My Twinflame story
Hi, hello.
We talked a lot about jikook being twinflames and their journey is sooo beautiful 🥹 But today I'm gonna share my personal twinflame journey, hopefully to give you another perspective on it and some expanding spiritual insights. It's waaay different than jikook. I'll try to explain the best I can.
For years since I was young I had reccuring dreams of one of my other self. You can call it a past life, but in truth past lives are not totally in the past, we live all of our lives simultaneously since there is no time on the other side.
So at night I was living the life of this other self, my twinflame, hearing, feeling, experiencing exactly as she did. But I did not experience it as romantic connexion.
(I'm calling her "she" but she was me, another version of me, just so that we're clear)
She didn't live on our earth or physical plane. She was in another dimension, higher than earth, probably the 6th dimension or something. She had a body but it was way more fluid than here. Since she was not bound by physical rules, she could do all sorts of things, like flying. But her main thing was that she did magic.
She was called by others as "an elemental witch"
Only problem? She was in the negative polarity.
My other self was a villain (🥲)
Why? Because the two parts of our soul decided to experience duality to the extreme.
In this life, I'm all about love and light and firmly connected to All-that-is.
My twinflame on the other end was completely disconnected from love and operated in a state of constant fear.
My current consciousness is pure light
But her form was a black shadow
So you understand why after living her life I had so much whiplash because it was the total reverse of what I'm currently experiencing
Yet it gave me invaluable insights into the negative polarity (absence of love) and what they feel, how they operate ect..
On earth we also have many people disconnected from love, their heart chakra closed, but it's often not as bad as what I experienced because mine was on the extreme end, exactly like in a super hero movie with bigger stakes
So this is an umbrella of the negative polarity pushed to its limits.
But hopefully you'll be able to see what happens when a soul goes to this distance away from love.
So exactly what happens if the soul goes dark and turns away from love?
Well first thing, being disconnected from love is the worst feeling ever. Really.
My other self was entirely fueled by fear. In her lower belly she kept having these horrible feelings of lack, of panic, and it was a constant ickiness, like this was GROSS and gripping to the point she was always on flight or fight mode.
She cared about power more than anything, how to gain more power, how to keep her power. It was always about domination over others and never looking at herself and the gaping void inside her heart.
When she crossed entities more powerful than her she was so scared and always thinking how to get on top of them.
Her ego was a void she constantly seeked to fill by doing all kinds of bad things, like stealing, fighting, killing...
She still had friendships, she kinda had a coven of mean girls (really you should have seen these women it was like in the movie The Craft, they were all pure darkness)
But it was not friendship made with love, it was friendship of convenience because they had common goals. Having those friendships helped my other self keep her power on the plane she was in.
She was always scared of getting killed (I don't know exactly how dying works on that plane since they didn't have the same bodies? But apparently she could be killed)
Since she was doing many bad things she always angried other people so I had many dreams where she was simply running for her life in a total panic. (Yet confidence? Like if they caught her she would have tried to kill them)
Honestly she always thought she was the shit and when more powerful entities looked down on her she kept having bitterness and it gave her more reasons to seek even more power.
If she could have killed everyone she would have done it because the void inside her was SO BIG like she didn't even know what to do to make these horrible feelings go away
I'm not trying to excuse some of the things the darkness does but when I tell you that being dark feels absolutely awful, they're really not having a good time, I am not kidding.
I dreamed about her for years, always getting different snippets of her life. When it first started I didn't understand, I thought it was me being dark at night since I have a record of having out of body experiences. But then over time I understood it wasn't really me (it was, but another version) bcs I couldn't understand how I could have such an opposite experience than my current state of consciousness.
After some other things happened spiritually I cut the connexion with this other self and she went into the light of my oversoul so I never dreamed of her again.
She was still my twinflame, but now you see the range of experience someone can have with their other selves.
In the eye of All-that-is, even having an experience like my sister had is valuable and valid. A soul can experience everything between polarities and it's fine because in the end it's a learning and growing experience.
Now I know what it's like to have love, and also what it's like not to have it.
Let me tell you that I'd very much rather have it 😂 I'm hoping I never have to experience lack of love ever again. Ugh.
So you see, everything is not black and white, and it's possible each of you also experienced darkness in other lives.
I guess it comes down to choice.
I had a hard time reconciling this experience in my head with my current self. But little by little I integrate that dark part of me so these aspects can become whole. Sometimes having the higher awareness is succeeding in holding paradoxes in our heads. Not a easy thing to do.
I dreamed later about her in other lives, this time we were both there in separate bodies. I'm sure I'll meet her again in another lifetime, whether the connexion will be platonic or romantic.
Sorry for the wall of text, but now you can see there are varieties of experiences you can have with a twinflame that ultimately lead to a higher purpose down the line..
Makes you think how beautiful it is that jikook have such a connexion today, but who knows which steps they took to get here...
Having perfect balance of masculine/feminine is not an easy thing to achieve
That's all for me! Take care :)
