the signs Drew my lines But still I couldn’t try
All these F’s for effort Killed any thought of a fighting chance I guess if sanity won’t deliver I’ll fake it till it gets better
I took all the advice Rolled the dice Read the rules and broke them bad
If this is as good as it gets I’ll take it But I’m not crying in my bed
Fuck it, I’m done being sad
Na na na Fuck it, I’m done being sad
Well I Watched the shows Missed the jokes But still I felt the same
And I Lost the days Rot my brain Just to make the time behave
And I Let it play Wide awake Till the credits said my name
And I swear I Tried to laugh Did the math But still I felt erased
All these F’s for effort Killing time just to feel okay I guess if silence won’t surrender I’ll drown it out in HD pain
I took all the advice Rolled the dice Read the rules and broke them bad
If this is as good as it gets I’ll take it But I’m not crying in my bed
Fuck it, I’m done being sad
Na na na Fuck it, I’m done being sad
Na na na
Fuck it, I’m done being sad
And I Breathed it in Sun on skin Just to give myself some help
And I Hugged the trees Fell to knees Tried to wish myself to hell
And I Stayed too late Tempted fate Kissed a stranger, went to bed
And I swear I Felt alive For a night Then I woke up just as sad
So I Tried the shit They say wouldn’t fix A time or two or six
And I Chased the buzz Lost the rush Just to feel something at all
And I Swore this time I’d be fine If I didn’t feel so raw
All these F’s for effort Rebranding pain as growth I guess if healing won’t deliver I’ll market sadness as a joke
And all these F’s for effort Killed any thought of a fighting chance I guess if sanity won’t deliver I’ll fake it till it gets better I’ll fake it till it gets better I’ll grade myself on effort Fuck it, I’m done being sad
I said fuck it I’m done being sad
Hiiiiii
me, soft-bodied and slightly unhinged, showing up on your dashboard like i’ve been here the whole time. this blog is for the girls who cry in their bedrooms, flirt through mirrors, and post selfies like theyre going out of style. 😘
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meTSD
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CBT, DBT
Acronyms for 'god save me'
When I’m alright
Still in fight or flight
Oh, Darwin woulda loved me
Same old routine, time to burn the scene
Gotta find a light
Maybe it’s more like
Sigmund woulda loved me
Spiral in to therapize out
Feel too numb
Til I crash back out
I’m sick of my bullshit
I know
Yeah, I started it
Crazy ringing
Day in,
Day out
Am I,
Out of my mind?
Sick of my bullshit
No, okay yeah -
I get it
Crazy singing
Get in,
Get out
Am I,
Out of my mind?
I’m in, I’m out,
I’m in, I’m out of my mind
No “Post-" for me, just “me-TSD”
Nothings wrong, except for thee
Gonna spend all my days
In a navel gaze
Some kind of perma-immaturity
Too familiar bids unrest, but changes make me flee
Gotta find a light,
Or maybe it’s more like
Turn out a few; better yet, maybe leave
Here I go again
Spiral in to therapize out
Feeling numb
So I crash back out
I’m sick of my bullshit (my own)
I know -
Yeah, I started it (i know)
Crazy ringing
Day in,
Day out (hello?)
Am I,
Out of my mind ?
(I'm in, I'm out I'm in, I'm out of my)
Sick of my bullshit (I’ll own it)
No, okay, yeah -
I get it (I know)
Crazy singing
Get in,
Get out
Am I,
Out of my mind?
(I’m in, I’m out,
I’m in, I’m out,
Out of my mind)
No court ordered this or that
No collectors at my back
No bombs falling in my backyard
No one’s breaking or aching my heart
But there’s a
God-ordered atonement
A foolish sinking thought that
Every damn idea
Feels a
Little bit like I’m
Losing my mind
I’m
Sick of my bullshit
I know, I started it
I’m sick of my bullshit (it’s my own)
I know, I started it
Sick of my bullshit (it’s my own)
I know, I started it
(Sick of my bullshit)
Crazy ringing
Day in,
Day out
In my,
Out of my
Sick of my bullshit (I am)
No, I'm okay yeah
I swear
Crazy singing
Get in
Get out
Am I,
Out of my mind?
Can't get out of my
Out of my mind
Out of my mind